ONE WAY OF LOVE 1855
I
All June I bound the rose in sheaves.
Now, rose by rose, I strip the leaves And strew them where Pauline may pa.s.s.
She will not turn aside? Alas!
Let them lie. Suppose they die?
The chance was they might take her eye,
II.
How many a month I strove to suit These stubborn fingers to the lute!
To-day I venture all I know.
She will not hear my music? So!
Break the string; fold music"s wing: Suppose Pauline had bade me sing!
III.
My whole life long I learned to love.
This hour my utmost art I prove And speak my pa.s.sion--heaven or h.e.l.l?
She will not give me heaven? "Tis well!
Lose who may--I still can say, Those who win heaven, blest are they!
THE LAST RIDE TOGETHER
1855
I
I said--Then, dearest, since "tis so, Since now at length my fate I know, Since nothing all my love avails, Since all, my life seemed meant for, fails, Since this was written and needs must be-- My whole heart rises up to bless Your name in pride and thankfulness!
Take back the hope you gave,--I claim Only a memory of the same, --And this beside, if you will not blame, Your leave for one more last ride with me.
II
My mistress bent that brow of hers; Those deep dark eyes where pride demurs When pity would be softening through, Fixed me a breathing-while or two With life or death in the balance: right!
The blood replenished me again; My last thought was at least not vain: I and my mistress, side by side Shall be together, breathe and ride, So, one day more am I deified.
Who knows but the world may end to-night?
III
Hush! if you saw some western cloud All billowy-bosomed, over-bowed By many benedictions--sun"s And moon"s and evening-star"s at once-- And so, you, looking and loving best, Conscious grew, your pa.s.sion drew Cloud, sunset, moonrise, star-shine too, Down on you, near and yet more near, Till flesh must fade for heaven was here!-- Thus leant she and lingered--joy and fear!
Thus lay she a moment on my breast.
IV
Then we began to ride. My soul Smoothed itself out, a long-cramped scroll Freshening and fluttering in the wind.
Past hopes already lay behind.
What need to strive with a life awry?
Had I said that, had I done this, So might I gain, so might I miss.
Might she have loved me? just as well She might have hated, who can tell!
Where had I been now if the worst befell?
And here we are riding, she and I.
V
Fail I alone, in words and deeds?
Why, all men strive and who succeeds?
We rode; it seemed my spirit flew, Saw other regions, cities new.
As the world rushed by on either side.
I thought,--All labour, yet no less Bear up beneath their unsuccess.
Look at the end of work, contrast The petty done, the undone vast, This present of theirs with the hopeful past!
I hoped she would love me; here we ride.
VI
What hand and brain went ever paired?
What heart alike conceived and dared?
What act proved all its thought had been?
What will but felt the fleshly screen?
We ride and I see her bosom heave.
There"s many a crown for who can reach.
Ten lines, a statesman"s life in each!
The flag stuck on a heap of bones, A soldier"s doing! what atones?
They scratch his name on the Abbey-stones.
My riding is better, by their leave.
VII
What does it all mean, poet? Well, Your brains beat into rhythm, you tell What we felt only; you expressed You hold things beautiful the best, And pace them in rhyme so, side by side.
"Tis something, nay "tis much: but then, Have you yourself what"s best for men?
Are you--poor, sick, old ere your time-- Nearer one whit your own sublime Than we who never have turned a rhyme?
Sing, riding"s a joy! For me, I ride.