He started forward. "Wait! wait!" he said in a loud whisper, as she sprang back. But the voice seemed to startle her the more, and before he could reach her side she was gone. He heard her flying steps descend the stair, and the opening and closing of a door.
The sudden flight jarred Hugh"s pleasurable sense of novelty. He thrust his hands deep into his pockets. Now he was in for it! She would alarm the house, rouse the servants--he should have a staring, domestic audience for the imminent reconciliation his sobered sense told him was so necessary. Why could he not slip back into the old rut, he thought sullenly, without such a boring, perfunctory ceremony? He had intended to postpone this, if possible, until a night"s sleep had fortified him.
But now the sooner the ordeal was over, the better! Shrugging his shoulders, he went quickly down the stair to the library.
He had known exactly what he should see there--the vivid girl with the hue of fright in her cheeks, the shaded lamp, the wheel-chair, and the feeble old man with his furrowed face and gray mustaches. What he himself should say he had not had time to reflect.
The figure in the chair looked up as the door opened. "Hugh!" he cried, and half lifted himself from his seat. Then he settled back, and the sunken, indomitable eyes fastened themselves on his son"s face.
Hugh was melodramatic--cheaply so. He saw the girl start at the name, saw her hands catch at the kimono to draw its folds over the bare white throat, saw the rich color that flooded her brow. He saw himself suddenly the moving hero of the stagery, the tractive force of the situation. Real tears came to his eyes--tears of insincere feeling, due partly to the cheap whisky he had drunk that day, whose outward consequences he had so drastically banished, and partly to sheer nervous excitation.
"Father!" he said, and came and caught the gaunt hand that shook against the chair.
Then the deeps of the old man"s heart were suddenly broken up. "My son!"
he cried, and threw his arms about him. "Hugh--my boy, my boy!"
Jessica waited to hear no more. Thrilling with gladness, and flushing with the sudden recollection of her bare throat and feet, she slipped away to her room to creep into bed and lie wide-eyed and thinking.
What did he look like? Of his face she had never seen even a counterfeit presentment. Through what adventures had he pa.s.sed? Now that he had come home, forgiving and forgiven, would he stay? He had been in his room when she entered it with the roses--must have guessed, if he had not already known, that she was blind. Would he guess that she had cared for that room, had placed fresh flowers there often and often?
Since she had come to the house in the aspens Jessica had found the imagined figure of Hugh a dominant presence in a horizon lightened with a throng of new impressions. The direful catastrophe of her blindness--it had been the sudden result of an accident--had fallen like a thunderbolt upon a nature elastic and joyous. It had brought her face to face with a revelation of mental agony, made her feel herself the hapless martyr of that curt thing called Chance; one moment seeing a universe unfolding before her in line and hue, the next feeling it thrust rudely behind a gruesome blank of darkness. The two years that followed had been a period when despair had covered her; when specialists had peered with cunning instruments into her darkened eyes, to utter hopeful plat.i.tudes--and to counsel not at all. Then into her own painful self-absorption had intruded her father"s death, and the very hurt of this, perhaps, had been a salving one. It had of necessity changed her whole course of living. In her new surroundings she had taken up life once more. Her alert imagination had begun to stir, to turn diffidently to new channels of exploration and interest. She had always lived largely in books and pictures, and her world was still full of ideals and of brave adventures. Grat.i.tude had made her love the morose old invalid with his crabbed tempers; and the wandering son, choosing for pride"s sake a resourceless battle with the world--the very mystery of his whereabouts--had taken strong hold of her imagination. Of the quarrel which had preceded Hugh"s departure, she had made her own version. That he should have come back on this very night, when the disinheritance she had dreaded had been so nearly consummated, seemed now to have an especial and an appealing significance.
Presently she rose, slipped on the red kimono, and, taking a key from the pocket of her gown, stole from the room. She ascended a stairway and unlocked the door of a wide, bare attic where the moonlight poured through a skylight in the roof upon an unfinished statue. In this statue she had begun to fashion, in the imagined figure of Hugh, her conception of the Prodigal Son; not the battered and husk-filled wayfarer of the parable, but a figure of character and pathos, erring through youthful pride and spirit. The unfinished clay no eyes had seen, for those walls bounded her especial domain.
Carefully, one by one, she unwound the wet cloths that swathed the figure. In the streaming radiance of the night, the clay looked white as snow and she a crimson ghost. She pa.s.sed her fingers lightly over the features. Was the real Hugh"s face like that? One day, perhaps, her own eyes would tell her, and she would finish it. Then she might show it to him, but not now.
She replaced the coverings, relocked the door, and went softly down to her bed.
When Hugh went shamefacedly up the stair from the library, the artificial glow that had tingled to his finger-tips had faded. The poise of mind, the cert.i.tude of all the faculties of eye and hand that his icy bath had given him, were yielding. The penalties he had dislodged were returning reinforced. He was rapidly becoming drunk.
He groped his way to his room, turned out the light, threw himself fully dressed upon the bed, and slept the deep sleep of deferred intoxication.
CHAPTER IV
THE LANE THAT HAD NO TURNING
On a June day a month later, Harry Sanderson sat in his study, looking out of the window across the dim summer haze of heat, negligently smoking. On the distant hill overlooking the town was the cemetery, flanked by fields of growing corn where sulky, round-shouldered crows quarrelled and pilfered. He could see the long white marl road, bending in a broad curve between clover-stippled meadows, to skirt the willow-green bluff above the river. There, miles away, on the high bank, he could distinguish the railroad bridge, a long black skeleton spanning "the hole," a deep, fish-haunted pool, the deepest spot in the river for fifty miles. From the nearer, elm-shaded streets came the m.u.f.fled clack of trade and the discordant treble of a huckster, somewhere a trolley-bell was buzzing angrily, and the impudent scream of a blue jay sheared across the monotone. Harry"s gaze went past the streets--past the open square, with its chapel spire lifting from a beryl sea of foliage--to a white colonial porch, peering from between aspens that quivered in the tremulous sunlight.
The dog on the rug rose, stretching, and came to thrust an eager insinuating muzzle into its master"s lap. Rummy whined, the stubby tail wagged, but his master paid no heed, and with dejected ears, he slunk out into the sunshine. Harry was looking, with brows gathered to a frown, at the far-away porch. The look was full of a troubled question, a vague misgiving, an interrogative anxiety. He was thinking of a night when he had saved the son of that house from the calamity of disinheritance--to what end?
For since that moonlighted evening of the will-making Harry had learned that the long lane had had no true turning for Hugh. He had sifted him through and through. At college he had put him down for a weakling--unballasted, misdemeanant. Now he knew him for what he really was--a moral mollusk, a scamp in embryo, a decadent, realizing an ugly propensity to a deplorable _finale_. A consistent career of loose living had carried Hugh far since those college days when he had been dubbed "Satan"s Shadow." While to Harry Sanderson the eccentric and agnostical had then been, as it were, the mask through which his temperament looked at life, to Hugh it had spelled shipwreck. Harry Sanderson had done broadly as he pleased. He had entertained whom he listed; had gone "slumming"; had once boxed to a finish, for a wager, a local pugilist whose acquaintance he affected, known as "Gentleman Jim." He had been both the hardest hitter and the hardest drinker in his cla.s.s, yet withal its most brilliant student. Native character had enabled him to persist, as the exasperating function of success which dissipation declined to eliminate. But the same natural gravitation which in spite of all aberration had given Harry Sanderson cla.s.sical honors, had brought Hugh Stires to the imminent brink of expulsion. And since that time, without the character which belonged to Harry as a possession, Hugh had continued to drift aimlessly on down the broad lax way of profligacy.
The conditions he found upon his return, however, had opened Hugh"s eyes to the perilous strait in which he stood. He was a materialist, and the taste he had had of deprivation had sickened him. In the first revulsion, when the contrast between recent famine and present plenty was strong upon him, he had been at anxious pains to make himself secure with his father--and with Jessica Holme. Harry"s mental sight--keen as the hunter"s sight on the rifle-barrel--was sharpened by his knowledge of the old Hugh, an intuitive knowledge gained in a significant formative period. He saw more clearly than the townfolk who, in a general way, had known Hugh Stires all their lives. Week by week Harry had seen him regain lost ground in his father"s esteem; day by day he had seen him making studious appeal to all that was romantic in Jessica, climbing to the favor of each on the ladder of the other"s regard. Hugh was naturally a _poseur_, with a keen sense of effect. He could be brilliant at will, could play a little on piano, banjo and violin, could sing a little, and had himself well in hand. And feeling the unconscious cord of romance vibrate to his touch, he had played upon it with no unskilful fingers.
Jessica was comparatively free from that coquetry by means of which a woman"s instinct experiments in emotion. Although she had been artist enough before the cloistered years of her blindness to know that she was comely, she had never employed that beauty in the ordinary blandishments of girlish fascination. But steadily and unconsciously she had turned in her darkness more and more to the bright and tender air with which Hugh clothed all their intercourse. Her blindness had been of too short duration to have developed that fine sense-perception with which nature seeks to supplement the darkened vision. The ineradicable marks which ill-governed living had set in Hugh"s face--the self-indulgence and egotism--she could not see. She mistook impulse for instinct. She read him by the untrustworthy light of a colorful imagination. She deemed him high-spirited and debonair, a Prince Charming, whose prideful rebellion had been atoned for by a touching and manly surrender.
All this Harry had watched with a painful sense of impotence, and this feeling was upon him to-day as he stared out from the study toward the white porch, glistening in the sun.
At length, with a little gesture expressive at once of helplessness and puzzle, he turned from the window, took his violin and began to play. He began a barcarole, but the music wandered away, through insensible variations, into a moving minor, a composition of his own.
It broke off suddenly at a dog"s fierce snarl from the yard, and the rattle of a thrown pebble. Immediately a knock came at the door, and a man entered.
"Don"t stop," said the new-comer. "I"ve dropped in for only a minute!
That"s an ill-tempered little brute of yours! If I were you, I"d get rid of him."
Harry Sanderson laid the violin carefully in its case and shut the lid before he answered. "Rummy is impulsive," he said dryly. "How is your father to-day, Hugh?"
The other tapped the toe of his shining patent-leather with his cane as he said with a look of ill-humor:
"About as well as usual. He"s planning now to put me in business, and expects me to become a staid pillar of society--"like Sanderson," as he says forty times a week. How do you do it, Harry? There isn"t an old lady in town who thinks her parlor carpet half good enough for you to walk on! You"re only a month older than I am, yet you can wind the whole vestry, and the bishop to boot, around your finger!"
"I wasn"t aware of the idolatry." Harry laughed a little--a distant laugh. "You are observant, Hugh."
"Oh, anybody can see it. I"d like to know how you do it. It was always so with you, even at college. You could do pretty much as you liked, and yet be popular, too. Why, there was never a jamboree complete without you and your violin at the head of the table."
"That is a long time ago," said Harry.
"More than four years. Four years and a month to-morrow, since that last evening of college. Yet I imagine it will be longer before we forget it!
I think of it still, sometimes, in the night--" Hugh went on more slowly,--"that last dinner of The Saints, and poor Archie singing with that wobbly smilax wreath over one eye and the claret spilled down his shirt-front--then the sudden silence like a wet blanket! I can see him yet, when his head dropped. He seemed to shrivel right up in his chair.
How horrible to die like that! I didn"t touch a drink for a month afterward!" He shivered slightly, and walked to the window.
Harry did not speak. The words had torn the network of the past as sheet-lightning tears the summer dusk; had called up a ghost that he had labored hard to lay--a memory-specter of a select coterie whose wild days and nights had once revolved about him as its central sun. The sharp tragedy of that long-ago evening had been the awakening. The swift, appalling catastrophe had crashed into his career at the pivotal moment. It had shocked him from his...o...b..t and set him to the right-about-face. And the moral _boulevers.e.m.e.nt_ had carried him, in abrupt recoil, into the ministry.
An odd confusion blurred his vision. Perhaps to cover this, he crossed the room to a small private safe which stood open in the corner, in which he kept his t.i.thes and his charities. When Hugh, shrugging his shoulders as if to dismiss the unwelcome picture he had painted, turned again, Harry was putting into it some papers from his pocket. Hugh saw the action; his eyes fastened on the safe avidly.
"I say," he said after a moment"s pause, as Harry made to shut its door, "can you loan me another fifty? I"m flat on my uppers again, and the old man has been tight as nails with me since I came back. I"m sure to be able to return it with the rest, in a week or two."
Harry stretched his hand again toward the safe--then drew it back with compressed lips. He had met Hugh with persistent courtesy, and the other had found him sufficiently obliging with loans. Of late, however, his nerves had been on edge. The patent calculation of Hugh"s course had sickened, and his flippant cynicism had jarred and disconcerted him. A growing sense of security, too, had made Hugh less circ.u.mspect. More than once during the past month Harry had seen him issue from the shadowed door whose upper panel held the little barred window--the door at which Doctor Moreau had entrance, though decent doors were closed in his face.
Hugh"s lowered gaze saw the arrested movement and his cheek flushed.
"Oh, if it"s inconvenient, I won"t trouble you for the accommodation,"
he said. "I dare say I can raise it."
The attempt at nonchalance cost him a palpable effort. Comparatively small as the amount was, he needed it. He was in sore straits. By hook or crook he must stave off an evil day whose approach he knew not how to meet.
"It isn"t that it is inconvenient, Hugh," said Harry. "It"s that I can"t approve your manner of living lately, and--I don"t know where the fifty is going."
The mark on Hugh"s brow reddened. "I wasn"t aware that I was expected to render you an accounting," he said sulkily, "if I do borrow a dollar or two now and then! What if I play cards, and drink a little when I"m dry?
I"ve got to have a bit of amus.e.m.e.nt once in a while between prayers. You liked it yourself well enough, before you discovered a sudden talent for preaching!"
"Some men hide their talents under a napkin," said Harry. "You drown yours--in a bottle. You have been steadily going downhill. You are deceiving your father--and others--with a pretended reform which isn"t skin-deep! You have made them believe you are living straight, when you are carousing; that you keep respectable company, when you have taken up with a besotted and discredited gambler!"
"I suppose you mean Doctor Moreau," returned Hugh. "There are plenty of people in town who are worse than he is."