Shinji neatly folded the uniforms that were left behind by Endou and Suzuki. And once more, he went to lie down on the sofa.
Today, he was suppose to clear out the Undead Demons on the 5th floor; however, Shinji didn’t have the will to do so.
The surging idea in his mind is similar to a quagmire of water that is eroding his train of thought.
Shinji’s guilt had exhausted his willpower.
The sight of Shinji lying down can be seen.
In silence, Minami and Miyuki are standing there.
Shinji felt that they were watching him. It was something that couldn’t be helped; their feelings had become that of wanting to attack him.
Naturally. Those girls do not have any emotions.
They can’t complain, nor do they have thoughts.
Despite them being right in front of him, Shinji wasn’t concerned.
「How should I go about things……」 (Shinji)
Shinji mutters.
A monologue spoken to himself.
「Those who I thought had died are attacking me…… is it wrong for me to defend myself…… for the sake of survival, what is wrong with fighting…… what’s so wrong about looking at girl’s in their bare underwear to lift my spirits.」 (Shinji)
Shinji releases his pent up emotions.
In subst.i.tution of those feelings, something else had replaced them.
It was rather disgusting.
「It won’t revive; so, how is it wrong.」 (Shinji)
『Resurrection Medicine』 10,000 P
A medicine that can be used to heal Undead status. Unusable on an extremely damaged person.
「It’s 10,000P; that’s 1 million yen, you know? You do realize that’s equal to 10 tries at the weapon capsule game? …… will I really use it, so easily?」 (Shinji)
From Shinji’s eyes, warm water overflows.
Little by little.
He has misgivings about the thought.
In the beginning, it was defeat Undead Demons and get material.
The Undead Demons that are defeated dissolve and vanish.
But still, Shinji began to think for a tad bit that they were no longer just Undead Demons.
Shinji thought, he had been killing human corpses.
The feeling is unsettling. It is unmistakable, the Item called Resurrection Medicine, Shinji understood its significance.
For that reason, Shinji purposely made sure that he did not think about the item.
Shinji didn’t want to think about whether an Undead Demon is a person’s corpse, nor if there was a potential cure.
In regards to those corpses, he made sure to not question if those Undead Demons are even still human.
If it were merely the case of cutting down corpses… it wouldn’t have been a problem.
However, if an Undead Demon that had been defeated could be revived, then is that not killing a person… there is no doubt that is murder.
The crime of homicide is too much for Shinji to bare.
Is defeating an Undead Demon murder, or is it different?
「Ahhh! Enough! Don’t, don’t! STOP! Stop thinking about it!」 (Shinji)
With vigor, Shinji sat upright.
「It’s pointless to continue to think this way. After all, if I don’t defeat the Undead Demons, I won’t be able to survive!」 (Shinji)
Without thinking about it, Shinji quickly made his way to the door.
「Today, I will defeat all the Undead Demons on the 5th floor! That is the plan, and I will not think about anything else!」 (Shinji)
Shinji opens the door.
「……」 (male student Undead Demon)
Nearby, there is a male student Undead Demon.
Shinji mind was blank, and he definitely wasn’t cautious.
「Gabu!」 (male student, Undead Demon)
「M-move!?」 (Shinji)
It bites into Shinji’s right arm.
「Tsk…… b.a.s.t.a.r.d!」 (Shinji)
Shinji tries to shake off the Undead Demon; he didn’t swing down his hatchet at it’s neck… he couldn’t bring himself to do so.
「….. s.h.i.t!」 (Shinji)
He kicks the Undead Demon away. When the distance between them had widened, Shinji took refuge in the Cafe.
「…… s.h.i.t…… s.h.i.t!」 (Shinji)
While taking the recovery medicine and antidote, Shinji strikes the sofa.
He couldn’t leave.
Even though, he was able to yesterday.
Despite the fact that he has already defeated an Undead Demon.
However, for not even a moment was he able to forget that those Undead Demons were once human. It wasn’t possible for him to do so.
「…… what should I do?」 (Shinji)
Shinji understood that it isn’t any good to continue like this.
If he did, sooner or later he will die.
The way things are now, he can’t even leave. Shinji lays back into the sofa.
For some time, he just laid there.
The sunlight had reached mid-day.
「It’s already time for lunch….. huh?」 (Shinji)
Shinji look at the clock in the Cafe.
It is a pointlessly stylish a.n.a.logue clock.
Shorty it will be lunchtime.
Around this time, Shinji would usually be playing video games.
At the counter, he would buy a karaage bead for 120 yen and a yogurt flavored juice.
Shinji didn’t join any after school clubs; he was satisfied with that choice.
Despite Kotarou telling him that playing video games alone is foolish, Shinji still did so.
Those times brought him happiness.
But, at times it was boring.
「At first, I thought that this was my ideal world, but now……」 (Shinji)
This is a video game like world.
Certainly, battling Undead Demons is exciting, and this world is far from boring…… however, this is not a video game.
This is murder.
Video games are enjoyable, and there are objectives. What exactly is this video game like world?
「…… now that I think about it, this doesn’t play like a video game.」 (Shinji)
Shinji takes out a portable game console from his sports backpack.
The rare material that he had gathered is inside the bag.
As a result of yesterday’s incident, he wasn’t able to play any video games.
Shinji decide to pretend that because of influenza he didn’t have to go to school. He is delighted; it had been 10 years since the last time he played make-believe.
「After I obtain the Dragon King’s Jewel, I can finally strengthen the Heavenly Star Dragon Longsword.」 (Shinji)
Shinji is enjoying the video game that he is playing. He had defeated a big monster and has obtained the materials needed to strengthen his weapon. Shinji had made progress in his game.
Although, it is a multiplayer game with up to 4 players, Shinji is basically a person who enjoys being a solo player.
There was no real reason for why he played alone. The way it was, he found the handicap to be challenging and enjoyable.
As it turns outs, he had few friends; there was no reason why, though.
With the material he gained, Shinji crafted a new weapon. He equips it and selects a new enemy to defeat.
「Where to go….. I’m running low on Iai Skill material, so, how about the dinosaur?」 (Shinji)
From there, Shinji played for another 30 minutes.
For Shinji, the time he spent playing video games was above-all the most enjoyable moments…… it was suppose to be, however.
「Something, is different.」 (Shinji)
Despite having created a new weapon and defeating a boss, Shinji felt perplexed.
The usual heart pounding excitement that he feels while playing a video game never came.
Under normal circ.u.mstances, even if he had nothing but his staff as weapon, Shinji would have been in high spirits.
「…… what should I do.」 (Shinji)
Once again, Shinji selects the same boss to battle.
He cuts off its tail and a rare material is left.
It is the material that Shinji had wanted; the one with a 1% drop rate.
But, even so.
The feeling of gratification didn’t emerge.
For the time being he tries to finish off the boss,
「Gyaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!」 (Shinji)
A desperately cute shriek is heard.