"Well! I--I--happened to see that word at the head of the page you are writing--"
"Proceed."
"I--I looked it up in the dictionary. It _says_," she read out with a gulp and a cough, "it means "self-sacrificing devotion to the interests of others.""
The poor child thought her point must now be indelicately plain, but the lips of Doctor Queed merely emitted another close-clipped: "Proceed."
At a desperate loss as she was, Fifi was suddenly visited by an idea.
"Oh! I see. You"re--you"re writing _against_ altruism, aren"t you?"
"What leads you to that conclusion, if I may ask?"
"Why--I--I suppose it"s the--way you--you do. Of course I oughtn"t to have said it--"
"Go on. What way that I do?"
Poor Fifi saw that she was floundering in ever more deeply. With the boldness of despair she blurted out: "Well--one thing--you sent me out of the room that night--when I coughed, you know. I--I don"t understand about altruism like you do, but I--should think it was--my interests to stay here--"
There followed a brief silence, which made Fifi more miserable than any open rebuke, and then Mr. Queed said in a dry tone: "I am engaged upon a work of great importance to the public, I may say to posterity. Perhaps you can appreciate that such a work is ent.i.tled to the most favorable conditions in which to pursue it."
"Of course. Indeed I understand perfectly, Mr. Queed," said Fifi, immediately touched by what seemed like kindness from him. And she added innocently: "All men--writing men, I mean--feel that way about their work--I suppose. I remember Mr. Sutro who used to have the very same room you"re in now. He was writing a five-act play, all in poetry, to show the horrors of war, and he used to say--"
The young man involuntarily shuddered. "I have nothing to do with other men. I am thinking," he said with rather an unfortunate choice of words, "only of myself."
"Oh--I see! Now I understand exactly!"
"What is it that you see and understand so exactly?"
"Why, the way you feel about altruism. You believe in it for other people, but not for yourself! Isn"t that right?"
They stared across the table at each other: innocent Fifi, who barely knew the meaning of altruism, but had practiced it from the time she could practice anything, and the little Doctor, who knew everything about altruism that social science would ever formulate, and had stopped right there. All at once, his look altered; from objective it became subjective. The question seemed suddenly to hook onto something inside, like a still street-car gripping hold of a cable and beginning to move; the mind"s eye of the young man appeared to be seized and swept inward.
Presently without a word he resumed his writing.
Fifi was much disturbed at the effect of her artless question, and just when everything was beginning to go so nicely too. In about half an hour, when she got up to retire, she said timidly:--
"I"m sorry if I--I was rude just now, Mr. Queed. Indeed, I didn"t mean to be...."
"I did not say that you were rude," he answered without looking up.
But at the door Fifi was arrested by his voice.
"Why do you think it to your advantage to work in here?"
"It"s--it"s a good deal warmer, you know," said Fifi, fl.u.s.tered, "and--then of course there"s the table and lamp. But it"s quite all right upstairs--really!"
He made no answer.
VI
_Autobiographical Data imparted, for Sound Business Reasons, to a Landlady"s Agent; of the Agent"s Other t.i.tle, etc._
While all move in slots in this world, Mr. Queed"s slot was infinitely more clearly marked than any of his neighbors". It ran exclusively between the heaven of his room and the hades of the _Post_ office; manifesting itself at the latter place in certain staid writings done in exchange for ten dollars, currency of the realm, paid down each and every Sat.u.r.day. Into this slot he had been lifted, as it were by the ears, by a slip of a girl of the name of Charlotte Lee Weyland, though it was some time before he ever thought of it in that way.
In the freemasonry of the boarding-house, the young man was early accepted as he was. He was promptly voted the driest, most uninteresting and self-absorbed savant ever seen. Even Miss Miller, ordinarily indefatigable where gentlemen were concerned, soon gave him up. To Mr.
Bylash she spoke contemptuously of him, but secretly she was awed by his stately manner of speech and his G.o.dlike indifference to all pleasures, including those of female society. Of them all, Nicolovius was the only one who seemed in the least impressed by Mr. Queed"s appointment as editorial writer on the _Post_. With the others the exalted world he moved in was so remote from theirs that no surprises were possible there, and if informed that the little Doctor had been elected president of Harvard University, it would have seemed all in the day"s work to William Klinker. Klinker was six feet high, red-faced and friendly, and Queed preferred his conversation above any heard at Mrs. Paynter"s table. It reminded him very much of his friend the yeggman in New York.
What went on behind the door of the tiny Scriptorium the boarders could only guess. It may be said that its owner"s big grievance against the world was that he had to leave it occasionally to earn his bread and meat. Apart from this he never left it in those days except for one reason, viz., the consumption three times a day of the said bread and meat. Probably this was one explanation of the marked pallor of his cheek, but of such details as this he never took the smallest notice.
Under the tiny bed were three boxes of books, chief fruit of the savings of an inexpensive lifetime. But the books were now merely the occasional stimulus of a mind already well stored with their strength, well fortified against their weaknesses. Nowadays nearly all of Queed"s time, which he administered by an iron-clad Schedule of Hours, duly drawn up, went to the actual writing of his Magnum Opus. He had practically decided that it should be called "The Science of Sciences." For his book was designed to coordinate and unify the theories of all science into the single theory which alone gave any of them a living value, namely, the progressive evolution of a higher organized society and a higher individual type. That this work would blaze a wholly new trail for a world of men, he rarely entertained a doubt. To its composition he gave fifteen actual hours a day on _Post_ days, sixteen hours on non-_Post_ days. Many men speak of working hours like these, or even longer ones, but investigation would generally show that all kinds of restful interludes are indiscriminately counted in. Queed"s hours, you understand, were not elapsed time--they were absolutely net. He was one of the few men in the world who literally "didn"t have time."
He sat in Colonel Cowles"s office, scribbling rapidly, with his eye on his watch, writing one of those unanswerable articles which were so much dead s.p.a.ce to a people"s newspaper. It was a late afternoon in early February, soon after the opening of the legislature; and he was alone in the office. A knock fell upon the door, and at his "Come," a girl entered who looked as pretty as a dewy May morning. Queed looked up at her with no welcome in his eye, or greeting on his lip, or spring in the pregnant hinges of his knee. Yet if he had been a less self-absorbed young scientist, it must certainly have dawned on him that he had seen this lady before.
"Oh! How do you do!" said Sharlee, for it was indeed no other.
"Oh--quite well."
"Miss Leech tells me that Colonel Cowles has gone out. I particularly wished to see him. Perhaps you know when he will be back?"
"Perhaps in half an hour. Perhaps in an hour. I cannot say."
She mused disappointedly. "I could hardly wait. Would you be good enough to give him a message for me?"
"Very well."
"Well--just tell him, please, that if he can make it convenient, we"d like the article about the reformatory to go in to-morrow, or the next day, anyway. He"ll understand perfectly; I have talked it all over with him. The only point was as to when the article would have the most effect, and we think the time has come now."
"You would like an article written about a reformatory for to-morrow"s _Post_ or next day"s. Very well."
"Thank you so much for telling him. Good-afternoon."
"_You_ would like," the young man repeated--"but one moment, if you please. You have omitted to inform me who _you_ are."
To his surprise the lady turned round with a gay laugh. Sharlee had supposed that Mr. Queed, having been offended by her, was deliberately cutting her. That her ident.i.ty had literally dropped cleanly from his mind struck her as both much better and decidedly more amusing.
"Don"t you remember me?" she reminded him once again, laughing full at him from the threshhold. "My dog knocked you over in the street one day--surely you remember the pleasure-dog?--and then that night I gave you your supper at Mrs. Paynter"s and afterwards collected twenty dollars from you for back board. I am Mrs. Paynter"s niece and my name is Charlotte Weyland."
Weyland?... Weyland? Oho! So this was the girl--sure enough--that Henry G. Surface had stripped of her fortune. Well, well!
"Ah, yes, I recall you now."
She thought there was an inimical note in his voice, and to pay him for it, she said with a final smiling nod: "Oh, I am _so_ pleased!"
Her little sarcasm pa.s.sed miles over his head. She had touched the spring of the automatic card-index system known as his memory and the ingenious machinery worked on. Presently it pushed out and laid before him the complete record, neatly ticketed and arranged, the full dossier, of all that had pa.s.sed between him and the girl. But she was nearly through the door before he had decided to say:
"I had another letter from my father last night."