"Well, gentlemen, perhaps if you wait around I"ll be free when it"s a bit-"
"-Bit frigid, aren"t ya, babe?"
My frustration peaks. I s.n.a.t.c.h my arm back, accidentally knocking two of the pints all over the table and the floor. The Aussies creak their stools back and look down at their dampened clothing.
"c.r.a.p! Sorry! Lemme get some stuff to clean it up."
"f.u.c.k"s sake. Careful there, babe. You stain this, you"re buying me another one."
I stutter in place as my anxiety tightens in my chest.
"Well?" they press.
I sidle through the customers to find the mop hidden in a closet...
Whoosh! A small gust causes that musty, sickly smell to waft into my nostrils. My anxiety climbs higher. The water in the bucket is grey and muddied...
My father"s white face appears behind my eyelids...
His pale face...
The sunken cheeks...
The feel of the night"s humidity...
The sharp ting! the shovel made as it hit rocks buried deep beneath the soil...
The memories are too real.
I trip backwards and leave through the back door into the dark, crisp night air. I wipe my brow onto my sleeve, not realizing how much I was sweating.
Bang!
I leap again as the door slams shut behind me. I cry out in fright. "It"s just the wind. Just the wind."
"s.h.i.t," I whisper to the night, knowing I have to make my way through the tavern again and walk beside the Aussie"s with no mop and no cloth.
I focus on putting one foot in front of the other. That"s when I realize I"m a good thirty feet down the street with no intention of turning back. I reason with myself I just need a break to stop my panic attack then I"ll head inside eventually. But I need five minutes... And five minutes turn to fifteen, then twenty.
The further away the low hum of the tavern gets, the more I regain some composure and calm. I hit the railway crossing and finally feel comfortable enough to stop and take a deep inhale.
Then a car approaches from afar with its headlights pointing directly at me. I stand further away from the road just in case they haven"t seen me. But instead of driving on, the car screeches to a stall. A young woman climbs from the driver"s side without turning off the ignition. She approaches me quickly. I consider removing my Swiss Army knife just in case.
"Excuse me!" She squeals before I have time to act. "Excuse me! I need your help, please. Please!"
I look over my shoulder to see if she may be talking to someone else also wandering in the dark.
"Hey, please help me!"
"What"s...What"s wrong?" I say and step out beneath a streetlight so we can see one another.
"Th-There"s been an accident. Someone"s been run off the road. I...I was just going to the store to get firewood and I drove by them just lying there. I don"t have a phone to use so I was just going to the store to call an ambulance. We need to call an ambulance."
I make out the look of panic on her face and rest a hand on her shoulder. "It"s gonna be okay. Where are they?"
"Uh, they"re like...back there, like, two miles, I guess...I think. I don"t know. I rushed to find help and I went as quick as I could. I don"t know this area very well."
"Is someone still with them?"
"No. No! s.h.i.t! I panicked and figured calling an ambulance was the best way I could help."
"Nearest ambulance is an hour away and the hospital is even further. If somebody"s hurt, it"ll be faster if we bring them in..."
"But... Do you have a cellphone or something?"
I glanced over my shoulder and shuddered at the thought of going back for my purse.
"No... Just bring me to the accident, if it"s bad, you can go back to get help."
We speed toward Old Road.
Around a sharp bend, the black remnants of skid marks stain the road and a motorcycle is lying haplessly on its side just barely visible in the gra.s.s alongside the road, its metal components twisted into uselessness and the rider nowhere to be seen.
Before Jules has even completely stopped her car, I leap out and ran towards the bike.
"Are you okay?!" I yell, hoping for an answer.
I ease my way down the six-foot-steep gra.s.s hill, spotting the leather clad rider laying p.r.o.ne on the ground. He"s saying something but I can"t hear it over the beating of my own heart.
"Should I go back and try to find more help?" the woman who drove me here shouts.
"Just a second," I replied loudly. Bending a knee, I crouch beside the biker. He"s lying on his back with his face turned away.
"Sir, what"s your name?" I say bluntly and clearly while my hands pat his jeans to try and find a wallet or phone. I come up short.
"Ughhhh," he groans in pain. "Fuuuck. It hurts."
"Sir, what"s your name?"
He turns his head toward me. I angle my own and squint to try and see the man"s face but it"s shadowed beneath his helmet. He groans again a little more clearly this time.
"Don"t worry, just relax... We"re going to get you help."
"Nooo," the biker slurs and touches a hand to my arm. "No cops. No ambulance. No hospital."
Had he been drinking? I wondered to myself. He wasn"t making any sense.
"Sir, you need help. You"ve just tumbled off your bike, okay? You could be seriously hurt."
"No. G.o.dd.a.m.n. Help."
"You don"t have any say in this. You"re lucky to be alive."
I stand back up, but the biker"s leather glove latches firmly around my ankle.
"You call...anybody," his gravely voice tells me, "I"m...a f.u.c.king dead man anyway, sweetheart. You wanna send me back there, huh? You wanna put an innocent man in jail?"
I kick my ankle away from his touch. "Relax. You won"t get in trouble." I"m not sure if that"s true. If he"s drunk there"s every possibility this guy will end up in jail, but that"s not my problem.
"Don"t," he orders again.
"Just leave me here. Help me to my bike..."
"Excuse me?" I say.
"You heard me."
"No way I"m leaving you here," I reply. "Besides, that pile of metal isn"t going anywhere."
"What?" the biker hisses roughly. He lifts his head so that his bloodied face becomes illuminated in the moonlight.
I stumble back at who lies at my feet because I know what this means: New Lucy just died.
3.
You did it again you f.u.c.king dope. I don"t know what I"m doing here, lying in the wet gra.s.s with a couple of strangers lingering over me telling me I need to go to the hospital. I don"t need any G.o.dd.a.m.n help from no one. I can"t feel much pain. Sure, my face feels a bit beat up but it"s nothing I haven"t endured before. I have places to be tonight. I remember that...I think. But what I can"t seem to piece together is why the f.u.c.k I"m here- Wherever here may be.
The chick who was desperate to get me help has fallen silent. I"m now getting another lecture by some other lady about how if I don"t get medical a.s.sistance something bad might happen to me.
"Something bad already happened," I say.
I"m already steps ahead. If I were taken to a hospital, police"d be up in there quick trying to slam me for all those warrants I remember skipping out on...Do I remember? Anyhow, no way in h.e.l.l I"m heading to prison. Not this year. Not this d.a.m.n lifetime.
"Where am I?" I ask.
"Baddock National Park, off the 1-B. Two hours south of The Bay."
"Aw, s.h.i.t."
My brain spasms as it tries to remember what the f.u.c.k I was up to earlier today. Did I stay at a buddy"s house who lives out here? Did I have an event to make it to? Why the f.u.c.k am I on the coast? I must have hit my head a lot harder than I thought.
"Where were you going?" says the young girl. "If you"re not going to hospital, can I call someone for you?"
"I, uh..." I trail off. I a.n.a.lyze whether my body is ready to sit up yet. While I decide, I unbuckle my helmet from my chin, discarding it into the long gra.s.s. I lift my neck slightly higher to test the extent of my injuries. The pain seems familiar, therefore not all that serious enough to warrant an emergency room visit. Finally, I"m able to sit up.
"Careful, careful," says the older woman.
"Do you feel okay?" The younger girl asks. She"s a pretty one, but her questions are getting on my nerves.
"Look, no offense but can ya back the f.u.c.k up?" I realize my voice is croaky and my mouth tastes like a.s.s; all dry and bitter. "I"m fine."
My fingers comb through my hair. It"s f.u.c.king hot here in my leather jacket. I"m suffocating. But when I go to take it off, a sharp pain propels like an electric shock up my shoulder. A whine escapes my throat accidentally cuing the girl I"ll name Mary-Sue to pipe up again.
"Y-You are hurt," she says quietly, almost timidly.
"Yeah, no s.h.i.t."
"Then..."
I sigh. She shuts up and finally realizes there ain"t no point in pressing someone as stubborn as me.
"You wanna help so bad, darlin"? Help me take this off."
I wait, surprised when she doesn"t a.s.sist me right away.
"Okay," I say. "So you don"t wanna help me. I"ll do it my d.a.m.n self." I shake the jacket off. This makes me cry out. My shoulder doesn"t feel right. "f.u.c.k! G.o.ddammit! Doesn"t help I can"t see what the f.u.c.k I"m doing."
"Stop it, you"re hurting yourself," the girl cries out, moving a bit closer. She is f.u.c.king dangerous gorgeous, pet.i.te with long, hair and a body that"d make any man lose their manners.
"What"s your name?" the older woman asks.
I"m in shock- That"s why I can"t remember s.h.i.t. I laugh her question off for now because I don"t have any G.o.dd.a.m.ned idea what my name is.
"How many fingers am I holding up?" the older woman continues as if it f.u.c.king matters.
I flip her off with my still functional arm.
"Hey! She"s just trying to help," Dangerous Mary-Sue pipes up.
"I don"t need any f.u.c.king help!"