"Listen!" she said to him suddenly, her eyes kindling with a strange childish pleasure. "Do you hear the wind, the west wind? Do you remember how it used to shake the house, how it used to come sweeping through the trees in the wood-path? It must be trying the study window now, blowing the vine against it."
A yearning pa.s.sion breathed through every feature. It seemed to him she saw nothing before her. Her longing soul was back in the old haunts, surrounded by the old loved forms and sounds. It went to his heart. He tried to soothe her with the tenderest words remorseful love could find. But the conflict of feeling--grief, rebellion, doubt, self-judgment--would not be soothed, and long after she had made him leave her and he had fallen asleep, she knelt on, a white and rigid figure in the dying firelight, the wind shaking the old house, the eternal murmur of London booming outside.
CHAPTER x.x.xIV
Meanwhile, as if to complete the circle of pain with which poor Catherine"s life was compa.s.sed, it began to be plain to her that, in spite of the hard and mocking tone Rose generally adopted with regard to him, Edward Langham was constantly at the house in Lerwick Gardens, and that it was impossible he should be there so much unless in some way or other Rose encouraged it.
The idea of such a marriage--nay, of such a friendship--was naturally as repugnant as ever to her. It had been one of the bitterest moments of a bitter time when, at their first meeting after the crisis in her life, Langham, conscious of a sudden movement of pity for a woman he disliked, had pressed the hand she held out to him in a way which clearly showed her what was in his mind, and had then pa.s.sed on to chat and smoke with Robert in the study, leaving her behind to realise the gulf that lay between the present and that visit of his to Murewell, when Robert and she had felt in unison towards him, his opinions, and his conduct to Rose, as towards everything else of importance in their life.
Now it seemed to her Robert must necessarily look at the matter differently, and she could not make up her mind to talk to him about it.
In reality, his objections had never had the same basis as hers, and he would have given her as strong a support as ever, if she had asked for it. But she held her peace, and he, absorbed in other things, took no notice. Besides, he knew Langham too well. He had never been able to take Catherine"s alarms seriously.
An attentive onlooker, however, would have admitted that this time, at any rate, they had their justification. Why Langham was so much in the Leyburns" drawing-room during these winter months was a question that several people asked--himself not least. He had not only pretended to forget Rose Leyburn during the eighteen months which had pa.s.sed since their first acquaintance at Murewell--he had for all practical purposes forgotten her. It is only a small proportion of men and women who are capable of pa.s.sion on the great scale at all; and certainly, as we have tried to show, Langham was not among them. He had had a pa.s.sing moment of excitement at Murewell, soon put down, and followed by a week of extremely pleasant sensations, which, like most of his pleasures, had ended in reaction and self-abhorrence. He had left Murewell remorseful, melancholy, and ill at ease, but conscious, certainly, of a great relief that he and Rose Leyburn were not likely to meet again for long.
Then his settlement in London had absorbed him, as all such matters absorb men who have become the slaves of their own solitary habits, and in the joy of his new freedom, and the fresh zest for learning it had aroused in him, the beautiful unmanageable child who had disturbed his peace at Murewell was not likely to be more, but less, remembered. When he stumbled across her unexpectedly in the National Gallery, his determining impulse had been merely one of flight.
However, as he had written to Robert towards the beginning of his London residence, there was no doubt that his migration had made him for the time much more human, observant, and accessible. Oxford had become to him an oppression and a nightmare, and as soon as he had turned his back on it his mental lungs seemed once more to fill with air. He took his modest part in the life of the capital; happy in the obscurity afforded him by the crowd; rejoicing in the thought that his life and his affairs were once more his own, and the academical yoke had been slipped for ever.
It was in this mood of greater cheerfulness and energy that his fresh sight of Rose found him. For the moment, he was perhaps more susceptible than he ever could have been before to her young perfections, her beauty, her brilliancy, her provoking stimulating ways. Certainly, from that first afternoon onwards he became more and more restless to watch her, to be near her, to see what she made of herself and her gifts. In general, though it was certainly owing to her that he came so much, she took small notice of him. He regarded, or chose to regard, himself as a mere "item"--something systematically overlooked and forgotten in the bustle of her days and nights. He saw that she thought badly of him, that the friendship he might have had was now proudly refused him, that their first week together had left a deep impression of resentment and hostility in her mind. And all the same he came; and she asked him! And sometimes, after an hour when she had been more difficult or more satirical than usual, ending notwithstanding with a little change of tone, a careless "You will find us next Wednesday as usual; So-and-so is coming to play," Langham would walk home in a state of feeling he did not care to a.n.a.lyse, but which certainly quickened the pace of life a good deal. She would not let him try his luck at friendship again, but in the strangest slightest ways did she not make him suspect every now and then that he _was_ in some sort important to her, that he sometimes preoccupied her against her will; that her will, indeed, sometimes escaped her, and failed to control her manner to him?
It was not only his relations to the beauty, however, his interest in her career, or his perpetual consciousness of Mrs. Elsmere"s cold dislike and disapproval of his presence in her mother"s drawing-room, that accounted for Langham"s heightened mental temperature this winter.
The existence and the proceedings of Mr. Hugh Flaxman had a very considerable share in it.
"Tell me about Mr. Langham," said Mr. Flaxman once to Agnes Leyburn, in the early days of his acquaintance with the family; "is he an old friend?"
"Of Robert"s," replied Agnes, her cheerful impenetrable look fixed upon the speaker. "My sister met him once for a week in the country at the Elsmeres". My mother and I have been only just introduced to him."
Hugh Flaxman pondered the information a little.
"Does he strike you as--well--what shall we say?--unusual?"
His smile struck one out of her.
"Even Robert might admit that," she said demurely.
"Is Elsmere so attached to him? I own I was provoked just now by his tone about Elsmere. I was remarking on the evident physical and mental strain your brother-in-law had gone through, and he said with a _nonchalance_ I cannot convey: "Yes, it is astonishing Elsmere should have ventured it. I confess I often wonder whether it was worth while."
"Why?" said I, perhaps a little hotly. Well, he didn"t know--wouldn"t say. But I gathered that, according to him, Elsmere is still swathed in such an unconscionable amount of religion that the few rags and patches he has got rid of are hardly worth the discomfort of the change. It seemed to me the tone of the very cool spectator, rather than the friend. However--does your sister like him?"
"I don"t know," said Agnes, looking her questioner full in the face.
Hugh Flaxman"s fair complexion flushed a little. He got up to go.
He is one of the most extraordinarily handsome persons I ever saw," he remarked as he b.u.t.toned up his coat. "Don"t you think so?"
"Yes," said Agnes dubiously, "if he didn"t stoop, and if he didn"t in general look half-asleep."
Hugh Flaxman departed more puzzled than ever as to the reason for the constant attendance of this uncomfortable anti-social person at the Leyburns" house. Being himself a man of very subtle and fastidious tastes, he could imagine that so original a suitor, with such eyes, such an intellectual reputation so well sustained by scantiness of speech and the most picturesque capacity for silence, _might_ have attractions for a romantic and wilful girl. But where were the signs of it? Rose rarely talked to him, and was always ready to make him the target of a sub-acid raillery. Agnes was clearly indifferent to him, and Mrs.
Leyburn equally clearly afraid of him. Mrs. Elsmere, too, seemed to dislike him, and yet there he was, week after week. Flaxman could not make it out.
Then he tried to explore the man himself. He started various topics with him--University reform, politics, music. In vain. In his most characteristic Oxford days Langham had never a.s.sumed a more wholesale ignorance of all subjects in heaven and earth, and never stuck more pertinaciously to the flattest forms of commonplace. Flaxman walked away at last boiling over. The man of parts masquerading as the fool is perhaps at least as exasperating as the fool playing at wisdom.
However, he was not the only person irritated. After one of these fragments of conversation Langham also walked rapidly home in a state of most irrational petulance, his hands thrust with energy into the pockets of his overcoat.
"No, my successful aristocrat, you shall not have everything your own way so easily with me or with _her_! You may break me, but you shall not play upon me. And as for her, I will see it out--I will see it out!"
And he stiffened himself as he walked, feeling life electric all about him, and a strange new force tingling in every vein.
Meanwhile, however, Mr. Flaxman was certainly having a good deal of his own way. Since the moment when his aunt, Lady Charlotte, had introduced him to Miss Leyburn--watching him the while with a half-smile which soon broadened into one of sly triumph--Hugh Flaxman had persuaded himself that country houses are intolerable even in the shooting season, and that London is the only place of residence during the winter for the man who aspires to govern his life on principles of reason. Through his influence and that of his aunt, Rose and Agnes--Mrs. Leyburn never went out--were being carried into all the high life that London can supply in November and January. Wealthy, high-born, and popular, he was gradually devoting his advantages in the freest way to Rose"s service. He was an excellent musical amateur, and he was always proud to play with her; he had a fine country house, and the little rooms on Campden Hill were almost always filled with flowers from his gardens; he had a famous musical library, and its treasures were lavished on the girl violinist; he had a singularly wide circle of friends, and with his whimsical energy he was soon inclined to make kindness to the two sisters the one test of a friend"s goodwill.
He was clearly touched by Rose; and what was to prevent his making an impression on her? To her s.e.x he had always been singularly attractive.
Like his sister, he had all sorts of bright impulses and audacities flashing and darting about him. He had a certain _hauteur_ with men, and could play the aristocrat when he pleased, for all his philosophical radicalism. But with women he was the most delightful mixture of deference and high spirits. He loved the grace of them, the daintiness of their dress, the softness of their voices. He would have done anything to please them, anything to save them pain. At twenty-five, when he was still "Citizen Flaxman" to his college friends, and in the first fervours of a poetic defiance of prejudice and convention, he had married a gamekeeper"s pretty daughter. She had died with her child--died, almost, poor thing! of happiness and excitement--of the over-greatness of Heaven"s boon to her. Flaxman had adored her, and death had tenderly embalmed a sentiment to which life might possibly have been less kind. Since then he had lived in music, letters, and society, refusing out of a certain fastidiousness to enter politics, but welcomed and considered, wherever he went, tall, good-looking, distinguished, one of the most agreeable and courted of men, and perhaps the richest _parti_ in London.
Still, in spite of it all, Langham held his ground--Langham would see it out! And indeed Flaxman"s footing with the beauty was by no means clear--least of all to himself. She evidently liked him, but she bantered him a good deal; she would not be the least subdued or dazzled by his birth and wealth, or by those of his friends; and if she allowed him to provide her with pleasures, she would hardly ever take his advice, or knowingly consult his tastes.
Meanwhile she tormented them both a good deal by the artistic acquaintance she gathered about her. Mrs. Pierson"s world, as we have said, contained a good many dubious odds and ends, and she had handed them all over to Rose. The Leyburns" growing intimacy with Mr. Flaxman and his circle, and through them with the finer types of the artistic life, would naturally and by degrees have carried them away somewhat from this earlier circle if Rose would have allowed it. But she clung persistently to its most unpromising specimens, partly out of a natural generosity of feeling, but partly also for the sake of that opposition her soul loved, her poor p.r.i.c.kly soul, full under all her gaiety and indifference of the most desperate doubt and soreness,--opposition to Catherine, opposition to Mr. Flaxman, but, above all, opposition to Langham.
Flaxman could often avenge himself on her--or rather on the more obnoxious members of her following--by dint of a faculty for light and stinging repartee which would send her, flushed and biting her lip, to have her laugh out in private. But Langham for a long time was defenceless. Many of her friends in his opinion were simply pathological curiosities--their vanity was so frenzied, their sensibilities so morbidly developed. He felt a doctor"s interest in them coupled with more than a doctor"s scepticism as to all they had to say about themselves. But Rose would invite them, would a.s.sume a _quasi_-intimacy with them; and Langham as well as everybody else had to put up with it.
Even the trodden worm, however---- And there came a time when the concentration of a good many different lines of feeling in Langham"s mind betrayed itself at last in a sharp and sudden openness. It began to seem to _him_ that she was specially bent often on tormenting him by these caprices of hers, and he vowed to himself finally, with an outburst of irritation due in reality to a hundred causes, that he would a.s.sert himself, that he would make an effort at any rate to save her from her own follies.
One afternoon, at a crowded musical party, to which he had come much against his will, and only in obedience to a compulsion he dared not a.n.a.lyse, she asked him in pa.s.sing if he would kindly find Mr. MacFadden, a ba.s.s singer, whose name stood next on the programme, and who was not to be seen in the drawing-room.
Langham searched the dining-room and the hall, and at last found Mr.
MacFadden--a fair, flabby, unwholesome youth--in the little study or cloak-room, in a state of collapse, flanked by whisky and water, and attended by two frightened maids, who handed over their charge to Langham and fled.
Then it appeared that the great man had been offended by a change in the programme, which hurt his vanity, had withdrawn from the drawing-room on the brink of hysterics, had called for spirits, which had been provided for him with great difficulty by Mrs. Leyburn"s maids, and was there drinking himself into a state of rage and rampant dignity which would soon have shown itself in a melodramatic return to the drawing-room, and a public refusal to sing at all in a house where art had been outraged in his person.
Some of the old disciplinary instincts of the Oxford tutor awoke in Langham at the sight of the creature, and, with a prompt sternness which amazed himself, and nearly set MacFadden whimpering, he got rid of the man, shut the hall door on him, and went back to the drawing-room.
"Well?" said Rose in anxiety, coming up to him.
"I have sent him away," he said briefly, an eye of unusual quickness and brightness looking down upon her; "he was in no condition to sing. He chose to be offended, apparently, because he was put out of his turn, and has been giving the servants trouble."
Rose flushed deeply, and drew herself up with a look half trouble, half defiance, at Langham.
"I trust you will not ask him again," he said, with the same decision.
"And if I might say so there are one or two people still here whom I should like to see you exclude at the same time."
They had withdrawn into the bow window out of earshot of the rest of the room. Langham"s look turned significantly towards a group near the piano. It contained one or two men whom he regarded as belonging to a low type; men who, if it suited their purpose, would be quite ready to tell or invent malicious stories of the girl they were now flattering, and whose standards and instincts represented a coa.r.s.er world than Rose in reality knew anything about.
Her eyes followed his.
"I know," she said petulantly, "that you dislike artists. They are not your world. They are mine."
"I dislike artists? What nonsense, too! To me personally these men"s ways don"t matter in the least. They go their road and I mine. But I deeply resent any danger of discomfort and annoyance to you!"