Yourii failed to perceive that he was taking as his model a man whom he had described as a miserable little fellow.
"Anyhow, sooner or later, my end will be like that. There is no other way out. Why is there not? Because..."
Yourii paused. He believed that he had got an exact reply to this question, yet the words he wanted could not be found. His brain was over-wrought, and his thoughts confused.
"It"s rubbish, all rubbish!" he exclaimed bitterly.
The lamp burned low, and its faint light illumined Yourii"s bowed head, as he leant across the table.
"Why didn"t I die when I was a boy and had inflammation of the lungs? I should now be happy, and at rest."
He shivered at the thought.
"In that case I should not have seen or known all that now I know. That would have been just as dreadful."
Yourii tossed back his head, and rose.
"It"s enough to drive one mad!"
He went to the window and tried to open it, but the shutters were firmly fastened from the outside. By using a pencil, Yourii was able at last to unhook them, and with a creaking sound they swung back, admitting the cool, pure night air, Yourii looked up at the heavens and saw the roseate light of the dawn.
The morning was bright and clear. The seven stars of the Great Bear shone faintly, while large and l.u.s.trous in the crimson east flamed the morning star. A fresh breeze stirred the leaves, and dispersed the grey mists that floated above the lawn and veiled the smooth surface of the stream beside whose margin water-lilies and myosotis and white clover grew in abundance. The sky was flecked with little pink clouds, while here and there a last star trembled in the blue. All was so beautiful, so calm, as if the awestruck earth awaited the splendid approach of dawn.
Yourii at last went back to bed, but the garish daylight prevented him from getting sleep, as he lay there with aching brow and jaded eyes.
CHAPTER x.x.xV.
Early that morning, soon after sunrise, Ivanoff and Sanine walked forth from the town. The dew sparkled in the sunlight, and the damp gra.s.s seen in shadow appeared grey. Along the side of the road flanked by gnarled willows, pilgrims were slowly wending their way to the monastery. The red and white kerchiefs covering their heads and their bright-hued coats and shirts gave colour and picturesqueness to the scene. The monastery bells rang out in the cool morning air, and the sound floated across the steppe, away to the dreaming woods in the dim blue distance. A _troika_ came jingling along the highroad, and the rough voices of the pilgrims as they talked could be distinctly heard.
"We"ve come out a little too early," said Ivanoff.
Sanine looked round about him, contented and happy.
"Well, let us wait a while," he replied.
They sat down on the sand, close to the hedge, and lit their cigarettes.
Peasants walking along behind their carts turned to look at them, and market-women and girls as they rattled past in rickety traps pointed at the wayfarers amid bursts of merry, mocking laughter. Ivanoff took not the slightest notice of them, but Sanine smiled and nodded in response.
At last there appeared on the steps of a little white house with a bright green roof the proprietor of the "Crown" tavern, a tall man in his shirt-sleeves who noisily unlocked the door, while yawning incessantly. A woman wearing a red kerchief on her head slipped in after him.
"The very thing!" cried Ivanoff. "Let"s go there."
So they went to the little inn and bought vodka and fresh gherkins from the woman with the red kerchief.
"Aha! you seem to be pretty flush of money, my friend," said Ivanoff, as Sanine produced his purse.
"I"ve had an advance," replied the latter, smiling. "Much to my mother"s annoyance, I have accepted the secretaryship of an a.s.surance agency. In this way I was able to get a little cash as well as maternal contempt."
When they regained the high-road, Ivanoff exclaimed:
"Oh! I feel ever so much better now!"
"So do I. Suppose we take off our boots?"
"All right."
Having taken off their boots and socks, they walked barefoot through the warm, moist sand, which was a delightful experience after trudging along in heavy boots.
"Jolly, isn"t it?" said Sanine, as he drew a deep breath.
The sun"s rays had now become far hotter. The town lay well in their rear as the two wayfarers plodded bravely on towards the blue, nebulous horizon. Swallows sat in rows on the telegraph-wires. A pa.s.senger-train with its blue, yellow and green carriages rolled past on the adjacent line, and the faces of drowsy travellers could be seen at the windows.
Two saucy-looking girls in white hats stood on the platform at the end of the train and watched the two bare-footed men with astonishment.
Sanine laughed at them, and executed a wild impromptu dance.
Before them lay a meadow where walking barefoot in the long lush gra.s.s was an agreeable relief.
"How delightful!" cried Ivanoff.
"Life"s worth living to-day," rejoined his companion. Ivanoff glanced at Sanine; he thought those words must surely remind him of Sarudine and the recent tragedy. Yet seemingly it was far from Sanine"s thoughts, which surprised Ivanoff somewhat, yet did not displease him.
After crossing the meadow, they again got on to the main road which was thronged as before with peasants in their carts, and giggling girls.
Then they came to trees, and reeds, and glittering water, while above them, at no great distance on the hill-side, stood the monastery, topped by a cross that shone like some golden star.
Painted rowing-boats lined the sh.o.r.e, where peasants in bright-coloured shirts and vests lounged. After much haggling and good-humoured banter, Sanine hired one of the little boats. Ivanoff was a deft and powerful oarsman, and the boat shot forward across the water like a living thing. Sometimes the oars touched reeds or low-hanging branches which for a long while after such contact trembled above the deep, dark stream. Sanine steered with so much erratic energy that the water foamed and gurgled round the rudder. They reached a narrow backwater where it was shady and cool. So transparent was the stream that one could see the bottom covered with yellow pebbles, where shoals of little pink fish darted backwards and forwards.
"Here"s a good place to land," said Ivanoff, and his voice sounded cheery beneath the dark branches of the overhanging trees. As the boat with a grating sound touched the bank, he sprang lightly ash.o.r.e.
Sanine, laughing, did likewise.
"You won"t find a better," he cried, plunging knee-deep through the long gra.s.ses.
"Anywhere"s good in the sun, I say," replied Ivanoff, as from the boat he fetched the vodka, the bread, the cuc.u.mbers, and a little packet of _hors d"oeuvres._ All these he placed on a mossy slope in the shade of the trees, and here he lay down at full length.
"Lucullus dines with Lucullus," he said.
"Lucky man!" replied Sanine.
"Not entirely," added Ivanoff, with a droll expression of discontent, "for he"s forgotten the gla.s.ses."
"Never mind! We can manage, somehow."
Full of the sheer joy of living in this warm sunlight and green shade, Sanine climbed up a tree and began cutting off a bough with his knife, while Ivanoff watched him as the little white chips kept falling on to the turf below. At last the bough fell, too, when Sanine climbed down, and began to scoop it out, leaving the bark intact.
In a short time he had made a pretty little drinking-cup.