Kanakaredes folded and unfolded his six legs. It was disturbing to watch. "I believe that I will try to sleep now," he said, and closed the flap that separated his niche from ours.
The three of us put our heads together and whispered. "He sounds like a G.o.dd.a.m.ned missionary," hissed Gary. "All this "listen to the song" doubletalk."
"Just our luck," said Paul. "Our first contact with an extraterrestrial civilization, and they"re freaking Jehovah"s Witnesses."
"He hasn"t handed us any tracts yet," I said.
"Just wait," whispered Gary. "The four of us are going to stagger onto the summit of this hill someday if this f.u.c.king storm ever lets up, exhausted, gasping for air that isn"t there, frostbitten to s.h.i.t and back, and this bug"s going to haul out copies of the Mantispid Watchtower."
"Shhh," said Paul. "K"ll hear us."
Just then the wind hit the tent so hard that we all tried digging our fingernails through the hyper-polymer floor to keep the tent from sliding off its precarious perch and down the mountain. If worst came to worst, we"d shout "Open!" at the top of our lungs, the smart tent fabric would fold away, and we"d roll out onto the slope in our thermskins and grab for our ice axes to self-arrest the slide. That was the theory. In fact, if the platform shifted or the spidersilk snapped, we"d almost certainly be airborne before we knew what hit us.
When we could hear again over the wind roar, Gary shouted, "If we unpeel from this platform, I"m going to cuss a f.u.c.king blue streak all the way down to impact on the glacier."
"Maybe that"s the song that K"s been talking about," said Paul, and sealed his flap.
Last note to the day: Mantispids snore.
On the afternoon of day three, Kanakaredes suddenly said, "My creche brother is also listening to a storm near your south pole at this very moment. But his surroundings are . . . more comfortable and secure than our tent."
I looked at the other two, and we all showed raised eyebrows.
"I didn"t know you brought a phone with you on this climb, K," I said."I did not."
"Radio? "said Paul.
"No."
"Subcutaneous intergalactic Star Trek communicator?" said Gary. His sarcasm, much as his habit of chewing the nutrient bars too slowly, was beginning to get on my nerves after three days in this tent. I thought that perhaps the next time he was sarcastic or chewed slowly, I might just kill him.
K whistled ever so slightly. "No," he said. "I understood your climbers" tradition of bringing no communication devices on this expedition."
"Then how do you know that your . . . what was it, creche brother? ... is in a storm down there?" asked Paul.
"Because he is my creche brother," said K. "We were born in the same hour. We are, essentially, the same genetic material."
"Twins," I said.
"So you have telepathy?" said Paul.
Kanakaredes shook his head, his proboscis almost brushing the napping tent fabric. "Our scientists think that there is no such thing as telepathy. For any species."
"Then how-?" I began.
"My creche brother and I often resonate on the same frequencies to the song of the world and universe," said K in one of the longest sentences we"d heard from him. "Much as your identical twins do. We often share the same dreams."
Bugs dream. I made a mental note to record this factoid later.
"And does your creche brother know what you"re feeling right now?" said Paul.
"I believe so."
"And what"s that?" asked Gary, chewing far too slowly on an n-bar.
"Right now," said Kanakaredes, "it is fear."
Knife-edge ridge beyond Camp Three-about 23,700 feet The fourth day dawned perfectly clear, perfectly calm.
We were packed and climbing across the traverse before the first rays of sunlight struck the ridgeline. It was cold as a witch"s t.i.t.
I mentioned that this part of the route was perhaps the most technically challenging of the climb-at least until we reached the actual summit pyramid-but it was also the most beautiful and exhilarating. You would have to see photos to appreciate the almost absurd steepness of this section of the ridge and even then it wouldn"t allow you to feel the exposure. The northeast ridge just kept climbing in a series of swooping, knife-edged snow cornices, each side dropping away almost vertically.
As soon as we had moved onto the ridge, we looked back at the gigantic serac hanging above the trampled area of our Camp III perched on the edge of the ridge-the snow serac larger and more deformed and obviously unstable than ever after the heavy snows and howling winds of the last four days of storm-and we didn"t have to say a word to one another to acknowledge how lucky we had been. Even Kanakaredes seemed grateful to get out of there.Two hundred feet into the traverse and we went up and over the blade of the knife. The snowy ridgeline was so narrow here that we could-and did-straddle it for a minute as if swinging our legs over a very, very steep roofline.
Some roof. One side dropped down thousands of feet into what used to be China. Our left legs-three of Kanakaredes"s-hung over what used to be Pakistan. Right around this point, climbers in the twentieth century used to joke about needing pa.s.sports but seeing no border guards. In this CMG-era, a Sianking HK gunship or Indian hop-fighter could float up here anytime, hover fifty yards out, and blow us right off the ridge. None of us was worried about this. Kanakaredes"s presence was insurance against that.
This was the hardest climbing yet, and our bug friend was working hard to keep up. Gary and Paul and I had discussed this the night before, whispering again while K was asleep, and we decided that this section was too steep for all of us to be roped together. We"d travel in two pairs. Paul was the obvious man to rope with K, although if either of them came off on this traverse, odds were overwhelming that the other would go all the way to the bottom with him.
The same was true of Gary and me, climbing ahead of them. Still, it gave a very slight measure of insurance.
The sunlight moved down the slope, warming us, as we moved from one side of the knife-edge to the other, following the best line, trying to stay off the sections so steep that snow would not stick-avoiding it not just because of the pitch there, but because the rock was almost always loose and rotten-and hoping to get as far as we could before the warming sun loosened the snow enough to make our crampons less effective.
I loved the litany of the tools we were using: deadmen, pitons, pickets, ice screws, carabiners, jumar ascenders. I loved the precision of our movements, even with the labored breathing and dull minds that were a component of any exertion at almost eight thousand meters. Gary would kick-step his way out onto the wall of ice and snow and occasional rock, one cramponed boot at a time, secure on three points before dislodging his ice axe and slamming it in a few feet further on. I stood on a tiny platform I"d hacked out of the snow, belaying Gary until he"d moved out to the end of our two-hundred-foot section of line. Then he"d anchor his end of the line with a deadman, piton, picket, or ice screw, go on belay himself, and I would move off-kicking the crampon points into the snow-wall rising almost vertically to blue sky just fifty or sixty feet above me.
A hundred yards or so behind us, Paul and Kanakaredes were doing the same-Paul in the lead and K on belay, then K climbing and Paul belaying and resting until the bug caught up.
We might as well have been on different planets. There was no conversation. We used every ounce of breath to take our next gasping step, to concentrate on precise placement of our feet and ice axes.
A twentieth-century climbing team might have taken days to make this traverse, establishing fixed lines, retreating to their tents at Camp Three to eat and sleep, allowing other teams to break trail beyond the fixed ropes the next day. We did not have that luxury. We had to make this traverse in one try and keep moving up the ridge while the perfect weather lasted or we were screwed.
I loved it.
About five hours into the traverse, I realized that b.u.t.terflies were fluttering all around me. I looked up toward Gary on belay two hundred feet ahead and above me. He was also watchingb.u.t.terflies-small motes of color dancing and weaving 23,000 feet above sea level. What the h.e.l.l would Kanakaredes make of this? Would he think this was an everyday occurrence at this alt.i.tude? Well, perhaps it was. We humans weren"t up here enough to know. I shook my head and continued shuffling my boots and slamming my ice axe up the impossible ridge.
The rays of the sun were horizontal in late afternoon when all four of us came off the knife-edge at the upper end of the traverse. The ridge was still heart-stoppingly steep there, but it had widened out so that we could stand on it as we looked back at our footprints on the snowy blade of the knife-edge. Even after all these years of climbing, I still found it hard to believe that we had been able to make those tracks.
"Hey!" shouted Gary. "I"m a f.u.c.king giant!" He was flapping his arms and staring toward Sinkiang and the G.o.dwin-Austen Glacier miles below us.
Alt.i.tude"s got him, I thought. We"ll have to sedate him, tie him in his sleeping bag, and drag him down the way we came like so much laundry.
"Come on!" Gary shouted to me in the high, cold air. "Be a giant, Jake." He continued flapping his arms. I turned to look behind me and Paul and Kanakaredes were also hopping up and down, carefully so as not to fall off the foot-wide ridgeline, shouting and flapping their arms. It was quite a sight to see K moving his mantisy forearms six ways at once, joints swiveling, boneless fingers waving like big grubs.
They"ve all lost it, I thought. Oxygen deprivation lunacy. Then I looked down and east.
Our shadows leaped out miles across the glacier and the neighboring mountains. I raised my arms. Lowered them. My shadow atop the dark line of ridge shadow raised and lowered shadow-arms that must have been ten miles tall.
We kept this up-jumping shouting, waving-until the sun set behind Broad Peak to the west and our giant selves disappeared forever.
Camp Six-narrow bench on snow dome below summit pyramid, 26,200 feet No conversation or talk of listening to songs now. No jumping or shouting or waving. Not enough oxygen here to breathe or think, much less f.u.c.k around.
Almost no conversation the last three days or nights as we climbed the last of the broadening northeast ridge to where it ended at the huge snow dome, then climbed the snow dome itself. The weather stayed calm and clear-incredible for this late in the season. The snow was deep because of the storm that had pinned us down at Camp Three, but we took turns breaking trail-an exhausting job at 10,000 feet, literally mind-numbing above 25,000 feet.
At night, we didn"t even bother merging our tents-just using our own segments like bivvy bags. We heated only one warm meal a day- super-nutrient soup on the single stove (we"d left the other behind just beyond the knife-edge traverse, along with everything else we didn"t think we"d need in the last three or four days of climbing)-and chewed on cold n-bars at night before drifting off into a half-doze for a few cold, restless hours before stirring at three or four A.M. to begin climbing again by lamplight.
All of us humans had miserable headaches and high-alt.i.tude stupidity. Paul was in the worst shape-perhaps because of the frostbite scare way down during his first attempt at the traverse-and he was coughing heavily and moving sluggishly. Even K had slowed down,climbing mostly two-legged on this high stretch, and sometimes taking a minute or more before planting his feet.
Most Himalayan mountains have ridges that go all the way to the summit. Not K2. Not this northeast ridge. It ended at a bulging snow dome some two thousand feet below the summit.
We climbed the snow dome-slowly, stupidly, sluggishly, separately. No ropes or belays here. If anyone fell to his death, it was going to be a solitary fall. We did not care. At and above the legendary eight-thousand-meter line, you move into yourself and then-often-lose even yourself.
We had not brought oxygen, not even the light osmosis booster-mask perfected in the last decade. We had one of those masks-in case any of us became critically ill from pulmonary edema or worse-but we"d left the mask cached with the stove, most of the rope, and other extra supplies above Camp Four. It had seemed like a good idea at the time.
Now all I could think about was breathing. Every move-every step-took more breath than I had, more oxygen than my system owned. Paul seemed in even worse shape, although somehow he kept up. Gary was moving steadily, but sometimes he betrayed his headaches and confusion by movement or pause. He had vomited twice this morning before we moved out from Camp Six. At night, we startled awake after only a minute or two of half-sleep-gasping for air, clawing at our own chests, feeling as if something heavy were lying on us and someone were actively trying to suffocate us.
Something was trying to kill us here. Everything was. We were high in the Death Zone, and K2 did not care one way or the other if we lived or died.
The good weather had held, but high wind and storms were overdue. It was the end of August. Any day or night now we could be pinned down up here for weeks of unrelenting storms-unable to climb, unable to retreat. We could starve to death up here. I thought of the red panic b.u.t.ton on the palmlog.
We had told Kanakaredes about the panic b.u.t.ton while we heated soup at Camp Five. The mantispid had asked to see the extra palmlog with the emergency beacon. Then he had thrown the palmlog out the tent entrance, into the night, over the edge.
Gary had looked at our bug for a long minute and then grinned, extending his hand. K"s foreleg had unfolded, the mantis part swiveling, and those three fingers had encircled Gary"s hand and shaken it.
I had thought this was rather cool and heroic at the time. Now I just wished we had the G.o.dd.a.m.ned panic b.u.t.ton back.
We stirred, got dressed, and started heating water for our last meal shortly after 1:30 A.M.
None of us could sleep anyway, and every extra hour we spent up here in the Death Zone meant more chance to die, more chance to fail. But we were moving so slowly that tugging our boots on seemed to take hours, adjusting our crampons took forever.
We moved away from the tents sometime after three A.M. We left the tents behind at Camp Six. If we survived the summit attempt, we"d be back.
It was unbelievably cold. Even the thermskins and smart outer parkas failed to make up the difference. If there had been a wind, we could not have continued.
We were now on what we called Direct Finish-the top or bust- although our original fallback plan had been to traverse across the face of K2 to the oldest route up the northwest Abruzzi Ridge if Direct Finish proved unfeasible. I think that all three of us had suspected we"dend up on the Abruzzi-most of our predecessors climbing the northeast ridge had ended up doing so, even the legendary Reinhold Messner, perhaps the greatest climber of the twentieth century, had been forced to change his route to the easier Abruzzi Ridge rather than suffer failure on the Direct Finish.
Well, by early afternoon of what was supposed to have been our summit day, Direct Finish now seems impossible and so does the traverse to the Abruzzi. The snow on the face of K2 is so deep that there is no hope of traversing through it to the Abruzzi Ridge. Avalanches hurtle down the face several times an hour. And above us-even deeper snow. We"re f.u.c.ked.
The day had started well. Above the almost vertical snowdome on which we"d hacked out a wide enough bench to lodge Camp Six, rose a huge snowfield that snaked up and up toward the black, star-filled sky until it became a wall. We climbed slowly, agonizingly, up the snowfield, leaving separate tracks, thinking separate thoughts. It was getting light by the time we reached the end of the snow ramp.
Where the snowfield ended a vertical ice cliff began and rose at least 150 feet straight up.
Literally f.u.c.king vertical. The four of us stood there in the morning light, three of us rubbing our goggles, looking stupidly at the cliff. We"d known it was there. We"d had no idea what a b.i.t.c.h it was going to be.
"I"ll do the lead," gasped Paul. He could barely walk.
He free-climbed the f.u.c.ker in less than an hour, slamming in pitons and screws and tying on the last of our rope. When the three of us climbed slowly, stupidly up to join him, me bringing up the rear just behind K, Paul was only semiconscious.
Above the ice cliff rose a steep rock band. It was so steep that snow couldn"t cling there.
The rock looked rotten-treacherous-the kind of fragile c.r.a.p that any sane climber would traverse half a day to avoid.
There would be no traverse today. Any attempt to shift laterally on the face here would almost certainly trigger an avalanche in the soft slabs of snow overlaying old ice.
"I"ll lead," said Gary, still looking up at the rock band. He was holding his head with both hands. I knew that Gary always suffered the worst of the Death Zone headaches that afflicted all three of us. For four or five days and nights now, I knew, Gary"s every word and breath had been punctuated by slivers of steel pain behind the eyes.
I nodded and helped Paul to his feet. Gary began to climb the lower strata of crumbling rock.
We reach the end of the rock by midafternoon. The wind is rising. A spume of spindrift blows off the near-vertical snow and ice above us. We cannot see the summit. Above a narrow coloir that rises like a chimney to frigid h.e.l.l, the summit-pyramid snowfield begins. We"re somewhere above 27,000 feet.
K2 is 28,250 feet high.
That last twelve hundred feet might as well be measured in light-years.
"I"ll break trail up the coloir," I hear myself say. The others don"t even nod, merely wait for me to begin. Kanakaredes is leaning on his ice axe in a posture I"ve not seen before.
My first step up the coloir sends me into snow above my knees. This is impossible. I would weep now, except that the tears would freeze to the inside of my goggles and blind me. It is impossible to take another step up this steep f.u.c.king gully. I can"t even breathe. My head pounds so terribly that my vision dances and blurs and no amount of wiping my goggles willclear it.
I lift my ice axe, slam it three feet higher, and lift my right leg. Again. Again.
Summit pyramid snowfield above the coloir, somewhere around 27,800 feet Late afternoon. It will be almost dark when we reach the summit. If we reach the summit.
Everything depends upon the snow that rises above us toward the impossibly dark blue sky.
If the snow is firm-nowhere as mushy and deep as the thigh-high soup I broke trail through all the way up the coloir-then we have a chance, although we"ll be descending in the dark.
But if it"s deep snow . . .
"I"ll lead," said Gary, shifting his small summit-pack on his back and slogging slowly up to replace me in the lead. There is a rock band here at the top of the narrow coloir, and he will be stepping off it either into or onto the snow. If the surface is firm, we"ll all move onto it, using our crampons to kick-step our way up the last couple of hours of climb to the summit-although we still cannot see the summit from here. Please, G.o.d, let it be firm.
I try to look around me. Literally beneath my feet is a drop to the impossibly distant knife-edge, far below that the ridge where we put Camp Two, miles and miles lower the curving, rippled river of G.o.dwin-Austen and a dim memory of base camp and of living things-lichen, crows, a clump of gra.s.s where the glacier was melting. On either side stretches the Karakoram, white peaks thrusting up like fangs, distant summits merging into the Himalayan peaks, and one lone peak-I"m too stupid to even guess which one-standing high and solitary against the sky. The red hills of China burn in the thick haze of breathable atmosphere a hundred miles to the north.
"OK," says Gary, stepping off the rock onto the snowfield.
He plunges in soft snow up to his waist.
Somehow Gary finds enough breath to hurl curses at the snow, at any and all G.o.ds who would put such deep snow here. He lunges another step up and forward.
The snow is even deeper. Gary founders almost up to his armpits. He slashes at the snowfield with his ice axe, batters it with his overmit-tens. The snowfield and K2 ignore him.
I go to both knees on the pitched rock band and lean on my ice axe, not caring if my sobs can be heard by the others or if my tears will freeze my eyelids open. The expedition is over.
Kanakaredes slowly pulls his segmented body up the last ten feet of the coloir, past Paul where Paul is retching against a boulder, past me where I am kneeling, onto the last of the solid surface before Gary"s sliding snowpit.
"I will lead for a while," says Kanakaredes. He sets his ice axe into his harness. His prothorax shifts lower. His hind legs come down and out. His arms-forelegs-rotate down and forward.
Kanakaredes thrusts himself into the steep snowfield like an Olympic swimmer diving off the starting block. He pa.s.ses Gary where Gary lies armpit deep in the soft snow.
The bug-our bug-flails and batters the snow with his forearms, parts it with his cupped fingers, smashes it down with his armored upper body segment, swims through the snow with all six legs paddling.