The bedroom door opened and Langham came in.
"Elsmere! But of course I expected you."
His voice seemed to Robert curiously changed. There was a flatness in it, an absence of positive cordiality which was new to him in any greeting of Langham"s to himself, and had a chilling effect upon him.
The face, too, was changed. Tint and expression were both dulled; its marble-like sharpness and finish had coa.r.s.ened a little, and the figure, which had never possessed the erectness of youth, had now the pinched look and the confirmed stoop of the valetudinarian.
"I did not write to you, Elsmere," he said immediately, as though in antic.i.p.ation of what the other would be sure to say; "I knew nothing but what the bulletins said, and I was told that Cathcart wrote to you. It is many years now since I have seen much of Grey. Sit down and have some lunch. We have time, but not too much time."
Robert took a few mouthfuls. Langham was difficult, talked disconnectedly of trifles, and Robert was soon painfully conscious that the old sympathetic bond between them no longer existed. Presently, Langham, as though with an effort to remember, asked after Catherine, then inquired what he was doing in the way of writing, and neither of them mentioned the name of Leyburn. They left the table and sat spasmodically talking, in reality expectant. And at last the sound present already in both minds made itself heard--the first long solitary stroke of the chapel bell.
Robert covered his eyes.
"Do you remember in this room, Langham, you introduced us first?"
"I remember," replied the other abruptly. Then, with a half-cynical, half-melancholy scrutiny of his companion, he said, after a pause, "What a faculty of hero-worship you have always had, Elsmere!"
"Do you know anything of the end?" Robert asked him presently, as that tolling bell seemed to bring the strong feeling beneath more irresistibly to the surface.
"No, I never asked!" cried Langham, with sudden harsh animation. "What purpose could be served? Death should be avoided by the living. We have no business with it. Do what we will, we cannot rehea.r.s.e our own parts.
And the sight of other men"s performances helps us no more than the sight of a great actor gives the dramatic gift. All they do for us is to imperil the little nerve, break through the little calm, we have left."
Elsmere"s hand dropped, and he turned round to him with a flashing smile.
"Ah--I know it now--you loved him still."
Langham, who was standing, looked down on him sombrely, yet more indulgently.
"How much you always made of feeling," he said after a little pause, "in a world where, according to me, our chief object should be not to feel!"
Then he began to hunt for his cap and gown. In another minute the two made part of the crowd in the front quadrangle, where the rain was sprinkling, and the insistent grief-laden voice of the bell rolled, from pause to pause, above the gowned figures, spreading thence in wide waves of mourning sound over Oxford.
The chapel service pa.s.sed over Robert like a solemn pathetic dream. The lines of undergraduate faces, the provost"s white head, the voice of the chaplain reading, the full male unison of the voices replying--how they carried him back to the day when as a lad from school he had sat on one of the chancel benches beside his mother, listening for the first time to the subtle simplicity, if one may be allowed the paradox, of the provost"s preaching! Just opposite to where he sat now with Langham, Grey had sat that first afternoon; the freshman"s curious eyes had been drawn again and again to the dark ma.s.sive head, the face with its look of reposeful force, of righteous strength. During the lesson from Corinthians, Elsmere"s thoughts were irrelevantly busy with all sorts of mundane memories of the dead. What was especially present to him was a series of Liberal election meetings in which Grey had taken a warm part, and in which he himself had helped just before he took Orders. A hundred odd, incongruous details came back to Robert now with poignant force.
Grey had been to him at one time primarily the professor, the philosopher, the representative of all that was best in the life of the University; now, fresh from his own grapple with London and its life, what moved him most was the memory of the citizen, the friend and brother of common man, the thinker who had never shirked action in the name of thought, for whom conduct had been from beginning to end the first reality.
The procession through the streets afterwards, which conveyed the body of this great son of modern Oxford to its last resting-place in the citizens" cemetery on the western side of the town, will not soon be forgotten, even in a place which forgets notoriously soon. All the University was there, all the town was there. Side by side with men honourably dear to England, who had carried with them into one or other of the great English careers the memory of the teacher, were men who had known from day to day the cheery modest helper in a hundred local causes; side by side with the youth of Alma Mater went the poor of Oxford; tradesmen and artisans followed or accompanied the group of gowned and venerable figures, representing the Heads of Houses and the Professors, or mingled with the slowly pacing crowd of Masters; while along the route groups of visitors and merrymakers, young men in flannels or girls in light dresses, stood with suddenly grave faces here and there, caught by the general wave of mourning, and wondering what such a spectacle might mean.
Robert, losing sight of Langham as they left the chapel, found his arm grasped by young Cathcart, his correspondent. The man was a junior Fellow who had attached himself to Grey during the two preceding years with especial devotion. Robert had only a slight knowledge of him, but there was something in his voice and grip which made him feel at once infinitely more at home with him at this moment than he had felt with the old friend of his undergraduate years.
They walked down Beaumont Street together. The rain came on again, and the long black crowd stretched before them was lashed by the driving gusts. As they went along, Cathcart told him all he wanted to know.
"The night before the end he was perfectly calm and conscious. I told you he mentioned your name among the friends to whom he sent his good-bye. He thought for everybody. For all those of his house he left the most minute and tender directions. He forgot nothing. And all with such extraordinary simplicity and quietness, like one arranging for a journey! In the evening an old Quaker aunt of his, a North-country woman whom he had been much with as a boy, and to whom he was much attached, was sitting with him. I was there too. She was a beautiful old figure in her white cap and kerchief, and it seemed to please him to lie and look at her. "It"ll not be for long, Henry," she said to him once. "I"m seventy-seven this spring. I shall come to you soon." He made no reply, and his silence seemed to disturb her. I don"t fancy she had known much of his mind of late years. "You"ll not be doubting the Lord"s goodness, Henry?" she said to him, with the tears in her eyes. "No," he said, "no, never. Only it seems to be His Will, we should be certain of nothing--_but Himself_! I ask no more." I shall never forget the accent of those words: they were the breath of his inmost life. If ever man was _Gottbetrunken_ it was he--and yet not a word beyond what he felt to be true, beyond what the intellect could grasp!"
Twenty minutes later Robert stood by the open grave. The rain beat down on the black concourse of mourners. But there were blue s.p.a.ces in the drifting sky, and a wavering rainy light played at intervals over the Wytham and Hinksey Hills, and over the b.u.t.ter-cupped river meadows, where the lush hay-gra.s.s bent in long lines under the showers. To his left, the provost, his glistening white head bare to the rain, was reading the rest of the service.
As the coffin was lowered Elsmere bent over the grave. "My friend, my master," cried the yearning filial heart, "oh, give me something of yourself to take back into life, something to brace me through this darkness of our ignorance, something to keep hope alive as you kept it to the end!"
And on the inward ear there rose, with the solemnity of a last message, words which years before he had found marked in a little book of Meditations borrowed from Grey"s table--words long treasured and often repeated--
"Amid a world of forgetfulness and decay, in the sight of his own shortcomings and limitations, or on the edge of the tomb, he alone who has found his soul in losing it, who in singleness of mind _has lived in order to love and understand_, will find that the G.o.d who is near to him as his own conscience has a face of light and love!"
Pressing the phrases into his memory, he listened to the triumphant outbursts of the Christian service.
"Man"s hope," he thought, "has grown humbler than this. It keeps now a more modest mien in the presence of the Eternal Mystery; but is it in truth less real, less sustaining? Let Grey"s trust answer for me."
He walked away absorbed, till at last in the little squalid street outside the cemetery it occurred to him to look round for Langham.
Instead, he found Cathcart, who had just come up with him.
"Is Langham behind?" he asked. "I want a word with him before I go."
"Is he here?" asked the other with a change of expression.
"But of course! He was in the chapel. How could you----"
"I thought he would probably go away," said Cathcart with some bitterness. "Grey made many efforts to get him to come and see him before he became so desperately ill. Langham came once. Grey never asked for him again."
"It is his old horror of expression, I suppose," said Robert troubled; "his dread of being forced to take a line, to face anything certain and irrevocable. I understand. He could not say good-bye to a friend to save his life. There is no shirking that! One must either do it or leave it!"
Cathcart shrugged his shoulders, and drew a masterly little picture of Langham"s life in college. He had succeeded by the most adroit devices in completely isolating himself both from the older and the younger men.
"He attends college-meeting sometimes, and contributes a sarcasm or two on the cramming system of the college. He takes a const.i.tutional to Summertown every day on the least frequented side of the road, that he may avoid being spoken to. And as to his ways of living, he and I happen to have the same scout--old Dobson, you remember? And if I would let him, he would tell me tales by the hour. He is the only man in the University who knows anything about it. I gather from what he says that Langham is becoming a complete valetudinarian. Everything must go exactly by rule--his food, his work, the management of his clothes--and any little _contretemps_ makes him ill. But the comedy is to watch him when there is anything going on in the place that he thinks may lead to a canva.s.s and to any attempt to influence him for a vote. On these occasions he goes off with automatic regularity to an hotel at West Malvern, and only reappears when the _Times_ tells him the thing is done with."
Both laughed. Then Robert sighed. Weaknesses of Langham"s sort may be amusing enough to the contemptuous and unconcerned outsider. But the general result of them, whether for the man himself or those whom he affects, is tragic, not comic; and Elsmere had good reason for knowing it.
Later, after a long talk with the provost, and meetings with various other old friends, he walked down to the station, under a sky clear from rain, and through a town gay with festal preparations. Not a sign now, in these crowded, bustling streets, of that melancholy pageant of the afternoon. The heroic memory had flashed for a moment like something vivid and gleaming in the sight of all, understanding and ignorant. Now it lay committed to a few faithful hearts, there to become one seed among many of a new religious life in England.
On the platform Robert found himself nervously accosted by a tall shabbily-dressed man.
"Elsmere, have you forgotten me?"
He turned and recognised a man whom he had last seen as a St. Anselm"s undergraduate--one MacNiell, a handsome rowdy young Irishman, supposed to be clever, and decidedly popular in the college. As he stood looking at him, puzzled by the difference between the old impression and the new, suddenly the man"s story flashed across him; he remembered some disgraceful escapade--an expulsion.
"You came for the funeral, of course?" said the other, his face flushing consciously.
"Yes--and you too?"
The man turned away, and something in his silence led Robert to stroll on beside him to the open end of the platform.
"I have lost my only friend," MacNiell said at last hoa.r.s.ely. "He took me up when my own father would have nothing to say to me. He found me work; he wrote to me; for years he stood between me and perdition. I am just going out to a post in New Zealand he got for me, and next week before I sail--I--I--am to be married--and he was to be there. He was so pleased--he had seen her."
It was one story out of a hundred like it, as Robert knew very well.
They talked for a few minutes, then the train loomed in the distance.
"He saved you," said Robert, holding out his hand, "and at a dark moment in my own life I owed him everything. There is nothing we can do for him in return but--to remember him! Write to me, if you can or will, from New Zealand, for his sake."
A few seconds later the train sped past the bare little cemetery, which lay just beyond the line. Robert bent forward. In the pale yellow glow of the evening he could distinguish the grave, the mound of gravel, the planks, and some figures moving beside it. He strained his eyes till he could see no more, his heart full of veneration, of memory, of prayer.
In himself life seemed so restless and combative. Surely he, more than others, had need of the lofty lessons of death!