Chapter 211 – The Reason Within
Zhongli Shen raised his eyelids. “You really dared to say it.”
The status and significance of the t.i.tles “direct disciples” and “named disciples” were very different; direct disciples would be the ones inheriting their master’s legacy, so they were selected very carefully.
Lin Xuanzhi said lightly, “Because Ah Hen is worth it. Otherwise, you wouldn’t personally make the trip here.”
Elders of Zhongli Shen’s status wouldn’t waste even a minute of their time on an unknown disciple unless they really cared about them.
Zhongli Shen did not deny it and instead nodded. “Your guess is right. I do have that intention. Although he blows up his furnaces, his talent is remarkable and rare.”
“So it’s not suitable for Ah Hen to follow you now. I’m worried that someone will a.s.sault him viciously in secret.” Lin Xuanzhi a.n.a.lyzed it point by point and said with incomparable calmness, “Most of the named disciples under you are the sons of influential families that you couldn’t reject. Even you yourself can’t do as you please, so how should Ah Hen handle things by himself then?”
The reason was very simple: there were tons of powerful alchemists who weren’t acknowledged by Zhongli Shen’s discerning eye, so what right did a mere Yan Tianhen with no name or status have to ascend with just a single bound?
Driven by jealousy and hatred, no one could guarantee what those people would do to Yan Tianhen.
The human heart was unpredictable. Even if Lin Xuanzhi was someone who would take a gamble, he definitely wouldn’t use Yan Tianhen as a stake.
He admitted that he can’t afford to.
Zhongli Shen could indeed protect Yan Tianhen, but who could guarantee that he would always look after Yan Tianhen 24/7?
Zhongli Shen didn’t expect Lin Xuanzhi to think so far ahead; it really made him see Lin Xuanzhi in a new light.
He had originally thought that Lin Xuanzhi just didn’t want Yan Tianhen to break free from his control, or for Yan Tianhen to improve faster and become stronger than him. But from the looks of it now, it was only because Lin Xuanzhi had always been thinking in consideration for Yan Tianhen — to the point where every step he took had to be done cautiously.
Zhongli Shen pondered for a bit, “Don’t tell me you think that, in a few years, I’ll be able to protect him?”
“In a few years, I will be able to protect him.” Lin Xuanzhi replied.
Zhongli Shen just wanted to say that this kid was insanely egotistical. How different from now could he possibly be in a few years?
Zhongli Shen couldn’t help but laugh. “What you just said was absolutely shameless and arrogant.”
Lin Xuanzhi nodded. “Perhaps so.”
He didn’t want to offer any more pointless explanations, they need only discuss it again in a few years.
Moreover, he would never feel at ease no matter whom he handed Yan Tianhen to.
Zhongli Shen stared at Lin Xuanzhi rather meaningfully. “You rejected Sky Peak Sect’s invitation a few days ago, looks like the reason should be about the same as what you just put forward.”
Lin Xuanzhi nodded again.
Zhongli Shen squinted. “Since you’re that confident in yourself and you’re so opinionated, I won’t say much more.”
“He…” Zhongli Shen laughed. “You really don’t care about the celestial-level pill?”
Zhongli Shen was stunned, the smile on his face disappearing. “Yan Tianhen was right about some things. You’re too dictatorial in the way you treat him. You should ask him about whether he’s willing first.”
Lin Xuanzhi’s gaze darkened a little. “I will reflect on myself, Alchemist Zhongli need not worry about it.”
Zhongli Shen couldn’t be bothered to care about such affairs of others. After all, it was never good for strangers to have too deep a conversation with each other. Moreover — the disciple that he finally took a fancy to ran away, he still felt quite upset about that!
After Zhongli Shen left, Lin Xuanzhi finally collapsed onto a chair.
Yan Tianhen’s words still resounded clearly in his ears; every single word and sentence still had yet to disappear from his memory. All those complaints of Yan Tianhen were echoing in his mind…
Lin Xuanzhi’s heart was thoroughly broken, and he felt utterly defeated.
After his rebirth he had always treated Yan Tianhen, the only one whom he regards as a precious treasure, both seriously and gently while carrying a deep sense of guilt and the desire to make up for his past mistakes. He arranged everything for him and paved all his paths for him, and no matter what Lin Xuanzhi planned to do, he would consider Yan Tianhen’s gains and losses first.
He thought that as an elder brother, he had already done his best to protect and love him, but… Just one Zhongli Shen could force Yan Tianhen to say all those heartbreaking words.
Did he really make a mistake?
Would he never be able to change Yan Tianhen’s impression of him no matter how hard he tried to make it up to him, and no matter how much he repented? Would Yan Tianhen never be able to truly trust him and depend on him?
Lin Xuanzhi was in a little bit of a daze. He sat for a while, then let out a prolonged sigh.
Hu Po s.h.i.+fted slowly over to Lin Xuanzhi’s side and squatted by his feet, using his body to nudge Lin Xuanzhi’s calf and stared at Lin Xuanzhi with his bright, glowing amber eyes.
Lin Xuanzhi’s heart turned soft. He reached out and put Hu Po on his legs.
“Will feel upset indeed.” Lin Xuanzhi muttered, “And will probably feel sorry for oneself ba. I don’t know how to face him.”
“I can’t imagine that he actually resents and hates me when he smiles at me.”
“What should I do?”
“Actually, in the past life…I really couldn’t figure out why he fell in love with me.”
He had always thought that he understood Yan Tianhen very well, but from the looks of it now, it was merely his wishful thinking.
Yan Tianhen ran straight to Mt. Xi in one breath.
Rose clouds filled the sky at sunset, looking particularly vast and expansive.
However, Yan Tianhen was in no mood to admire the magnificent scenery. Right now, his heart was filled with irrepressible grievances.
What right did Lin Xuanzhi have to ask him to get lost?
He had just blurted out some words in a spur of anger, but it shouldn’t have been bad enough to get him chased out of the house ba?
Moreover, he was kindly a.n.a.lyzing the pros and cons for Lin Xuanzhi and had just brought up some of his ideas, yet Lin Xuanzhi treated him coldly.
The more Yan Tianhen thought about it, the more wronged he felt and he couldn’t help but purse his lips. He wanted to cry, his eyes reddening.
“He’s clearly the dictatorial one who doesn’t tell me anything and doesn’t even ask me anything, yet he won’t let others talk about it.” Yan Tianhen grabbed Ah Bai, who was nudging his b.u.t.t by his side, and held him in his arms. He rubbed his sour nose a little sadly.
Ah Bai nodded appropriately and even stretched out his small paws to rub the tears on Yan Tianhen’s chin.
Yan Tianhen sniffed forcefully and sobbed, “Do you know how over the top he was? He chased me away just like that and actually asked me to get lost. Wuwu…does he really not want me anymore? If he doesn’t want me anymore, what should I do ah?”
Ah Bai scratched his head anxiously and howled, “Big master won’t abandon small master. He’s just angry, just like how you’re angry!”
Yan Tianhen stared at Ah Bai with teary eyes. “Really? But he didn’t come after me, and he’s not coaxing me either…can’t he just coax me a little? If he coaxes me, I won’t be angry at him anymore. If he doesn’t want to let me go, then I won’t go, but he can’t always prevent me from speaking my mind, wu…”
Ah Bai was somewhat confused. In the past few years as a tiger cub, from what he saw, if one didn’t scratch the other party’s face during a fight, it would already be considered quite good, why would one coax the opponent??
Ah Bai licked his paws, confused, and instantly scrunched up his furry little face — bitter, it tasted bad!
Whenever Yan Tianhen felt wronged, he would always bawl, and when he used to bawl in the past, Lin Xuanzhi would always put him on his lap and coax him gently. He would even buy him a lot of delicious food to make him happy, which was how he spoiled Yan Tianhen until he became like this.
And now, not only was Lin Xuanzhi not coaxing him or making him laugh, but he was also making him cry and feel upset.
Lin Zhan was dead.
No one cared about what he thought anymore.
The days he spent with Lin Zhan were all vivid in his mind. The image of Lin Zhan sacrificing himself to save him was also replaying constantly in his mind; when he recalled all those happy and sad days, Yan Tianhen couldn’t help but feel even more upset, his tears dripping down freely.
He missed Daddy.
He didn’t want Dage anymore.
Dage asked him to get lost. After he did get lost, he could never return.
Ah Bai scratched his head anxiously. He wanted to comfort Yan Tianhen, but he was limited by this body of his and could only howl as he conversed with Yan Tianhen through the contract, but he still wasn’t fluent in the human language and Yan Tianhen didn’t even listen to him.
Yan Tianhen was finally done crying after bawling for such a long time. He rubbed his swollen eyes and looked up. Only then did he realize that it was completely dark.
Yan TIanhen wanted to cry again. He held Ah Bai in his arms. “He really doesn’t want me anymore. It’s been so long since I ran out, but he didn’t come find me. He’s not worried about me.”
Ah Bai pursed his lips as well.
Yan Tianhen stood up and patted the dirt off his b.u.t.t. He sniffed, “Since he doesn’t want me, then I don’t want him too. I won’t go back tonight, I’m going to look for Yuyang Gege.”
Ah Bai jumped down, wanting to run back to report to Lin Xuanzhi, but Yan Tianhen bowed down and pulled Ah Bai back into his arms by his neck.
“Follow me to go stay with Yuyang Gege ba.” Yan Tianhen said bitterly, “From now on, I only have you.”
Ah Bai, “…”
No ah no ah, he still has a younger brother, he still wants his younger brother QAQ!
However, seeing as how Yan Tianhen was this pitiful and fragile, Ah Bai decided to temporarily stay with his little master as a fellow sufferer.
In any case, it wouldn’t take long before small and big master reconciled.
Yan Tianhen took Ah Bai to Duan Yuyang’s residence.
Duan Yuyang was about to go out to look for Yan Tianhen, but he didn’t expect to b.u.mp into him at the entrance. As soon as Duan Yuyang saw Yan Tianhen’s eyes that were so red it looked like he got pinkeye, he was instantly taken aback and quickly pulled Yan Tianhen in, then s.h.i.+fted closer to inspect his eyes.
“Ah Hen, why are you in such a state?”
“Yuyang Gege…wu…” Once Yan Tianhen saw someone he could act coquettish with, he instantly bawled again, “My Dage doesn’t want me anymore, he asked me to get lost!”
Duan Yuyang’s heart ached from seeing him like this. He quickly pulled Yan Tianhen into his embrace and patted his back like he was coaxing a child. “Ah Hen, be a good boy and stop crying. You won’t look nice if your eyes are swollen. What happened between you and your Dage? Tell me first, I’ll straighten it out for you.”
Yan Tianhen sniffed, then stared at Duan Yuyang with teary eyes. “Yuyang Gege, are you going out to attend to something?”
“No no.” Duan Yuyang wanted to go out because he was entrusted with the task of searching for Yan Tianhen by someone. Since Yan Tianhen just so happened to come over of his own accord, there was no need for him to go out anymore.
However, due to the other party’s exhortation, Duan Yuyang didn’t intend to tell Yan Tianhen about it.