At that moment Killigrew relieved the tension by jumping up and calling a wild, long-drawn "Hullo-o" to the approaching boys. They came running up the slope and flung themselves down in a circle, while Polkinghorne major, a big, jolly, simple-minded boy, one of the best liked in the school, laid audacious hands on the bag, which Hilaria s.n.a.t.c.hed from him with a shriek.
Doughty had ensconced himself by her, crowding between her and Ishmael to do so, a manoeuvre which the latter, rather to Doughty"s surprise, did not seem to resent. This was the more odd as the boys had several times already, both in school and out of it, come into conflict over trifling matters, not so much from any desire to quarrel as because they were by nature extremely antipathetic. Ishmael disliked Doughty and took little trouble to hide the fact. He hated his pasty sleekness, which made him think of a fat pale grub, and he hated the way the elder boy hung round Killigrew; not from jealousy--Ishmael still cherished aloofness too dearly for that--but from some instinct which told him Doughty was evil. Killigrew lay opposite Doughty now, looking oddly girlish with his slim form and colourless face, that would have been insipid but for his too red mouth. There was a white incisiveness about Killigrew, however, a flame-like quality quaintly expressed in his hair, that promised the possibility of many things, and showed up sharply in comparison with the gross but hard bulk of Doughty. There had been no real reason till this evening, when Hilaria had told of his evil-speaking, for Ishmael to dislike Doughty, but now he knew that he had done so all along.
Doughty hated Ishmael because he did not understand him, and he was of the breed which hates the incomprehensible. Though he had only joined the preceding term, Doughty was nearly seventeen, and owing to a spinal weakness of his youth he had till now been educated at home. He came from Devonshire, which would not have mattered had he been popular, but which, as he was not, was frequently thrown at him as a disadvantage.
Now, as he lay beside Ishmael, he stared at him with a something slyly exultant in his look, but the younger boy failed to meet his eyes and merely gazed serenely into vacancy. Hilaria settled herself, opened the bag, and disentangled from the ribbons of her dancing shoes the precious number of _All the Year Round_ that contained the instalment of "The Woman in White" they had all been so eagerly awaiting.
The boys left off fidgeting and became mouse-still, while only the low voice of the girl reading of the helpless lovers, of the terrible smiling Count Fosco and his grim wife, broke the silence. The boys lay, thrilled by the splendid melodrama, their little differences forgotten with the rest of their personal affairs, and so they all stayed, Hilaria as enthralled as they, while unperceived the light began to fade and evening to creep over the moor.
CHAPTER XII
SOME AMBITIONS AND AN ANNOUNCEMENT
Hilaria read on till, though she held the page close to her eyes, she seemed to fumble over the words. She was by then at the end of the instalment, and when she put the magazine down she pressed her fingers to her lids and complained that her eyes hurt her. "They often do," she said; "it"s a good thing I"m not going to be an artist like Bunny or the hero of this story, isn"t it?" She dropped her chin into her cupped palms and sat staring ahead, her eyes shining for all their smarting lids. "Isn"t it, funny," she went on, "that we"re all going to be something, some kind of a person, and don"t really know a bit what kind?
Yet I feel very much me already...."
"I"m going to be a soldier," said Polkinghorne, serenely missing any metaphysical proposition. He looked forward, on the strength of a Scottish mother, to joining a Highland regiment, and was known to shave his knees twice a week to make them of a manly hairiness against the donning of a kilt.
"I shall have to go into the City like my guv"nor, I suppose," admitted little Moss, "but I don"t see why one shouldn"t be the kind of chap one wants all the same. Your father"s in the city, too, isn"t he, Killigrew?"
"Yes, but that"s no reason why I should be, and I"m jolly well not going to. I"m going to be an artist like Turner...." And Killigrew"s voice unconsciously took on a singing inflection of rapture.
"There"s no doubt about old Carminow, anyway," observed Polkinghorne, to be greeted with laughter. For Carminow, though the gentlest of creatures, took an extraordinary delight in all the agonies of human nature. Mine accidents had hardly occurred before Carminow, by some subtle agency, seemed aware of them, and had rushed to the scene, out of bounds or not. It was with genuine simplicity that he once bewailed the fact that it had been "an awfully dull half--no one had been killed for miles around." It was he, too, on the occasion of a terrible tragedy in the High Street, when Teague the baker had been killed by the lashing hoofs of his new horse, who had rushed out to superintend the removal of the body. The widow, clamorous with her sudden grief, had seized his arm, exclaiming "Oh, Master Carminow, whatever shall I do; whatever shall I do?" and, in all good faith he, his soul still unsatisfied by the view of the corpse, had replied kindly: "Do? Why, Mrs. Teague, if I were you I should have him opened...."
The story had lived against Carminow, and when in doubt about any course of action he was always advised to "have it opened." He did not join now in the laugh, but said seriously, failing, as always, to p.r.o.nounce the letter "r":
"Of course I shall be a doctor. Last holidays I went a lot to Guy"s where I have a chum, and I saw a lot of dissecting. Do you know that when they dissect "em they stick a sort of squirt in their chests and dwaw off all the blood? I"ve got a theowy that I mean to put into pwactice some day. It seemed to me such a shame that all that good blood should go to waste like that, and it occurred to me what a splendid thing it would be if, instead of doing nothing with murdewers but kill "em, they dwew off their blood while it was still warm and pumped it into famous men, gweat generals and people like that, who were getting old and feeble. Most murdewers are thundewing stout fellows, you know."
"How horrid you are, Carminow!" cried Hilaria. "I shouldn"t think a great man would at all like having a murderer"s blood in his veins. I"m sure my darling Lord Palmerston wouldn"t."
"Oh, I don"t say it"s possible at pwesent," replied Carminow placidly, "but when surgeons know their business it will be. One must look at these things from a purely utilitawian standpoint."
Ishmael said nothing. He was lying on his back again, folded arms beneath his head, staring at the glory of the west that had pa.s.sed from liquid fire to the feather-softness of the sun"s aftermath. The presence of the others hardly impinged on his consciousness; vaguely he heard their voices coming from a long way off. One of his moods of exaltation, that only the very young know, was upon him--a state which amounts to intoxication and to recapture any glow of which older people have to be artificially stimulated. That is really the great dividing-line--when the sparkle, the lightness, the sharpened sense which stimulates brain and tongue and feeling, ceases to respond without a flick of help from the right touch of alcohol. That intoxication of sheer living was upon Ishmael now, as it had been on that long-ago evening when the Neck had been cried, as it had a few times since, with music, or a windy sun, or a bathe in rough sea, or some sudden phrase in a book. A something glamorous in the light, the low accents of Hilaria"s voice and the stirring quality of what she read, the reaction, had he but known it, from the shock of suspicion occasioned by what she had told him, the c.u.mulative effect of the exalted thoughts of the past weeks, all these things, added to his own rising powers and urgent youth, welled within him and mounted to his brain. He felt tingling with power as he lay there, apparently lax; it seemed to him he could hear the blood leaping in his veins and the beating of his pulses all over his body, could hear the faintest sound of calling lamb or far-off owl, could catch, with ears refined to a demiG.o.d"s, the ineffably quiet rubbing of the millions of gra.s.s-blades, as though he could almost hear the evening falling.... From afar came the babble of the others as to what they might think they were going to be; for himself he could be anything, scale any heights, beat triumphantly through all things. He felt the swelling earth bearing him up, as though he were one with its strength and fertility, one with its irresistible march. He felt the sword-chill breath of the spring wind on his brow; he saw the first faint p.r.i.c.king of the earliest stars, and the rolling up of the sky as the great c.u.muli ma.s.sed overhead; and he felt as though he too could sweep into them and be of them. Life was before him for him to do what he liked with. He laughed aloud and rolled over a little, flinging his arms wide. A stinging blow came on his cheek, and he heard Doughty"s angry voice crying, "Take that!" and a sharp sound from Hilaria.
"Well, what"s he want to laugh at me for? I"ll teach him--" came Doughty"s voice again. Ishmael had scrambled up; his blood was still singing in his veins; he felt no dismay at the sight of the looming Doughty.
"Don"t be an a.s.s, Doughty," said Polkinghorne sharply; "and if you can"t help being a cad, wait till Miss Eliot isn"t present."
"Oh, never mind about me; I want to see you _kill_ him, Ishmael!" cried Hilaria viciously.
"Well, why did you want to laugh when Doughty said that?" asked Polkinghorne judicially.
"Said what?" asked Ishmael.
"Why, that he was just going to be a gentleman."
"Did he say that? I didn"t hear him. But I should have laughed if I had...."
Killigrew stared at his friend in amazement. Was this the Ishmael who a half-hour or so ago had put forward the theory that one should never fight till one was sure of winning? He did not know that the wine in Ishmael"s brain at that minute was the headiest in the world, the most sure in imparting sense of power--the sudden up-welling of the joy of life. It was Doughty"s turn to laugh now; he seemed suddenly to have recovered poise.
"I forgot--you"d be such a good judge of a gentleman--with your family history," he said.
The singing went from Ishmael"s being, but something hot came up through him like a tide. "What d"you mean by that?" he asked, and still in his pa.s.sionate dislike of the other did not see what was opening at his feet.
"Only that a fellow with a pack of b.a.s.t.a.r.d brothers must have had just the father and mother to teach him...."
There was a moment"s silence; the boys all felt intensely uncomfortable, not so much even at Hilaria"s presence as at this sudden nakedness of thought and emotion. Doughty, set on justifying himself at least as far as accuracy went, held on. "I heard it at once when I went to my uncle"s at Penzance last holidays. Everyone knows it down there. Of course Ruan knew it all along; he"s been kidding all you fellows. He"s no right in a school for gentlemen at all. His father married his mother when he was dying and all the brats but him were already born. That"s why Ruan"s being brought up a gentleman--because he"s the only one who"s not a b.a.s.t.a.r.d."
"Shut your foul mouth," ordered Polkinghorne angrily. "Hilaria, let me--"
"It"s not true," cried Hilaria. "Tell them it"s not true, Ishmael."
Killigrew had the quicker instinct. "What does it matter if it"s true or not?" he asked. "We all know Ruan, and we think he"s an awfully nice chap, and nothing else is any affair of ours. We don"t care what Doughty"s father and mother are, because we don"t like him; we don"t care what Ruan"s are because we do like him. Personally, I don"t see why Ruan should mind either. The thing doesn"t alter him at all."
But that was exactly what Ishmael felt it did, though how he could not yet have told. Although he never doubted what he heard, it seemed to him like a dream that he had dreamt long ago and forgotten. It was a curious sense of unreality that impressed him most, that feeling of "This cannot really have happened to me ..." that everyone knows in the first moment of disaster. It was this sensation, not any temporising or actual disbelief, that kept him still motionless, staring. Polkinghorne began to feel the proprieties outraged by this immobility.
"I say," he began, "you can"t take no notice ...; he"s said things about your people, you know--about your mother ..."
For in common with many male creatures, men and boys, Polkinghorne, though not feeling more than others any particular sentiment beyond affection for his mother, yet held the point of honour, perhaps dating from ancient days of matriarchy, that an insult to one"s mother was the deepest to oneself. Ishmael, too honest to be influenced by this consideration, yet felt constrained by the weight of public opinion.
Also he was still upon the uplift of his mood; his blood tingled the more for the mental shock that had numbed his reasoning faculties. As in his turn he hit Doughty"s cheek he felt a little glow at his own carelessness of consequences. Polkinghorne was beginning to feel worried, because seen together it was plain that the big Doughty overtopped Ishmael by nearly a head. Suddenly he had an inspiration and threw himself between them as Doughty swung out at the younger boy, thereby incidentally getting the blow himself.
"I"ll lick you for that later, Doughty," he e.j.a.c.u.l.a.t.ed. "Meanwhile, kindly shut up while I say something. Ruan can"t fight you--"
"Can"t he? Then what did he hit me for?"
"I can fight him all right, thanks," said Ishmael.
"But he can wrestle you," went on Polkinghorne imperturbably, "because he"s a clever wrestler and he"ll stand a fair chance. You can take it or leave it, but if you leave it I"ll give you a thrashing for the honour of the school."
A murmur of a.s.sent came from the others, who saw an impossibly difficult situation thus in a way to be solved as far as the two princ.i.p.als in the quarrel were concerned, while to themselves it gave time to adjust their att.i.tude, which they did not all take as simply as had Killigrew. In a fight Doughty"s superior size would have given him all the advantage; in the West Country method of wrestling this would not necessarily hold true. And Ishmael was in far better condition.
Polkinghorne turned to Hilaria.
"Someone will see you home, of course," he said politely. "I shall have to stay as stickler, and Carminow as well, but I"ll send Moss and the young "un with you. And mind you keep your jaws shut about it when you get back to the school, you two."
Polkinghorne minor and Moss both looked considerably taken aback, but not more so than Hilaria. "Oh, I must stay, Polkinghorne," she pleaded, feeling for the first time a terrible sensation of not being wanted, of an unimportance essential to her s.e.x and beyond her power to alter whatever her tastes or her justifiable reliance on her own nerves. But Polkinghorne, backed by Killigrew and Ishmael himself, was adamant, though Carminow saw no reason why she should not stay if it interested her. They stood waiting till her crinoline, like a huge piece of blown thistledown, had swayed around a curve of the path which hid it and the two little boys from sight, and then they prepared for business.
CHAPTER XIII
THE WRESTLING
It was growing swiftly dusk, though the amphitheatre of turf where the boys stood, cupped the last of the light from the west, backed as it was by the semi-circle of tall rocks.