I opened my eyes, darkness was everywhere... But I"m not afraid because I like darkness. I started to walk, floor was wet and somewhere was holes of water which my foot dropped in them, just like that day... The day he appeared in my life like hero. I saw little light from distance and changed my way toward there. As I get closer to light I saw a bed with old man lying on it. He was surrounded with people. I pushed them away and stand near old man. I looked at his eyes and he glare to mine. He raised his hand and i get his hand in my hand and put my lips on his old soft hand.
I closed my eyes and open it after few second, the place has changed and we were in big garden that was full of roses in different color.
I stared at his eyes and waited to hear something from him, I wait to hear him blaming me, rushing me for not caring from his son. But... He smiled like always and hugged me and I went lost in his arm.
I didn"t understand how much I missed his huge until now that he is hugging me. His special perfume. I lied, if I tell I love my real father more than him and it is completely lie that I don"t miss him.
His calm and gentle voice resonate in my ears
"Do you keep your promise?" I put my head on his chest and said in m.u.f.fled voice "I"m trying but... I think I can"t do this anymore, I"m dying. I drunk poisonous milk"
"oh, my child. You don"t die like this.." he separated from me and looked at my eyes and said "tell me you should understand by now why my daughters scared of him? And why I trusted you for telling all my secrets? and the most important why I wanted you to keep an eye on my son?" he wait to hear my respond. "yes, I know why because I am strong and I don"t broke by sharp words,... at least not anymore." he smiled and said "right.."
We started to walk in garden while he hold my hand tightly "my daughters broke with words easily, they make decisions on what there heart say, they cry and trust on other people easily but you are not like them. You are younger but you have more experience and you act on logic.
You listen to your mind not your heart. This is what make you special for me. you are the only one who can save my son from the grave he is burying for himself. Use your mind and help him. Can you do that for me? "he looked at me.
I always take courage from his words how I can say no to him. I hugged him and said" I do my best father, don"t worry and rest well. " he kissed on my hair and hold me tightly." thank you "
A minute later he was gone....