"If ever I have another chance," decided Susan, "he won"t have such easy sailing! He will have to work for my friendship as if I were the heiress, and he a clerk in Front Office."
August was the happiest month Susan had ever known, September even better, and by October everybody at Mrs. Lancaster"s boarding-house was confidently awaiting the news of Susan Brown"s engagement to the rich Mr. Peter Coleman. Susan herself was fairly dazed with joy. She felt herself the most extraordinarily fortunate girl in the world.
Other matters also prospered. Alfred Lancaster had obtained a position in the Mission, and seemed mysteriously inclined to hold it, and to conquer his besetting weakness. And Georgie"s affair was at a peaceful standstill. Georgie had her old place in the house, was changed in nothing tangible, and, if she cried a good deal, and went about less than before, she was not actively unhappy. Dr. O"Connor came once a week to see her, an uncomfortable event, during which Georgie"s mother was with difficulty restrained from going up to the parlor to tell Joe what she thought of a man who put his mother before his wife. Virginia was bravely enduring the horrors of approaching darkness. Susan reproached herself for her old impatience with Jinny"s saintliness; there was no question of her cousin"s courage and faith during this test. Mary Lou was agitatedly preparing for a visit to the stricken Eastmans, in Nevada, deciding one day that Ma could, and the next that Ma couldn"t, spare her for the trip.
Susan walked in a golden cloud. No need to hunt through Peter"s letters, to weigh his words,--she had the man himself now unequivocally in the att.i.tude of lover.
Or if, in all honesty, she knew him to be a little less than that, at least he was placing himself in that light, before their little world.
In that world theatre-trips, candy and flowers have their definite significance, the mere frequency with which they were seen together committed him, surely, to something! They paid dinner-calls together, they went together to week-end visits to Emily Saunders, at least two evenings out of every week were spent together. At any moment he might turn to her with the little, little phrase that would settle this uncertainty once and for all! Indeed it occurred to Susan sometimes that he might think it already settled, without words. At least once a day she flushed, half-delighted, half-distressed,--under teasing questions on the subject from the office force, or from the boarders at home; all her world, apparently, knew.
One day, in her bureau drawer, she found the little card that had accompanied his first Christmas gift, nearly two years before. Why did a keen pain stir her heart, as she stood idly twisting it in her fingers? Had not the promise of that happy day been a thousand times fulfilled?
But the bright, enchanting hope that card had brought had been so sickeningly deferred! Two years!--she was twenty-three now.
Mrs. Lancaster, opening the bedroom door a few minutes later, found Susan in tears, kneeling by the bed.
"Why, lovey! lovey!" Her aunt patted the bowed head. "What is it, dear?"
"Nothing!" gulped Susan, sitting back on her heels, and drying her eyes.
"Not a quarrel with Peter?"
"Oh, auntie, no!"
"Well," her aunt sighed comfortably, "of course it"s an emotional time, dear! Leaving the home nest--" Mrs. Lancaster eyed her keenly, but Susan did not speak. "Remember, Auntie is to know the first of all!"
she said playfully. Adding, after a moment"s somber thought, "If Georgie had told Mama, things would be very different now!"
"Poor Georgie!" Susan smiled, and still kneeling, leaned on her aunt"s knees, as Mrs. Lancaster sat back in the rocking chair.
"Poor Georgie indeed!" said her mother vexedly. "It"s more serious than you think, dear. Joe was here last night. It seems that he"s going to that doctor"s convention, at Del Monte a week from next Sat.u.r.day, and he was talking to Georgie about her going, too."
Susan was thunderstruck.
"But, Auntie, aren"t they going to be divorced?"
Mrs. Lancaster rubbed her nose violently.
"They are if _I_ have anything to say!" she said, angrily. "But, of course, Georgie has gotten herself into this thing, and now Mama isn"t going to get any help in trying to get her out! Joe was extremely rude and inconsiderate about it, and got the poor child crying--!"
"But, Auntie, she certainly doesn"t want to go!"
"Certainly she doesn"t. And to come home to that dreadful WOMAN, his mother? Use your senses, Susan!"
"Why don"t you forbid Joe O"Connor the house, Auntie?"
"Because I don"t want any little whipper-snapper of a medical graduate from the Mission to DARE to think he can come here, in my own home, and threaten me with a lawsuit, for alienating his wife"s affections!" Mrs.
Lancaster said forcibly. "I never in my life heard such impudence!"
"Is he mad!" exclaimed Susan, in a low, horrified tone.
"Well, I honestly think he is!" Mrs. Lancaster, gratified by this show of indignation, softened. "But I didn"t mean to distress you with this, dear," said she. "It will all work out, somehow. We mustn"t have any scandal in the family just now, whatever happens, for your sake!"
Pursuant to her new-formed resolutions, Susan was maintaining what dignity she could in her friendship with Peter nowadays. And when, in November, Peter stopped her on the "deck" one day to ask her, "How about Sunday, Sue? I have a date, but I think I can get out of it?" she disgusted him by answering briskly, "Not for me, Peter. I"m positively engaged for Sunday."
"Oh, no, you"re not!" he a.s.sured her, firmly.
"Oh, truly I am!" Susan nodded a good-by, and went humming into the office, and that night made William Oliver promise to take her to the Carrolls" in Sausalito for the holiday.
So on a hazy, soft November morning they found themselves on the cable-car that in those days slipped down the steep streets of n.o.b Hill, through the odorous, filthy gaiety of the Chinese quarter, through the warehouse district, and out across the great crescent of the water-front. Billy, well-brushed and clean-shaven, looked his best to-day, and Susan, in a wide, dashing hat, with fresh linen at wrists and collar, enjoyed the innocent tribute of many a pa.s.sing glance from the ceaseless current of men crossing and recrossing the ferry place.
"If they try to keep us for dinner, we"ll bashfully remain," said Billy, openly enchanted by the prospect of a day with his adored Josephine.
But first they were to have a late second breakfast at Sardi"s, the little ramshackle Sausalito restaurant, whose tables, visible through green arches, hung almost directly over the water. It was a cheap meal, oily and fried, but Susan was quite happy, hanging over the rail to watch the shining surface of the water that was so near. The reflection of the sun shifted in a ceaselessly moving bright pattern on the white-washed ceiling, the wash of the outgoing steamer surged through the piles, and set to rocking all the nearby boats at anchor.
After luncheon, they climbed the long flights of steps that lead straight through the village, which hangs on the cliff like a cl.u.s.ter of sea-birds" nests. The gardens were bare and brown now, the trees sober and shabby.
When the steps stopped, they followed a road that ran like a shelf above the bay and waterfront far below, and that gave a wonderful aspect of the wide sweep of hills and sky beyond, all steeped in the thin, clear autumn haze. Billy pushed open a high gate that had sc.r.a.ped the path beyond in a deep circular groove, and they were in a fine, old-fashioned garden, filled with trees. Willow and pepper and eucalyptus towered over the smaller growth of orange and lemon-verbena trees; there were acacia and mock-orange and standard roses, and hollyhock stalks, bare and dry. Only the cosmos bushes, tall and wavering, were in bloom, with a few chrysanthemums and late asters, the air was colder here than it had been out under the bright November sun, and the path under the trees was green and slippery.
On a rise of ground stood the plain, comfortable old house, with a white curtain blowing here and there at an open window and its front door set hospitably ajar. But not a soul was in sight.
Billy and Susan were at home here, however, and went through the hallway to open a back door that gave on the kitchen. It was an immaculate kitchen, with a fire glowing sleepily behind the shining iron grating of the stove, and sunshine lying on the well-scrubbed floor. A tall woman was busy with plants in the bright window.
"Well, you nice child!" she exclaimed, her face brightening as Susan came into her arms for her motherly kiss. "I was just thinking about you! We"ve been hearing things about you, Sue, and wondering--and wondering--! And Billy, too! The girls will be delighted!"
This was the mother of the five Carrolls, a mother to whom it was easy to trace some of their beauty, and some of their courage. In the twelve long years of her widowhood, from a useless, idle, untrained member of a society to which all three adjectives apply, this woman had grown to be the broad and brave and smiling creature who was now studying Susan"s face with the insatiable motherliness that even her household"s constant claims failed to exhaust. Manager and cook and houseworker, seamstress and confidante to her restless, growing brood, still there was a certain pure radiance that was never quite missing from her smile, and Susan felt a mad impulse to-day to have a long comforting cry on the broad shoulder. She thoroughly loved Mrs. Carroll, even if she thought the older woman"s interest in soups and darning and the filling of lamps a masterly affectation, and pitied her for the bitter fate that had robbed her of home and husband, wealth and position, at the very time when her children needed these things the most.
They two went into the sitting-room now, while Billy raced after the young people who had taken their luncheon, it appeared, and were walking over the hills to a favorite spot known as "Gioli"s" beach.
Susan liked this room, low-ceiled and wide, which ran the length of the house. It seemed particularly pleasant to-day, with the uncertain sunlight falling through the well-darned, snowy window-curtains, the circle of friendly, shabby chairs, the worn old carpet, scrupulously brushed, the reading-table with a green-shaded lamp, and the old square piano loaded with music. The room was in Sunday order to-day, books, shabby with much handling, were ranged neatly on their shelves, not a fallen leaf lay under the bowl of late roses on the piano.
Susan had had many a happy hour in this room, for if the Carrolls were poor to the point of absurdity, their mother had made a sort of science of poverty, and concentrated her splendid mind on the questions of meals, clothes, and the amus.e.m.e.nts of their home evenings. That it had been a hard fight, was still a hard fight, Susan knew. Philip, the handsome first-born, had the tendencies and temptations natural to his six-and-twenty years; Anna, her mother"s especial companion, was taking a hard course of nursing in a city hospital; Josephine, the family beauty, at twenty, was soberly undertaking a course in architecture, in addition to her daily work in the offices of Huxley and Huxley; even little Betsey was busy, and Jimmy still in school; so that the brunt of the planning, of the actual labor, indeed, fell upon their mother. But she had carried a so much heavier burden, that these days seemed bright and easeful to Mrs. Carroll, and the face she turned to Susan now was absolutely unclouded.
"What"s all the news, Sue? Auntie"s well, and Mary Lou? And what do they say now of Jinny? Don"t tell me about Georgie until the girls are here! And what"s this I hear of your throwing down Phil completely, and setting up a new young man?"
"Please"m, you never said I wasn"ter," Susan laughed.
"No, indeed I never did! You couldn"t do a more sensible thing!"
"Oh, Aunt Jo!" The t.i.tle was only by courtesy. "I thought you felt that every woman ought to have a profession!"
"A means of livelihood, my dear, not a profession necessarily! Yes, to be used in case she didn"t marry, or when anything went wrong if she did," the older woman amended briskly. "But, Sue, marriage first for all girls! I won"t say," she went on thoughtfully, "that any marriage is better than none at all, but I could ALMOST say that I thought that!
That is, given the average start, I think a sensible woman has nine chances out of ten of making a marriage successful, whereas there never was a really complete life rounded out by a single woman."
"My young man has what you"ll consider one serious fault," said Susan, dimpling.
"Dear, dear! And what"s that?"
"He"s rich."