Donald opened his eyes. "Ella, I am better; ask him to say nothing about it."
"I will, dear Donald, I will."--Then, turning to Wilton, "Come, I will show the way." The moment they crossed the threshold she exclaimed, "It will be better to say nothing about it; Lady Fergusson would only come and make a fuss and torment him, so I troubled you instead of ringing; but I do not apologize. You would willingly help him, I am sure."
"Yes, of course; but what a responsibility for you!"
"Oh, I understand him, and I often see the doctor. Ah, what a life! what suffering! what a terrible nature! But I must not stay. You, you were prudent--that is--pooh! I am foolish. I mean to say, I am glad you scarcely appeared to know me. I say nothing of myself here; I am an abstraction, a machine, a companion! Good-by." For the first time she held out her hand with a gracious, queenly gesture. Wilton took and held it.
"One moment," he said, quickly. "Shall I never have another chance of a word with you in the free air? Is there no errand to Monkscleugh that may lead to a rencontre?"
"If I meet you," she said, "I will speak to you; but it is, and must be, a mere chance. Follow that corridor, turn to the left, and you will be in the hall. Good-by." She was gone.
"Well, what sort of fellow is this cousin of yours? I suppose you met him last night? I never thought we should tumble into the trammels of polite society when I recommended these shootings to you. I have scarcely seen you the last ten days. What"s come to you, lad?"
So growled Moncrief one morning as he smoked the after-breakfast cigar, previous to turning out for a run with the "Friarshire."
"Oh! St. George Wilton is rather an amusing fellow; he is tolerably good-looking, and has lots of small talk; one of those men who do not believe much in anything, I fancy, except self and self-interest, but for dear self-sake not disposed to rub other people the wrong way. He is a favorite with the ladies--cuts me out with the fair Helen."
"Hum! I doubt that. I do not think you would let him if he tried; for of course _that"s_ the attraction to Brosedale."
"Is it?" returned Wilton, carelessly, as he prepared a cigar.
"Yes; I know you think I am as blind as a mole, but I can see there is something that takes you to Brosedale. It"s not Sir Peter, though he"s the best of the lot. It"s not my lady; and it cannot be that imp of a boy you are so fond of carrying pictures to--I suppose for a "ploy to get into the interior, though they are sweet enough upon you without that; so it must be that girl."
"Your reasoning is so admirable," returned Wilton, laughing good-humoredly, "that I should like to hear a little more."
"Eh!" said the major, looking up at him curiously. "Well, my lad, I am only anxious for your own sake. Helen Saville is not the style of woman Lord St. George would like; the family are by no means _sans reproche;_ and--I don"t fancy her myself."
"That is conclusive," replied Wilton, gravely. "But make your mind easy; I am not going to marry Helen Saville, nor do I think she expects me to do so."
"What she expects, G.o.d knows, but there is something not all square about you, Wilton."
"My dear fellow, do you want me to call you out?"
"You must just go your own way, which, no doubt, you would in any case; but I am off on Monday next to pay my sister a visit. I have put her off from time to time, but I must go now."
"By Jove, I shall be quite desolate! And will you not return, old fellow?"
"I think not. At any rate, I shall not be able to come north again till near Christmas; and I hardly suppose you will be here then."
"That depends," said Wilton, thoughtfully.
"On what?" asked the major, quickly.
"Oh! the sport--my own whims--the general attractions of the neighborhood."
"----the attractions of the neighborhood!" cried Moncrief, profanely.
"Why do you not make up to Lady Mary or Lady Susan Mowbray? They are nice girls and no mistake; just the very thing for you. But I am a fool to trouble myself about you; only I have always looked after you since you joined. However, you are old enough to take care of yourself."
"Perhaps I ought to be, at any rate; and although I have somehow managed to "rile" you, I have never forgotten, and never will forget, what a brick you have always been."
Major Moncrief growled out some indistinct words, and went to the window; Wilton followed him. "You"ll scarcely manage a run to-day;" he said; "the ground is very hard, and, if I am not much mistaken, there"s a lot of snow up there," pointing to a dense ma.s.s of heavy drab clouds to windward.
"No," returned Moncrief, uncertainly, "it is considerably milder this morning; besides, the wind is too high, and it is too early for snow."
"Not in these lat.i.tudes; and it has been deucedly cold for the week past."
"At any rate, I will go to the meet," said Moncrief, leaving the room.
"What are you going to do?"
"I shall not hunt to-day; I am going over to Monkscleugh."
"Hum! to buy toys for the child?"
"Yes," said Wilton, laughing. "But for to-day I am safe: Lady Fergusson and her fair daughter, attended by our diplomatic cousin, are going to Brantwood, where there is a coming-of-age ball, or some such high-jinks.
They politely invited me to be of the party; but I resisted, Moncrief--I resisted!"
"Did you, by George! That puzzles me."
"By St. George, you mean. Why, you suspicious old boy, you do seem not satisfied; and yet Helen Saville will be away three or four days."
"I"ll be hanged if I can make you out!" said the major, and walked away.
Wilton threw himself into an arm-chair and laughed aloud; then he turned very grave, and thought long and deeply. If Moncrief only knew where the real danger lay, and what it was! How was it that he had permitted this mere whim, half curiosity, half compa.s.sion, to grow into such troublesome proportions? He knew it was folly, and yet he could not resist! He had always felt interested and attracted by that strange girl whose mingled coldness and sweetness charmed and wounded him; but now, since he had seen her oftener, and listened to her voice, and heard the sudden but rare outbreaks of enthusiasm and feeling which would force themselves into expression, as if in spite of her will, he was conscious that his feelings were deepening into intense pa.s.sion and tenderness.
To catch a sympathetic look, a special smile, a little word to himself alone--such were the nothings watched for, sought, treasured, remembered by our patrician soldier. The vision of that poor, suffering boy leaning his head against Ella and clasped in her arms, seemed indelibly stamped upon his brain. It was constantly before him, though he fought gallantly against it.
It seemed to have brought about a crisis of feeling. Before that, though touched, interested, curious, he was not absorbed; now, reason as he would, resist as he would, he could not banish the desperate longing to be in that boy"s place just for once. In short, Wilton was possessed by one of those rare but real pa.s.sions which, when they seize upon a man of his age, are infinitely more powerful, more dangerous, or, as the case may be, more n.o.ble, than when they partake of the eager effervescence of youth.
And what was to be the end thereof?--so he asked himself as, starting from his seat, he paced the room.
Ardently as he felt, he could not but acknowledge that to marry a girl, not only in a position little more than menial, but of whose antecedents he knew absolutely nothing--who, for some mysterious reason, did not seem to have a friend on earth--was a piece of folly he ought to be ashamed to commit. And yet to give her up--worse still, to leave her for some demure curate, some enterprising bagman to win, perhaps to trample upon? Impossible!
What then? It must not be a.s.serted that the possibility of some tie less galling and oppressive than matrimony never presented itself to Ralph Wilton"s mind. He had known such conditions among his friends, and some (according to his lax but not altogether unpopular opinions) had not turned out so badly for any of the parties concerned; but in this case he rejected the idea as simply out of the question. He would no more dare breathe it to that obscure little girl than to a princess. It would be hard enough to win or rouse her to admit him as a lover, even on the most honorable terms. She seemed not to think such things existed for her. There was in her such a curious mixture of frankness and indifference, coldness, sweetness, all flecked with sparks of occasional fire, that Wilton could not help believing she had some uncommon history; and there were times when he felt that, if he but asked her, she would tell him everything he craved to know. Never had he met a woman (for, young as she was, she was eminently womanly) so utterly without coquetry. Her perfect freedom from this feminine ingredient was almost insulting, and a certain instinct warned him from attempting to break through the invisible barrier which her unconscious simplicity created. Yet all this restraint was becoming intolerable. At Brosedale he never saw her alone; out of it, he never saw her at all. The desire to know all about her, to impress her, to win her, and the struggling instinct of caste, the dread of making some false step that would ruin him in her estimation, tormented him almost into a fever.
His long meditation ended in his ringing sharply, and ordering round the dog-cart to drive into Monkscleugh.
"It"s sure to snow, sir," said his servant.
"Not yet, I think. At any rate, I shall take my chance."
"Yes," he continued, half aloud, as the man disappeared, "I must make the attempt; and if I meet her--why, what will be, will be!" With this profoundly philosophic conclusion he proceeded to draw on an overcoat and prepare for his cold drive.
The previous day, Wilton had managed, by a profound stratagem, to procure an interview with Donald, and for his pains found that young gentleman fearfully cross and rude, moreover alone: but, in the course of their short conversation, the heir of Brosedale confessed to being greatly enraged at the non-appearance of some fresh drawing-materials which had been forwarded from London, and of which no tidings could be heard; that "Dandy," his special pony, was ill or disabled, and no one was at liberty to go for them; so Ella had promised to walk over to Monkscleugh the next morning.
Of course Wilton discovered that he, too, had "urgent private affairs"
of his own to transact in the town, and, had it "rained elephants and rhinoceroses," he would have persevered.