"Then we shan"t finish these Hungarian duets," she said slowly, turning away from him to collect some music on the piano.
Suddenly a sense of the difference between the week behind him, with all its ups and downs, its quarrels, its _ennuis_, its moments of delightful intimity, of artistic freedom and pleasure, and those threadbare monotonous weeks into which he was to slip back on the morrow, awoke in him a mad inconsequent sting of disgust, of self-pity.
"No, we shall finish nothing," he said in a voice which only she could hear, his hands lying on the keys; "there are some whose destiny it is never to finish--never to have enough--to leave the feast on the table, and all the edges of life ragged!"
Her lips trembled. They were far away, in the vast room, from the group Lady Charlotte was lecturing. Her nerves were all unsteady with music and feeling, and the face looking down on him had grown pale.
"We make our own destiny," she said impatiently. "_We_ choose. It is all our own doing. Perhaps destiny begins things--friendship, for instance; but afterwards it is absurd to talk of anything but ourselves. We keep our friends, our chances, our--our joys," she went on hurriedly, trying desperately to generalise, "or we throw them away wilfully, because we choose."
Their eyes were riveted on each other.
"Not wilfully," he said under his breath. "But--no matter. May I take you at your word, Miss Leyburn? Wretched shirker that I am, whom even Robert"s charity despairs of: have I made a friend? Can I keep her?"
Extraordinary spell of the dark effeminate face--of its rare smile! The girl forgot all pride, all discretion. "Try," she whispered, and as his hand, stretching along the keyboard, instinctively felt for hers, for one instant--and another, and another--she gave it to him.
"Albert, come here!" exclaimed Lady Charlotte, beckoning to her husband; and Albert, though with a bad grace, obeyed. "Just go and ask that girl to come and talk to me, will you? Why on earth didn"t you make friends with her at dinner?"
The husband made some irritable answer, and the wife laughed.
"Just like you!" she said, with a good humour which seemed to him solely caused by the fact of his non-success with the beauty at table. "You always expect to kill at the first stroke. I mean to take her in tow. Go and bring her here."
Mr. Wynnstay sauntered off with as much dignity as his stature was capable of. He found Rose tying up her music at one end of the piano, while Langham was preparing to shut up the keyboard.
There was something appeasing in the girl"s handsomeness. Mr. Wynnstay laid down his airs, paid her various compliments, and led her off to Lady Charlotte.
Langham stood by the piano, lost in a kind of miserable dream. Mrs.
Darcy fluttered up to him.
"Oh, Mr. Langham, you play so _beautifully_! Do play a solo!"
He subsided on to the music-bench obediently. On any ordinary occasion tortures could not have induced him to perform in a room full of strangers. He had far too lively and fastidious a sense of the futility of the amateur.
But he played--what, he knew not. n.o.body listened but Mrs. Darcy, who sat lost in an armchair a little way off, her tiny foot beating time.
Rose stopped talking, started, tried to listen. But Lady Charlotte had had enough music, and so had Mr. Longstaffe, who was endeavouring to joke himself into the good graces of the Duke of Sedbergh"s sister. The din of conversation rose at the challenge of the piano, and Langham was soon overcrowded.
Musically, it was perhaps as well, for the player"s inward tumult was so great, that what his hands did he hardly knew or cared. He felt himself the greatest criminal unhung. Suddenly, through all that wilful mist of epicurean feeling which had been enwrapping him, there had pierced a sharp illumining beam from a girl"s eyes aglow with joy, with hope, with tenderness. In the name of Heaven, what had this growing degeneracy of every moral muscle led him to now? What! smile and talk, and smile--and be a villain all the time? What! encroach on a young life, like some creeping parasitic growth, taking all, able to give nothing in return--not even one genuine spark of genuine pa.s.sion? Go philandering on till a child of nineteen shows you her warm impulsive heart, play on her imagination, on her pity, safe all the while in the reflection that by the next day you will be far away, and her task and yours will be alike to forget! He shrinks from himself as one shrinks from a man capable of injuring anything weak and helpless. To despise the world"s social code, and then to fall conspicuously below its simplest articles; to aim at being pure intelligence, pure open-eyed rationality, and not even to succeed in being a gentleman, as the poor commonplace world understands it! Oh, to fall at her feet, and ask her pardon before parting for ever! But no--no more posing; no more dramatising. How can he get away most quietly--make least sign? The thought of that walk home in the darkness fills him with a pa.s.sion of irritable impatience.
"Look at that Romney, Mr. Elsmere; just look at it!" cried Dr. Meyrick excitedly; "did you ever see anything finer? There was one of those London dealer fellows down here last summer offered the squire four thousand pounds down on the nail for it."
In this way Meyrick had been taking Robert round the drawing-room, doing the honours of every stick and stone in it, his eyegla.s.s in his eye, his thin old face shining with pride over the Wendover possessions. And so the two gradually neared the oriel where the squire and Mr. Bickerton were standing.
Robert was in twenty minds as to any further conversation with the squire. After the ladies had gone, while every nerve in him was still tingling with anger, he had done his best to keep up indifferent talk on local matters with Mr. Bickerton. Inwardly he was asking himself whether he should ever sit at the squire"s table and eat his bread again. It seemed to him that they had had a brush which would be difficult to forget. And as he sat there before the squire"s wine, hot with righteous heat, all his grievances against the man and the landlord crowded upon him. A fig for intellectual eminence if it make a man oppress his inferiors and bully his equals!
But as the minutes pa.s.sed on, the rector had cooled down. The sweet, placable, scrupulous nature began to blame itself. "What, play your cards so badly, give up the game so rashly, the very first round?
Nonsense! Patience and try again. There must be some cause in the background. No need to be white-livered, but every need, in the case of such a man as the squire, to take no hasty needless offence."
So he had cooled and cooled, and now here were Meyrick and he close to the squire and his companion. The two men, as the rector approached, were discussing some cases of common enclosure that had just taken place in the neighbourhood. Robert listened a moment, then struck in.
Presently, when the chat dropped, he began to express to the squire his pleasure in the use of the library. His manner was excellent, courtesy itself, but without any trace of effusion.
"I believe," he said at last, smiling, "my father used to be allowed the same privileges. If so, it quite accounts for the way in which he clung to Murewell."
"I had never the honour of Mr. Edward Elsmere"s acquaintance," said the squire frigidly. "During the time of his occupation of the rectory I was not in England."
"I know. Do you still go much to Germany? Do you keep up your relations with Berlin?"
"I have not seen Berlin for fifteen years," said the squire briefly, his eyes in their wrinkled sockets fixed sharply on the man who ventured to question him about himself, uninvited. There was an awkward pause. Then the squire turned again to Mr. Bickerton.
"Bickerton, have you noticed how many trees that storm of last February has brought down at the north-east corner of the park?"
Robert was inexpressibly galled by the movement, by the words themselves. The squire had not yet addressed a single remark of any kind about Murewell to _him_. There was a deliberate intention to exclude implied in this appeal to the man who was not the man of the place, on such a local point, which struck Robert very forcibly.
He walked away to where his wife was sitting.
"What time is it?" whispered Catherine, looking up at him.
"Time to go," he returned, smiling, but she caught the discomposure in his tone and look at once, and her wifely heart rose against the squire.
She got up, drawing herself together with a gesture that became her.
"Then let us go at once," she said. "Where is Rose?"
A minute later there was a general leave-taking. Oddly enough it found the squire in the midst of a conversation with Langham. As though to show more clearly that it was the rector personally who was in his black books, Mr. Wendover had already devoted some cold attention to Catherine both at and after dinner, and he had no sooner routed Robert than he moved in his slouching away across from Mr. Bickerton to Langham. And now, another man altogether, he was talking and laughing--describing apparently a reception at the French Academy--the epigrams flying, the harsh face all lit up, the thin bony fingers gesticulating freely.
The husband and wife exchanged glances as they stood waiting, while Lady Charlotte, in her loudest voice, was commanding Rose to come and see her in London any Thursday after the first of November. Robert was very sore. Catherine pa.s.sionately felt it, and forgetting everything but him, longed to be out with him in the park comforting him.
"What an absurd fuss you have been making about that girl," Wynnstay exclaimed to his wife as the Elsmere party left the room, the squire conducting Catherine with a chill politeness. "And now, I suppose, you will be having her up in town, and making some young fellow who ought to know better fall in love with her. I am told the father was a grammar-school headmaster. Why can"t you leave people where they belong?"
"I have already pointed out to you," Lady Charlotte observed calmly, "that the world has moved on since you were launched into it. I can"t keep up cla.s.s-distinctions to please you; otherwise, no doubt, being the devoted wife I am, I might try. However, my dear, we both have our fancies. You collect Sevres china with or without a pedigree," and she coughed drily; "I collect promising young women. On the whole, I think my hobby is more beneficial to you than yours is profitable to me."
Mr. Wynnstay was furious. Only a week before he had been childishly, shamefully taken in by a Jew curiosity-dealer from Vienna, to his wife"s huge amus.e.m.e.nt. If looks could have crushed her, Lady Charlotte would have been crushed. But she was far too substantial as she lay back in her chair, one large foot crossed over the other, and, as her husband very well knew, the better man of the two. He walked away, murmuring under his moustache words that would hardly have borne publicity, while Lady Charlotte, through her gla.s.ses, made a minute study of a little French portrait hanging some two yards from her.
Meanwhile the Elsmere party were stepping out into the warm damp of the night. The storm had died away, but a soft Scotch mist of rain filled the air. Everything was dark, save for a few ghostly glimmerings through the trees of the avenue; and there was a strong sweet smell of wet earth and gra.s.s. Rose had drawn the hood of her waterproof over her head, and her face gleamed an indistinct whiteness from its shelter. Oh this leaping pulse--this bright glow of expectation! How had she made this stupid blunder about his going? Oh, it was Catherine"s mistake, of course, at the beginning. But what matter? Here they were in the dark, side by side, friends now, friends always. Catherine should not spoil their last walk together. She felt a pa.s.sionate trust that _he_ would not allow it.
"Wifie!" exclaimed Robert, drawing her a little apart, "do you know it has just occurred to me that, as I was going through the park this afternoon by the lower footpath, I crossed Henslowe coming away from the house. Of course this is what has happened! _He_ has told his story first. No doubt just before I met him he had been giving the squire a full and particular account--_a la_ Henslowe--of my proceedings since I came. Henslowe lays it on thick--paints with a will. The squire receives me afterwards as the meddlesome pragmatical priest he understands me to be; puts his foot down to begin with; and, _hinc illae lacrymae_. It"s as clear as daylight! I thought that man had an odd twist of the lip as he pa.s.sed me."
"Then a disagreeable evening will be the worst of it," said Catherine proudly. "I imagine, Robert, you can defend yourself against that bad man?"
"He has got the start; he has no scruples; and it remains to be seen whether the squire has a heart to appeal to," replied the young rector with sore reflectiveness. "Oh, Catherine, have you ever thought, wifie, what a business it will be for us if I _can"t_ make friends with that man? Here we are at his gates--all our people in his power; the _comfort_, at any rate, of our social life depending on him. And what a strange, unmanageable, inexplicable being!"
Elsmere sighed aloud. Like all quick imaginative natures he was easily depressed, and the squire"s sombre figure had for the moment darkened his whole horizon. Catherine laid her cheek against his arm in the darkness, consoling, remonstrating, every other thought lost in her sympathy with Robert"s worries. Langham and Rose slipped out of her head; Elsmere"s step had quickened, as it always did when he was excited, and she kept up without thinking.
When Langham found the others had shot ahead in the darkness, and he and his neighbour were _tete-a-tete_, despair seized him. But for once he showed a sort of dreary presence of mind. Suddenly, while the girl beside him was floating in a golden dream of feeling, he plunged with a stiff deliberation born of his inner conflict into a discussion of the German system of musical training. Rose, startled, made some vague and flippant reply. Langham pursued the matter. He had some information about it, it appeared, garnered up in his mind, which might perhaps some day prove useful to her. A St. Anselm"s undergraduate, one Dashwood, an old pupil of his, had been lately at Berlin for six months, studying at the Conservatorium. Not long ago, being anxious to become a schoolmaster, he had written to Langham for a testimonial. His letter had contained a full account of his musical life. Langham proceeded to recapitulate it.