Rich Sex

As I waited in the waiting room, there was a poster advertising abortion.

I read the contents and the thought ran through my mind.

During the consultation, I asked her about it and she told me it is an option.

I was handed a few more pamphlets about it and counselling and some other s.h.i.+t.

I read all of it and chucked it away when I got home but anyways close to the end of that month I told myself, "I"m going to wait a little longer and give him another chance."

So I woke up feeling happy and all, so I decided to go out, go out shopping by myself.

There is this dress I had that was bought by Yos.h.i.+no and I never wore it but on that day I did, I dressed myself up, let my hair hang loose and asked Yos.h.i.+no"s father for money.

He gave me some and he had one of his employees drop me off at the mall, so as I"m walking around window shopping, I go into this store selling clothes and looked around.

I looked around the store and stopped when I came to the baby section.

I looked around at all the things they sold and fell in love.

I saw this beautiful pair of shoes, jacket, beanie, gloves, socks and a crawler.

They came together in a bundle and I purchased it feeling happy and thinking about the little one growing inside of me.

As I exited the shop I heard a male voice scream "Yos.h.i.+no" to the right and I looked over and guess what.

There he was.

My baby"s father.

Yashuharu Yos.h.i.+no.

I smiled when I saw him and walked over; after taking five steps I stopped and froze.

He was holding b.i.t.c.h nee-san"s hand… fingers locked and looking at her smiling from ear to ear.

My heart literally felt like something was clenching on it, trying to squeeze it into nothing.

They walked into the distance and I tried calling for him but the words never left my mouth.

I walked towards them and the two of them separated from the group and went into a clothing store together.

When I entered I looked all over for him and finally found him outside the changing rooms.

I walked up to him and pulled on his s.h.i.+rt to get his attention.

He turned around and looked at me.

He smiled and asked me: "Can I help you?"

We stood there looking at each other for a moment then b.i.t.c.h nee-san came out and called him.

He looked back at her and smiled again, and said to her "You look beautiful, try the other one."

And left me standing there.

I looked at his departing back and had nothing running through my mind.

I felt someone grab my arm and turned me around, this person was Yos.h.i.+no"s youngest friend Kae.

Kae looked at me and his eyes widened.

He looked at Yos.h.i.+no, then back at me and pulled me out of the store and we walked back to the house.

On the way, it was silent, I could see he wanted to say something but stopped himself every time.

The two of us were somewhat close, well I knew his biggest secret that no one else knew.

Anyways, when we got home, he looked at me and asked: "Are you okay?"

I nodded my head and bowed to him and entered the house and went to my room.

The room Yos.h.i.+no and I shared.

I threw the package I had in my hand down and took off the dress and took a bath.

When I came back Kae was there.

He watched me dress then sat down next to me and gave me a hug.

I cried.

I cried my heart out in his arms.

I cried myself to sleep and woke up the next day with Yos.h.i.+no next to me.

When I saw his face, I quickly got out of bed and ran to the lounge and sat there.

I didn"t want to be near him, I was scared of him and it felt disgusting being near him.

The housekeeper came into the lounge and asked me what the problem was and I shrugged it off.

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Breakfast time we all sat at the table and Yos.h.i.+no looked at me and squinted his eyes.

As I looked back at him, I remembered what happened the day before and lost my appet.i.te.

I looked at my plate thinking, "He didn"t recognize me yesterday, does he no longer love me?"

After breakfast, I sat on the bed and stared at the ceiling, thinking about all the events that led up to today and he walked into the room, fresh out of the shower.

He opened the wardrobe door and the dress I wore the previous day fell out and he picked it up and said to me: "Ty-chan, I saw a girl wearing this dress yesterday, when do you plan on wearing it?"

I turned my body around to face the wall and the tears started pouring down my face.

He got dressed and came to lay down behind me and wrapped his arms around me and said: "I miss you."

He stayed silent and he asked, "Do you still love me?"

I said: "No."

He rubbed his nose on my neck and sighed, he wrapped his arms around me tighter and asked me: "Do you really mean that?"

I kept silent and he continued: "I"m sorry I haven"t been with you, university and work are keeping me busy."

Hearing this made me angry and I said, "If you are so busy, then why are you here? I told you I don"t love you so f.u.c.k off!!!"

(Haha)

I"m sorry, that was what I wanted to say but at that moment I chose to remain silent.

After getting no response from me he left.

I got up and went to the clinic, to book a day for the abortion.