"Oops, my boss is chiming hysterically at me. Bye!"
"Um-wait." He turned to glance at the dull silvery bubble, already bouncing back from its minimum size, but when he turned back, Manda Solomon was gone and it was only the snowy sunset again. "s.h.i.t."
He went to the bubble and kicked it angrily. He couldn"t feel anything but "stop," with his sneaker on. It wasn"t like kicking an object, it was like something stopped you, turned you back toward your own time flow. Just "stopness." It was saying "no" with the stuff of forever itself.
There was no way to look inside it: Once someone crawled in through a pocket"s navel, it sealed up all over.
He turned away, heard something-and when he looked back the pocket was gone and his dad, stinking and retching and raggedly bearded, was crawling toward him across the carpet.
Next morning, it seemed to Wendel that his dad sucked the soup down more noisily, more sloppily, than ever before. His hands shook and he spilled soup on the blankets.
His dad was supposedly forty-but he looked fifty-five. He"d spent maybe fifteen years in the pockets-adding up to only a few weeks in outside time, ten minutes here and two hours there and so on.
Dad sat up in his bed, staring out to the bay, sloppily drinking the soup from a bowl, and Wendel had to look away. Sitting at the breakfast bar that divided the kitchenette from the rest of the room, he found himself staring at the pile of dirty clothes in the corner. They needed some kind of hamper, and he could go to some Martinez garage sale and find one next to free.
But that was something Dad ought to do; Wendel sensed that if he started doing that sort of thing, parental things, his dad would give a silent gasp of relief and lean on him, more and more; and paradoxically fall away from him, into the pockets.
"I was gone like-ten minutes world-time?" said Dad. "I don"t suppose I missed anything here in this . . . this teeming hive of activity."
"Ten minutes?" said Wendel. He snorted. "You"re still gone, Dad. And, yes, there was a call for you. A woman from Endless Media. Manda Solomon. She left her number and a picture."
"Manda?" said Dad. "That flake? Did you tell her I was in a pocket?"
"Right," said Wendel contemptuously. "Like I told her my dad"s a pocket-slug."
Dad opened his mouth like he was going to protest the disrespect- then thought better of it.
He shrugged, with as much cool as he could manage. "Manda"s down with pockets, Wendel.
Half the guys programming virtual physics for MetaMeta were using them when I was there.
Pockets are a great way to make a deadline. The MetaMeta crunch-room was like a little glen of chrome puffb.a.l.l.s. Green carpeting, you wave? Manda used to walk around setting sodas and pizzas down outside the pockets. We"d work in there for days, when it was minutes on theoutside-get a real edge on the other programmers. She was just a support tech then. We called her Fairy Princess and we crunchers were the Toads of the Short Forest, popping out all loaded on the bubble-rush. Manda"s gone down in the world, what I heard, in terms of who she works for-"
"She"s a project manager. Better than a support tech."
"Nice of her to think of me." Dad made a little grimace. "Endless Media"s about one step past being a virtu-p.o.r.n Webble. Where"s the picture she sent?"
"I saved it in the iTV," said Wendel, and pushed the b.u.t.tons to show it.
Dad made a groaning sound. "Turn it off, Wendel. Put it away."
"Tell me what it is, first," said Wendel, pressing the controller b.u.t.tons to zoom in on the faces. It was definitely- "Mom and me," said Dad shakily. "I took that photo the week before she died." His voice became almost inaudible. "Yeah. You can see . . . some of the images are different further into the lattice . . . because our pocket had a tunnel leading to other pockets. That happens sometimes, you know. It"s not a good idea to go down the tunnels. It was the time after this one that. . . Mom didn"t come back." He looked at the picture for a moment; like its own pocket, the moment seemed to stretch out to a gray forever. Then he looked away. "Turn it off, will you? It brings me down."
Wendel stared at his mother"s young face a moment longer, then turned off the image.
"You never told me much about the time she didn"t come back."
"I don"t need to replay the experience, kid."
"Dad. I... look, just do it. Tell me."
Dad stared at him. Looked away. Wendel thought he was going to refuse again. Then he shrugged and began, his voice weary. "It was a much bigger pocket than usual," said Dad, almost inaudible. "MetaMeta . . . they"d scored a s.h.i.tload of them from DeGroot, and we were merging them together so whole teams could fit in. Using fundamental s.p.a.ce-time geometry weirdness to meet the marketing honcho"s deadlines, can you believe? I was an idiot to buy into it. And this last time Jena was mad at me, and she flew away from me while we were in there.
And then I couldn"t tell which of the lattice-nodes was really her. Like a mirror maze in a funhouse. And meanwhile I"m all tweaked out of my mind on bubble-rush. But I had my laptop harness, and there was all that code-hacking to be done, and I got into it for sure, glancing over at all the Jenas now and then, and they"re programming, too, so I thought it was OK, but then ..." He swallowed, turning to look out the window, as if he might see her out there in the sky.
"When the pocket flattened back out, I was alone. The same s.h.i.t was coming down everywhere all of a sudden, and then there was the Big Bubble disaster at the DeGroot plant and all the pocket-bubbles were declared government property and if you want to use them anymore . . .
people, you know ..." His voice trailed into a whisper: ". . . they act like you"re a junkie."
"Yeah," said Wendel. "I know." He looked out the window for a while. It was a sunny day, but the foulness in the water made the sea a dingy gray, as if it were brooding on dark memories. He spotted a couple of little pocket-bubbles floating in on the brackish waves. Dad had been buying them from beachcombers, merging them together till he got one big enough to crawl into again.
They"d talked about pockets in Wendel"s health cla.s.s at school last term. In terms of dangerous things the grown-ups wanted to warn you away from, pockets were right up therewith needles, drunk driving, and doing it bareback. You could stay inside too long and come out a couple of years older than your friends. You could lose your youth inside a pocket. Oddly enough, you didn"t eat or breathe in any conventional way while you were inside there-those parts of your metabolism went into suspension. The pocket-slugs dug this aspect of the high-for after all, weren"t eating and breathing just another wearisome world-drag? There were even rock songs about pockets setting you free from "feeding the pig," as the "slugs liked to call normal life. You didn"t eat or breathe inside a pocket but even so were still getting older, often a lot faster than you realized. Some people came out, like, middle-aged.
And, of course, some people never came out at all. They died in there of old age, or got killed by a bubble-psychotic pocket-slug coming through a tunnel, or-though this last one sounded like government propaganda-you might tunnel right off into some kind of alien h.e.l.l world. If you found a pocket-bubble, you were supposed to take it straight to the police. As opposed to selling it to a "slug, or, worse, trying to acc.u.mulate enough of them to get a pocket big enough to go into yourself. The word was that it felt really good, better than drugs or s.e.x or booze. Sometimes Wendel wanted to try it-because then, maybe, he"d understand his dad. Other times the thought terrified him.
He looked at his shaky, strung-out father, wishing he could respect him. "Do you keep doing it because you think you might find Mom in there someday?" asked Wendel, his voice plaintive in his own ears.
"It would sound more heroic, wouldn"t it?" said Dad, rubbing his face. "That I keep doing it because I"m on a quest. Better than saying I do it for the high. The escape." He rubbed his face for a minute and got out of bed, a little shaky, but with a determined look on his face. "It"s get-it-together time, huh, Wendel? Get me a vita-patch from the bathroom, w.i.l.l.ya? I"ll call Manda and go see her today. We need this gig. You ready to catch the light rail to San Jose?"
In person, Manda Solomon was shorter, plainer, and less well-dressed than the processed image she sent out on iTV. She was a friendly ditz, with the disillusioned aura of a Valley-vet who"s seen a number of her employers go down the tubes. When Dad calmly claimed that Wendel was a master programmer and his chief a.s.sistant, Manda didn"t bat an eye, just took out an extra sheaf of nondisclosure and safety-waiver agreements for Wendel to sign.
"I"ve never had such a synchronistic staffing process before," she said with a breathless smile. "Easy, but weird. Two of our team were waiting in my office when I came into work one morning. Said I"d left it unlocked. Karma, I guess."
They followed her into a windowless conference room with whiteboards and projection screens. One of the screens showed Dad"s old photo of him and Mom scattered over the nodes of a pocket"s s.p.a.ce-lattice. Wendel"s dad glanced at it and looked away.
Manda introduced them to the other three at the table: a cute, smiling woman named Xiao-Xiao just now busy talking Chinese on her cell phone. She had Bettie Page bangs and the faddish full-eye mirror-contacts; her eyes were like pale lavender Christmas-tree ornaments. Next was a bright-eyed sharp-nosed Sikh guy from India, named Puneet; he wore a turban. He had rea.s.suringly normal eyes and spoke in a high voice. The third was a puffy white kid only a few years older than Wendel. His name was Barley, and he wore a stoner-rock T-shirt. He didn"t smile; with his silver mirror-contacts his face was quite unreadable. He wore an uwy computer interface on the back of his neck. Barley asked Wendelsomething about programming, but Wendel couldn"t even understand the question.
"Ummm . . . well, you know. I just-"
"So what"s the pitch, Manda?" Dad interrupted, to get Wendel off the spot.
"Pocket-Max," said Manda. "Safe and stable. Five hundred people in there at a time, strapped into ... I dunno, some kind of mobile pocket-seats. Make downtown San Jose a destination theme park. Harmless, ethical pleasure. We"ve got some senators who can push it through a loophole for us."
"Safe?" said Dad. "Harmless?"
"Manda says you"ve logged more time in the pockets than anyone she knows," said Xiao-Xiao. "You have some kind of... intuition about them? You must know some tricks for making it safe."
"Well ... if we had the hardware that created it . . ." Dad"s voice trailed off, which meant he was thinking hard, and Manda let him do it for a moment.
And then she dropped her bomb. "We do have the hardware. Show him Flatland, Barley."
Barley did something with his uwy, and something like a soap film appeared above the generic white plastic of the conference table. "This is a two-dimensional-world mockup,"
mumbled Barley. "We call it Flat-land. The nanomatrix mat for making the real pockets is offsite. Flat-land"s a piece of visualization software that we got as part of our license. It"s a lift."
"Offsite would be the DeGroot Center?" said Dad, his voice rising. "You"ve got full access?"
"Yaaar," said Barley, his fat face expressionless. He was leaning over Flatland, using his uwy link to tweak it with his blank shining eyes.
"Why was DeGroot making pockets in the first place?" asked Wen-del. No one had ever explained the pockets to him. It was like Dad was ashamed to talk about them much.
"It was supposed to be for AI," said Puneet. "Quantum computing nanotech. The DeGroot techs were bozos. They didn"t know what they had when they started up the nanomatrix-I don"t even know how they invented it. There"s no patents filed. It"s like the thing fell out of a flying saucer." His laugh was more than a little uneasy. "There"s n.o.body to ask because the DeGroot engineers are all dead. Sucked into the Big Bubble that popped out of their nanomatrix. You saw it on TV And then Uncle Sam closed them down."
"But-why would the nanomatrix be licensed to Endless Media?" asked Dad. "You"re an entertainment company. And not a particularly reputable one, at that. Why you and not one of the big, legit players?"
"Options," said Manda with a shrug. "Market leverage. Networking synergies. And the big guys don"t want to touch it. Too big a downside.
Part of the setup is we can"t sue DeGroot if things don"t work out. No biggie for Endless Media. If the s.h.i.t hits the fan, we take the bullet and go Chapter Eleven. We closed the deal with DeGroot and the feds last week. n.o.body"s hardly seen the DeGroot CEO since the catastrophe, but he"s still around. Guy named George Gravid. He showed up for about one minute at closing, popped up out of nowhere, walking down the hall. Said he"d been hung up in meetings with some backer dudes- he called them Out-Monkeys. He looked like s.h.i.t, wearing shades. I think he"s strung out on something. Whatever. We did our due diligence, closed the deal, and a second later Gravid was gone." She waved a dismissive hand. "Bottomline is we"re fully licensed to use the DeGroot technology. Us and a half-dozen other blue sky groups. Each of us is setting up an operation in the DeGroot Plant on San Pablo Bay. And we time-share the access to the nanomatrix. The Endless Media mission in this context is to make a safe and stable Big Bubble that provides a group entertainment experience beyond anything ever seen before."
"Watch how this simulation works," said Barley. "See the yellow square in the film? That"s A Square. A two-dimensional Flatlander. He"s sliding around, you wave. And that green five-sided figure next to him, that"s his son A Pentagon. And now I push up a bubble out of his s.p.a.ce." A little spot of the Flatland film bulged up like a time-reversed water-drop. The bulge swelled up to the shape of a sphere hovering above Flatland, connected to the little world by a neck of glistening film. "Go in the pocket, Square," said Barley. "Get high."
The yellow square slid forward. He had a bright eye in one of his corners. For a minute he b.u.mbled around the warped zone where the bubble touched his s.p.a.ce, then found an entry point and slid up across the neck of the bubble and onto the surface of the little ball. Into the pocket.
"This is what he sees," said Barley, pointing at one of the view-screens on the wall. The screen showed an endless lattice of copies of A Square, each of them turning and blinking in unison. "Like a hall of mirrors. Now I"ll make the bubble bounce. That"s what makes the time go differently inside the pockets, you know."
The sphere rose up from the film. The connecting neck stretched and grew thinner, but it didn"t break. The sphere bounced back toward the film and the neck got fat, the sphere bounced up and the neck got thin, over and over.
"Check this out," said Barley, changing the image on the viewscreen to show a circle that repeatedly shrank and grew. "This is what Square Junior sees. The little Pentagon. He stayed outside the bad old pocket, you wave? To him the pocket looks like a disk that"s getting bigger and smaller. See him over there on the film? Waiting for Pa. Like little Wendel in the condo on San Pablo Bay."
"Go to h.e.l.l," said Wendel.
"Don"t pick on him, Barley," put in Manda. "Wendel"s part of our team."
"Whoah," said Barley. "Now Mr. Square"s trip is over." The sphere bounced back and flattened back into the normal s.p.a.ce of Flatland.
"You forgot to mention the stabilizer ring," said Dad.
"You see?" said Manda. "I told you guys we needed a physicist."
"What ring? "said Barley.
"A s.p.a.ce bubble is inherently unstable," said Dad. "It wants to tear loose or flatten back down. The whole secret of the DeGroot tech was to wrap a superquantum nanosheet around the bubbles. Bubble wrap. In your Flatland model it"s a circle around the neck. Make a new bubble, Barley."
A new bubble bulged up, and this time Wendel noticed that there was indeed a bright little line around the throat of the neck. A line with a gap in it, like the open link of a chain.
"That"s the entrance," said Dad, pointing to the little gap. "The navel. Now show me how you model a tunnel."
"We"re not sure about the tunnels," said Puneet. "We"re expecting you can help us with this. I cruised the Bharat University Physics Department site and found a Chandreskar-Thorne solution that looks like-can you work it for me, Xiao-Xiao?"Xiao-Xiao leaned toward the Flatland simulation, her lavender eyes reflecting the scene.
She, too, wore a modern uvvy-style computer controller. Following Puneet"s instructions, Xiao-Xiao bulged a second bubble up from the plane, about a foot away from the first one. A Square slid into the first one of them and A Pentagon into the other. And now the bubbles picked up a side-to-side motion, and lumps began sticking out of them, and it just so happened that two of the lumps touched and now there was a tunnel between the two bubbles.
"Look at the screens now," said Barley. "That"s Square"s view on the left. And Pentagon"s view on the right."
Square"s view showed a lattice of Squares as before, but the lattice lines were warped and flawed, and in the flawed region there was a sub-lattice of nodes showing copies of the Pentagon. And the Pentagon"s view lattice included a wedge of Squares.
"That"s a start," said Dad. "But, you know, these pictures of yours- they"re just toys. You"re talking all around the edges of what the pockets are. You"re missing the essence of what they"re really about. It"s not that they spontaneously bulge up out of our s.p.a.ce. It"s more that they"re raining down on us. From something out here." He gestured at the s.p.a.ce above Flatland. "There"s a shape up there-with something inside it. I"ve picked up kind of a feeling for it."
Barley and Xiao-Xiao stared silently at him, their mirrored eyes shining.
"That"s why we need you, Rothman," said Manda, finally.
"That"s right," said Puneet. "The problem is-when it comes to this new tech, we"re bozos, too."
"I"ll tell you what I think," Wendel said gravely. "I think you"re lying to them about what you can do, Dad."
It was nearly midnight. Wendel was tired and depressed. They were sitting in the abandoned DeGroot plant"s seemingly endless cafeteria, waiting for their daily time-slot with the nanomatrix. Almost the only ones there. The rest of their so-called team hadn"t been coming in. Manda and Puneet preferred the safety of San Jose while Barley and Xiao-Xiao had completely dropped out of sight. What a half-a.s.sed operation this was.
Wendel and his Dad were eating tinny-tasting stew and drinking watery coffee from the vending machines along the wall opposite the defunct buffets. It was a long, overly lit room, the far end not quite visible from here, with pearly white walls and a greenish floor, asymmetrical rows of round tables like lily pads on the green pond of the floor, going on and on. Endless Media shared the cafeteria with the other scavenging little companies that had licensed access to the nanomatrix. None of the reputable firms wanted to touch it.
"Don"t talk about it in here, son," Dad said, listlessly stirring his coffee with a plastic spoon.
"We"re not alone, you wave."
"The nearest people in here are, like, an eighth of a mile away. I can"t even make out their faces from here."
"That"s not what I mean. The other groups here, they might be spying on us with gnat-audio, stuff like that. They"re all a bunch of bottom-feeders like Endless Media, you know. n.o.body knows jack from squat, so they"re all looking to copy me."
"You wish. It"s good to have work, but you"re going to get in deep s.h.i.t, Dad. You"re telling Endless Media you"re down with the tech when you"re not. You"re telling them you can stabilizea Big Bubble when you can"t. You say you can keep tunnels from hooking into it-but you don"t know how."
"Maybe I can. I have to test it some more."
"You test it every night."
"Not enough. I haven"t actually gone inside it yet."
"Come on. I"m the one who has to put you back together after a bubble binge. It"s great having an income from this gig, Dad, a better place to live-but I"m not going to let you vanish into that thing. Something just like it killed the whole DeGroot team five years ago."
His Dad turned Wendel a glare that startled him. It was almost feral. Chair screeching nastily on the tile, he got up abruptly and went across the room to a coffee vending machine for another latte. Dad ran his card through the slot, and then swore. He stalked back over to the table long enough to say, "Be right back, this card"s used up, I"ve got another one in my locker."
"You"re not going to sneak up to the lab without me, are you? Our time-slot starts in five minutes, you know. At midnight."
"Son? Don"t. I"m the dad, you"re the kid. Okay? I"ll be right back."
Wendel watched him go. I"m the dad, you"re the kid. There were a lot of comebacks he could"ve made to that one.
Wendel sipped his gooey stew, then pushed it away. It was tepid, the vegetables mushy, made him think of bits of leftover food floating in dishwater. He heard a beep, looked toward the vending machines. The machine Dad had run his card through was beeping, flashing a little light.
Wendel walked over to it. A small screen on the machine said, DO YOU WISH TO CANCEL YOUR PURCHASE?.
Which was only something it said if the card was good. Which meant that Dad had gone to the lab without him. Wendel felt a sick chill that made his fingers quiver . . . and sprinted toward the elevators.
The pocket was so swollen he could hardly get into the big testing room with it. Maybe two hundred feet in diameter, sixty feet high. Mercuric and yet l.u.s.terless. The various measuring instruments were crowded up against the walls.
"Dad?" he called tentatively. But Wendel knew Dad was gone. He could feel his absence from the world.
He edged around the outside of the Big Bubble, grimacing when he came into contact with it. Somewhere beneath the great pocket was the nanomatrix mat that produced it-or attracted it? But it wasn"t like you could do anything to turn the pocket off once it got here. At least nothing that they"d figured out yet-which was one of the many obstacles preventing this thing from being a realistic public attraction. "Show may last from one to ten minutes world-time, and seem to take one hour to three months of your proper time." Even if there were a way to shut the pocket off now-what would that do to Dad?
Facing a far corner was the dimpled spot, the entrance navel. On these Big Bubbles, the navel didn"t always seal over. When Wendel looked into the navel, it seemed to swirl like a slow-motion whirlpool, but in two contradictory directions. Hypnotic. It could still be entered.