Clamping her palms on his head, she stopped those deep sucks that made her b.r.e.a.s.t.s ache, and tilted his face up to look in his eyes. "Gavin. Please."
"One step ahead of you." He fished the condom out of his pocket and held it between his teeth as his fingers worked his belt. The sound of his zipper was loud in the still air. His jeans and boxers. .h.i.t the pavement. He ripped open the package and rolled the latex down. His hands were on her a.s.s and he panted, "Hang tight," in her ear.
A little squeak escaped as Gavin picked her up and pressed her back against the siding. Rough-tipped fingers followed the curve of her a.s.s and the backs of her thighs, then the insides of her thighs.
Gavin"s mouth was attacking her neck as he maneuvered their lower halves. He bit off, "Move the skirt."
Rielle couldn"t think straight, but somehow she yanked the material up around her waist. Immediately something brushed over the crotch of her thong.
"Jesus, you"re wet."
She blushed.
He jerked the tiny sc.r.a.p of fabric aside and took her mouth in a hungry kiss as he steadily fed his c.o.c.k inside her and stopped.
Holy s.h.i.t that burned. It"d been a long time. She felt Gavin shaking and then all that hardness slipped back out fully and slammed into her again.
The fabric of her thong was stretched tight across her c.l.i.t, the edge rubbing perfectly on that hot spot, so by his fifth thrust, she was coming.
Rielle came in silence as Gavin kissed her crazily. Her fingers digging into the back of his neck was the only outward change, because she"d make d.a.m.n sure nothing took this moment away from her.
A few more long, deep thrusts and Gavin"s body stiffened. He broke the kiss abruptly, letting his head fall forward as a long, "f.u.c.k," drifted from his mouth.
Breathing hard, bodies shaking, they remained locked together. Then he sweetly pressed his lips to her temple.
If they hadn"t been so still, they might not have heard, "Dad? Are you up here?"
She squirmed to be let down in case Sierra stepped onto the balcony, but Gavin rasped, "Don"t move," directly into her ear.
Loud knocks sounded on the bathroom door and Sierra raised her voice. "Dad? People are starting to leave. You need to come say goodbye."
Gavin didn"t move until he heard the bedroom door slam. He carefully lowered Rielle to the ground and eased out of her body.
She sucked in a sharp breath at the sudden stab of pain and Gavin finally looked at her. Guiltily.
He broke eye contact and yanked up his jeans, which he left unzipped and unbuckled because he still had to ditch the condom. "Sorry. I have to go."
"I heard." Keeping her head down, she fixed her thong and straightened the layers of her skirt.
"I... We"ll... Dammit. We"ll talk about this later, okay?"
Rielle nodded.
After Gavin left the bathroom, she snuck back into the room and picked up her blouse. She checked herself in the mirror in case she ran into anyone.
Yeah, try and explain why you"re coming out of Gavin"s room looking like a train wreck.
That"d feed the McKay gossip coffers for a few weeks.
Her mouth was a little puffy. Her hair a lot unruly, but besides that she didn"t look like she"d been f.u.c.ked hard and fast against the wall on her balcony.
How could the best s.e.x of her life also be the most humiliating?
Chapter Fourteen
"I suck at s.e.x."
Ben stiffened at Gavin"s announcement and reined his horse to a stop. "You wanna explain that?"
This would be one of the most embarra.s.sing discussions he"d ever had. Now that he"d brought it up, maybe he shouldn"t have. Maybe he"d freaked Ben out.
The man had been a Dom in a s.e.x club for a decade. Chances are high he"s seen it all and done it all.
Gavin tried to get his horse to stop but the d.a.m.n mare just kept moseying along.
"Gavin? Where you goin"?"
"Nowhere, but this horse won"t obey."
Ben trotted up alongside d.u.c.h.ess and said sharply, "Jerk the rein back hard. She"ll think she"s in charge until you prove otherwise. Go on."
He pulled the reins much harder than before and d.u.c.h.ess immediately stopped.
"See? That"s the first step of mastering her. Get her to do exactly what you want with a combination of firmness and praise."
Gavin had a strange feeling Ben wasn"t only talking about horses. "Thanks."
"So, back to your comment. Did some chick say you were bad in bed or something?"
"Not exactly."
When a moment of silence pa.s.sed, where Gavin couldn"t even look at Ben, Ben sighed. "You know I"m the last guy who"d pa.s.s judgment on anyone. I a.s.sume that"s why you wanna talk to me?"
Come on, Daniels, don"t be a p.u.s.s.y. You"ve been a p.u.s.s.y your whole life, which is why you haven"t gotten any p.u.s.s.y. Own up to all you don"t know.
"Yeah. Remember when Dalton staged that intervention after the incident at the club and I said if I ever found my b.a.l.l.s again and started dating that I"d come to you for advice? Here I am."
Ben gave Gavin a considering look. "I ain"t much help on dating, but sounds like it"s s.e.x advice that you"re after anyway."
"It is. And I have to admit, this is so far out of my comfort zone I may as well be on another planet." He inhaled slowly. "But I"m ready to figure out a way to fix it."
"You want my help, I"m gonna expect you to be completely honest about everything-and I mean everything, Gavin. Good s.h.i.t, bad s.h.i.t, the s.h.i.t that you"ve kept bottled up inside, the s.h.i.t you don"t think anyone will understand, the embarra.s.sing s.h.i.t. All of it."
"I can do that."
"Start at the beginning."
Gavin frowned. "Of what?"
"Of your s.e.xual history," Ben clarified.
Seriously? Gavin wanted to ask why that was relevant, but seeing the hard set to Ben"s jaw, he decided to start talking. "This"ll probably shock a guy like you, but I"ve never been that into s.e.x. I had my h.o.r.n.y teen years where I thought about s.e.x twenty-four/seven and jacked off that many times every day. Got my first girlfriend, we had s.e.x a few times but she wasn"t that into it. Of course, at that age I never imagined it could be my my lack of experience which caused that reaction in her." lack of experience which caused that reaction in her."
Ben chuckled.
"By then I"d started college. I focused on academics and when I wasn"t in school, I worked for my dad, learning the real estate business. Prime time for my s.e.x drive, right? Well, I was more interested in spreadsheets than finding a girl who"d spread her legs. After I graduated, I was even more driven to prove myself. I didn"t date, didn"t do anything but work."
"Didn"t your family encourage you to find a woman and settle down? G.o.d knows the McKays are all about that."
Gavin shook his head. "My dad married later in life, so as far as he was concerned, I was following in his footsteps." He paused. "Then I met Ellen at a party. This young, gorgeous woman was all over me. It"s f.u.c.king pathetic, but I"d never been the guy the women look at and say I wanna get with him I wanna get with him because he"s so f.u.c.king fine because he"s so f.u.c.king fine. Ellen"s attentions were beyond flattering; she slept with me the first night we met. Then she kept coming back for more. At that point in my life, having s.e.x with her twice a week felt like I"d hooked up with a nympho. I fell for her hard, not seeing her for the manipulative, psycho b.i.t.c.h she was. After dating six months, she told me she was pregnant. Even then I hadn"t known I"d been set up from the start."
"Lemme guess. You did the right thing and married her."
"Yes. I thought I"d had it all. A job I loved, a hot wife who loved me and was pregnant with my child." His hands unconsciously tightened on the reins. "Before Sierra was even born Ellen demanded we buy a bigger house. I wanted to make my wife happy so I opened my wallet and she proceeded to empty it. Sounds corny, but when Sierra was born my world changed." Gavin remembered the instant the nurse placed the screaming and pruny-looking thing in his arms. He"d also had a moment of anger, imagining his birth mother just handing over a helpless baby to a stranger.
Focus on the here and now.
"I never doubted that Ellen loved our daughter. But from the time we brought Sierra home from the hospital, I saw Ellen had no desire to learn to be a parent. If she couldn"t deal with Sierra, she hired a babysitter or called my mom and went shopping. Then Ellen started s.c.r.e.w.i.n.g around on me. By the time Sierra was five, I"d had enough of the bulls.h.i.t and lies and divorced her."
"So how was s.e.x after you got married and after Sierra was born?"
Gavin shrugged. "Ellen claimed exhaustion a lot, which I forgave because I was tired too, so we were having quick, no-frills s.e.x about once a month. Then it tapered off to once every two months and then the last year, no s.e.x at all."
Ben c.o.c.ked his head. "Did it ever occur to you to cheat?"
"No. Any s.e.xual urges I satisfied with my hand. And it wasn"t like the ladies were propositioning me anyway."
"So you haven"t had s.e.x since you were with your ex?"
"I slept with a woman at a weekend conference a few years after the divorce. Then after my mom died, there was a friend I ended up with for a few months, but she stopped calling. Now I look back and I wonder if it was because the s.e.x sucked."
Ben held up his hand. "First off, the past is the past. None of that matters. Is there someone specific you"re lookin" at around here that you wanna impress with your s.e.xpertise?"
"Rielle."
"You"re with her? Or you want to get with her?"
"We"ve been together."
That caught Ben by surprise. "How long"s it been goin" on?"
Gavin blushed and felt like an idiot for it. "After I moved here, things started out slow, us talking and hanging out. Then we found an excuse to touch each other. Then we were making out like crazy whenever we were alone. And the night before last...we had s.e.x. It happened so d.a.m.n fast. Too fast."
"Did Rielle complain?"
He groaned. "No, but she"s been avoiding me, probably because it lasted like a minute."
"You afraid she was disappointed?"
"Yeah."
"Were you you disappointed?" disappointed?"
"G.o.d no. It was intense and spontaneous. I"ve never acted that aggressive with a woman. I f.u.c.ked her up against the d.a.m.n wall. Outside. On the balcony."
"And Rielle gave you the go ahead?"
Gavin"s eyes cut to Ben. "Completely consensual."
Ben chuckled. "Here"s the truth. Women love that s.h.i.t. You getting her turned on and then f.u.c.king her hard and fast right where she stands. I"ll bet Rielle was just shocked because you you acted that way and she hasn"t seen you in that role." acted that way and she hasn"t seen you in that role."
"It gets worse. I got put back into the "Dad" role because Sierra came in right after the spectacularly fast finish."
Ben"s eyebrows rose. "Sierra caught you?"
He shook his head. "We were on the balcony outside of my room and it was dark."
"Wait. Was this the night of the McKay party?"
"Yep."
"So that"s where you were. I gotta say, bro. I"m impressed. Getting some with all the family around."
The horses were getting restless. Ben urged his horse into a walk and d.u.c.h.ess followed.
Gavin tried to focus on the scenery; the crisp air and the shadows skittering across the ground as clouds cl.u.s.tered and broke apart overhead. Rielle would be outside, doing ten thousand things at once. "Thanks for bringing me out here, Ben. This is gorgeous country."
"Have you explored much of the land you bought from Rielle?"
"No. Ree says the terrain is rugged and I needed a horse on the unbroken trails rather than an ATV."
"She has a point. But I"ll also remind you it"s your land. The Wetzlers were always weird about letting people onto that section. It"s yours now. You can do whatever the f.u.c.k you want with it. If you wanna clear all the d.a.m.n trees and make a trail for four-wheelers, do it. If you"re nervous about setting off alone, just call me. I"d be happy for the chance to get a look around."
"I"ll think on it and let you know."
"Fair enough. Let"s head back."
They turned the horses around.