She gave him a skeptical look. "I hope that"s good news."
The little man nodded soberly. "Me, too."
Derry Howe was standing at the window of his tiny apartment in a T-shirt and jeans, looking out at the clouded sky and wondering if the weather would interfere with the night"s fireworks, when Junior Elway pulled up in his Jeep Cherokee. Junior drove over the curb trying to parallel park and then straightened the wheels awkwardly as the Jeep b.u.mped back down into the street. Derry took a long pull on his Bud and shook his head in disgust. The guy couldn"t drive for spit.
The window fan squeaked and rattled in front of him, blowing a thin wash of lukewarm air on his stomach and chest. The apartment felt hot and close. Derry tried to ignore his discomfort, but his tolerance level was shot. A headache that four Excedrin hadn"t eased one bit throbbed steadily behind his temples. His hand ached from where he had cut himself the day before splicing wires with a kitchen knife. Worst of all, there was a persistent buzzing in his ears that had been there on waking and refused to fade. He thought at first that he was losing his hearing, then changed his mind and wrote it off to drinking too much the night before and got out a fresh Bud to take the edge off. Three beers later, the buzzing was undiminished. Like a million bees inside his head. Like dozens of those weed eaters.
He closed his eyes momentarily and worked his jaws from side to side, trying to gain a little relief. d.a.m.n, but the noise was aggravating!
Seated comfortably in the rocker that had belonged to Derry"s mother, the demon, an invisible presence, cranked up the volume another notch and smiled.
Derry finished off his Bud and walked to the front door. He kept watch through the peephole until Junior was on the steps, then swung open the door and popped out at him like a jack-in-the-box.
Junior jumped a foot. "d.a.m.n you, don"t do that!" he snapped angrily, pushing his way inside.
Derry laughed, an edgy chuckle. "What, you nervous or something?"
Junior ignored him, looked quickly about to see that they were alone, decided they were, glanced at Derry"s beer, and went into the kitchen to get one of his own. "I"m here, ain"t I?"
Derry rolled his eyes. "Nothing gets by you, does it?" He lifted his voice a notch. "Bring me a cold one, too, long as you"re helping yourself!"
He waited impatiently for Junior to reappear, took the beer out of his hands without asking, and motioned him over to the couch. They sat down together, hands cupped about the chilled cans, and stared at the remains of a pizza that sat congealing in an open cardboard box on the battered coffee table.
"You hungry?" Derry asked, not caring one way or the other, anxious to get on with it.
Junior shook his head and took a long drink of his beer, refusing to be hurried. "So. Everything set?"
"You tell me. Are you scheduled for tonight"s shift?"
Junior nodded. "Like we planned. I went in yesterday, told them I was sick of the strike, that I wanted back on the line, asked to be put on the schedule soon as possible. You should have seen them. They were grinning fools. Said I could start right away. I did like you told me, said I"d like the four to midnight shift. I go on in..." He checked his watch. "Little over an hour. All dressed and ready. See?"
He pointed down to his steel-toed work boots. Derry gave him a grudging nod of approval. "We got "em by the short hairs, and they don"t even know it."
"Yeah, well, let"s hope." Junior didn"t look convinced.
Derry tried to keep the irritation out of his voice. "Hope ain"t got nothing to do with it. We got us a plan, bub, and the plan is what"s gonna get this particular job done." He gave Junior a look. "You wait here."
He got up and left the room. The demon watched Junior fidget on the couch, playing with his beer, taking a cold piece of sausage off the top of the pizza and popping it in his mouth, staring at the ancient window fan as if he"d never seen anything like it.
Derry came back carrying a metal lunch box with clips and a handle. He pa.s.sed it to Junior, who took it gingerly and held it at arm"s length.
"Relax," Deny sneered, reseating himself, taking another pull on his Bud. "Ain"t nothing gonna happen until you set the switch: You can drop it, kick it around, do almost anything, it"s safe until you set it. See the metal slide on the back, underneath the hinge? That"s the switch. Move it off the green b.u.t.ton and over the red and you got five minutes - plenty of time. Take it in with you, leave it in your locker when you start your shift, carry it out on your break like you"re having a snack, then slip it under the main gear housing and walk away. When it goes off, it"ll look like the roller motors overheated and blew. Got it?"
Junior nodded. "Got it."
"Just remember. Five minutes. It"s preprogrammed."
Junior set the lunch box back on the coffee table next to the pizza. "Where"s yours?"
Derry shrugged. "Back in the bedroom. Want to see it?"
They got up and went through the bedroom door, finishing off their beers, relaxed now, joking about what it was going to be like come tomorrow. The demon watched them leave ,the room, then rose from the rocker, walked over to the coffee table, and opened the lid to the lunch box. Sandwiches, a chip bag, a cookie pack, and a thermos hid what was underneath. The demon lifted them away. Derry was exactly right; he had set the clock to trigger the explosives five minutes after the slide was pushed.
The demon shook his head in disapproval and reset it from five minutes to five seconds.
Derry and Junior came back out, sat on the couch, drank another beer, and went over the plan one more time, Derry making sure his buddy had it all down straight. Then Junior picked up the lunch box and left, heading for the steel mill. When he was gone, Derry ma.s.saged his temples, then went into the bathroom to get a couple more Excedrin, which he washed down with a fresh beer.
Better go easy on this stuff, he admonished himself, and set the can aside. Want to be sharp for tonight. Want to be cool.
He dumped the pizza in the trash and brought out the second device, this one fashioned a little differently than the other to accomplish its intended purpose, and finished wiring it. When he was done, he placed it inside a plastic picnic cooler, fastened it in place, and closed the lid. He leaned back and studied it with pride. This baby will do the job and then some, he thought.
The demon came over and sat down next to him. Derry couldn"t see him, didn"t know he was there. "Better take your gun," the demon whispered, a voice inside Derry"s head.
Derry looked at the rattling old window fan, matching its tired cadence to the buzzing in his head. "Better take my gun," he repeated absently.
"In case anyone tries to stop you."
"Ain"t no one gonna stop me."
The demon laughed softly. "Robert Freemark might."
Derry Howe stared off into s.p.a.ce. "Might try, anyway." His jaw was slack. "Be too bad for him if he did."
When he got up to go into his bedroom to collect his forty-five from the back of his closet, the demon opened the picnic cooler and reset that clock, too.
Nest walked back through the park to her home, Pick riding on her shoulder, both of them quiet. It was nearing four o"clock, and the park was filled with people. She skirted the families occupying picnic tables and blankets in the open areas and followed the line of trees that bordered Sinnissippi Road on the north. It wasn"t that she was trying to hide now; it was just that she didn"t feel like talking to anyone. Even Pick understood that much and was leaving her alone.
Feeders shadowed her, flashes of dark movement at the corners of her eyes, and she struggled unsuccessfully to ignore them.
She pa.s.sed the park entrance and started down the service road behind her house. Overhead, clouds drifted in thick cl.u.s.ters, and the sun played hide-and-seek through the rifts. Bright, sunny streamers mixed with gray shadows, dappling the earth, and to the west, dark thunderheads ma.s.sed. Rain was on the way for sure. She glanced skyward and away again without interest, thinking about what she had to do to protect herself. She had a.s.sumed right up until last night that the demon and John Ross and the madness they had brought to Hopewell had nothing to do with her personally, that she stood on the periphery of what was happening, more observer than partic.i.p.ant. Now she understood that she was not just a partic.i.p.ant, but the central player, and she had decided she would be better off not counting on anyone"s help but her own. Maybe Pick and Daniel would be able to do something. Maybe John Ross would be there for her. Maybe Wraith would defend her when it mattered. But maybe, too, she would be on her own. There was good reason to think so. The demon had managed to isolate her every time he had appeared, and she had to a.s.sume he would manage it again.
Her father.
But she could not think of him that way, she knew. He was a demon, and he was her enemy.
She pondered Gran"s note. Should she rely on it? Was Pick right in his a.s.sumption that Gran had made Wraith and given up her magic to do so? Was that why she was defenseless against the demon? Trust Wraith. She remembered Gran telling her over and over again that the feeders would never hurt her, that she was special, that she was protected. She had never questioned it, never doubted it. But the demon was not a feeder, and perhaps this time Gran was wrong. Why hadn"t Gran told her more when she"d had the chance? Why hadn"t she given Nest something she could rely upon?
I"m so afraid, she thought.
She pushed through the gap in the hedgerow and entered her backyard. The house loomed dark and gloomy before her, and she was reluctant to enter it. Pick had disappeared from her shoulder, gone back into the trees. She hesitated a moment, then walked up to the back door, half expecting the demon to jump out at her.
But it was her grandfather who appeared, stepping from the shadow of the porch entry. "Are you all right, Nest?" he asked quietly, standing there on the steps, his big hands hanging awkwardly at his sides. He looked gaunt and tired.
She nodded. "I"m okay."
"It was a terrible shock, hearing something like that about your father," he said, testing her with the words. He shook his head. "I"m still not sure I believe it."
She felt suddenly sad for him, this strong man who had lost so much. She gave him a faint smile and a look that said, Me either. Me either.
"I sent John away," he said. "I told him I didn"t appreciate him coming to my house under false pretenses, whatever his reason for it, and I felt it would be better if he didn"t come back. I"m sorry if that upsets you."
Nest stared, uncomprehending. She wanted to ask him if he had lost his mind, but she held her tongue. Her grandfather didn"t know what she did about John Ross, so it wasn"t fak for her to judge him. It was clear he had acted out of concern for her. Would she have acted any differently in his place?
"I"m going to lie down for a little while, Grandpa," she said, and went past him up the steps and into the house.
She went down the hall to her room and closed the door behind her. Shadows dappled the walls and ceiling, and the air was still and close. She felt suddenly trapped and alone.
Would John Ross abandon her? Would he give up on her in the face of her grandfather"s antagonism? Even worse, was it possible there was nothing more he could do?
As she lay down on her bed, she found herself praying fervently, desperately that when the demon appeared next, she would not have to face him alone.
Chapter Twenty-Nine.
Afternoon pa.s.sed into evening, a gradual fading away of minutes and hours measured by changes in the light and a lengthening of shadows. The rain did not come, but the clouds continued to build in the west. Old Bob wandered through the house like a restless ghost, looking at things he hadn"t looked at in years, remembering old friends from other times, and conjuring up memories of his distant past. Visitors came and went, bringing ca.s.seroles and condolences. Fresh-cut flowers and potted plants arrived, small white cards tucked carefully inside their plain white envelopes, words of regret neatly penned. The news of Evelyn Freemark"s death had spread by radio and word of mouth; the newspaper article would not appear until tomorrow. Phone calls asked for details, and Old Bob dutifully provided them. Arrangements for the funeral, memorial service, and burial were completed. A fund that would accept monetary donations was established in Evelyn"s name by the local Heart a.s.sociation. Old Bob went through the motions with resigned determination, taking care of the details because it was necessary, trying to come to grips with the fact that she was really gone.
Nest stayed in her room with the door closed and did not reappear until Old Bob called her to dinner. They ate at the kitchen table without speaking. Afterward, as the light began to fail and the dusk to descend, her friends called and asked if she wanted to meet them in the park to watch the fireworks. She asked him if she could, and while he was inclined to say no, to keep her safe in the house and close to him, he realized the foolishness of taking that particular course of action. He might shelter her for a day or even a week, but then what? At some point he would have to let her go off on her own, and there was no reason that he could see to postpone the inevitable. Nest was smart and careful; she would not take chances, especially after last night. In any case, was her father really out there? No one besides John Ross had actually seen him, and he was not sure he trusted Ross anymore. Gran had worried that Nest"s father might return, but she had never actually said he was back. Old Bob had thought at first that he should call the police and warn them of his concerns, but on reflection he realized he didn"t have anything concrete to offer, only a bunch of vague suspicions, most of them based on John Ross" word.
In the end, he let the matter slide, giving Nest his permission to go, extracting in exchange her firm promise that she would sit with her friends in a crowded place and would not go off alone. The park was safe for her, he believed. She had lived in it all her life, wandered it from end to end, played her childhood games in it, adopted it as her own backyard. He could not see forbidding her to go into it now, especially while she was still dealing with the shock of her grandmother"s death.
After she was gone, he began cleaning up the kitchen by putting away the food gifts. The refrigerator and the freezer were soon filled to capacity, and there were still dozens of containers sitting out. He picked up the phone and called Ralph Emery"s house, and when the minister answered he asked him if he would mind sending someone around first thing in the morning to take all this food down to the church for distribution to those who could make better use of it. The minister said he would take care of it, thanked him for his generosity, spoke with him about Evelyn for a few minutes, and said good night.
The shadows in the house had melted together in a black ma.s.s, and Old Bob walked through the empty rooms and turned on the lights before coming back into the kitchen to finish up. The shotgun was gone, taken by the police for reasons he failed to comprehend, part of their investigation, they told him, and he felt strangely uneasy in its absence. You"d think it would be the other way around, he kept telling himself. He washed some dishes by hand, something he hadn"t done in a long time, finding that it helped him relax. He thought always of Evelyn. He glanced over at the kitchen table more than once, picturing her there, her bourbon and water in front of her, her cigarette in hand, her face turned away from the light, her eyes distant. What had she been thinking, all those times she"d sat there? Had she been remembering her childhood in the little cottage several houses down? Had she been thinking of Nest? Of Caitlin? Of him? Had she been wishing that her life had turned out differently, that she had done more with it? Had she been thinking of missed chances and lost dreams? His smile was sad. He regretted now that he had never asked.
He finished the dishes, dried them, and put them away. He glanced around, suddenly lost. The house was alive with memories of his life with Evelyn. He walked into the living room and stood looking at the fireplace, at the pictures on the mantel, at the place in the corner by the bowed window where the Christmas tree always sat. The memories swirled around him, some distant and faded, some as new and sharp as the grief from her loss. He moved to the couch and sat down. Tomorrow his friends would gather at Josie"s for coffee and doughnuts, and in his absence they would talk of Evelyn in the same way they had talked of that postal worker in the gorilla suit or the fellow who killed all those children. They would not do so maliciously, but because they had thought her curious and now found her death somehow threatening. After all, she had died here, in Hopewell - not in some other town in some other state. She had died here, where they lived, and she was someone they knew. Yes, she was odd, and it wasn"t really any surprise that she had died of a heart attack blasting away at shadows with a shotgun, because Evelyn Freemark had done stranger things. But in the back of their minds was the conviction that she really wasn"t so different than they were, and that if it could happen to her, it could happen to them. Truth was, you shared an uneasy sense of kinship with even the most unfortunate, disaffected souls; you felt you had known at least a few of them during your life. You had all been children together, with children"s hopes and dreams. The dark future that had claimed those few was never more than an arm"s length away from everyone else. You knew that. You knew that a single misfortune could change your life forever, that you were vulnerable, and to protect yourself you wanted to know everything you could about why it had touched another and pa.s.sed you by.
Old Bob listened to the silence and let the parade of memories march away into the darkness. My G.o.d, he was going to miss her.
After a time his thoughts wandered to the call he had received earlier from Mel Riorden. Mel and Carol had been by that morning to offer condolences, promising they would have him over for dinner after the funeral, when he was feeling up to it. Old Bob had taken their hands, an awkward ritual between long-standing friends where something profound had changed their lives and left them insufficient words to convey their understanding of what it meant. Later Mel had called on the phone, keeping his voice down, telling Old Bob that there was something he ought to know. Seemed that Derry had called him up out of the blue and apologized for scaring him with his talk about MidCon. Said he really hadn"t meant anything by it. i Said he was just blowing off steam, and that whatever the union decided was good enough for him. Said he wanted to know if he could go to the fireworks with Mel and Carol and some of the others and sit with them. Mel paused every so often to make sure Old Bob was still listening, his voice sounding hopeful. Maybe he was mistaken about his nephew, he concluded tentatively. Maybe the boy was showing some common sense after all. He just wanted Old Bob to know.
When Mel hung up, Old Bob stood looking at the phone, wondering if he believed any of it and if it made any difference if he did. Then he dropped the matter, going about the business of his own life, of finishing the funeral preparations and worrying about Nest. But now the matter surfaced anew in his thoughts, and he found himself taking a fresh look at it. Truth was, it just didn"t feel right. It didn"t sound like Derry Howe. He didn"t think that boy would change in a million years, let alone in twenty-four hours. But maybe he was being unfair. People did change - even people you didn"t think would ever be any different from what they"d been all their lives. It happened.
He drummed his fingers on the arm of the couch, staring off into s.p.a.ce. Going to the fireworks with Mel and Carol, was he? That was a first. Where was his buddy, Junior El way, that he"d opted for an evening out with the old folks?
He got up from the sofa and went into the kitchen to fish around in the packed-out refrigerator for a can of root beer. When he found it, he popped the top and carried it back into the living room and sat down again.
Fireworks. The word kept digging at him, suggesting something different from the obvious, something he couldn"t quite grasp. Hadn"t he and Deny talked about fireworks yesterday, when he had approached the boy about what sort of mischief he might be planning? Deny Howe, the Vietnam vet, the demolitions expert, talking about playing with matches in a pile of fireworks, about how fireworks were touchy if you didn"t know what you were doing, that they could cause accidents... The word kept digging at him, suggesting something different from the obvious, something he couldn"t quite grasp. Hadn"t he and Deny talked about fireworks yesterday, when he had approached the boy about what sort of mischief he might be planning? Deny Howe, the Vietnam vet, the demolitions expert, talking about playing with matches in a pile of fireworks, about how fireworks were touchy if you didn"t know what you were doing, that they could cause accidents...
He sat up straight. What was it Deny had said? I"m going to give MidCon a Fourth of July to remember. I"m going to give MidCon a Fourth of July to remember. But more, something else, something personal. A warning. But more, something else, something personal. A warning. Stay home on the Fourth. Keep away from the fireworks. Stay home on the Fourth. Keep away from the fireworks.
Old Bob set the can of root beer down on the coffee table, barely aware of What he was doing, his mind racing. What he was thinking was ridiculous. It didn"t make any sense. What would Deny Howe gain by sabotaging the Fourth of July fireworks? How would that have any effect on MidCon Steel? He looked the possibilities over without finding anything new. There didn"t seem to be any connection.
Then something occurred to him, and he got to his feet quickly and walked out onto the screened porch where he kept the old newspapers. He bent down and began to go through them. Most were old Chicago Tribunes Chicago Tribunes, but there were a few Hopewell Gazettes Hopewell Gazettes among them. Friday"s had gone out with the trash, he remembered, used to wrap the garbage. He found the one from Thursday, pulled it out, and went through it quickly, searching. There was nothing on the Fourth of July. among them. Friday"s had gone out with the trash, he remembered, used to wrap the garbage. He found the one from Thursday, pulled it out, and went through it quickly, searching. There was nothing on the Fourth of July.
But he seemed to remember seeing something, a big ad of some kind. He wished he had paid better attention, but it had been years since he had concerned himself with what went on in the park over the Fourth. The fireworks were all Evelyn and he had ever cared about, and you knew without having to ask when to be there for them.
He tossed the Thursday paper aside, wondering what had become of the Sat.u.r.day-morning edition. He went down the hall to his den and looked for it there, but couldn"t find it. He stood motionless for a moment, trying to think what he had done with it. Then he walked back to the kitchen. He found the Sat.u.r.day paper sitting on the counter under several of the ca.s.seroles he had set aside for the church. He extracted it gingerly, spread it out on the table, and began to scan its pages.
He found what he was looking for right away. The Jaycees had inserted a flyer for the Sunday-Monday events in Sinnissippi Park, admission free, everyone welcome. Games, food, and fun. The events culminated on Monday, the Fourth, with fireworks at sunset. This year, the flyer proclaimed in bold letters, the fireworks were being sponsored and paid for by MidCon Steel.
For long moments, Old Bob just stared at the flyer, not quite trusting himself. He must be wrong about this, he kept thinking. But it was the way a guy like Deny Howe thought, wasn"t it? Sabotage the fireworks sponsored by MidCon, maybe blow up a few people watching, cause a lot of hard feelings. But then what? Everybody blames MidCon? MidCon has to do something to regain favor, so it settles the strike? It was such a stretch that for a few seconds he dismissed his reasoning altogether. It was ludicrous! But Deny Howe wouldn"t think so, would he? Old Bob felt a cold spot settling deep in his chest. No, not Deny.
He looked at his watch. After nine o"clock. He glanced out the window. It was growing dark. They would start the fireworks soon now. He thought suddenly of Nest. She would be sitting with everyone else, at risk. He could hear Evelyn saying to him, as she had on the last night of her life, "Robert, you get right out there and find that girl and bring her home."
He grabbed his flashlight off the counter and went out the door in a rush.
By now, the largest part of the Fourth of July crowd had abandoned the playgrounds, ball diamonds, and picnic tables to gather on the gra.s.sy slopes that flanked the toboggan slide and ran down to the river"s edge. The fireworks would be set off over the bayou from a staging area located on a flat, open stretch of the riverbank below. A line had been strung midway up the slope to cordon off the crowd from the danger zone. Strips of fluorescent tape dangled from the line, and volunteers with flashlights patrolled the perimeter. The spectators were bunched forward on the hillside to the line"s edge, settled on blankets and in lawn chairs, laughing and talking as the darkness descended. Children ran everywhere, sparklers leaving bright comet tails in the wake of their pa.s.sing. Now and again a forbidden firecracker would explode off in the trees to either side, causing old people to jump and parents to frown. Shadows deepened and the outlines of the park and its occupants grew fuzzy. By the blackness of the river, a trio of flashlights wove erratic patterns as the staging crew completed their preparations for the big event.
Nest Freemark sat with her friends on a blanket, eating watermelon slices and drinking pop. They were situated high on the slope to the west of the slide where the darkness was deepest and the park lights didn"t penetrate. There were families around them, but Nest couldn"t see their faces or recognize their voices. The gloom made everyone anonymous, and Nest felt comfortable in that environment. Aside from her friends, she was anxious to avoid everyone.
She had come into the park late, when dusk had begun to edge toward nightfall and it was already getting hard to see. She had crossed her backyard with a watchful eye, half expecting the demon to leap out at her from the shadows. When Pick had dropped onto her shoulder as she pushed her way through the bushes, she had jumped in spite of herself. He was there to escort her into the park, he had informed her in his best no-nonsense voice. He had been patrolling the park since sunset, riding the windless heat atop Daniel, crisscrossing the woods and ballparks and playgrounds in search of trouble. As soon as Nest was safely settled with her friends, he would resume his vigil. For the moment, everything was peaceful. There was no sign of the demon. There was no sign of John Ross. The maentwrog, still imprisoned in its ravaged tree, was quiet. Even the feeders were staying out of sight. Pick shrugged. Maybe nothing was going to happen after all.
Nest gave him a look.
When Pick left her on nearing the crowded pavilion with its cotton-candy, popcorn, hot-dog, and soft-drink stands, she moved quickly toward the rendezvous point she had settled on with her friends. One or two people glanced her way, but no one called out to her. She was stopped only once, by Gran"s friend Mildred Walker, who happened to be standing right in front of her as she pa.s.sed and couldn"t be avoided. Mrs. Walker told her she was sorry about Gran and about her young friend Jared Scott, and that she wasn"t to worry, that the Social Services people were going to see to it that nothing further happened to any of those children. She said it with such feeling and such obvious concern that it made Nest want to cry.
Later, Brianna confided to all of them that her mother had told her the Social Services people were already looking for temporary homes for the Scott kids. Her mother also told her that Jared was still in a coma and that wasn"t good.
Now Nest sat in the darkness sipping at her can of pop and reflecting on how unfair life could be. Out on the river, in a sea of blackness, the running lights of powerboats shone red and green, motionless on the becalmed waters. There was no wind; the air had gone back to being hot and sticky, and the taste of dust and old leaves had returned. But the sky was thick with clouds, which screened away the moon and stars, and rain was on the way. Nest wished it would hurry up and get here. Maybe it would help cool things down, clean stuff up, and give everyone a fresh att.i.tude. Maybe it would help wash away some of the madness.
A stray firefly blinked momentarily in front of her face and disappeared in the darkness. Somebody in a lawn chair sneezed, and the sneeze sounded like a dog"s bark. A ripple of laughter rose. Robert made a comment about the nature of germs in people"s mouths, and Brianna told him he was gross and disgusting. Robert stood up and announced he was off to buy some popcorn and would anybody like some? n.o.body would, he was informed, and Brianna said he should take his time coming back, maybe even think about going home and checking his mouth in the mirror. Robert walked off whistling.
Nest smiled, at ease with herself. She was thinking how comfortable she felt, sitting here in the darkness, surrounded by all these people. She felt sheltered and safe, as if nothing could touch her here, nothing could threaten. How deceptive that was. She wished she could disappear into the gloom and become one with the night, invisible and substanceless, impervious to harm. She wondered if Pick was having any luck. She tried to picture what the sylvan would do to defend her if the need arose, and couldn"t. She wondered if the demon was out there, waiting for her. She wondered if John Ross was waiting, too.
After a time, she began to think of Two Bears, wishing that he was still there and could help her. There was such strength in him, a strength she didn"t feel in herself, even though he had told her it was there. They had names of power, he said. But hers was the stronger, the one with true magic. He had given her what he could; the rest must come from her.
But what was it he had given her? That brief vision of her grandmother as a young girl, running wild in the park with the feeders and the demon? An insight into her convoluted and tragic family history? She didn"t know. Something more, she believed. Something deeper, more personal. Think. Think. It was his desire to commune with the spirits of his people, the Sinnissippi, that had brought him to Hopewell, but it was her ties to the magic that had drawn him to her. Your people risk the fate of mine, he had warned, wanting her to know, to understand. No one knows who my people were. No one knows how they perished. It can happen to your people, too. It is happening now, without their knowledge and with their considerable help. Your people are destroying themselves. It was his desire to commune with the spirits of his people, the Sinnissippi, that had brought him to Hopewell, but it was her ties to the magic that had drawn him to her. Your people risk the fate of mine, he had warned, wanting her to know, to understand. No one knows who my people were. No one knows how they perished. It can happen to your people, too. It is happening now, without their knowledge and with their considerable help. Your people are destroying themselves.
We do not always recognize the thing that comes to destroy us. That is the lesson of the Sinnissippi.
But he might have been speaking of her father as well.
She stared into the darkness, lost in thought. It was all tied together. She could feel it in her bones. The fate of her friends and family and neighbors and of people she didn"t even know. Her own fate. The fates of the demon and John Ross. Of O"olish Amaneh, too, perhaps. They were all bound up by a single cord.
I am not strong enough for this.
I am afraid.
She stared at nothing, the words frozen in her mind, immutable. Then she heard Two Bears" clear response, the one he had given her two nights earlier.
Fear is afire to temper courage and resolve. Use it so.
She sat alone in the darkness, no longer comfortable with pretending at invisibility, and tried to determine if she could do as Two Bears expected.