Chapter 680 - I’m a Good Person
Edited by Ea and Bree
Yan Tianhen wanted to pretend to be dumb, and his eyeb.a.l.l.s glanced diagonally upwards.
Before he could speak, he heard Lin Xuanzhi say, “I seemed to have said before, if you want to tell lies, then you don’t have to say it.”
Yan Tianhen looked at Lin Xuanzhi, he bit the bullet and said, “It’s not that I don’t want to tell the truth, but that I don’t know how to say it.”
Lin Xuanzhi: “If you want to say it, you naturally know how to say it.”
Yan Tianhen was quiet for a while, squeezed his fingers together, and only then gathered the courage to look up at Lin Xuanzhi. “Dage, do you believe that I am a good person?”
Lin Xuanzhi was slightly startled: “What kind of a good person? In your previous life? Or in this life?”
Yan Tianhen blinked. “I have always been a good person.”
From beginning to end, from ancient times to the present, from the past life to this life, he has always been a good person.
However, how difficult is it to believe in a world-destroying madman who used to be full of words and exterminated an unknown number of unruly creatures?
Yan Tianhen lowered his eyes slightly, and felt bitter in his heart. These were things that he didn’t even believe in, and things that he couldn’t accept, so how could others possibly believe them?
Lin Xuanzhi’s eyes gradually darkened, and after a while, he slowly said. “I have always believed, but you are constantly telling me with your words and actions that I was wrong, and all my trust was just a ridiculous illusion.”
“Heh.” Xuanzhi laughed at himself and said: “Now, you want to say that you were actually forced to do that and was full of hards.h.i.+p at that time? And you think, everything is definitely not what I saw with my own eyes, but something else. Was there a secret?”
Yan Tianhen could not grasp Lin Xuanzhi’s att.i.tude at this time: he felt that Lin Xuanzhi’s att.i.tude was not so friendly.
“I-In fact, when I was the Demon Emperor in my previous life, I cultivated evil Qi and killed people a-a-all because I was forced. In essence, I was still a positive and sunny young man. I-I-It’s just that–” Yan Tianhen stammered. He had never thought he would tell the truth to Lin Xuanzhi before, so he couldn’t speak smoothly at first.
Lin Xuanzh: “Straighten your tongue before speaking.”
Yan Tianhen immediately stretched out his tongue and his eyes became cross-eyed as looked down at his straight tongue..
Lin Xuanzhi glanced at Yan Tianhen and said, “The Rong family has already left. You don’t have to worry about coming into contact with that Daoist Ling Qi and having your ident.i.ty revealed, but in the future you have to stay away from anyone in the Grandmaster Stage, lest they see you have cultivated the evil Qi, and deal with you like an enemy.”
Yan Tianhen’s eyes were stunned, and his eyes almost came out of the frame.
s.h.i.+xiong, how did you even know this kind of thing? When did you know it?
Lin Xuanzhi said: “No need to kneel anymore.”
Yan Tianhen was startled and then rejoiced. Unfortunately, his joy did not last long.
“Go directly to copy the Spirit Sect’s Admonitions, when you finish copying 81 rules, we will leave for Jade Ocean City to meet with your martial brothers and the rest.”
He almost choked with a mouthful of old blood. Rather than copying the Spirit Sect’s Admonitions, he would rather kneel for ten to fifteen days on top of the world’s hardest stone.
After all, kneeling here, he would just feel a little tired, but copying the Spirit Sect’s Admonitions would cause him pain all over.
Yan Tianhen kept complaining, but looking at Lin Xuanzhi’s reaction, he obviously didn’t trust what he said. What can he do? But he’s telling the truth.
Well, he was worried that after Lin Xuanzhi knew of his difficulties, he couldn’t hold back for a while and feel uneasy. Now, Lin Xuanzhi didn’t even believe that he was a righteous man who dared to sacrifice himself for the world from beginning to end. On the other side, Lin Xuanzhi’s face was as black as the bottom of a pot.
“Dage, I did all these things because Dao Zu asked me to do. I also wanted to be like you, like Xi He, and Cang Rong. You were all glamorous and respected and wors.h.i.+pped. But this kind of thing was not something I could choose.”
“Dao Zu was so good to you guys, but cruel enough to me, but he was also helpless, and I don’t blame him for, nor am I complaining about him. Who let my life be so bad since I was a child? All bad things will rush to me. Any good things will avoid me.”
“Dage, I was a good person at first, but who can guarantee that I will be a good person for the rest of my life?”
“…..”
Lin Xuanzhi squeezed the Zhige sword in his hand. There was no truth in Youshan Lingyu’s mouth. But the person who was saying this now was his family’s Ah Hen.
However, Ah Hen and Youshan Lingyu were the same person.
Speaking of it, although he could separate Ah Hen and Lingyu and treat them as two people, he understood better than anyone else that they were actually the same person.
He could convince himself that he didn’t care about what Ah Hen had done in his previous life. Whether it was good or a bad thing, the past was the past. Even if he committed heinous crimes, he had already paid the price with his life.
Lin Xuanzhi has always been a person living in the present; he wouldn’t use the faults of their previous life, and also punish them in this life.
No, in his last life, he was the one who let Yan Tianhen down. If there was no Revert World Mirror, if he had not been reborn in Qing City on the Five Continents, would he never see Ah Hen again?
Lin Xuanzhi sighed softly. Through the bamboo window, which was neither loose nor tight, he looked at the boy lying on the top of the stone, biting his teeth and copying the Spirit Sect’s Admonitions.
He had asked Youshan Lingyu countless times whether he had any difficulties in doing so, whether someone forced him, and whether his s.h.i.+xiong did anything wrong. “You can say it. s.h.i.+xiong will support you. Believe s.h.i.+xiong, I won’t spare any effort to help you…”
But how did Youshan Lingyu answer?
He had an expression that was asking for a beating and said sarcastically that you are trying to control too much. If you don’t want to be nice to me, then don’t pretend to say that you want to help me. This Venerable doesn’t care for it.
In other words — “Who do you think you are? Although your appearance is extraordinary, you don’t want to take off your clothes and lie on the bed of this Venerable and let this Venerable play with you. You’re so beautiful but it’s useless. The Nine Lands aren’t pleasant to this Venerable’s eyes. This Venerable wants all the people to submit to him, and watch the appearance of Spirit Sect’s head disciple kneeling at the feet of this Venerable, hahahahahaha!”
The maniacal laughter echoed in his mind.
Lin Xuanzhi’s breath suddenly sank.
Yan Tianhen was struggling to endure the pain like a thousand whips on his back. He had a hard time writing the complicated divine script. If he didn’t have a firm mind, he would have cried.
Suddenly, a gust of wind blew by. Yan Tianhen looked up and saw Lin Xuanzhi standing beside him without expression.
Yan Tianhen: “….”
Yan Tianhen wailed: “Dage, why should the punishment be increased? I clearly said that I was wrong, I can explain the matter of cultivating evil Qi!”
Lin Xuanzhi continued to be expressionless, the Zhige sword in his hand lightly knocking the palm of his hand.
Seeing that made Yan Tianhen’s eyelids jump wildly.
“I remember, you said you wanted to see me kneeling at your feet and surrender to you?” Lin Xuanzhi asked indifferently.
Yan Tianhen had been kneeling on the ground and his knees had turned soft. He struggled to get up, sweating all over his head. He didn’t even dare to lift his head. He swallowed hard and said, “That… didn’t we agree not to count those old accounts?”
“We won’t calculate old accounts, because if I really counted, I’ll never finish settling all the old debts,” Lin Xuanzhi said softly.
Yan Tianhen almost burst into tears and said wrongfully, “If you settle accounts, even if you count 8 or 10 years it would not be finished, I know I used to be a b.a.s.t.a.r.d. I said a lot of dirty words and did a lot of dirty things. If you don’t want to be nice to me anymore, just say it, I…”
“What are you going to do?” Lin Xuanzhi asked coolly.
“I!” Yan Tianhen lifted his neck and shouted, “I’ll tie you up and lock you up in a small black room so that no one can see you!” After shouting, Yan Tianhen made a vehement gesture, pursed his lips and straightened his spine.
“You sure have ability now.” Lin Xuanzhi pinched Yan Tianhen’s chin and twisted his face toward the lake so that they were staring at each other.
Lin Xuanzhi said, “I didn’t intend to settle the old accounts with you before. The past is the past. Why should I torture myself with the previous things? But just now I thought about some things. I really can’t forget it.”
…..
“You just said that everything you did was forced and you were helpless, but is this true?”
“…Yes.” Yan Tianhen pretended to be deep as he sighed. “Anyhow, it was like this at the beginning.” Not even he himself could tell if this was still true in the end.
Lin Xuanzhi stared at his slightly guilty eyes. After a long time, he said, “But I remember I asked you countless times whether you were bullied, whether someone wronged you, whether there was any hards.h.i.+p, and how did you answer me?”
Yan Tianhen was obviously stunned. He remembered what had happened at that time.
No matter what, Chang Sheng didn’t believe that he killed Dao Zu, that he cultivated the evil Qi, and killed half of Spirit Sect. He didn’t believe that Lingyu wanted to fight against the Taoist orthodoxy in the world and was already a crazed murderer. Despite the dissuasion of the people, he found Lingyu who was being chased and hunted by the people. He didn’t blame him, didn’t look at him with the same hatred in his eyes, but healed him, applied medicine, wiped his face full of dust and blood, and then patiently asked him if he was forced to be helpless or if someone bullied him.
At that time, Lingyu was full of sadness and despair. He only felt that there was no way for him to turn back in the world, and he was full of doubt about the world. But the appearance of Chang Sheng was like Heaven’s redemption.
Lingyu wanted to jump into his arms and cry and tell his grievances, but when he just opened his mouth, he began to feel pain from his heart and spread to all his limbs. A wave almost grinding him on a steel needle and iron plate. The sharp pain of constant friction made him unable to say a word.
The voice of Dao Zu was vivid-
“Lingyu, with my life, swear with your essence blood that you must never tell anyone the truth, otherwise you will suffer heart-piercing and bone-deep pain. The day you tell the truth is the day your whole body bursts and dies.”
He couldn’t say.
He could not betray Dao Zu, let alone let the sacrifices of his predecessors be in vain.
So, he lifted his lips, his expression seemed to cry and smile, and condensed together into a ferocious expression. “I just think that cultivating evil Qi would make me more powerful, that’s all.”
“s.h.i.+xiong, I’m a demon who climbed up from the seven layers of the abyss, you know? Do you know Divine Devils? The most powerful kind of demon.”
“We demons all have black hearts and rotten lungs, and even our hair is black.”
“Although Dao Zu always treated everyone equally, in fact, he despises us demons in his heart. Like you, he preferred Fenglang, the half-demon with a sad life experience. Not only do I want to kill him, but I also want to swallow his cultivation.”
“s.h.i.+xiong, you asked me why I did this. If you had cared more about me, it wouldn’t have come to this today.”
….
Chang Sheng didn’t kill him.
The Zhige sword had been pressed against his neck: But until the end, Chang Sheng couldn’t do it. Chang Sheng asked him more than once, whether he had any difficulties, whether he was wronged, and whether there was another secret.
This was the only person in the world who didn’t hate him, blame him, chase him, and still cared about him even after seeing him kill Dao Zu.
Yan Tianhen lowered his head and said apologetically, “Dage, I’m sorry.”
“I don’t want to hear you say sorry again.” Lin Xuanzhi said, “You have indeed wronged many people, but among them, I was never included.”
“You are included.” Yan Tianhen whispered.
“Just how did you wrong me?” Lin Xuanzhi asked.