Rhoda was vexed by Robert"s devotion to his strength. She was going, and wished to go, but she wished to be regretted as well; and she looked at him more. He, on the contrary, scarcely looked at her at all. He threw verbal turnips, oats, oxen, poultry, and every possible melancholy matter-of-fact thing, about the table, described the farm and his fondness for it and the neighbourhood; said a farmer"s life was best, and gave Rhoda a week in which to be tired of London.
She sneered in her soul, thinking "how little he knows of the constancy in the nature of women!" adding, "when they form attachments."
Anthony was shown at church, in spite of a feeble intimation he expressed, that it would be agreeable to him to walk about in the March sunshine, and see the grounds and the wild flowers, which never gave trouble, nor cost a penny, and were always pretty, and worth twenty of your artificial contrivances.
"Same as I say to Miss Dahly," he took occasion to remark; "but no!--no good. I don"t believe women hear ye, when you talk sense of that kind.
"Look," says I, "at a violet." "Look," says she, "at a rose." Well, what can ye say after that? She swears the rose looks best. You swear the violet costs least. Then there you have a battle between what it costs and how it looks."
Robert p.r.o.nounced a conventional affirmative, when called on for it by a look from Anthony. Whereupon Rhoda cried out,--
"Dahlia was right--she was right, uncle."
"She was right, my dear, if she was a ten-thousander. She wasn"t right as a farmer"s daughter with poor expectations.--I"d say humble, if humble she were. As a farmer"s daughter, she should choose the violet side. That"s clear as day. One thing"s good, I admit; she tells me she makes her own bonnets, and they"re as good as milliners", and that"s a proud matter to say of your own niece. And to buy dresses for herself, I suppose, she"s sat down and she made dresses for fine ladies. I"ve found her at it. Save the money for the work, says I. What does she reply--she always has a reply: "Uncle, I know the value of money better. "You mean, you spend it," I says to her. "I buy more than it"s worth," says she.
And I"ll tell you what, Mr. Robert Armstrong, as I find your name to be, sir; if you beat women at talking, my lord! you"re a clever chap."
Robert laughed. "I give in at the first mile."
"Don"t think much of women--is that it, sir?"
"I"m glad to say I don"t think of them at all."
"Do you think of one woman, now, Mr. Robert Armstrong?"
"I"d much rather think of two."
"And why, may I ask?"
"It"s safer."
"Now, I don"t exactly see that," said Anthony.
"You set one to tear the other," Robert explained.
"You"re a Grand Turk Mogul in your reasonings of women, Mr. Robert Armstrong. I hope as your morals are sound, sir?"
They were on the road to church, but Robert could not restrain a swinging outburst.
He observed that he hoped likewise that his morals were sound.
"Because," said Anthony, "do you see, sir, two wives--"
"No, no; one wife," interposed Robert. "You said "think about;" I"d "think about" any number of women, if I was idle. But the woman you mean to make your wife, you go to at once, and don"t "think about" her or the question either."
"You make sure of her, do you, sir?"
"No: I try my luck; that is all."
"Suppose she won"t have ye?"
"Then I wait for her."
"Suppose she gets married to somebody else?"
"Well, you know, I shouldn"t cast eye on a woman who was a fool."
"Well, upon my--" Anthony checked his exclamation, returning to the charge with, "Just suppose, for the sake of supposing--supposing she was a fool, and gone and got married, and you thrown back"ard on one leg, starin" at the other, stupified-like?"
"I don"t mind supposing it," said Robert. "Say, she"s a fool. Her being a fool argues that I was one in making a fool"s choice. So, she jilts me, and I get a pistol, or I get a neat bit of rope, or I take a clean header with a cannon-ball at my heels, or I go to the chemist"s and ask for stuff to poison rats,--anything a fool"d do under the circ.u.mstances, it don"t matter what."
Old Anthony waited for Rhoda to jump over a stile, and said to her,--
"He laughs at the whole lot of ye."
"Who?" she asked, with betraying cheeks.
"This Mr. Robert Armstrong of yours."
"Of mine, uncle!"
"He don"t seem to care a snap o" the finger for any of ye."
"Then, none of us must care for him, uncle."
"Now, just the contrary. That always shows a young fellow who"s attending to his business. If he"d seen you boil potatoes, make dumplings, beds, tea, all that, you"d have had a chance. He"d have marched up to ye before you was off to London."
"Saying, "You are the woman."" Rhoda was too desperately tickled by the idea to refrain from uttering it, though she was angry, and suffering internal discontent. "Or else, "You are the cook,"" she muttered, and shut, with the word, steel bars across her heart, calling him, mentally, names not justified by anything he had said or done--such as mercenary, tyrannical, and such like.
Robert was attentive to her in church. Once she caught him with his eyes on her face; but he betrayed no confusion, and looked away at the clergyman. When the text was given out, he found the place in his Bible, and handed it to her pointedly--"There shall be snares and traps unto you;" a line from Joshua. She received the act as a polite pawing civility; but when she was coming out of church, Robert saw that a blush swept over her face, and wondered what thoughts could be rising within her, unaware that girls catch certain meanings late, and suffer a fiery torture when these meanings are clear to them. Rhoda called up the pride of her womanhood that she might despise the man who had dared to distrust her. She kept her poppy colour throughout the day, so sensitive was this pride. But most she was angered, after reflection, by the doubts which Robert appeared to cast on Dahlia, in setting his finger upon that burning line of Scripture. It opened a whole black kingdom to her imagination, and first touched her visionary life with shade. She was sincere in her ignorance that the doubts were her own, but they lay deep in unawakened recesses of the soul; it was by a natural action of her reason that she transferred and forced them upon him who had chanced to make them visible.
CHAPTER V
When young minds are set upon a distant object, they scarcely live for anything about them. The drive to the station and the parting with Robert, the journey to London, which had latterly seemed to her secretly-distressed antic.i.p.ation like a sunken city--a place of wonder with the waters over it--all pa.s.sed by smoothly; and then it became necessary to call a cabman, for whom, as he did her the service to lift her box, Rhoda felt a gracious respect, until a quarrel ensued between him and her uncle concerning sixpence;--a poor sum, as she thought; but representing, as Anthony impressed upon her understanding during the conflict of hard words, a principle. Those who can persuade themselves that they are fighting for a principle, fight strenuously, and maybe reckoned upon to overmatch combatants on behalf of a miserable small coin; so the cabman went away discomfited. He used such bad language that Rhoda had no pity for him, and hearing her uncle style it "the London tongue," she thought dispiritedly of Dahlia"s having had to listen to it through so long a season. Dahlia was not at home; but Mrs.
Wicklow, Anthony"s landlady, undertook to make Rhoda comfortable, which operation she began by praising dark young ladies over fair ones, at the same time shaking Rhoda"s arm that she might not fail to see a compliment was intended. "This is our London way," she said. But Rhoda was most disconcerted when she heard Mrs. Wicklow relate that her daughter and Dahlia were out together, and say, that she had no doubt they had found some pleasant and attentive gentleman for a companion, if they had not gone purposely to meet one. Her thoughts of her sister were perplexed, and London seemed a gigantic net around them both.
"Yes, that"s the habit with the girls up here," said Anthony; "that"s what fine bonnets mean."
Rhoda dropped into a bitter depth of brooding. The savage nature of her virgin pride was such that it gave her great suffering even to suppose that a strange gentleman would dare to address her sister. She half-fashioned the words on her lips that she had dreamed of a false Zion, and was being righteously punished. By-and-by the landlady"s daughter returned home alone, saying, with a dreadful laugh, that Dahlia had sent her for her Bible; but she would give no explanation of the singular mission which had been entrusted to her, and she showed no willingness to attempt to fulfil it, merely repeating, "Her Bible!" with a vulgar exhibition of simulated scorn that caused Rhoda to shrink from her, though she would gladly have poured out a mult.i.tude of questions in the ear of one who had last been with her beloved. After a while, Mrs.
Wicklow looked at the clock, and instantly became overclouded with an extreme gravity.
"Eleven! and she sent Mary Ann home for her Bible. This looks bad. I call it hypocritical, the idea of mentioning the Bible. Now, if she had said to Mary Ann, go and fetch any other book but a Bible!"
"It was mother"s Bible," interposed Rhoda.
Mrs. Wicklow replied: "And I wish all young women to be as innocent as you, my dear. You"ll get you to bed. You"re a dear, mild, sweet, good young woman. I"m never deceived in character."