"I don"t know."
The young man threw out his hands with a gesture which inquired what in the mischief she was talking about then.
"Here is another thought," said Sharlee, not at all disconcerted. "Have you considered that possibly he may be doing this way--as a test?"
"Test of what?"
"Of you. I mean that, wanting to--to have you with him now, he is taking this way of finding out whether or not you want him. Don"t you see what I mean? He appeals here to the natural feelings of a son, and then again he tells you to make friends and learn to like people. Evidently he is expecting something of you--I don"t know exactly what. But don"t you think, perhaps, that if you began a search for him, he would take it as a sign--"
"I told you that there was no way in which a search, as you call it, could be begun. Nor, if there were, have I the smallest inclination to begin it. Nor, again, if I had, could I possibly take the time from My Book."
She was silent a moment. "There is, of course, one way in which you could find out at any moment."
"Indeed! What is that, pray?"
"Mr. Tim Queed."
He smiled faintly but derisively. "Hardly. Of course Tim knows all about it. He told me once that he was present at the wedding of my parents; another time that my mother died when I was born. But he would add, and will add, not a word to these confidences; not even to a.s.sure me definitely that my father is still alive. He says that he has sworn an oath of secrecy. I called on him before I left New York. No, no; I may discover my father or he may discover me, or not, but we can rest absolutely a.s.sured that I shall get no help from Tim."
"But you can"t mean simply to sit still--"
"And leave matters to him. I do."
"But--but," she still protested, "he is evidently unhappy Mr.
Queed--evidently counting on you for something--"
"Then let him come out like a man and say plainly what he wants. I cannot possibly drop my work to try to solve entirely superfluous enigmas. Keep all this in mind--take an interest in it, will you?" he added briskly. "Possibly I might need your help some day."
"Certainly I will. I appreciate your telling me about it, and I"d be so glad to help you in any way that I could."
"How do you like my editorials?" he demanded abruptly.
"I"m afraid I don"t understand a line of them!"
He waved his hand indulgently, like a grandfather receiving the just tribute of his little ones. "They are for thinkers, experts," said he, and picked up his pencil.
The agent took the hint; pushed back her chair; her glove was unb.u.t.toned and she slowly fastened it. In her heart was a great compa.s.sion for the little Doctor.
"Mr. Queed, I want you to know that if I ever could be of help to you about _anything_, I"d always think it a real pleasure. Please remember that, won"t you? Did you know I lived down this way, in the daytime?"
"Lived?"
She made a gesture toward the window, and away to the south and east.
"My office is only three blocks away, down there in the park--"
"Your office? You don"t work!"
"Oh, don"t I though!"
"Why, I thought you were a _lady_!"
They were so close together that she was compelled to laugh full in his face, disclosing two rows of splendid little teeth and the tip of a rosy little tongue. Probably she could have crushed him by another pointing gesture, turned this time toward her honored great-grandfather who stood in marble in the square; but what was the use?
"What are you laughing at?" he inquired mildly.
"At your definition of a lady. Where on earth did you get it? Out of those laws of human society you write every night at my aunt"s?"
"No," said he, the careful scientist at once, "no, I admit, if you like, that I used the term in a loose, popular sense. I would not seriously contend that females of gentle birth and breeding--ladies in the essential sense--are never engaged in gainful occupations--"
"You shouldn"t," she laughed, "not in this city at any rate. It might astonish you to know how many females of gentle birth and breeding are engaged in gainful occupations on this one block alone. It was not ever thus with them. Once they had wealth and engaged in nothing but delicious leisure. But in 1861 some men came down here, about six to one, and took all this wealth away from them, at the same time exterminating the males. Result: the females, ladies in the essential sense, must either become gainful or starve. They have not starved.
Sociologically, it"s interesting. Make Colonel Cowles tell you about it some time."
"He has told me about it. In fact he tells me constantly. And this work that you do," he said, not unkindly and not without interest, "what is it? Are you a teacher, perhaps, a ... no!--You speak of an office. You are a clerk, doubtless, a bookkeeper, a stenographer, an office girl?"
She nodded with exaggerated gravity. "You have guessed my secret. I am a clerk, bookkeeper, stenographer, and office girl. My official t.i.tle, of course, is a little more frilly, but you describe--"
"Well? What is it?"
"They call it a.s.sistant Secretary of the State Department of Charities."
He looked astonished; she had no idea his face could take on so much expression.
"You! _You_! Why, how on earth did you get such a position?"
"Pull," said Sharlee.
Their eyes met, and she laughed him down.
"Who is the real Secretary to whom you are a.s.sistant?"
"The nicest man in the world. Mr. Dayne--Rev. George Dayne."
"A parson! Does he know anything about his subject? Is he an expert?--a trained relief worker? Does he know Willoughby? And Smathers? And Conant?"
"Knows them by heart. Quotes pages of them at a time in his letters without ever glancing at the books."
"And you?"
"I may claim some familiarity with their theories."
He fussed with his pencil. "I recall defining sociology for you one night at my boarding-house...."
"I remember."
"Well," said he, determined to find something wrong, "those men whom I mentioned to you are not so good as they think, particularly Smathers. I may as well tell you that I shall show Smathers up completely in my book."
"We shall examine your arguments with care and attention. We leave no stone unturned to keep abreast of the best modern thought."