When Patience and Clarissa had got to their own room on the night on which they had walked back from Mrs. Brownlow"s house to Popham Villa,--during all which long walk Clarissa"s hand had lain gently upon Ralph Newton"s arm,--the elder sister looked painfully and anxiously into the younger"s face, in order that, if it were possible, she might learn without direct enquiry what had been said during that hour of close communion. Had Ralph meant to speak there could have been no time more appropriate. And Patience hardly knew what she herself wished,--except that she wished that her sister might have everything that was good and joyous and prosperous. There was never a look of pain came across Clary"s face, but Patience suffered some touch of inner agony. This feeling was so strong that she sympathised even with Clary"s follies, and with Clary"s faults.
She almost knew that it would not be well that Ralph Newton should be encouraged as a lover,--brilliant as were his future prospects, and dear, as he was personally to them all. He was a spendthrift, and it might be that his fine prospects would all be wasted before they were matured. And then their father would so probably disapprove!
And then, again, it was so wrong that Clary"s peace should have been disturbed and yet no word said to their father. There was much that was wrong;--but still so absolute was her clinging love for Clary that she longed above all things that Clary should be made happy.
When Ralph"s brother had declared himself as a suitor,--which he had done boldly to Sir Thomas, after but a short intimacy with the family,--Patience had given him all her sympathy. Sir Thomas, having looked at his circ.u.mstances, had made him welcome to the house, and to his daughter"s hand,--if he could win her heart. The stage had been open to him, and Patience had been his most eager friend. But all that had pa.s.sed away,--and Clary had been obstinate. "Patty,"
she had said, with some little arrogance, "he has made a mistake.
He should have fallen in love with you." "Clergymen are as fond of pretty girls as other men," Patty had said, with a smile. "And isn"t my Patty as pretty and as delicate as a primrose?" Clary had said, embracing her sister. Pretty Patience Underwood was not;--but for delicacy,--that with which Patience Underwood was gifted transcended poor Clarissa"s powers of comparison. So it was between them, and now there was this acknowledged pa.s.sion for the spendthrift!
Patience could see that her sister was not unhappy when she came in from her walk,--was not moody,--was not heart-broken. And yet it had seemed to her, before the walk began, while they were sauntering about Mrs. Brownlow"s garden, that Ralph had devoted himself entirely to the new cousin, and that Clarissa had been miserable. Surely if he had spoken during the walk,--if he had renewed his protestations of love, if he were now regarded by Clary as her accepted lover, Clary would not keep all this as a secret! It could not be that Clary should have surrendered herself to a lover, and that their father was to be allowed to remain in ignorance that it was so! And yet how could it be otherwise if Clary was happy now,--Clary who had acknowledged that she loved this man, and had now been leaning on his arm for an hour beneath the moonlight? But Patience said not a word. She could not bring herself to speak when speech might pain her sister.
When they had been some half hour in bed, there stole a whisper across the darkness of the chamber from one couch to the other; "Patty, are you asleep?" Patience declared that she was wide awake.
"Then I"ll come to you,"--and Clary"s naked feet pattered across the room. "I"ve just something to say, and I"ll say it better here."
Patience made glad way for the intruder, and knew that now she would hear it all. "Patty, it is better to wait."
"What do you mean, dear?"
"I mean this. I think he does like me; I"m almost sure he does."
"He said nothing to-night?"
"He said a great deal,--of course; but nothing about that;--nothing about that exactly."
"Oh, Clary, I"m afraid of him."
"What is the good of fear? The evil is, dear, I think he likes me, but it may so well be that he cannot speak out. He is in debt, and all that;--and he must wait."
"But that is so terrible. What will you do?"
"I will wait too. I have thought about it, and have determined.
What"s the good of loving a man if one won"t go through something for him? I do love him,--with all my heart. I pray G.o.d I may never have a husband, if I cannot be his wife." Patience shuddered in her sister"s embrace, as these bold words were spoken with energy. "I tell you, Patty, just as I tell myself, because you love me so dearly."
"I do love you;--oh, I do love you."
"I do not think it can be unmaidenly to tell the truth to you and to myself. How can I help telling it to myself? There it is. I feel that I could kiss the very ground on which he stands. He is my hero, my Paladin, my heart, my soul. I have given myself to him for everything. How can I help myself?"
"But, Clary,--you should repress this, not encourage it."
"It won"t be repressed,--not in my own heart. But I will never, never, never let him know that it has been so,--till he is all my own. There may be a day when,--oh,--I shall tell him everything; how wretched I was when he did not speak to me;--how broken-hearted when I heard his voice with Mary; how fluttered, and half-happy, and half-wretched when I found that I was to have that long walk with him;--and then how I determined to wait. I will tell him all,--perhaps,--some day. Good-night, dear, dear Patty. I could not sleep without letting you know everything." Then she sprang out from her sister"s arms, and pattered back across the room to her own bed.
In two minutes Clarissa was asleep, but Patience lay long awake, and before she slept her pillow was damp with her tears.
In the course of the following week Ralph was again at the villa. Sir Thomas, as a matter of course, was away, but the three girls were at home; and, as it happened, Miss Spooner had also come over to take her tea with her friends. The hour that he spent there was pa.s.sed half indoors and half out, and certainly Ralph"s attentions were chiefly paid to Miss Bonner. Miss Bonner herself, however, was so discreet in her demeanour, that no one could have suggested that any approach had been made to flirtation. To tell the truth, Mary, who had received no confidence from her cousin,--and who was a girl slow to excite or give a confidence,--had seen some sign, or heard some word which had created on her mind a suspicion of the truth. It was not that she thought that Clary"s heart was irrecoverably given to the young man, but that there seemed to be just something with which it might be as well that she herself should not interfere. She was there on sufferance,--dependent on her uncle"s charity for her daily bread, let her uncle say what he might to the contrary. As yet she hardly knew her cousins, and was quite sure that she was not known by them. She heard that Ralph Newton was a man of fashion, and the heir to a large fortune. She knew herself to be utterly dest.i.tute,--but she knew herself to be possessed of great beauty. In her bosom, doubtless, there was an ambition to win by her beauty, from some man whom she could love, those good things of which she was so dest.i.tute.
She did not lack ambition, and had her high hopes, grounded on the knowledge of her own charms. Her beauty, and a certain sufficiency of intellect,--of the extent of which she was in a remarkable degree herself aware,--were the gifts with which she had been endowed. But she knew when she might use them honestly and when she ought to refrain from using them. Ralph had looked at her as men do look who wish to be allowed to love. All this to her was much more clearly intelligible than to Clarissa, who was two years her senior. Though she had seen Ralph but thrice, she already felt that she might have him on his knees before her, if she cared so to place him. But there was that suspicion of something which had gone before, and a feeling that honour and grat.i.tude,--perhaps, also, self-interest,--called upon her to be cold in her manner to Ralph Newton. She had purposely avoided his companionship in their walk home from Mrs. Brownlow"s house; and now, as they wandered about the lawn and shrubberies of Popham Villa, she took care not to be with him out of earshot of the others. In all of which there was ten times more of womanly cleverness,--or cunning, shall we say,--than had yet come to the possession of Clarissa Underwood.
Cunning she was;--but she did not deserve that the objectionable epithet should be applied to her. The circ.u.mstances of her life had made her cunning. She had been the mistress of her father"s house since her fifteenth year, and for two years of her life had had a succession of admirers at her feet. Her father had eaten and drunk and laughed, and had joked with his child"s lovers about his child.
It had been through no merit of his that she had held her own among them all without soiling either her name or her inner self. Captains in West Indian regiments, and lieutenants from Queen"s ships lying at Spanish Point, had been her admirers. Proposals to marry are as ready on the tongues of such men, out in the tropics, as offers to hand a shawl or carry a parasol. They are soft-hearted, bold to face the world, and very confident in circ.u.mstances. Then, too, they are ignorant of any other way to progress with a flirtation which is all-engrossing. In warm lat.i.tudes it is so natural to make an offer after the fifth dance. It is the way of the people in those lat.i.tudes, and seems to lead to no harm. Men and women do marry on small incomes; but they do not starve, and the world goes on wagging.
Mary Bonner, however, whose father"s rank had, at least, been higher than that of her adorers, and who knew that great gifts had been given to her, had held herself aloof from all this, and had early resolved to bide her time. She was still biding her time,--with patience sufficient to enable her to resist the glances of Ralph Newton.
Clarissa Underwood behaved very well on this evening. She gave a merry glance at her sister, and devoted herself to Miss Spooner. Mary was so wise and so prudent that there was no cause for any great agony. As far as Clary could see, Ralph had quite as much to say to Patience as to Mary. For herself she had resolved that she would wait. Her manner to him was very pretty,--almost the manner of a sister to a brother. And then she stayed resolutely with Miss Spooner, while Ralph was certainly tempting Mary down by the river-side. It did not last long. He was soon gone, and Miss Spooner had soon followed him.
"He is very amusing," Mary said, as soon as they were alone.
"Very amusing," said Patience.
"And uncommonly good-looking. Isn"t he considered a very handsome man here?"
"Yes;--I suppose he is," said Patience. "I don"t know that I ever thought much about that."
"Of course he is," said Clarissa. "n.o.body can doubt about it. There are some people as to whom it is as absurd not to admit that they are handsome as it would be to say that a fine picture is not beautiful.
Ralph is one such person,--and of course I know another."
Mary would not seem to take the allusion, even by a smile. "I always thought Gregory much nicer looking," said Patience.
"That must be because you are in love with him," said Clarissa.
"There is a speaking brightness, an eloquence, in his eyes; and a softness of feeling in the expression of his face, which is above all beauty," continued Patience, with energy.
"Here"s poetry," said Clarissa. "Eloquence, and softness, and eyes, and feeling, and expressive and speaking brightness! You"d better say at once that he"s a G.o.d."
"I wish I knew him," said Mary Bonner.
"You"ll know him before long, I don"t doubt. And when you do, you"ll know one of the best fellows in the world. I"ll admit as much as that; but I will not admit that he can be compared to his brother in regard to good looks." In all which poor Clarissa, who had nothing to console her but her resolve to wait with courage, bore herself well and gallantly.
Soon after this there arrived at Popham Villa the note from Gregory Newton. As it happened, Sir Thomas was at home on that morning, and heard the tidings. "If young Mr. Newton does come, get him to dine, and I will take care to be at home," said Sir Thomas. Patience suggested that Ralph,--their own Ralph,--should be asked to meet him; but to this Sir Thomas would not accede. "It is not our business to make up a family quarrel," he said. "I have had old Mr. Newton with me once or twice lately, and I find that the quarrel still exists as strong as ever. I asked him to dine here, but he refused. His son chooses to come. I shall be glad to see him."
Gregory"s letter had not been shown to Sir Thomas, but it was, of course, shown to Clarissa. "How could I help it?" said she. From which it may be presumed that Patience had looked as though Gregory had been hardly treated. "One doesn"t know how it is, or why it comes, or what it is;--or why it doesn"t come. I couldn"t have taken Gregory Newton for my husband."
"And yet he had all things to recommend him."
"I wish he had asked you, Patty!"
"Don"t say that, dear, because there is in it something that annoys me. I don"t think of myself in such matters, but I do hope to see you the happy wife of some happy man."
"I hope you will, with all my heart," said Clary, standing up,--"of one man, of one special, dearest, best, and brightest of all men. Oh dear! And yet I know it will never be, and I wonder at myself that I have been bold enough to tell you." And Patience, also, wondered at her sister"s boldness.
Ralph Newton,--Ralph from the Priory,--did come down to the villa, and did accept the invitation to dinner which was given to him. The event was so important that Patience found it necessary to go up to London to tell her father. Mary went with her, desirous to see something of the mysteries of Southampton Buildings, while Clarissa remained at home,--waiting. After the usual skirmishes with Stemm, who began by swearing that his master was not at home, they made their way into Sir Thomas"s library. "Dear, dear, dear; this is a very awkward place to bring your cousin to," he said, frowning.
Mary would have retreated at once had it not been that Patience held her ground so boldly. "Why shouldn"t she come, papa? And I had to see you. Mr. Newton is to dine with us to-morrow." To-morrow was a Sat.u.r.day, and Sir Thomas became seriously displeased. Why had a Sat.u.r.day been chosen? Sat.u.r.day was the most awkward day in the world for the giving and receiving of dinners. It was in vain that Patience explained to him that Sat.u.r.day was the only day on which Mr. Newton could come, that Sir Thomas had given his express authority for the dinner, and that no bar had been raised against Sat.u.r.day. "You ought to have known," said Sir Thomas. Nevertheless, he allowed them to leave the chamber with the understanding that he would preside at his own table on the following day. "Why is it that Sat.u.r.day is so distasteful to him?" Mary asked as they walked across Lincoln"s Inn Fields together.
Patience was silent for awhile, not knowing how to answer the question, or how to leave it unanswered. But at last she preferred to make some reply. "He does not like going to our church, I think."
"But you like it."
"Yes;--and I wish papa did. But he doesn"t." Then there was a pause.
"Of course it must strike you as very odd, the way in which we live."
"I hope it is not I who drive my uncle away."
"Not in the least, Mary. Since mamma"s death he has fallen into this habit, and he has got so to love solitude, that he is never happy but when alone. We ought to be grateful to him because it shows that he trusts us;--but it would be much nicer if he would come home."
"He is so different from my father."