Chapter 139: Was that all just a dream?
"No matter how much I begged or cried, it was useless! Meng Xuimin, Li Roulan and Chen Yufan... I will never forgive these three people Zhehan. I can never forget the humiliation and betrayal of my past life" she cried."Zhehan do you know why I am pyrophobia? Because in my past life, they burned me alive in the fire. They burned me alive Zhehan. They killed me..... "
Hearing her hysterically crying, Zhehan"s heart ached for her. He could feel all of her pain. As she was talking about her past life, he could already form a vivid picture of all these events in his mind.
But apart from all of these, what he felt was anger. He was angry at himself for not saving her in her past life. When she was helpless, where was he? When she was in pain, where was he? When she was dying, where was he?
He could have saved her in her past life. Because according to his calculations, he could make out that he was there in her past life. He knew he loved her in her past life too, then why didn"t he save her? Where was he? He could have tried harder maybe he could have saved her from all of these.
After Li Xiaolu cried her heart out, she felt alive. She felt free. It was as if some kind of burden was taken away from her shoulders. Wiping her tears, she faced Zhehan.
Smiling at him she hugged him, "In that fire I had already lost my consciousness. I thought I would have died in that fire. But who knew, when I opened my eyes I was alive. At first I was shocked because I knew I was fire and what I felt was real. So according to that shouldn"t I die? Why was I alive? "
"Many thoughts came into my mind? Was I saved? But when I looked in the mirror, I realized that I looked way younger than before and there was no burn marks on my skin. So, I ommited that possibility." she explained. "Later, when I saw the calender I was shocked, the date was of four years before. I was so confused. I didn"t knew what was going on. "
"My mind was a total mess. So many things were going through it. Was it all a dream? Everything that I went through, all that pain and suffering... was it just my dream? I was so confused."
"Later I realised that I was given a second chance. It was my second life. I was reborn and then I vowed to make them pay. For all that I went through, I vowed to get my revenge. "
"That day I decided to change my life. I decide to avoid that so called fake family and achieve my dreams. And that"s what I did, Zhehan. But then you came into my life...."
"When I realised that you were in love with me I got scared. But slowly slowly you changed everything. Later, we got married Zhehan and I can"t tell you how much happy I am Zhehan...." Li Xiaolu smiled looking into his eyes.
"I"m so sorry Xiaolu. I am so sorry baby.... I could have stopped all of these. If only I would"ve tried harder. Maybe I could have stopped all of these. I"m so sorry baby... " Zhehan apologized with his eyes full of tears.
Li Xiaolu was startled. She thought maybe he was feeling bad for her, so that"s why he was apologizing to her. Shaking her head she smiled, "Zhehan it"s all in the past. Now I am thankful for this life because I have you with me. I can"t say that I am glad about whatever happened to me in my past life, but I happy that it made me this strong. I am happy that this life gave me a chance to achieve my dreams and get to fall in love with you."
A tear drop fell from his eyes and he cried. Pecking her forehead he held her chin gently, "Baby that"s not what I-i am saying.... I"m sorry because I could have stopped everything.I could have stopped your death. I could have protected you.... but i-i didn"t. I failed you... and I-i failed my love... "
Pain, shame, guilt and anger could be clearly seen on Zhehan"s face. Puzzled Li Xiaolu glanced at him, wiping his tear away she carefully asked him, "Zhehan what do you mean?"
"Xiaolu have you ever thought when did I fall for you? Do you know when and how I started loving you? Or when did I first saw you?"
"Wasn"t it at the Li Mansion? That party... " Li Xiaolu asked hesitantly. She never thought about it before, but now when Zhehan questioned her she indeed never knew about it.
"No." Zhehan shook her head.
"Then? "
"Wait... " Zhehan chuckled as he kissed her forehead before getting up. Li Xiaolu blushed seeing him naked as he got up. No matter how many times she looked at him she knew she will always blush. Wrapping a bed sheet around him he picked up his pant from the floor.
Searching for something he held something inside his hand. Taking it out he walked towards Li Xiaolu and sat next to her on the bed.
"Do you remember this? " he asked showing the bracelet he held in his hands.