When she was done speaking she looked away and asked him, "Yos.h.i.+no, why did you sleep with someone else when I was already yours, was I not good enough for you?"Yos.h.i.+no rested both of his elbows on his legs and had his face placed inside his palms.
You could hear that he was crying but couldn"t see it.
He leaned back against the bench and wiped his tears and started opening up about the past.
"Back then, you truly were my everything and I wors.h.i.+p you, I think it all started when Erina was introduced to us, I could see that she was trying to get with me and at first I didn"t respond to her but then the one day we were alone at home and I didn"t stop her from giving me a b.l.o.w. .j.o.b, I myself was curious for a very long time about how it would be with other girls but never had the courage to cheat on you but then that day when she started seducing me, I let her because I wanted to experience it."
Yos.h.i.+no looked at t.i.tania but she was not looking at him, she was looking at the birds that were on the ground in front of them on the rose bushes.
He sighed and continued: "After that she continued to pester me and said that it was unfair to her that I got something out of it and she received nothing, I felt a bit guilty because me pretending that it never happened made me feel like an a.s.shole, so I started entertaining her more and then I woke up naked next to her the one morning and couldn"t remember anything that happened, but I guessed that we slept together because she was also naked.
She told me I was her first and I didn"t believe her, but I did feel guilty, that day I went home and you were already asleep, I wanted to tell you what happened but I didn"t because I did not want you to get hurt because of me, so I thought that if you never found out, you wouldn"t get hurt and that"s when I started pretending nothing happened.
I continued to see Erina and thought it would be okay if I could continue to mess around with her and just relieve myself whenever I wanted to, when I couldn"t be with you, so with that thought I slept with her again and after entering her I realised that it felt so unfamiliar inside her.
Because the second time you and I made love, I instantly recognized the inside of your body.
I knew that then and there I f.u.c.ked up.
I realized that this was the first time we had s.e.x.
I never continued and got dressed and left.
I was furious with myself, that day I had a feeling that I should go get myself tested for drugs but I let it slide and thought that idea was nonsense.
After a while, I returned home and was with you again but then work and varsity got hectic and she would always show up.
Eventually, I stopped fighting her and left her to do what she wanted and this time I really did have s.e.x with her, I figured that since she was using my money I should get something in return and because of this I barely went back home."
Yos.h.i.+no sighed after recalling all of this and decided to stop for a while.
t.i.tania, listened to every word he said and the tears fell from her eye continuously, she didn"t stop Yos.h.i.+no from speaking and did not get up to leave, even though she was feeling hurt.
The crickets started making a noise and one, in particular, was near them in a pot plant and that insect was making so much noise that Yos.h.i.+no and t.i.tania grew slightly p.i.s.sed off.
They both looked at each other then looked at the pot plant where the noise was coming from and Yos.h.i.+no got up and kicked over the pot plant and walked back to t.i.tania and held out his hand.
She placed her hand on his and he helped her up.
They walked back to the room she woke up in and Yos.h.i.+no helped her into bed and laid down beside her.
They looked into each other"s eyes and didn"t say a word to each other for a while.
20 minutes later Yos.h.i.+no asked if he should continue and she nodded her head.
"That day when I was supposed to pick you up I was at Erina"s place, I told her I needed to pick you up, she agreed and told me I should hurry up after I fetch you and return to her.
This was still in the morning, at first I thought she would be angry because I knew that she didn"t like you, so as the day was going on I fell asleep and didn"t hear my alarm go off and I found myself waking up in the middle of the night and I realized that I fell asleep and forgot about you, so I rushed back home to check if you were there and as soon as I got home I felt a bit dizzy and that"s when I was woken up by the housekeeper and asked about you… the next day I went to the hospital to test if I was drugged and they found a drug in my system.
I confronted Erina about it and she acted all innocent and I couldn"t do anything about it because I had no evidence.
Then I got a call from my father telling me to rush home because something happened, at first I thought something happened to you so I did rush home but only to find Erina and her parents there and they tell me she"s pregnant.
I was frightened when I heard this because I didn"t want you to find out about us and when I did tell you about it you rubbed it off as not giving a s.h.i.+t.
Then you and the whole abortion story happened, my heart was really broken, I know I can"t make up for the past and give you back what I took from you and sorry won"t make up for anything.
To have you here with me right now is what I"ve wanted the most over the years.
I meant it when I said you are the only woman I love, my heart has been closed to others, there isn"t a place for anyone in my heart beside you, the triplets and Hi..ka..ri"
Yos.h.i.+no closed his eyes and fell asleep.
His last sentence shocked t.i.tania and she tried to wake him up, she wanted to know what he meant, it was understandable for her to be in his heart but didn"t she just tell him about the triplets and how does he know about Hikari? What in the world is going on?? Why does THIS PERSON know?