Avett
It was a sleepless night in lockup and not because of the scorned cell mate. She had actually quieted down some after I told her my dad"s words of wisdom. She did spend several hours muttering to herself, questioning what she had done, what her kids were going to do without her, but she eventually fell asleep. That left me alone, in the not quite silent jail cell, worrying about what my dad was going to say when Quaid, the too handsome for my own good lawyer, called him. I turned over every scenario I could imagine in my mind, and none of them added up to Brite Walker being in that courtroom when I went before the judge.
He was going to be so disappointed. He was going to be so hurt. He was going to be disgusted and fed up that, once again, I hadn"t listened to him, hadn"t listened to any kind of common sense or paid attention to any of the red flags flapping wildly in my face when I decided to hook up with Jared. I wasn"t twelve anymore and it was no longer cute when I stubbornly went against the grain. No, this situation wasn"t cute at all and there was no way my always supportive, always loyal, and compa.s.sionate father was going to condone my behavior when it led to other people he cared about getting hurt. If something had happened to Asa or to the cop, who also happened to be the gorgeous, southern bartender"s girlfriend, I wouldn"t have been able to live with myself. As it was, I felt the guilt for having any part in putting them in danger weighing me down with every single step I took as I was herded into the courtroom. If I couldn"t stand myself for what I had done, how could my dad be there to offer me his ma.s.sive shoulder to lean on?
The arraignment wasn"t like anything I had ever experienced before during all my other dustups with the law. I was hauled there in a van with an armed policeman in the front and back. I was transported with other women, and I learned quickly that the different colored jumpsuits they had us in represented the different levels of offenses that we were waiting to be arraigned on. It was a lot more intense and serious than any marathon of watching The Good Wife made it seem. I was forced to sit on a hard wooden bench next to a woman that told me she was waiting to be arraigned on manslaughter charges. She a.s.sured me she was innocent but that didn"t make me feel any better about the fact I was practically sitting in her lap. We were also placed behind a Plexiglas screen, which I a.s.sumed was supposed to be some kind of protection. I couldn"t tell if it was for us or for the people in the packed courtroom.
There were so many people, rows and rows filled with curious faces, all with their eyes locked on those of us on the wrong side of the barrier. Some people were crying; some looked furious as they glared at the group of us waiting to learn our fates. I was trying to search out the tawny, perfectly coiffed head of my unwanted, but very much needed, legal representative in the crowd but I didn"t spot him. My heart kicked hard in my chest and my handcuffed hands started to sweat as I curled my fingers into my palms. I was in so far over my head that panic and dread were starting to fill me up as I realized I very well might be stuck in this mess, leveled and flattened on the bottom of rock bottom, all on my own.
I was the idiot that fired him. I told him I didn"t need his help because I didn"t want him to call my dad. I did what I always did and f.u.c.ked everything up. G.o.d, when was I going to learn to tamp down my foolish and impulsive reactions? Why did I always have to be my own worst enemy? I hadn"t ever done myself any favors, and now, it looked like I had gone and shot myself in the foot, all because I didn"t want to let my dad down again. When I least expected it, pride and remorse reared up to remind me that I wasn"t quite as awful as I made myself out to be. I still had a heart, still had a soul, even though both were tattered and torn.
I sucked in a deep breath and willed myself not to start crying. I really wanted to. I wanted to sob, shake, and fall into a million tiny pieces of regret and shame. I wouldn"t though. I was willful and foolish, but I wasn"t fragile. I had screwed up, like I always did, and I would take whatever consequences that followed that screwup stoically and silently. I would man-up, take whatever hits I had coming, and maybe finally pull my head out of my a.s.s and start making better choices. That was the only way I had left to let my dad know I wasn"t a total lost cause. I could still turn it around if he didn"t give up on me.
I didn"t realize that I had squeezed my eyes closed to keep the moisture at bay. When I pried them open after I got my emotions under control, not only did I spot that elegant golden head coming through the large wooden doors, but I also quit breathing when I realized it was bent towards a much darker, much grizzlier one as they walked towards the front of the courtroom. Charcoal gray eyes locked on mine and shined so much love at me that I couldn"t stop a rebellious and wild tear full of liquid relief from sliding down my cheek. My heart expanded and started beating in a familiar rhythm tapping with hope and warmth as my dad tilted his heavily bearded chin in my direction and took a seat next to the attorney. The chin tilt was a universal signal from Brite Walker indicating everything would be okay, and with him here, with him looking at me like he always looked at me, for the first time since I had been arrested, I actually had a tiny sliver of belief that it would all work out in my favor. Maybe I was on the bottom, but my dad was there to give me a boost up, and this time, I was determined not to immediately fall down as soon as I got my feet under me.
A deep shudder worked through my body and it took me a second to notice that not only was my gigantic and impossible to miss father in the courtroom, but so was my much smaller, much more delicate mother. She had her hand in my dad"s, and while I was fighting back tears, she was letting hers freely flow. I knew both my parents adored me, but Darcy had a firm breaking point and I had pushed her to it more than once. I was surprised to see her and wondered if she was here to support me or to support my dad. Even though they were divorced, and often argued like cats and dogs, there was still something between my mother and father that no amount of discord and tension, or even relationships with other people, could kill.
Whoever she was here for, I was glad to see both of them and it was impossible to miss the triumphant look on Quaid"s face as I switched my attention to him. He dipped his very whiskerless, chiseled chin at me, much like my dad had done. With both of them here to silently a.s.sure me that things would be okay, or as okay as they could be for the moment, I started to breathe easier and finally unclenched my hands. It wasn"t relief that was flooding me, but it was something close.
Since my last name was Walker and W was always at the end of everything that went in alphabetical order, I didn"t get my turn in front of the judge until well after the possible murderer, who was denied bail, and the drug dealer, who was also denied bail. The longer I had to wait, the more anxious I got. I didn"t know the ins and outs of everyone else"s circ.u.mstances, but I was astute enough to put together the fact anyone going before the judge that had an extensive criminal history already on the books was mercilessly shot down and sent back to the enclosed bench looking at more time in the slammer. I was stunned that it all happened so fast. Each hearing took less than five minutes, which seemed far too quick to decide if someone was worthy of going home or sitting in jail for an undetermined amount of time. None of it seemed to bode well for me when it was my turn, but every time I met the golden-haired attorney"s gaze through the protective gla.s.s, it never wavered or betrayed any kind of worry. The expression in his light blue eyes never indicated anything but steady a.s.surance and stone-cold confidence.
My dad, on the other hand, was getting just as antsy and just as fidgety as I was the longer time dragged on and the more accused that the judge shot down. Brite Walker was a ma.s.sive human being. He took up all the available s.p.a.ce around him and then some. When Brite was uncomfortable, it made everyone else within his vicinity uncomfortable. I saw the judge shoot my dad a couple of narrow-eyed looks throughout the different hearings, and I watched every single person seated in the same row as my father get up and move the more agitated he became. I kept waiting for Quaid to tell him to dial it down, for him to ask my dad to put a lid on his natural fatherly and protective instincts, but he never did. In fact, every time the judge looked in their direction or another person abandoned their front row seat, a small grin would tug at the man"s perfectly sculpted mouth and wry humor would dance in his eyes. My dad typically made a lasting impression on everyone that crossed his path; it appeared Quaid Jackson wasn"t immune to my dad"s legendary charisma and presence either.
Finally, the court clerk called my docket number and said, "The court will now hear the case of the State against Avett Walker," and it was my turn to go stand at the podium and plead for my temporary freedom-well, let Quaid plead for it. It took a minute to maneuver around the remaining defendants and I almost fell over once without the use of my hands to balance myself. The bailiff shot me an annoyed look as several of the other accused snickered at my clumsiness, calling me a rookie under their breath. I almost melted into the floor in a puddle of grat.i.tude when I was finally standing next to Quaid.
The judge looked at me and surprisingly over my head at what I could only a.s.sume was my father. His attention then shifted to the other man in the suit standing off to the left of us.
"Are we waving a formal reading, Counselor? Mr. Townsend has had a long day and I"m sure he would appreciate getting right to the arraignment."
Quaid gave a dry chuckle and nodded his head slightly. "That"s fine and every day is a rough day for the prosecution, Your Honor." The judge grunted and flipped open a file in front of him. I wanted to run up to his bench and s.n.a.t.c.h it away. Every single mistake I had ever made in my life was there, encouraging him to deny me a chance at freedom.
"What"s the people"s thoughts on bail in this case, Mr. Townsend?" Across from where I was doing everything in my power not to collapse into Quaid since my knees felt like Jell-O, the other attorney leafed through another folder full of my sins and shot me a frown.
"The charges are serious. The defendant is a known offender and there was an off-duty police officer involved during the commission of the crime Ms. Walker is accused of abetting in. The people can"t find a known address, work history, or any kind of solid ties to the community where this defendant is concerned. The people feel that she could be a flight risk, so we are asking bail be set at no less than $500,000."
My knees almost buckled and I couldn"t stop the slight wheeze that escaped my lips. Half a million dollars? My dad made all-right money and had a pretty nice nest egg, but he wasn"t a millionaire by any stretch of the imagination, and even if he bonded me out that would still be more than he could comfortably afford to give up. Not to mention I would never, ever be able to pay him back. I was going back to jail; even if I knew I deserved nothing less, it still burned.
I turned to Quaid, ready to beg him to do something, to do anything to fix this, but he was looking at the prosecutor with narrowed eyes and a frown. The tip of his elbow brushed against mine. I thought it might was an accident, but then his gaze shifted back to me and the annoyance was replaced with calm a.s.surance.
"Mr. Jackson, I"m sure you have plenty to say about the State"s recommendation for your client, so let"s hear it."
"I think Mr. Townsend has forgotten that my client is only being charged as an accessory to this crime. There is an actual perpetrator in custody awaiting his own time before the court on actual charges, not just accessory charges relating to the commission, Your Honor. Yes, Ms. Walker has made some unfortunate choices in the past when it comes to following the law, but none of those charges are felonies and none of them resulted in time served. But because I"m realistic and know the court can"t overlook those prior indiscretions, I won"t push my luck and ask for my client to be released on her own recognizance. As for being a flight risk"-a grin pulled at his mouth, and again I wondered if he used it as a weapon because the d.a.m.n thing was a killer-"Mr. Townsend was kind enough to point out that Ms. Walker isn"t working and doesn"t have a long employment history, so I"m not sure how the State a.s.sumes she would fund going on the run from the law."
A deep chuckle rumbled from behind me and all I wanted to do was turn around and throw my arms around my dad. The judge grunted and made a "go on with it" gesture with his hand.
"As for her permanent residence, Ms. Walker has and still does keep a room at her father, Mr. Brighton Walker"s, home here in Denver. Once we agree to a reasonable bail amount"-Quaid shot the other attorney a hard look that made the man scowl-"Mr. Walker is going to pay it and take his daughter home. He has also given his a.s.surances that his daughter will be present and willing to partic.i.p.ate in her own case as well as the case the State is building against Jared Dalton. While Ms. Walker may not have ties to the community, her father has them in spades and I believe him when he says he will make sure Avett is present and accounted for as we move forward."
I held my breath. It felt like an eternity pa.s.sed as the judge returned his attention to the file in front of him and then once again lifted his gaze and let it settle somewhere over the top of my head.
When he looked back at me I stiffened my spine and tried to make my expression look as innocent as I possibly could. That was a challenge because I sure as h.e.l.l didn"t feel very innocent. Quaid"s elbow rubbed against mine again and I realized it hadn"t been a mistake the first time. He was letting me know I wasn"t alone in this, that my fate wasn"t in my own hands. It was barely a touch, barely a connection, but that little bit of pressure, that tiny brush, hit me harder and more deeply than any full embrace I had ever been wrapped up in.
"Ms. Walker." I jolted when the judge addressed me directly. I blinked at him a little stupidly and gulped before I spoke so I didn"t sound like a bullfrog croaking.
"Yes, Your Honor?"
"Your counsel is trying to make light of the charges you"re facing, but I need you to understand they are serious and that the State has every intention of pursuing its case against you."
I nodded, and when Quaid nudged me, I cleared my throat again. "I understand."
"You seem to be a young woman with a bad habit of ignoring the law. The court doesn"t appreciate that att.i.tude but also recognizes that you are young enough to learn from your litany of mistakes. I agree with your attorney that the amount of bail requested by the State is unreasonable considering the circ.u.mstances and your prior history." He looked over my head again and I actually felt the air shift along with my dad as he moved on the bench behind me. "Young lady, I also hope you appreciate how influential it has been to know you have a strong support system in place to keep you from making any more foolish decisions as you await your preliminary hearing. The court agrees to release the defendant on bail in the amount of $150,000. The defendant is being released on the grounds she remains at the permanent address of the home of Brighton Walker until the court proceedings are concluded."
I wilted. I couldn"t help it. My knees folded and relief blindsided me so strongly I couldn"t stand up under the weight of it. Quaid"s strong arm was around my waist before I fell all the way into him and he gave my hip a little squeeze before setting me back on my feet.
"Ms. Walker."
I sucked in a breath and tilted my chin up at the judge as he said my name again.
"Yes, Your Honor?" There was a tremor in my voice but I didn"t bother to try and hide it.
"My advice to you is to wise up. Stay away from anyone else involved in the situation that landed you here and start using your head."
It was good advice. People always had good advice for me, if only I was wired to take it.
This time around I was determined not to let my father down, so I nodded. "Thank you, Your Honor."
Quaid put his hand on my arm and turned me so that I was facing him. "Your dad is going to post bail and then pick you up from the jail. It"s going to take the rest of the afternoon to process you out. I"ll give you a couple days to settle in at your dad"s and get your head on straight, then we need to have a strategy meeting. The State is going to have a plea bargain on my desk sometime this week and I need to know where we"re going with all of this."
I scowled at him and shook his hand off my arm. "I"m not taking a plea bargain, Counselor. I"m not guilty."
He heaved a sigh at me and gave me a look like I was being ridiculous. Before he could say anything else, a man, large enough to block out the rest of the room, was between us. I was pulled into a barrel chest with my face buried in a beard that was as much of a legend in Denver as the man that wore it.
I never wanted to hug my dad so badly in my life. As soon as his tree-trunk-like arms folded around me, I couldn"t hold it together anymore. Tears started leaking through my closed lids and my lashes weren"t strong enough to stem the flow. My shoulders shook and my cuffed hands curled desperately into his faded Harley-Davidson shirt.
"I"m so sorry, Daddy." I wasn"t sure how the words made it out over the lump in my throat as one of his ma.s.sive paws curled around the back of my head and pulled me closer.
"I know you are, Sprite, but we gotta get to a place where you don"t have to be sorry like this any more."
"I know." I breathed the words out and pulled away as someone cleared their throat. My dad dropped his hand onto my shoulder as the bailiff inclined his head towards the doors that led to the prisoner holding area.
"You can have her back in a bit, sir. But right now she has to come with me."
My dad practically growled at the man, which made him fall back a step. He released me after giving my shoulder a squeeze and a kiss on the top of my head. I let the bailiff take my arm and peeked around my dad"s broad frame so I could see my mom. She could only meet my eyes for a moment and when she did I saw the heartbreak and disappointment clouding her gaze.
"Thanks for coming, Mom. I"m so sorry for all of this." The bailiff started to guide me away as Quaid ushered my dad back to the part of the courtroom reserved for the families and audience.
"Saying you"re sorry and actually being sorry are two very different things, Avett." She got to her feet as my dad reached for her hand with a hard look on his face. She shook her head at me, and even though I could barely hear her because she spoke as they were calling the case after mine, her words. .h.i.t their mark.
"Sorry" rolled off my tongue so easily and frequently that the words hardly held any meaning anymore. This time around I needed to actually be sorry for what I had done, even if what I had done was nothing. I had a lot to prove, a lot to make up for, and my track record for doing the right thing was s.h.i.t. I didn"t want my mom to barely be able to look at me. I didn"t want my father to have to borrow against his retirement to bail me out of jail. Saying sorry wasn"t enough; this time around, I was actually going to have to change.
I went back into what the bailiff referred to as the "pen" and took my place between the murderer and the drug dealer. They both turned to me with envy and annoyance in their eyes. I was going home at the end of the day; they were going back behind bars.
The druggie lifted her eyebrows at me and stuck her tongue out, licking her dried lips. I cringed involuntarily, which had her giving me a crooked smile that showed all of her yellow and chipped teeth. "That guy representing you is hot. How much does he charge an hour? Are you f.u.c.king him? I would f.u.c.k him. I bet he"s expensive and good in bed. That hard-a.s.s judge denied us all bail, except for you."
I felt my eyes widen and I looked at the woman on the other side of me; she seemed as interested in my answers as the drug dealer.
I cleared my throat and shifted uneasily on the hard wooden bench. "I didn"t pay for him, so I don"t know how much he charges, and no, I"m not sleeping with him. I only met him yesterday." Which didn"t explain why everything inside of me turned gooey and warm when he unleashed that grin of his. Or why I instantly felt better when his elbow briefly touched mine. It was a totally inappropriate reaction seeing as the man was a decade older than me, noticeably from a different background and social cla.s.s than I came from, and had only ever seen me in jailbird orange while he was trying to keep my a.s.s out of the slammer. My hormones must have missed the memo that the rest of me was in deep s.h.i.t and Quaid Jackson was the guy holding the shovel to dig me out.
"I would f.u.c.k him." This from the possible murderer on my other side. I wondered if Quaid knew that the entire female criminal population of Denver considered him f.u.c.kable.
I clicked the metal snapped around my wrists together to distract myself and muttered, "I don"t think we"re exactly his type."
I imagined guys like Quaid preferred women that didn"t know what real handcuffs felt like when they were used for their intended purposes, and I couldn"t see him getting all hot and bothered over a chick with pink hair, even if mine was quickly fading and turning more rose colored as my natural dark brown took over at the crown.
"Girl, I"m every guy"s type if the price is right." The druggie licked her lips again and I wanted to curl in a ball and make myself as small as possible to get away from both of them and the way they were talking about my attorney. I didn"t like it. Furthermore, I really didn"t like that I didn"t like it.
Luckily, there were only a couple of cases left and soon enough we were all being herded into the van and heading towards the jail. I was dreading having to sit behind bars again, but instead of taking me back to the cell with the scorned spouse, I found myself in a room similar to the one I had spoken to Quaid in the day after my arrest. The clothes I was wearing the night of the robbery were brought to me and I was told to change and sit tight.
I happily shed the jumpsuit and scrambled back into my own clothes. I never thought torn jeans, a stretched-out cotton T-shirt, and battered Vans could feel like the most expensive evening gown with designer heels. It wasn"t haute couture, but man, did it feel luxurious compared to the scratchy jailhouse jumpsuit. There was even a hair tie in my pocket, so I wrestled my thick and colorful hair up into a messy top knot, then did what I was told to do and sat tight.
It was only a few hours, but it felt like days. I counted the tiles on the floor, memorized the pattern in which the flickering fluorescent light above my head was going to flash, and I had plenty of time to go over every single f.u.c.kup I had made on my way to this point. The right thing was always there, always right in front of me screaming, "Pick me! Pick me!" and I was always the defiant moron that ignored the best option and went chasing after my downfall. Now that I had officially caught it, I could confidently say it wasn"t all that it was cracked up to be. Falling meant I had to land eventually. The falling was scary and endless, but the landing ... that was where things really got rough. That was what left a mark.
I should have known the second I met Jared that he was no good. There was no reason for him to pursue me. I was a recent college dropout, didn"t have my own place, had no job; too much Netflix and junk food had left my tiny frame far rounder and curvier than most twenty-year-old dudes chased after. I needed my dad to come save me when my last boyfriend ditched me, so I knew there was nothing about me that screamed, "She"s a good catch." Even with all those marks against me in the girlfriend material department, Jared had pursued me relentlessly.
At first he was sweet and charming. His low-key, stoner vibe worked for me, so did the fact that no one seemed to like him. The more my dad glowered and grumbled about Jared, the more attracted to him I became. My dad was my hero, my idol, my best friend, but the more he disapproved of the men in my life, the more determined I was to hold on to them. It hurt to do that, but the hurt was what I was after. Eventually, Jared and I were sleeping together and I was spending more and more time at his place, even as it became clear he enjoyed more than the occasional marijuana high. I convinced myself Jared was a recreational drug user, that he liked to dabble, but it was a lie, one that I couldn"t even tell myself with a straight face as time went on.
I begged Dad for a job at the bar because I needed s.p.a.ce away from the drugs and the abuse. Right there, I should have been smart enough to walk away from the man and the situation, but I couldn"t and I wouldn"t. Jared loved having me work at the bar. It meant free food and booze, and whenever he was short when he had to pay his dealer, he thought it meant an easy place to s.n.a.t.c.h some cash. I hated stealing. It made me feel dirty and ugly, but I hated having to explain a black eye and a fat lip even more. I didn"t have the words to try and justify why I stayed. I sure as h.e.l.l didn"t have the words to describe why I froze and did nothing the night of the robbery.
Eventually, after what felt like eons and eons left alone with my own sour thoughts, a uniformed cop showed up and told me to follow him. I stopped at a desk and was told to fill out a bunch of paperwork. I signed it all without reading it, then took a sealed plastic bag that was pushed my way; it was filled with my belongings from the night of my arrest. My cell phone, as well as my purse, were in the bag, so I took them both out, turning to see my father getting to his feet from where he was sitting in a small plastic chair.
Without a word, I hurled myself at him and wrapped my arms around his waist. He squeezed me back and I felt him rest his furry cheek on the top of my head, squishing my bun down. I inhaled his very-dad scent, which always reminded me of his bike and his bar, letting his familiarity and strength prop me up under the weight of everything pressing down on me.
"You ready to go home, Sprite?"
I hugged him as hard as I could, making a silent promise to myself that I would never put him in the position of having to rescue me from myself again.
"Yeah, Dad. I"m very ready to go home." It was, after all, where my heart, as battered and bruised as it may have been, always was.
CHAPTER 4.
Quaid
I was late getting back to my office after court because I"d had a meeting with the district attorney"s office that ran long. It happened all the time, but today I found myself irrationally annoyed at the hitch in my schedule and seriously resentful of the wasted thirty minutes that Avett had to spend sitting outside my office while my a.s.sistant gave her the side eye from behind her computer. It had been three days since our last encounter in the courthouse, and even though I would never admit anything out loud, she had been on my mind a lot. Her-not her case. That, coupled with the fact that I immediately noticed jailhouse orange didn"t do her any favors, and that she was even cuter, even more innocent and fresh looking in her normal street wear, made me approach her more abruptly, even harsher, than I tended to be with my clients.
I jerked my head in the direction of my office door without a h.e.l.lo and didn"t look to see if she was following me when I asked, "Where"s your dad? I thought he was sticking by your side through all of this?" I sounded like a d.i.c.k. I was acting like a d.i.c.k. I could tell when I rounded my desk and finally turned to look at her that she was very aware of the fact that I was in a mood.
She crossed her arms over her chest, a chest that was ample, round, and far more plush than I would have imagined considering her small stature. And even though I shouldn"t have, I had imagined a whole h.e.l.l of a lot about her over the last few days. Those curves and valleys she possessed were far too enticing and appealing. I was annoyed that I had noticed and was having a hard time landing my gaze on any part of her I didn"t appreciate in an entirely unprofessional way. She was more than a handful in a lot of ways and a couple of them had my d.i.c.k twitching inappropriately. The prison jumpsuit had swallowed her up and what it had been hiding was a curvy little figure currently radiating with as much repressed att.i.tude as I was freely throwing at her.
I shouldn"t be noticing her curves, or the way her dark eyebrows snapped into a fierce V over the top of her nose. She was just a kid in the grand scheme of life, but more than that, she was a client. It was my job to help her, to keep her out of jail, not to be enthralled by the irritated pucker of her mouth or entranced by the way her cheeks flushed to the same rosy pink as her hair as she visibly battled for the proper way to respond to my s.h.i.tty greeting and overall a.s.shole-ish demeanor. I shouldn"t like the way she bristled and stiffened but I did.
"Dad wanted to come, but I"m working towards proving that I am capable of doing something right in this lifetime. He"ll hold my hand forever if I let him, and frankly, I don"t want him to be involved in this mess any more than he already is." She leaned back in the chair and continued to scowl at me. "You"re going to offer some kind of plea deal that will seem reasonable and make sense because it will make all of this go away. Dad will encourage me to listen to your advice. He will tell me we"re paying for you to look out for my best interest." She shook her head and wrapped her arms tighter around herself like she was giving herself a hug. "And he might be right, but I didn"t help Jared rob the bar. I wasn"t his accomplice or his accessory. I didn"t aid or abet him in anything, so I"m not going to take a deal. Me not taking a deal would probably make my dad worry about what was going to happen to me. I"ve put him through enough." She finally broke eye contact and looked down at the lush Berber carpet below her sneakered feet. "It might not be the right thing to do, but I"m used to that."
I felt some of the tension that was coiled up inside of me unwind as I listened to her. Most of my clients had their own self-interests in mind when they made decisions about what they were going to do when faced with charges, but not this young woman. It was startling, even refreshing, to have someone in this office genuinely concerned about how their actions and consequences affected someone else, someone they loved. Even if she was a little late to the game, I was glad to see Avett had come to play.
"The D.A."s office sent over a plea deal this morning. They"re willing to drop all the charges except for the accessory charge if you agree to serve ninety days in jail with a two-year probationary period. They also want you to testify against Jared Dalton." I laced my fingers together in front of me and watched as her breathing quickened. The gold on the outer rim of her eyes seemed to blaze as the brown in the center darkened to pitch-black. It was like watching a kaleidoscope shift and change shape and colors.
"I don"t want to see Jared." Her voice hitched and her knuckles turned white where she was clutching her upper arms.
"You aren"t going to get a choice in the matter. You"ll have to testify, deal or no deal. You"re a witness and either the state or Jared"s attorney will eventually call you to the stand. Jared is trying to use you and the story that you were p.i.s.sed your dad sold the bar as his reasonable doubt. You"re an integral part of his trial regardless of what happens with your own."
She pouted.
I blinked because it should have looked indulgent and petulant. It should have made her come across as spoiled, sulky. It didn"t. It made her look adorable and put out. It wasn"t the kind of pout Lottie would give me when she wanted to spend an unG.o.dly amount of money on a new couch or some purse that she would only use once; no, this was the pout of a woman that legitimately didn"t want to do something and was sullen about it. It was charming in a totally innocent way, and again, I silently berated myself for noticing the tiny gesture at all.
"It"s a good deal, Avett. A really good deal. The minimum time served if you"re convicted on the accessory charge alone is three years." I lifted my eyebrows at her. "Three years is the minimum, meaning if we do end up at a trial with a jury and they find you guilty, the judge can give you anywhere from three to five years. That"s a big chunk of time to sit behind bars if you take a gamble and lose."
She let her arms fall and scooted forward on the chair. She leaned forward and looked at me intently. Her eyes were mesmerizing and I found myself distracted by all the different colors trapped there. I had to ask her to repeat herself when I realized she said something and was waiting for a response from me. I needed to get my head in the game where this girl was concerned ... this girl ... that was the part I seemed to keep forgetting.
"What did you say?" My voice dipped lower than it normally was and I shifted in my seat as other parts of me started to notice all the interesting and attractive things about Avett Walker as well.
"I said, I Googled you." She swept some of her hair back from where it had fallen over her shoulder, and I literally had to force myself to keep my gaze locked on her face as the motion pushed her chest up higher and tighter against the plain black T-shirt she had on.
"Oh, yeah? How did that work out for you?" I knew what she would find: my service record, my wedding announcement, my work history with the firm, various tidbits on my most high profile cases, and several articles chronicling my divorce. Most divorces weren"t newsworthy, but when one of the people involved came from money and the other was as high profile as I was, it made for good filler on a slow newsday. I was curious to see what her interpretation of the snapshot of my life that existed on the Internet was.
She got up from the chair and started to pace back and forth in front of my desk as she talked. "It worked out well enough, I guess. I saw that you were enlisted when you were younger, which explains why my dad immediately liked you." She looked at me over her shoulder and a tiny grin tugged at her mouth. "He doesn"t usually like anyone instantly. It takes him a while to warm up."
I listened with half an ear as I watched her brightly colored hair swish around her shoulders. She didn"t come across as the girlie or overly feminine type, so I wondered why she had gone with such a delicate and pretty pink when coloring her hair.
"I learned that you"re a Colorado native, that you grew up in the mountains, that your birthday is right around Christmas, which means you"re almost thirty-two, so you"ve accomplished a lot in your career in a short amount of time. I also learned that you own a lot of suits."