The sun pierced the topmost boughs of the trees. Over the tender young green of the meadows floated a shadowy haze, and an odour of fermenting slime rose from the damp ditches. Only the fir-wood looked as dark and mysterious as in winter, with scarcely a light-green spike peeping anywhere from its black, bare branches.
He threw himself on the mossy ground and watched the sunbeams glint through the purple haze that hung over the surrounding thicket.
Once again he reviewed the daring enterprise of the last few hours, and the thickly curtained windows of the parsonage recurred to his memory.
How careful she had been to keep herself out of his sight and reach, and how well she had succeeded! Surely she must know what had brought him into the village--must know that to-morrow he would quit it, perhaps never to return.
Had she no longing to see him just once before his departure, and to wish him G.o.d speed? The hour she had told him to wait patiently for, was it not time it came to-day? What availed the letter he wore close to his heart, if the hand that penned it was refused to him? Her image was now quite effaced from his heart; it could no longer lead him to battle, unless the impression was renewed.
"If she loves me, she will send for me. If she doesn"t send for me, she must be lost to me for ever."
Having arrived at this conclusion he left the wood and bent his footsteps in the direction of the river. The park, in its new spring dress of lightest green, smiled him a welcome. A shimmering crown of silver rested on the tall poplars, and the dark ma.s.ses of ivy glistened on their slender trunks.
How beautiful was this home, that had been a source of such infinite pain and sorrow! How his whole being yearned for that impoverished dwelling where he had lodged like a criminal! Was this longing owing to the woman who had voluntarily shared his loneliness and wretchedness, and who had tried to make her own misery the foundation of a new happiness for him?
But he had no reason to fear what was to come. He felt that since the Fatherland had summoned him, he was safe from all weak and vicious instincts. Even long before this he believed he had completely freed himself from her influence. Their relations now were merely those of master and servant.
One more night, and the priest"s curse would be remembered only as an old man"s idle babble. Yet what would become of her? She must look after herself. He had provided for her future. No one could say he was bound to do more. And to-day he would renew his bounty twofold or threefold, so that she would stand in the position of a wealthy widow.
When thousands of women and children would perish of hunger in broken-hearted distress, without any one heeding their fate, why should he concern himself so much about deserting this one strange girl and leaving her in solitude?
He steeled and hardened his heart, for it had begun to beat faster....
And as he mounted the steep ascent to the Cats" Bridge, he caught sight of the familiar figure among the bushes above, illumined by the setting sun.
"Regina," he called. But she did not move.
"Come and meet me, Regina!"
Then with elevated shoulders she slowly glided nearer, the fingers of her left hand outspread, and pressed against her breast.
He looked at her, and was horrified. "My G.o.d!" he exclaimed, "how changed you are!"
Her appearance was wild and distraught in the extreme. Her clothes were torn, her hair, which under the frequent use of the comb had begun to fall into such splendid glossy waves, once more hung over her forehead and cheeks in a s.h.a.ggy, unkempt ma.s.s. Her eyes shone with feverish, almost uncanny l.u.s.tre from dark-blue cavities, and she dared not raise them to his.
"She is pining away," something cried in him. "She will die, because of you." He took hold of her hand and it lay limply in his palm.
"Regina, do speak. Aren"t you glad that I"ve come back?"
She ducked her head, as she had been in the habit of doing when she instinctively expected blows instead of kind words.
He stroked her rough, dry hair. "Poor thing!" he said. "You must have had a dreadfully dull time of it, with not a human soul to speak to----"
She shrank from his touch and was still silent.
"Why did you not write and tell me that you found it so terribly lonely?"
She shook her head, and then said timidly, "It wasn"t the loneliness."
"What was it then?"
She looked at him nervously and said nothing.
"Well, what was it?"
"I ... I thought ... you weren"t coming back."
"But, you foolish girl, didn"t I write and say I was?"
"Yes, you wrote and said, "I am coming perhaps in about ten days," and I went to the Cats" Bridge, and there I waited day and night-day and night--but you didn"t come. And then three weeks afterwards you wrote again, "I shall come home perhaps in about ten days." And you never came, and then I thought you were only putting me off with promises ...
so as not to break it to me suddenly that you weren"t coming back at all. And I thought you repented being good to me, because I didn"t deserve it, and because I----" She broke off and buried her face for a moment in her hands.
"But your letter was so sensible."
"Yes, _Herr_," she faltered. "Would it have done for _me_ to write differently?"
He bit his lip, and stared before him into the lacework of the young green foliage. Did she suspect what would befall her in a few hours?
"But now all is right again, isn"t it?" he asked unsteadily.
With a cry she sank on the ground, and clinging to his knees exclaimed, "Yes, oh yes, _Herr_. When you are here everything is right, everything is different. If you were to go away again, _Herr_, what should I do?"
No, she suspected nothing. The heaviest, most crushing blow of all was in store for her. He felt as if there were a thunderbolt concealed in his sleeve, which the next time he stirred would descend and shatter her to fragments. But he had still time to dispose of as he pleased. A few hours to devote to this poor creature, in which to revive and make her happy again before signing her death-warrant, and in which she would unconsciously gather up strength for the ordeal.
"Stand up, Regina," he said gently. "Let us enjoy ourselves, and not think of the future."
Then they walked side by side through the dusky garden, the neatly kept paths of which were strewn with white gravel, and skirted, like glittering rivulets, the smooth turf. The shrubs exhaled an indescribable fragrance, the breath of spring mingled with the scent of dying things, and in the tree-tops that waved above their heads, they heard the subdued whispering twitter of home-coming birds.
"How beautifully everything has come out here since I went away!" he exclaimed.
"Yes, _Herr_," she answered. "It has never been so beautiful as it is now."
"It has become so all at once?" he asked, smiling. He looked at her sideways and noticed the hollows in her cheeks. But an exquisite colour was already tinging them.
She has begun to live again, he thought to himself, and it seemed as if the next few hours were to be the last vouchsafed to him too of a vanishing happiness.
"In spite of everything, you have worked hard," he said, striving to retain his tone of condescending patronage, and he pointed to the neat borders in which auriculas and primroses were planted.
She gave a proud little laugh. "I thought to myself you should find everything in order if you _did_ come back, _Herr_."
"But you have neglected yourself, Regina. How is that?"
She turned her face away, blushing hotly.
"Shall I tell the truth, _Herr_?" she stammered.
"Of course," he said.
"I thought ... I ... was ... going to die ... and so ... it wouldn"t matter."