The next day I went to the clinic and told her I"m going through with the abortion, she tried convincing me otherwise but I made up my mind already.Then I went to mama Mei"s house and Yos.h.i.+no and his father were there.
I looked at her and her eyes were red, you could see she cried and you could see how angry she was; I greeted everyone and Yos.h.i.+no called me to the backroom to speak.
We sat opposite each other and he spoke.
Yos.h.i.+no: "Ty-chan, there"s something I need to tell you."
I looked at him.
Yos.h.i.+no: "Erina"s pregnant with my child."
Me: "Okay."
He looked at me and squinted his eyes and opened his mouth and asked: "Is that all you"re going to say."
Me: "What do you want me to say?"
Yos.h.i.+no: "Say something!"
Me: "Be specific."
Yos.h.i.+no: "I don"t know, swear me if you want to."
Me: "Why would I do that?"
Yos.h.i.+no: "Well because… Erina"s pregnant with my child."
I stood up and tried leaving but he grabbed me and pulled me into his arms and said: "Please say something."
I looked into his eyes and said: "I know you don"t love me so stop pretending."
He looked at me and loosened his grip, I got up and walked out.
I went to the kitchen and got me something to eat and drink, then went to the lounge.
When I got to the lounge, the three of them looked at me and Yos.h.i.+no"s father asked me: "Why didn"t you let Yos.h.i.+no finish?"
Me: "Finish what?"
"He wanted to have a serious conversation with you and you left."
I looked back at Yos.h.i.+no and he wasn"t looking at me, he was looking down at the floor and I walked up to him and stood in front of him and said to him: "I hate you."
He looked at me with widened eyes and I threw my bottle of water at him and walked out.
I didn"t go far, I stopped on the porch and sat down on a chair.
I heard a slap come from inside the house and my head started pounding.
I leaned forward on the chair over my knees and looked at my toes, my toenails were long so I went back into mama Mei"s room and got a nail clipper and started tr.i.m.m.i.n.g my nails.
Yos.h.i.+no"s father came into the room and closed the door behind him, I looked at his face and there were no red marks, I guess Yos.h.i.+no was the one who received the slap.
He looked at me with a puzzled expression, then sat down next to me and started talking to me: "Min Hee?"
Me: "Yes father?"
"Leave what you are doing and listen to what I have to say."
I looked at him, then continued to clip my nails.
"(Sigh) Did you understand what Yos.h.i.+no said?"
Me: "Mn"
"Is there something you wish to say about it?"
Me: "There is but…"
"But?"
I looked at him and sighed, I wasn"t someone who spoke much and for me, it seemed like this father of mine wanted me to just say something.
I got up, walked to the door and looked at Yos.h.i.+no, he was standing in the middle of the lounge looking at the ceiling.
Me: "Yos.h.i.+no!"
Yos.h.i.+no looked back at me anxiously and I continued: "I lied"
Yos.h.i.+no: "Lied about what?"
Me: "I don"t hate you."
He bit his bottom lip and I continued.
Me: "Being with you made me feel disgusted, I"m glad she"s pregnant with your child, now I don"t have to marry you because of the arrangement between our fathers, I want you to get out of my sight, the sight of you makes me sick to my stomach."
My heart was screaming!!!
This is not what I wanted to say.
His mother looked at me in shock.
And Yos.h.i.+no, tears started falling from his eyes, I knew he loved me but I… I don"t know.
I really don"t.
I looked back at his father and smile as I said: "Are you happy now?"
He looked at me with shock written all over his face.
I walked to the kitchen to get another bottle of water, then went to the spare room and closed the door behind me.
About 5 minutes later I heard a car pull away and mama Mei came into the room.
The minute I saw her, I broke down, I couldn"t keep calm any longer and cried my heart out.
It was bad, mama Mei didn"t know what to do and ended up crying with me.