"What can change us?" he replied.
"Or who?" and as she smiled up to him, she was ashamed of her smile.
"Yes, who!" he interjected, by this time quite enlightened. All subtle feelings are discerned by Welsh eyes when untroubled by any mental agitation. Brother and sister were Welsh, and I may observe that there is human nature and Welsh nature.
"Forgive me," she said; "I have been disturbed about you."
Perceiving that it would be well to save her from any spiritual twists and turns that she might reach what she desired to know, he spoke out fully: "I have not written to you about Miss Belloni lately. I think it must be seven or eight days since I had a letter from her--you shall see it--looking as if it had been written in the dark. She gave the address of a London hotel. I went to her, and her story was that she had come to town to get Mr. Pole"s consent to her marriage with his son; and that when she succeeded in making herself understood by him, the old man fell, smitten with paralysis, crying out that he was ruined, and his children beggars."
"Ah!" said Georgiana; "then this son is engaged to her?"
"She calls him her lover."
"Openly?"
"Have I not told you? "naked and unashamed.""
"Of course that has attracted my Merthyr!" Georgians drew to him tenderly, breathing as one who has a burden off her heart.
"But why did she write to you?" the question started up.
For this reason: it appears that Mr. Pole showed such nervous irritation at the idea of his family knowing the state he was in, that the doctor attending him exacted a promise from her not to communicate with one of them. She was alone, in great perplexity, and did what I had requested her to do. She did me the honour to apply to me for any help it was in my power to give.
Georgiana stood eyeing the ground sideways. "What is she like?"
"You shall see to-morrow, if you will come with me."
"Dark, or fair?"
Merthyr turned her face to the light, laughing softly. Georgiana coloured, with dropped eyelids.
She raised her eyes under their load of shame. "I will come gladly," she said.
"Early to-morrow, then," rejoined Merthyr.
On the morrow, as they were driving to the hotel, Georgians wanted to know whether he called "this Miss Belloni" by her Christian name--a question so needless that her over-conscious heart drummed with grat.i.tude when she saw that he purposely spared her from one meaning look. In this mutual knowledge, mutual help, in minute as in great things, as well as in the recognition of a common n.o.bility of mind, the love of the two was fortified.
Emilia had not been left by Mr. Powys without the protection of a woman"s society in her singular position. Lady Charlotte"s natural prompt kindness required no spur from her friend that she should go and brace up the spirits of a little woman, whom she pitied doubly for loving a man who was deceiving her, and not loving one who was good for her. She went frequently to Emilia, and sat with her in the sombre hotel drawing-room. Still, frank as she was and blunt as she affected to be, she could not bring her tongue to speak of Wilfrid. If she had fancied any sensitive shuddering from the name and the subject to exist, she would have struck boldly, being capable of cruelty and, where she was permitted to see a weakness, rather fond of striking deep. A belief in the existence of Emilia"s courage touched her to compa.s.sion. One day, however, she said, "What is it you take to in Merthyr Powys?" and this brought on plain speaking.
Emilia could give no reason; and it is a peculiarity of people who ask such questions that they think a want of directness in the answer suspicious.
Lady Charlotte said gravely, "Come, come!"
"What do you mean?" asked Emilia. "I like so many things in him."
"You don"t like one thing chiefly?"
"I like--what do I like?--his kindness."
"His kindness!" This was the sort of reply to make the lady implacable.
She seldom read others shrewdly, and could not know, that near her, Emilia thought of Wilfrid in a way that made the vault of her brain seem to echo with jarred chords. "His kindness! What a picture is the "grateful girl!" I have seen rows of white-capped charity children giving a bob and a sniffle as the parson went down the ranks promising buns. Well! his kindness! You are right in appreciating as much as you can see. I"ll tell you why I like him;--because he is a gentleman. And you haven"t got an idea how rare that animal is. Dear me! Should I be plainer to you if I called him a Christian gentleman? It"s the cant of a detestable school, my child. It means just this--but why should I disturb your future faith in it? The professors mainly profess to be "a comfort to young women," and I suppose you will meet your comfort, and worship them with the "growing mind;" and I must confess that they bait it rather cunningly; nothing else would bite. They catch almost all the raw boys who have anything in them. But for me, Merthyr himself would have been caught long ago. There"s no absolute harm in them, only that they"re a sentimental compromise. I deny their honesty; and if it"s flatly proved, I deny their intelligence. Well! this you can"t understand."
"I have not understood you at all," said Emilia.
"No? It"s the tongue that"s the natural traitor to a woman, and takes longer runs with every added year. I suppose you know that Mr. Powys wishes to send you to Italy?"
"I do," said Emilia.
"When are you going?"
"I am not going?"
"Why?"
Emilia"s bosom rose. She cried "Dear lady!" on the fall of it, and was scarce audible--adding, "Do you love Wilfrid?"
"Well, you have brought me to the point quickly," Lady Charlotte remarked. "I don"t commonly beat the bush long myself. Love him! You might as well ask me my age. The indiscretion would be equal, and the result the same. Love! I have a proper fear of the word. When two play at love they spoil the game. It"s enough that he says he loves me."
Emilia looked relieved. "Poor lady!" she sighed.
"Poor!" Lady Charlotte echoed, with curious eyes fixed on the puzzle beside her.
"Tell me you will not believe him," Emilia continued. "He is mine; I shall never give him up. It is useless for you or any one else to love him. I know what love is now. Stop while you can. I can be sorry for you, but I will not let him go from me. He is my lover."
Emilia closed her lips abruptly. She produced more effect than was visible. Lady Charlotte drew out a letter, saying, "Perhaps this will satisfy you."
"Nothing!" cried Emilia, jumping to her feet.
"Read it--read it; and, for heaven"s sake, ma fille sauvage, don"t think I"m here to fight for the man! He is not Orpheus; and our modern education teaches us that it"s we who are to be run after. Will you read it?"
"No."
"Will you read it to please me?"
Emilia changed from a look of quiet opposition to gentleness of feature.
"Why will it please you if I read that he has flattered you? I never lie about what I feel; I think men do." Her voice sank.
"You won"t allow yourself to imagine, then, that he has spoken false to you?"
"Tell me," retorted Emilia, "are you sure in your heart--as sure as it beats each time--that he loves you? You are not."
"It seems that we are dignifying my gentleman remarkably," said Lady Charlotte. "When two women fight for a man, that is almost a meal for his vanity. Now, listen. I am not, as they phrase it, in love. I am an experienced person--what is called a woman of the world. I should not make a marriage unless I had come to the conclusion that I could help my husband, or he me. Do me the favour to read this letter."
Emilia took it and opened it slowly. It was a letter in the tone of the gallant paying homage with some fervour. Emilia searched every sentence for the one word. That being absent, she handed back the letter, her eyes lingering on the signature.
"Do you see what he says?" asked Lady Charlotte; "that I can be a right hand to him, as I believe I can."
"He writes like a friend." Emilia uttered this as when we have a contrast in the mind.