"The naked city."
"Isn"t that what I said?"
"You said the Emerald City."
"I did? Where did I get that from?"
"The Wizard of Oz. Remember? Dorothy and Toto in Kansas? Judy Garland going over the rainbow?"
"Of course I remember."
" "Follow the Yellow Brick Road." It led to the Emerald City, where the wonderful wizard lived."
"I remember. The Scarecrow, the Tin Man, the Cowardly Lion, I remember the whole thing. But where"d I get emeralds from?"
"You"re an alcoholic," she suggested. "You"re missing a couple of brain cells, that"s all."
I nodded. "Must be it," I said.
The sky was turning light when we went to sleep. I slept on the couch wrapped up in a couple of spare blankets. At first I thought I wouldn"t be able to sleep, but the tiredness came over me like a towering wave. I gave up and let it take me wherever it wanted.
I can"t say where it took me because I slept like a dead man. If I dreamed at all I never knew about it. I awoke to the smells of coffee perking and bacon frying, showered, shaved with a disposable razor she"d laid out for me, then got dressed and joined her at a pine plank table in the kitchen. I drank orange juice and coffee and ate scrambled eggs and bacon and whole wheat m.u.f.fins with peach preserves, and I couldn"t remember when my appet.i.te had been so keen.
There was a group that met Sunday afternoons a few blocks to the east of us, she informed me. She made it one of her regular meetings. Did I feel like joining her?
"I ought to do some work," I said.
"On a Sunday?"
"What"s the difference?"
"Are you really going to be able to accomplish anything on a Sunday afternoon?"
I hadn"t really accomplished anything since I"d started. Was there anything I could do today?
I got out my notebook, dialed Sunny"s number. No answer. I called my hotel. Nothing from Sunny. Nothing from Danny Boy Bell or anyone else I"d seen last night. Well, Danny Boy would still be sleeping at this hour, and so might most of the others.
There was a message to call Chance. I started dialing his number, then stopped myself. If Jan was going to a meeting, I didn"t want to sit around her loft waiting for him to call back. Her sponsor might not approve.
The meeting was on the second floor of a synagogue on Forsythe Street. You couldn"t smoke there. It was an unusual experience being in an AA meeting that wasn"t thick with cigarette smoke.
There were about fifty people there and she seemed to know most of them. She introduced me to several people, all of whose names I promptly forgot. I felt self-conscious, uncomfortable with the attention I was getting. My appearance didn"t help, either. While I hadn"t slept in my clothes, they looked as though I had, showing the effects of last night"s fight in the alley.
And I was feeling the fight"s effects, too. It wasn"t until we left her loft that I realized how much I ached. My head was sore where I"d b.u.t.ted him and I had a bruise on one forearm and one shoulder was black and blue and ached. Other muscles hurt when I moved. I hadn"t felt anything after the incident but all those aches and pains turn up the next day.
I got some coffee and cookies and sat through the meeting. It was all right. The speaker qualified very briefly, leaving the rest of the meeting for discussion. You had to raise your hand to get called on.
Fifteen minutes from the end, Jan raised her hand and said how grateful she was to be sober and how much of a role her sponsor played in her sobriety, how helpful the woman was when she had something bothering her or didn"t know what to do. She didn"t get more specific than that. I had a feeling she was sending me a message and I wasn"t too crazy about that.
I didn"t raise my hand.
Afterward she was going out with some people for coffee and asked me if I"d like to come along. I didn"t want any more coffee and I didn"t want company, either. I made an excuse.
Outside, before we went separate ways, she asked me how I felt. I said I felt all right.
"Do you still feel like drinking?"
"No," I said.
"I"m glad you called last night."
"So am I."
"Call anytime, Matthew. Even in the middle of the night if you have to."
"Let"s hope I don"t have to."
"But if you do, call. All right?"
"Sure."
"Matthew? Promise me one thing?"
"What?"
"Don"t have a drink without calling me first."
"I"m not going to drink today."
"I know. But if you ever decide to, if you"re going to, call me first. Promise?"
"Okay."
On the subway heading uptown I thought about the conversation and felt foolish for having made the promise. Well, it had made her happy. What was the harm in it if it made her happy?
There was another message from Chance. I called from the lobby, told his service I was back at my hotel. I bought a paper and took it upstairs with me to kill the time it took him to call back.
The lead story was a honey. A family in Queens - father, mother, two kids under five - had gone for a ride in their shiny new Mercedes. Someone pulled up next to them and emptied both barrels of a shotgun into the car, killing all four of them. A police search of their apartment in Jamaica Estates had revealed a large amount of cash and a quant.i.ty of uncut cocaine. Police theorized the ma.s.sacre was drug related.
No kidding.
There was nothing about the kid I"d left in the alley. Well, there wouldn"t be. The Sunday papers were already on the street when he and I encountered one another. Not that he"d be much likelier to make tomorrow"s paper, or the next day"s. If I"d killed him he might have earned a paragraph somewhere, but what was the news of a black youth with a pair of broken legs?
I was pondering that point when someone knocked on my door.
Funny. The maids have Sunday off, and the few visitors I get call from downstairs. I got my coat off the chair, took the.32 from the pocket. I hadn"t gotten rid of it yet, or of the two knives I"d taken from my broken-legged friend. I carried the gun over to the door and asked who it was.
"Chance."