I thought I didn"t have the courage to face him. But I was wrong. I am here, waiting to see him. I started to feel giddy at the thought of seeing the man I loved forever and eternity. A sleek black horse"s ropes were pulled for it to halt by the man over it. I looked up at the man who dismounted the horse. The people were staring at him in amazement as he patted his horse at the neck. He looked up at the doors of the Palace and my breath hitched. His raven black hair was flowing with the light breeze that went by. His body now more masculine and well built from all the training. The sun rays. .h.i.t his cream colored robes in such way it made his skin s.h.i.+ne more. He was dazzling and was in all his glory.
I was smiling while looking at the prince as he made his way towards the staricase.The memory was nostalgic as I remembered my last life before, I opened my eyes to begin my new life. I was smiling while I stood at the top of the grand staircase of the Royal Palace. I was smiling at my love.I was smiling looking at the past.
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Aeins.h.i.+a:
I never had any hard feelings for him. He is the one who always supported from behind without actually showing it. To be precise, he is the pillar of the building named "Aeins.h.i.+a". He always took care of me from behind the scenes. He is the one who covered up all my bad deeds and yet approached me with a smile. He never questioned me why I did. Probably he should have questioned that. Atleast then I would have questioned myself and might not have repeated the same question.
From childhood, he was raised as the next emperor. Emperor shouldn"t show any of his emotions, so he never showed any of his feelings neither through words means nor by his face. Even to my uncle he only fulfilled the duty of a perfect heir as the next in line to the throne. It slowly became as his nature. But. true nature never leaves a person. He also had a beating heart and aching feelings. Unfortunately, no one has seen or thought of the need to acknowledge that.
He only looked at me and took care of me. Only me. Everything was fine from childhood to till I came of age.Taking care, was a small word to describe what he did for me. Even, when I lost my chast.i.ty he raised his voice against all the officials and accepted me as his queen to make me have my status high. I still remember it.He told, "I have the right to choose my woman",and then placed the ring. He proposed me in front of the officials giving the family heirloom ring of his mother,the late empress"s ring to me. Thats when i realized how much he valued me and respected me. Maybe like everyone, even i didnt understand him. I was so happy. Maybe I was happy for the fact that I had regained my dignity that I didnt see the truth in front of me.
But, soon after the neighbouring kingdom sent their princess as the suitable bride for prince Evan hearing the rumors of me. Then the person who always was in my nightmares appeared, Lily Carmondy. He started to become distant to me. Probably that"s why I hated her. I hate her to the core even now. But in this life time if he really chooses her then I am willing to sacrifice my love for him. I don"t want to make him sad for all the good things he did for me back then.
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Continuation:
Evan saw Aeins.h.i.+a standing right next to his father. His eyes could only see her as he continued forward towards her. She stood out of all in his eyes.
She wore a beautiful sapphire blue dress complementing her ocean blue eyes. The gown had pearl-encrusted bodice which is a stunning addition to the gown, they gave a beautiful embellishment that evokes a sense of romanticism giving attention to her. Just a look on pearls and one can say they must be highest quality and are virtually flawless. The pearls are round and had mirror-like l.u.s.ter on the surface. A plunging neck was given to the dress which gave an elegant and decent look.
The most important part of this dress was this dress was diamonds beaded on the shoulders, on the neck line and in the hem line which added emphasis to her bust.
The dress hugged her chest and waist which showed off her perfect figure. The sheets of the silk dress slipped onto her shoulders, peppering her body with soft, sensual kisses. Like a lover, it seduced the senses and conveyed with utmost skill the art of pleasing.
All in all, she looked like a dazzling G.o.ddess. He continued straight to her. He felt happiness blooming inside his heart, his love smiling at him, waiting for his return and dolled up into an angel to visit him. This whole situation seemed surreal, but It was all truth.
How many times till now he dreamed of how she looked like. And now, she is here. So dazzling and beautiful. His heart was pounding out of his chest. He was afraid others could hear his heart beat at an alarming rate.He halted his steps, exactly when he is at a distance of two feet from her.
He eyes looked to her. He felt like he was drowing himself in those eyes of her. The very eyes that conveyed pure and raw emotion of something the young couldn"t point out.
"Ahem!... ", the emperor cleared his throat indicating his son to look pay attention for him too, for the Almighty emperor.
Jolting back to his senses he immediately greeted his father, " Greatings your highness.May you have a long life".
"Excuse the greetings, come here my son". The emperor pulled his son for a hug. He was away from his son for nearly seven years. Only G.o.d knows how much he missed his son.
Prince Evan was forced into a hug by his father. At first he lost his footing by the sudden force but immediately got back his feet on the ground taking control.
Princess Aeins.h.i.+a let out a small inaudible chuckle so as not to interrupt the little moment the prince and the Emperor were having. She now knew the value of the family. So, she would encourage the prince to experience the same warmth from his only family, his father.
The father and son duo seperated eventually with the Emperor having a big proud smile on his face and the young prince having a slight smile.They made their way into the palace. Princess Aeins.h.i.+a walking in between the emperor and prince. She still had a small, cute smile floating on her lips. Oca.s.sionaly, which means for the most of the walk inside, prince Evan took peeking glances at her. The officials were talking among themselves about the party that was being hosted for the night to cele rate the return of the Prince.
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Prince Evan:
I was very happy to her beaming with colours. I always wanted her to smile. It felt like it could lighten up heart with happiness. I dreamed of this day countless times in my life, yet I am not getting the same loving feeling I always got in my fantasies. They say love is in the air, but I couldn"t feel it in here.
But, I necessarily didnt feel the happiness up to its content. Nor the love. I a.s.sumed I was thinking too much and the fact that the princess looked at me.adoringly has led me to the edge. After all, i imagined this to happening when i reach the palace today. But, deep down, the feeling never left me. The feeling that its not what it looks like. She was looking at me but, at the same time it felt very distant. Very distant from my heart. Her ocean blue eyes conveyed a depth of emotions that made me uneasy and comfortable at the same time.
Am I the one who got overwhelmed over my fantasies not realizing the reality?
Was I thinking too much? Was I misunderstanding the whole situation?