"Evan, what are we?"Evan"s head was spinning from the question. It was such simple one, but it was like a huge bucket of cold water was dumped straight on a cold night on him. His eyelashes involuntarily were batting, without his consent and his hands were starting to get clamy.
Suddenly, he started to sweat buckets. His eyes became unfocused and his grip on his robes with other hand tightened, unconsciously. Aeins.h.i.+a detected his nervouseness and squeezed his hand.
Her heart shattered when she saw Evan in such a state. One side was telling her that he was debating and he was not actually in love with her, that he was only attracted to her. He was not considering a serious relations.h.i.+p, for now. And maybe, he was actually not in love even they were going to be together in future.
While the other side of her was accusing her for thinking that way. It was saying Evan is having hard time in managing his emotions and feelings because of all the royal duties and sudden question caught him off guard.
The two sides of Aeins.h.i.+a were debating on and off and the pa.s.sing moments were causing her to become restless. However, she showing no signs of her internal struggle in her face. She was neutral and observing Evan for an answer.
No matter what, she believed, no she knew, that Evan loved her. She saw it in his eyes. Anything can lie, but not eyes. Evan maybe an expert in hiding his emotions and facial expressions, even the expression of his eyes.
But, the love for Aeins.h.i.+a is never hidden from anyone around him, who knew him well. That"s the reason, his father Alexander, betrothed both of them after asking a confirmation from Aeins.h.i.+a only. That"s the reason of Peter"s constant teasing him about Aeins.h.i.+a. That"s the reason, Aeins.h.i.+a actually fell deeper in love with Evan, again and again.
Unconsciously Aeins.h.i.+a"s hand gripped his hand tightly. Evan sensed this and he turned to face her. He found her looking down at their intertwined hands. He got the message, which apparently made him panic even more.
He then, realized that he took more time, which was giving his love a wrong idea. He slowly lifted up his free hand and raised her chin gently to meet her gentle eyes. He was taken back by the welling tears, which were at bay, ready to fall anytime.
Those eyes now, really looked like deep oceans. The deep thoughts running in her mind and her feelings from her heart were showing clearly in those oceanic blue eyes. To this day, he is still amazed when he sees those blue eyes. They are the most beautiful pair of eyes, he ever saw in his life.
He decided to take a step and finally reveal himself to his love. He hoped that he would find comfort in telling her his true feelings. Her presence was always his comfort, but now he wanted to get things off his chest. He really wanted to show her, the true Evan, who loved her to no end.
Who loved Aeins.h.i.+a with his whole heart. She is the only one ever residing in his heart. Even, if she loved someone else or didnt love him back, he would always be there for her. He would wait for her to love him back.
Everyone loves other with their own intensity and standards. Evan may not show his love openly or express it much, but he surely loved his Aeins.h.i.+a with his whole existence. And he would continue to do that, even when Aeins.h.i.+a won"t love him that much in return.
Little did he know, Aeins.h.i.+a too loved him. Sure, they both loved each other according to their standards and knowledge and intensities. But, love does go beyond all the standards and knowledge. And at the end, all that matters is true love and their understanding towards each other.
Evan then slowly bought his rough palm up to cup her smooth cheek. Aeins.h.i.+a leaned into his touch, both never breaking their eye contact. Silently communicating with each other.
The both lovers were seated under the serene moonlight, seated with each other"s warmth surrounding them like their personal blanket, with contrasting cool surroundings that seem to be silently moving past them, so not to disturb their intimate moment.
This was their intimate moment. Intimacy is always not about touches and kisses and love making. Understanding each other deeply, communicating to build their relations.h.i.+p and showing one"s full support and love towards other is the real intimacy between a couple.
"Aeins.h.i.+a, I....." Evan trailed off. He wanted to say a lot, but situation was making a lump forming in his throat. He just couldn"t speak what"s in his heart and mind.
Could you really blame him? After years of hiding all these within himself. After years of isolating himself from everyone, how can he suddenly open up? Even it is with his future partner, the person he loved so much, he just couldn"t.
He took a deep breath and put all his worries in lock and started to speak.
"Aeins.h.i.+a, I really love you." he said, now turning fully towards Aeins.h.i.+a and holding both of hands in wither of his hands.
Aeins.h.i.+a was happy hearing it. But, she was not convinced. Don"t take her wrong, she knew Evan loved her a lot, but she also knew there was something bothering him. A lot.
Evan was feeling at the loss of words for the first time in his life. Never ever he hesitated with his words. Whatever it is, he would compose himself quickly and would stand his point, but now he was utterly at loss, no matter how much he thought about it.
He drew in a deep breath and faced Aeins.h.i.+a, who was looking at him with expectant and curious eyes. Aeins.h.i.+a was observing Evan"s moves and it was clear that Evan was uncomfortable to tell it to her. It was something that was too personal and he was clearly not ready to tell her.
Although, she was curious on what Evan was going to say next, she didnt want him to feel uncomfortable, with her. If he I not yet ready to share something with her, she wouldn"t force to do it. She knew he loved her and they have so much time in their hands.
As her thoughts revolved around the time, suddenly an image of Evan and Lily laughing with each other flashed before her eyes. Aeins.h.i.+a flinched a bit, which was not really noticeable. "Maybe, we only have time till she arrives." she thought.
This thought almost made her to ask Evan what was it. Or else she could just keep quiet and Evan would naturally tell everything, because he was going to. But, her heart won"t let her do that. She didnt want to force Evan in any way. She wanted him to see her as his comfort, not some annoying partner, who keeps on irritating him.
Evan opened his mouth to speak "Aeins.h.i.+a.....", but the next words were caught in his throat. He was totally frozen in his place, he couldn"t even close his open mouth.