"Very well!" she said, after a pause. "I see Clarice is right. You have a mean, jealous spirit, Mary. I thought I could tell the--the great thing of my life, to my most intimate friend,--for you _have_ been my most intimate friend,--and you would understand; but you don"t. You never have understood me; Clarice has said so from the beginning, and now I know she is right. At least, I have _one_ friend who can feel for me. Good-by, Mary--forever!"
"Oh, Sue!" cried Mary, wanting to laugh and cry together. But Sue was gone, dashing through the garden at tempest speed, and flinging the gate to behind her with a crash.
Mary went into the house, and cried till she could not see. But there were no tears for Sue. She ran up to her room, and locked the door.
Then, after looking carefully around, she drew out from under the bed an old brown leather writing-desk, produced a key that hung by a ribbon round her neck, unlocked the desk, and took out a faded red morocco blank-book. It had once been an account-book, and had belonged to her grandfather; the great thing about it was that it had a lock and key! Opening it, Sue found a blank page, and flinging herself over the table, began to write furiously:
"Mary and I have parted--parted forever. She was my dearest upon earth, but I know her no more. Her name is Hart, but she has none, or at least it is of marble. I am very unhappy, a poor foundling, with but one friend in the world. I sit alone in my gloomy garet." (The sun was pouring in at the window, but Sue did not see it.) "My tears blot the page as I write." (She tried to squeeze out a tear, failed, and hurried on.) "My aff.e.c.ktions are blited, but I am proud, and they shall see that I don"t care one bit how mean they are. I am of n.o.ble blood, I feel it corsing in my viens, and I shouldn"t wonder a bit if I were a princess. And if I die young, Mary Hart can come and shed tears on my moniment and be sorry she acted so."
Meantime, in the room below, little Lily was saying: "Mamma, I wish I had some one to play with. Couldn"t you get me another sister, about my age? Sue says she is too old to play with me!" And Mrs. Penrose was sighing, and wondering again why her elder child was not the comfort to her that Mary Hart was to her mother.
[Ill.u.s.tration: ""MARY AND I HAVE PARTED--PARTED FOREVER.""]
The days that followed were sad ones for Mary. The intimacy between her and Sue had been so close that they had never felt the need of other friends; and, indeed, in their small neighborhood it happened that there were no pleasant girls of their own age. It had not seemed possible that anything could ever come between her and Sue. They loved to say that they were two halves, and only together made a whole. Now it was bitter to see Sue pa.s.s by on the other side of the home street with averted eyes and head held high. Mary tried to greet her as usual; for had they not said a hundred times how silly it was for girls to quarrel, and what spectacles they made of themselves behaving like babies?
But it was of no use. The breach was complete; and Sue refused to speak to Mary, or even to recognize her, and had only the most frigid little nod for her brothers. Many a time did Mary curl up for comfort in her mother"s lap, and rest her head on her shoulder, and tell her how it hurt, and ask what she should do, and how she should live without her friend. She never failed to find comfort; and always, after a good little talk, there was something that Mrs. Hart particularly wanted done, and that Mary could help her so much with; and Mary found that there is no balm like work for a sore heart.
One day Mrs. Hart said: "Mary, how would you like to ask little Lily to come and spend the afternoon with you? Mrs. Penrose is really very far from well, and Sue seems to be entirely absorbed. It would be a kind thing to do, daughter."
So Lily came; and in making her happy Mary forgot the sore spot in her own heart. From that day the two were a good deal together. Beside Sue"s glancing brightness Lily had seemed rather a dull child; or perhaps it was merely that Mary had no thought to give her, and felt with Sue that children were in the way when one wanted to talk seriously. But in Mary"s companionship the child expanded like a flower. She was so happy, so easily pleased. It was delightful to see her face light up at sight of Mary. And Mary determined that, come what might, she and Lily would always be friends. "And, Lily," she would whisper, "if--no! _when_ we get our Sue back again, won"t she be surprised to see how much you have learned, and how many of our plays you know? And there will be three of us then, Lily."
And Lily would smile and dimple, and look almost a little like Sue--almost!
The boys, too, were a great comfort in those days. Never had Tom been so considerate, so thoughtful. Hardly a day pa.s.sed but he would want Mary to play or walk or fish with him. She had never, it seemed, seen so much of Tom before, though he had always been the dearest boy in the world--except Teddy.
"Oh!" she cried one day, when Tom, after an hour"s patient search, found the silver thimble that she had carelessly dropped in the orchard--"oh, it _is_ good to have a brother Tom. I don"t see what girls do who have none."
"It"s pretty nice to have a sister Mary," said Tom, shyly; he was always shy when there was any question of feeling. "Do you know, Ballast--do you know, I"ve never had so much sister Mary as I"ve been having lately. Of course it"s a great shame about Sue, and I miss her no end, and all that--but it"s nice to have such a lot of you, dear."
Sister and brother exchanged a silent hug that meant a good deal, and Mary inwardly resolved that, come what might, Tom should always hereafter have all the sister Mary he wanted.
"And it"s simply no end for Lily," Tom added. "Lily has never had a fair chance, you know, Mary."
"Lily is a very nice little girl," said Teddy, with kind condescension. "There"s a great deal more in Lily than people think.
Mary, if you are going over there, you might take her these horse-chestnuts. She likes the milky ones, before they turn brown."
"Take them yourself, Master Teddy!" said Mary, laughing. "You know it"s what you want to do. Bring her over, and we"ll go and play in the orchard, all four of us. We"ll play "Wolf," if you like."
"Oh, no!" cried Teddy. "Let"s play "Indian"; let"s play "The Last of the Mo"s." We haven"t played that for ever and ever so long."
"Lily doesn"t know "The Last of the Mohicans,"" said Mary. "She has never read it. I"ll read it to her, I think. We might begin the next rainy day, boys, and all read together."
"Hooray!" said both boys.
"I can be making my new net," said Tom.
"And I can work on my boat," said Teddy.
"And I have about six dozen things to make for Christmas!" said Mary, laughing. "Who is to do the reading, I should like to know?"
"Oh, Mammy will read it to us."
"All right! Hurrah for Mammy! Of course she will."
"But that is no reason why we should not play "The Last of the Mo"s"
now," resumed Tom. "We can tell Lily enough, as we go along, to show her what it"s like, and of course she wouldn"t take an important part, anyway--just a squaw or an odd brave. Cut along, Teddy, and bring the kid over."
Lily came hurrying back with Teddy; and the four stood for a moment together by the front door, laughing and chatting, and giving out the parts for the game. They had never played it before without Sue. Mary would rather not have played it now, but that seemed no reason why the boys should not have their favorite game, and no doubt Tom could play Uncas very well--though, of course, not _as_ well, even if he was a boy.
Tom was just striking an att.i.tude and brandishing an imaginary tomahawk, when, on the opposite side of the street, Sue came along, arm in arm, as usual, with Clarice Packard. The Hart children looked in dismay. Was this their Sue? Something was wrong with her hair. It was rolled up high over her forehead, and bobbed up into a short cue behind. Something was wrong with her feet; at least, so it seemed from the way she walked, mincing on her toes. And she had a spotted veil on, and she carried a parasol. Was this their Quicksilver Sue? Could it be?
As they pa.s.sed, Clarice looked across the way and bowed a triumphant little bow; then t.i.ttered rudely, and whispered something in her companion"s ear. Sue held her head high, and was walking past looking straight before her, as she always did now, when suddenly it seemed as if some feeling took hold upon her, stronger than her own will. She turned her head involuntarily, and looked at the group standing on the familiar door-step. A wave of color swept over her face; the tears rushed into her eyes. For a moment she seemed to waver, almost to sway toward them; then resolutely she turned her head away again, and walked on.
"Mary," said Tom, "do you know what?"
"No, Tom. I don"t know this particular "what." I know--what you saw just now." And poor Mary looked as if the heart for play was clean gone out of her.
"Well, I"ll tell you. Our Sue has had just about enough of her new treasure. I"ll bet my new fishing-line that she would give all her best boots to come and play "Last of the Mo"s" with us in the orchard."
CHAPTER VIII
THE CIRCUS
Tom was right. That moment was the turning-point for Sue Penrose. When she saw that group on the familiar door-step across the way, something seemed to clutch at her heart, something seemed to fall from her eyes.
What did this all mean? There were her friends, her dear old friends, with their honest faces and their clear, kind, true eyes. She had seen the longing look in Mary"s eyes, and Tom"s grave glance which seemed to say that he was sorry for her. It was the afternoon playtime, and they were all going to play together some of the happy boy-and-girl plays in which she, Sue, had always been the leader; and she was not with them. She had lost them all, and for what? All at once, Clarice"s giggle, her whispered talk of dresses and parties and "gentlemen friends" sounded flat and silly and meaningless. What did Sue care for such stuff? How could she ever have thought she cared? What would she not give for a good romp in the orchard, and a talk with Mary afterward! A small voice said in her heart: "Go back! A kiss to Mary, a word to the boys, and all will be forgotten. Go back now, before it is too late!"
But two other voices spoke louder in Sue"s ear, drowning the voice of her heart. One was pride. "Go back?" it said. "Confess that you have been wicked and silly? Let the boys and Lily see you humbling yourself--you, who have always been the proud one? Never!" The other was loyalty, or rather a kind of chivalry that was a part of Sue. "You cannot desert Clarice," said this voice. "She is a stranger here, and she depends upon you. She is delicate and sensitive, and you are the only person who understands her; she says so. She isn"t exactly nice in some ways, but the others are hard on her, and you must stand by her. You cannot go back!"
So when Clarice t.i.ttered, and whispered something about Mary"s dress, Sue pressed her arm, and straightened herself and walked on, looking steadfastly before her.
"My! Sue, what is the matter?" her companion asked. "You look as cross as a meat-ax. No wonder! I call the way that boy stared at you downright impudent. They seem to have taken up with Lily, now that they can"t get you. He, he!"
And a new sting was planted in Sue"s heart, already sore enough. Yes; they had taken up with Lily; Lily was filling her place.
Sue took the pain home with her, and carried it about all day, and many a day. The little sister had never been much to her, as we have seen. Her own life had been so overflowing with matters that seemed to her of vital importance that she had never had much time to bestow on the child who was too old to be set down with blocks and doll and told to amuse herself, and yet was too young--or so Sue thought--to share the plays of the older children. She had "wished to goodness" that Lily had some friend of her own age; and "Don"t bother!" was the answer that rose most frequently to her lips when Lily begged to be allowed to play with her and Mary.
"Don"t bother, Lily. Run along and amuse yourself; that"s a good girl!
We are busy just now." She had never meant to be unkind; she just hadn"t thought, that was all.
Well, Lily did not have to be told now not to bother. There was no danger of her asking to join Sue and Clarice, for the latter had from the first shown a dislike to the child which was heartily returned.
People who "think children are a nuisance" are not apt to be troubled by their company.
After the morning hour during which she sat with their mother, reading to her and helping her in various ways (how was it, by the way, that Lily had got into the way of doing this? she, Sue, had never had time, or had never thought of it!), Lily was always over at the Harts" in these days. Often when Sue and Clarice were sitting upstairs, talking,--oh, such weary, empty, stupid talk, it seemed now!--the sound of Lily"s happy laughter would come from over the way and ring in her sister"s ears.
They were playing Indians again, were they? "The Last of the Mohicans"! Tom was Hawkeye, of course; but who was Uncas in her stead?
She had always been Uncas. She knew a good many of his speeches by heart. Ah! she thrilled, recalling the tremendous moment when the Delawares discover the tortoise tattooed on the breast of the young hero. She recalled how "for a single instant Uncas enjoyed his triumph, smiling calmly on the scene. Then motioning the crowd away with a high and haughty sweep of the arm, he advanced in front of the nation with the air of a king, and spoke in a voice louder than the murmur of admiration that ran through the mult.i.tude.