Added together, the two vague feelings gave him one which wasn"t vague at all. He wanted to see as little of Baliza as he could manage, because he didn"t want her to see much of him. He"d heard that Geyrna carried more weight on the Council of Nine than any other three members put together. If that was so, the suspicions of anyone who had Geyrna"s ear could be much more dangerous to Blade than even High Commander Sidas"s.
When they got up from the table, Blade headed for the balcony outside. There he might stay out of Baliza"s sight for the rest of the evening. Even if she came out on the balcony, the light there was poor. Baliza"s quarters were on the third floor, and the balcony faced a lightless garden.
Blade was noticing that the garden would provide excellent cover when he heard footsteps behind him. They sounded almost like Baliza"s usual brisk stride, but not quite. He turned. There was enough light to show him that she now wore soft sandals instead of boots. She"d also made a few other changes. She wore a knee-length skirt and a snug top which left her shoulders bare. Blade couldn"t help staring at her fine b.r.e.a.s.t.s outlined under the cloth, and her well-formed bare legs.
Baliza stepped closer. Somehow Blade wasn"t surprised to discover that she was now wearing perfume.
"h.e.l.lo, commander," said Blade, feeling that he ought to do more than stand and wait for her to make her move. "Would you like to go down and walk in the garden?"
"Does it remind you of home?" she said with a smile.
"It reminds me of-somewhere I"ve been before," he said. "Whether that place was my home or not, I don"t . . . know."
"Do you think you ever will?"
"I can"t say. I know that I"m quite happy where I am now. Happy enough not to spend much time worrying about the past." He hoped that would turn her aside from this line of talk before the matter of the truth-seer came up.
He was disappointed. "Perhaps you are happy enough. Certainly you ought to be. You have done well for Kaldak and for yourself. Perhaps you will do even better in time. But what of those you may have left behind, in the darkness where your memory does not go?"
Blade hid his uneasiness. "I do not know that there are any such people."
"So you say."
Blade pretended to be indignant. "I hope you are not calling me a liar, commander. Even from you, I will not take that willingly."
"I do not call you a liar." She stepped closer to him. "I believe you are telling the truth, as you know it. But how much of it can you be sure that you know?"
"Not very much."
She was now so close that he could have taken her in his arms if he"d wanted to. Certainly she seemed ready for it. To Blade"s heightened senses, the smell of her perfume and her arousal together was overpowering.
"Then can you be sure there is no woman, no child left alone in a place you have forgotten, thinking you are dead, grieving for you? Can you?" She emphasized her words further by pressing herself against his chest. Her hair was unbound and it whispered softly as she moved her head.
Blade decided to yield to the inevitable. If he exhausted her with lovemaking, it might turn her aside from this rather alarming line of questioning she was pursuing. He slipped a hand inside the waist of her skirt. It fell on the curve of bare b.u.t.tocks. She was wearing nothing under the skirt.
She sighed with obvious pleasure at the feel of his hand on her. "I am sorry. Perhaps I am asking more of you than you can give. I hope not, though," She giggled, then was serious again. "It is just that I feel sorry for anyone you may have left behind. My mother was killed when I was nine. I wanted for nothing, because I was the Sky Master Blade"s daughter, but-"
Blade tried to say something, and realized that it had come out a wordless croak. He jerked his hand away from Baliza.
The Sky Master Blade"s daughter. His own daughter? But- "Your mother was-?" he managed to get out.
"Kareena, daughter of Peython. As I said, I wanted for nothing. But those who gave me everything else could not give me back my mother, and my father had returned to the sky, this we knew. So I know what it is to be alone. I will not be alone tonight, though. I-Voros, what is wrong?"
Blade was as close to being completely speechless as he"d ever been in his life. The narrowness of the margin by which he"d avoided committing incest with his own daughter did not make for a clear mind or a nimble tongue. Since he doubted he could say anything sensible, he said nothing.
That was a mistake. Baliza seemed to take his silence as a sign he was too aroused to speak. That wasn"t entirely wrong. Blade"s mind was digesting the fact that Baliza was his daughter; his body was still reacting to her as a desirable woman. He had the feeling that in another moment she would notice this fact, and then the fat would really be in the fire!
He took a step backward. Another mistake. She laughed. "Are you afraid you"ve lost interest, Voros? Well, I"ll see what I can do to bring it back." With impossibly swift movements she stripped off her upper garment. Her hard-nippled b.r.e.a.s.t.s had no sag in them anywhere. They would have aroused a dead man-or Richard Blade, if they"d belonged to any other woman in any Dimension. Instead he took another step backward.
Baliza took two steps to his one and pressed herself against him. At the same time she caught up one of his hands and drew it hard against one breast. Blade"s fingers twitched involuntarily. Baliza broke into a giggle as she felt his erection against her.
"So. You haven"t lost interest after all. Neither have I." She pressed harder, until he could feel her nipples through his shirt. She threw one arm around him, and with her other hand fumbled at the catch of her skirt.
In another moment she would be completely naked, and that thought was the end of the matter for Blade.
If the stakes had been higher, he might have let her go ahead. If he would have been saving lives or the Dimension X secret by committing incest, he would probably have done so. Blade"s conscience was not that tender, particularly when the daughter in question was a grown woman, obviously no virgin, and quite ignorant of who it was that she was so expertly seducing.
However, in the present situation there wasn"t enough at stake. Blade"s scruples took over. He jumped back, opening a gap of several feet between him and Baliza. As her skirt slipped off, he put both hands on the balcony railing. She stepped forward, naked and ready, and he vaulted over the railing and dropped into the garden.
Bushes under the balcony broke his fall. They also absorbed the flower pot Baliza threw after him. They did nothing to m.u.f.fle the curses she shrieked after him.
The old proposition that "h.e.l.l hath no fury like a woman scorned" was receiving new proof tonight.
Baliza"s curses followed Blade as he hurried through the garden. Halfway to the back wall, he nearly stumbled over two of his comrades from the dinner party. They were entwined on the ground, busily putting a moonlit night and a secluded garden to a traditional use. He reached the back wall and wasted no time looking for a gate. Five minutes after leaving Baliza"s embrace, Blade was out in a back street, heading back toward the barracks. He would have run, but he didn"t want to attract attention. Also, he wanted to give himself a little time to think about what to do next.
The simplest and most obvious course was to just keep moving, out of Kaldak and into the wilderness where he could hide until the time came to return to Home Dimension. Apart from his dislike of simply running away from trouble, Blade decided that would be too drastic for now.
Once her anger cooled, Baliza might be embarra.s.sed by the night"s incident. In fact, she might be too embarra.s.sed to say anything, let alone retaliate. She might owe some of her rank to being the Sky Master"s daughter, but she didn"t sound like a complete idiot!
If Baliza kept her mouth shut, nothing would happen to Blade. But if in the meantime he"d disappeared, it wouldn"t matter what Baliza said. Suspicion would be aroused, the manhunt would be on, and his position would be precarious, to say the least. So would the position of the Dimension X secret.
The best thing was to go back to the barracks as if nothing had happened. Baliza could hardly take any action tonight. If she made her move tomorrow, he would be more likely to get advance warning of it in the barracks, among his comrades. He could also keep weapons and food ready to hand in case he had to flee, instead of leaving Kaldak with nothing but the clothes he stood up in.
Blade returned to the barracks just as Kabo was leaving for his night on the town. Unable to think of any better way of making things look normal, Blade let himself be talked into joining the party.
He never did find out if the dancers at the Golden Munfan were better than Rokhana, though. He wasn"t calm enough to pay full attention to the first one, and though the second one was definitely not as good as Rokhana, after her act she came over and sat on his lap. One thing led to another, he missed all the rest of the dances, and it was nearly dawn when he got back to the barracks.
Chapter 14.
Blade"s day was so normal that he began to hope he"d guessed right. Baliza wanted the whole night"s episode swept under the rug. He certainly would have, in her place.
He was coming off the firing range when Kabo stopped him. "Voros, the School Commander wants you in his quarters." Kabo both looked and sounded unhappy.
"Any idea what he wants?"
Kabo looked even more unhappy. "Yes, but-well, will you forgive me if I say I don"t want to get my dong caught in the gears along with yours?"
Blade grinned. "If it"s about how I spent last night-or rather, didn"t spend part of it, I don"t blame you. Don"t worry. The ax is still a long way from my neck. It shouldn"t be too hard to jump aside."
Kabo made a gesture for averting bad luck. "I hope you"re right."
So did Blade. He wasn"t as optimistic as he"d tried to sound as he walked to the Commander"s quarters. If Baliza was really going to make a fuss, he would need fast footwork and a very nimble tongue.
The School Commander was sitting behind his desk, wearing dusty fatigues and a bad-tempered expression. Blade saluted.
"Good evening, sir."
"What"s good about it? Never mind. You"ve put your foot in it. Now tell me how you"re going to get it out."
The explanation was brief and to the point. Baliza was charging him with attempted rape. He"d fled after she threatened to scream, but- "What did you say, Voros?"
"Nothing, sir." Or at least nothing printable.
The commander went on. Actual rape meant mandatory truth-seeing and confinement in the meantime. Attempted rape meant a choice of confinement or truth-seeing.
"If I was in your position, I"d go under the truthseer. I won"t call Baliza a liar, but I"d like to get your story, too. Then it"s possible we might get Baliza under the truth-seer as well. Not likely-she"s the Sky Master"s daughter, even if she did take Bairam"s side when he was thrown off the Council. However, Geyrna has forgiven her, so no one dares not listen to her even if they don"t like her. A lot don"t like her, though, and if your story doesn"t support hers-"
The Commander rambled on for a while, repeating things Blade understood the first time. He would have been impatient, but obviously the Commander was trying to talk out his own nervousness over the situation.
Blade saw two choices. He could give his oath to go under the truth-seer, then do it within a day or two at most. Or he could go to prison, and wait in a cell for his trial. If he did the second, he wouldn"t be able to leave Kaldak without escaping from prison. That would attract attention, to say the least. Also, he might wind up under the truth-seer anyway-and he had to avoid that at all costs.
The Dimension X secret really had been at stake last night, but he hadn"t realized it. Oh, well, hindsight was always twenty-twenty. What to do now?
Swear an oath to go under the truth-seer, then run. Kaldak was now much too hot to hold him.
But-run where?
He would be safe enough in the wilderness which still covered much of this Dimension. Uncomfortable, but safe. He would be slightly more comfortable but somewhat less safe among the Tribes, who were in any case a long way off. The same thing went for Monitor Bekror and his estate. The Monitor was surly and independent-minded toward Kaldak. He still might not be ready to hide a fugitive accused by the Sky Master"s own daughter.
That left Doimar. The border wasn"t far, nor was it that heavily patrolled-at least on the Kaldakan side. If Blade pretended to be a defector from Kaldak, he might learn a few of Doimar"s secrets. He might not learn enough to wreck Doimar"s war plans, as he had last time. He might not even learn enough to win back his position in Kaldak-which didn"t really matter, since he wasn"t going to be in this Dimension forever. He could still leave the information in safe hands before he returned Home.
In Doimar, he would be out of reach of Baliza and the truth-seers. The rival city had no such devices. They were said to have telepaths, but that was only a rumor and Blade was willing to take his chances with them. He"d resisted the telepathy of the Wizard of Rentoro, whose mind had been powerful enough to transport him from Renaissance Italy into Dimension X.
Blade became aware that the School Commander was looking expectantly at him.
"Well?"
"Sorry, sir. I"ll go under the truth-seer."
"And you give your word of honor not to leave Kaldak before then?"
"Yes, sir." He"d told larger lies to protect smaller secrets.
"Very good. Dismissed-and good luck."
"Thank you, sir."
Shortly after midnight, Blade left Kaldak. A week later, he was across the border into Doimar.
A week after that, he was in prison in a research laboratory far from the city, waiting to be used as an experimental subject.
Blade stared at the wall and tried to shut the moans of the dying woman in the far corner of the cell out of his mind.
The cracks on the wall stared back.
This was one of the times when the cracks took the shape of a gigantic rabbit with a single huge eye set between its ears. If Blade concentrated on this rabbit long enough, it began to seem about to say something to him.
If he"d thought it would tell him how to get out of here, he would have listened. However, it hadn"t said anything yet. He"d learned more from the surly guards and even from the woman, although she"d been half-mad with pain and fever the first day she was in the cell with Blade.
After a while Blade knelt beside the woman"s sodden pallet and sponged her off again. She looked like a concentration camp victim, her naked body gaunt and covered with the oozing sores of the fever with which she"d been infected.
When he"d finished sponging her, Blade dropped the foul-smelling cloth into the waste can and held a cup of water to her lips. She swallowed it, more by reflex than anything else, and gripped Blade"s free hand in both of hers. She still had the strength to grip painfully hard. Blade put down the cup and let her hold on until suddenly she was slimy with sweat again. The attack of fever was breaking.
At last the woman turned on her side with a little whimper and fell peacefully asleep. Blade sat cross-legged beside the pallet and gritted his teeth. He didn"t know the woman"s name, where she came from or why she"d been sent here. She might even be a criminal. He still knew that if he had to go on much longer watching her die by inches, he was going to go berserk. He would start tearing guards apart with his bare hands, killing them until he was killed himself.
That would be foolish, of course.
The guards were an unpleasant lot, but hardly essential to Doimar"s war effort. He could kill a hundred of them without setting back Doimar"s plan of conquest by a single day. Better to wait until he could take out a few of the key Seekers-those who made up Doimar"s scientific elite.
However, even if he killed Seekers, he would die here in Doimar. What he"d learned would die with him. He might gain Kaldak some time, but if they didn"t learn the danger they faced, would they be able to put it to good use?
Blade doubted it. Kaldak was nearly a democracy; Doimar was nearly a dictatorship. A democracy can catch up with a dictatorship in war if it has the time. If Blade"s theory about Doimar"s plans was correct, Kaldak wouldn"t have the time.
In plain English, the Doimari were planning to bombard Kaldak with ballistic missiles, carrying warheads loaded with deadly germs. Possibly other things as well (nerve gas, nuclear weapons, radioactive dust?), but germs for certain.
The Doimari wouldn"t have been at all happy to find out how easily Blade learned their secret. The night they brought him to the research complex, he"d seen an unmistakable gantry crane on the horizon. He"d heard the equally unmistakable sound of large rockets being fired several times. (And now he understood the secret of the Doimari base he"d surprised. It was a ranging and tracking station for the missiles; the craters around it were from test missiles or warheads.) Blade had been brought to this cell in the research complex to act as a guinea pig in the test for new strains of deadly germs. He found this out from the guards who"d brought the woman in and had wondered out loud if she would infect him.
"Probably," said one. "Does it matter?"
"I don"t bet either way. I"ve heard they"re ready with Culture S, so they may not need any more tests."
"Maybe. But this one-he looks like a fighter. Suppose they want to find out how long he can handle a weapon with S in him? That"s something could mean your a.r.s.e and mine when the Day comes."
"All right. But we"d better shout the first thing he shows any sores."
"He"ll shout loud enough. You ever heard anyone in first stage?"
"No."
"You don"t want to, either."
The guards went out, and the last piece of the Doimari puzzle fell into place for Blade.
Although Blade"s deductions would have surprised the Doimari, they wouldn"t have surprised J. He knew that Blade was an exceptionally keen observer, even by the standards of a profession whose members had to be rather sharper than the average if they were to live long enough to draw their pensions or even justify much of their not too generous salaries. Blade treasured a remark pa.s.sed on to him by a friend who"d overheard J say, "Richard is in a cla.s.s by himself awake. He"s fairly good sound asleep. And frankly, I wouldn"t care to reveal any secrets in the same room as his corpse."
Unfortunately the Doimari weren"t being hospitable to "defectors" from Kaldak. Of course Blade couldn"t have known that. He"d had to run, and even though getting captured and put into the Doimari research complex hadn"t kept him from figuring out what they were up to, it would probably keep him from doing any vital damage. It would almost certainly keep him from getting a warning to Kaldak. That could make his trip just as useless as if he"d been shot dead the minute he stepped across the frontier!
Blade went over to his own pallet and lay down on it. It looked as if this trip to Dimension X was going to end in the same sort of confusion and frustration as it began. The only trouble was, he was probably going to end along with it.
It was time to get his own sleep, while the woman was between bouts of fever. It seemed to help her if he was sitting beside her. If he could do nothing else, he could try to see she didn"t die alone. There were worse ways of spending his own last days.
Blade was awakened by the cell door crashing open. Four guards with drawn pistols tramped in. The pistols weren"t lasers but heavy revolvers, with as much stopping power as a Home Dimension Magnum. They could disable a man even if they didn"t hit him in a vital spot.