Chapter 2104 Xu Zhenyu"s Past And Present Life (9)
It was easier said than done to detoxify.
When she was first addicted to drugs, she locked herself in her room and tied her hands and feet. For three whole days, she went through the most difficult and fragile withdrawal process. Just as she was determined to quit drugs, she was deceived by her family and tricked by ning shuqian, and her drug addiction became worse and worse.
After that, she had been on and off in her drug rehabilitation.
However, none of them had failed.
Not long after Grampy"s death, she finally realized how cold the Wen family was towards her. She also saw clearly the ugliness and greed hidden behind ning shuqian and her daughter"s hypocritical mask. They were vicious and scheming. Having lost everything to rely on, she was pushed step by step into the abyss by ning shuqian and her daughter. In the end, she could only live in despair.
Apart from her own naivety and foolishness for believing in the so-called kins.h.i.+p, the reason she ended up in this state was mostly because of ning shuqian and her daughter"s instigation.
No one was willing to live like this.
As long as there was a chance to struggle, he would not let go of his survival instinct.
If she wanted to quit drugs, it would be impossible to hide it from ning shuqian and the rest.
She couldn"t die yet.
She wanted to live, even if she had to live in such a pathetic, dying, and zombie-like way.
Xu Zhenyu said angrily, " ning shuqian and Xia Ruya, those two vicious women. They"ve already destroyed you for their own greed. What else do they want?! &Quot; Don"t tell me that I"m not even willing to give you a way out?"
Those two women plotted against Wen Xinya and made her the abandoned child of the Wen family, all for the sake of the Wen family"s wealth. Now that they had achieved their goal, they still refused to let Wen Xinya off.
Wen Xinya laughed bitterly. &Quot; because as long as I"m alive, they"ll feel like there"s a lump in their throat. They won"t be able to eat or sleep in peace. &Quot;
To ning shuqian, Wen Xinya"s existence was a constant reminder of the disgraceful fact that she had become a mistress. To Xia Ruya, it was a constant reminder of the fact that Wen Xinya had once s.n.a.t.c.hed away everything that belonged to her, causing her to turn from the n.o.ble miss Wen to an illegitimate daughter, from the successor of the Wen family to an adopted daughter.
Therefore, the more miserable her life was, the happier they were.
Xu Zhenyu was completely dumbfounded. &Quot; I didn"t expect you to be in such a predicament in the Wen family. &Quot; he exclaimed.
He had thought that Wen Xinya had given up on herself because of old Mr. Mo"s death. Little did he know that she was forced to do so.
Wen Xinya smiled sadly. &Quot; Xu Zhenyu, in the Wen family, in the upper-cla.s.s society, and even in this world, I"m all alone and helpless. Grandpa"s greed, grandma"s harshness, Wen Haowen"s heartlessness, ning shuqian"s greed, Xia Ruya"s vicious framing, ning Yuya"s arrogance-everyone"s making the worst of me. I"ve already been forced into a dead end. I sold my dignity in exchange for my life. &Quot;
One wrong step would lead to many more wrong steps.
If she hadn"t been blinded by the sudden kins.h.i.+p, she would still have a chance to turn the tables.
However, there were no "ifs" in this world.
"I also want to live like a human, but I can"t."
After her grandfather"s death, she came to terms with reality and understood her situation. It was true that she blamed herself, felt guilty, and regretful for her grandfather"s death. She had fallen into depravity, but she also wanted to live.
He wanted to live an even more unbearable life.
Xu Zhenyu could not explain how he felt. He pulled her into his arms and said, " &Quot; don"t worry. No matter what happens, I"ll be there for you. &Quot;
This was the only promise he could give her and the only thing he could do for her.
His embrace was not considered thick, but it was very warm and had a hint of minty fragrance. It was clean and refres.h.i.+ng, causing Wen Xinya to be momentarily lost in it.
However, she quickly regained her senses and pushed his arms away. Her murky eyes were sharp. &Quot; Xu Zhenyu, don"t pity me. I don"t need anyone"s pity even if I die. &Quot; Her bright red lips curled up slightly, and her thin face was full of ridicule. &Quot; &Quot; do you think that I"m more pitiful than you, so you can stand in the position of superiority and sympathize with me as you wish? " She laughed with a sinister look on her face, " "Do you still remember what I told you four years ago? For a woman like me, if someone were to treat me even a little better, I"d think that they had ulterior motives."
Wen Xinya then turned around and left without hesitation.
Such a promise to protect with all his heart was indeed very moving and very intoxicating.
However, she didn"t care about the feelings of sympathy at all.
All these years, Xu Zhenyu had indeed been by her side and had protected her. She was filled with grat.i.tude towards him and treated him as the most important person in her life.
However, Xu Zhenyu would occasionally show his sympathy and pity for her, so she could not let down her guard against him.
Xu Zhenyu was shocked. He quickly grabbed her arm and explained, " Wen Xinya, I know you have your pride. I just want to be good to you and take care of you, that"s all. &Quot;
Actually, he was not sure what kind of feelings he had for Wen Xinya either. It was probably just as Wen Xinya had said-it was mixed with sympathy and pity, so it was complicated and deep.
However, she could not deny that he was genuinely good to Wen Xinya.
Wen Xinya suddenly turned around, her thin body exuding a sharp aura. &Quot; "Good to me? Take care of me? How do you plan to take care of me in the future? How long do you plan to take care of me? five years? ten years? twenty years? or a lifetime?"
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In this world, other than a couple, no one would take care of one person for the rest of their life, and no one would be good to one person forever.
Xu Zhenyu was stunned and did not know how to answer her. He had indeed not thought about these questions.
Wen Xinya laughed, her thin face not looking very good. &Quot; &Quot; you and I both know that neither of us can predict the future. My fate is at the mercy of others, and you can"t control your own fate either. You keep saying that you"ll take care of me and treat me well, but in fact, it"s just cheap charity in your boring life. You can"t give me what I want, and at the same time, you won"t give it to me. &Quot;
To be honest, Xu Zhenyu"s feelings for her were not pure, but she was still grateful for him. At least, he was the only warmth in her life.
However, she did not want Xu Zhenyu to spend the rest of his life in such a state.
&Quot; Xinya, you"ve misunderstood me. I ... &Quot; Xu Zhenyu tried to explain, but he did not know what to say.
To a certain extent, Wen Xinya was right. The Xu family was already very displeased with him for hanging out with Wen Xinya all day long. Father had already frozen his bank account. No matter how much he liked Wen Xinya, he did not dare to make any promises to her because he knew very well that it was impossible.