You like Thomas Hardy"s "Hand of Ethelberta" next to "Far from the Madding Crowd." Well, Coomb Castle in that book is really Corfe Castle.
I told you we were in Hardy country. After Wareham, and not very far away, at Wool, is an old, old manor-house of the Turbervilles, turned into a farmhouse now. You don"t need to be reminded of what Hardy made of that, I know.
We lunched at an interesting old inn, like all the rest of the ancient houses of Corfe, slate-roofed, grim and gray. Then we coasted down the steep hill to the plain again, making for Swanage. It was dusty, but we weren"t sorry, because, just when we were travelling rather fast, on a perfectly clear road, a policeman popped out like a Jack-in-the-Box, apparently from nowhere. You could tell by his face he was a "trappist,"
as d.i.c.k calls the motor-spies, and though Sir Lionel wasn"t really going beyond the legal limit, he glared at our number as if he meant mischief.
But that number-plate had thoughtfully masked itself in dust, so with all the will in the world he could work us no harm after our backs were turned. Once in a while it does seem as if Nature sympathized with the poor, maligned motorist whom n.o.body loves, and is willing to throw her protection over him. It would be like tempting Providence to polish off dust or mud, in such circ.u.mstances, wouldn"t it?
My face was a different matter, though, and I longed to polish it.
Before we got to Swanage, it felt--even under chiffon--just as an iced cake must feel. Only the cake, fortunately for its contour, never needs to smile.
We were going to Swanage because of the caves--Tilly Whim Caves. Did you ever hear of them, Parisienne mamma? Small blame to you, if not, because one can"t know everything; but they are worth seeing; and the Swanage harbour is a little dream. The town is good, too. Old-world, and very, very respectable-looking, as if it were full of long-established lawyers and clergymen, yet not dull, like Wareham, which was important in Saxon days, long before Swanage was born or thought of. It"s "Knollsea" in the "Hand of Ethelberta." Do you remember? And Alfred the Great had a victory close by--so close, that in a storm the Danish ships blew into what is the town now, as if they had been b.u.t.terflies with their wings wet.
We climbed up, up above the village, in the motor-car, on the steepest, twistingest road I"ve seen yet in England, though Sir Lionel says I"ll think nothing of it when we get into Devonshire; up, up to a high place where they"ve built a restaurant. Near by we left the motor (and Emily, who never walks for pleasure), and ho, for the caves! It was a scramble among dark cliffs of Purbeck limestone. The caves are delightfully weird, and of course there are smuggling stories about them. A strange wind blew through their labyrinths, ceaselessly, like the breathings of a hidden giant, betrayed by sleep. It was heavenly cool in that dim twilight that never knew sun, but oh, it was hot coming out into the afternoon glare, and climbing the steep path to where the motor waited!
I think Mrs. Senter was sorry she hadn"t stopped with Emily. She got a horrid headache, and felt so ill that Sir Lionel asked if she would care to stop all night at Swanage, and she said she would.
Fortunately, it turned out that there were good hotels, and Sir Lionel took rooms at the one we liked the best--old-fashioned in an agreeable way. Mrs. Senter went to bed, but the rest of us strolled out after dinner; and Mrs. Norton began talking to d.i.c.k about his mother, which threw Sir Lionel and me together.
We sat on the pier, where the moon turned bright pink as she dipped down into a bank of clouds like a rose-garden growing out of the sea. And even when it was dark, the sea kept its colour, the deep blue of sapphires, where, at a distance, little white yachts and sailboats looked like a company of crescent moons floating in an azure sky. I felt in the sweetest mood, kind toward all the world, and particularly to Sir Lionel. I couldn"t bear to remember that I"d ever had bad thoughts, and doubts, so I was half sub-consciously nicer to him than I ever was before. d.i.c.k kept glaring at me, from his seat beside Mrs. Norton, and drawing his eyebrows together when he thought Sir Lionel wasn"t looking.
Going home, he got a chance for a few words, when Emily was speaking to her brother about Mrs. Senter"s headache. He said that there was something he must say to me, alone, and he wanted me to come out into the garden behind the hotel, to talk to him when the others had gone to bed, but of course I refused. Then he said, would I manage to give him a few minutes next day, and intimated, gently, that I"d be sorry if I didn"t. I told him that "I"d see"; which is always a safe answer; but I haven"t "managed" yet.
When I got back to my room at the hotel I noticed that some of my things weren"t in the places where I"d left them; and the writing portfolio in a dressing-case which Sir Lionel _thinks_ is mine, but is really Ellaline"s (one of the Bond Street purchases), had my papers changed about in it. The servants in the house seemed so respectable and nice, I can"t think that one of them would have pried. And yet--well, the truth is, I"m afraid of being catty, but I can"t help putting Mrs. Senter"s headache and my disturbed papers together in my mind. Two and two when put together, make four, you know. And her room in the Swanage hotel was next to mine. She might have been sure that we"d all go out after dinner on such a perfect night. But why should she bother? Unless d.i.c.k has told her something, after all? I suppose I shall never know whether it was she or someone else who meddled. I looked through all the papers and other things, but could find nothing "compromising," as the adventuresses say. However, I can"t quite remember what I had. Some letter may have been taken. I have been a tiny bit worried since, for you know Ellaline would never forgive me if anything should go wrong now. And I"ve been thinking that, though Sir Lionel is no dragon, there may be something about Honore du Guesclin which he wouldn"t approve.
Ellaline may even have her own reasons for thinking he wouldn"t approve, dragon or no dragon. Very likely she didn"t tell me everything--she was so anxious to have her own way.
But to go back to the journey here. Almost each mile we travelled gave us some thought of Hardy, and acquainted me with the character of Dorset, which is just what I expected from his books: giant trees; tall, secretive hedges; high brick walls, mellow with age and curtained with ivy; stone cottages, solid and prosperous and old, with queer little bay-windows, diamond-paned; Purbeck granite bursting through the gra.s.s of meadows, and making a grave background for brilliant flowers; heaths that Hardy wrote about in the "Return of the Native"--heaths, heaths, and rolling downs.
We took the way from Swanage to West Lulworth, and had an adventure on a hill. Sir Lionel is very strict with his little Buddha about examining everything that could possibly go wrong with the motor, and just before we started, I heard him ask Young Nick if he had looked at the brakes after our descent from Tilly Whim. "Oh, yes, sahib," said the brown image. "Oh, no!" said the brakes themselves, on a big hill, as far from the madding crowd as "Gabriel" and "Bathsheba" ever lived. We"d got lost, and that was the way the car punished us. First of all, the motor refused to work. That made Apollo feel faint, so that he began to run backward down the hill instead of going up; and when Sir Lionel put on the brakes, they wouldn"t act.
It was the first time anything really bad had happened, and my heart gave a jump, but somehow I wasn"t frightened. With Sir Lionel driving, it seemed as if no harm could come; and it didn"t, for he steered to the side of the road, and brought the car up short against a great hummock of gra.s.s. All the same, we nearly tipped over, and Sir Lionel told us to jump. I shouldn"t have stirred if he hadn"t spoken. I should have awaited orders; but the others were moving before we stopped, and Mrs.
Senter fell down and b.u.mped her knee. That made her hair come partly undone, and, to my horror, a bunch of the dearest little curls, which I always thought lived there, were loosened. There was a great wind blowing, and in a second more the curls would have been on the horizon, if I hadn"t seized them just as they were about to take flight. If they"d gone, they must have pa.s.sed almost in front of Sir Lionel"s nose, on their way. Wouldn"t that have been dreadful? I should think she could never have looked him in the face again, for her hair"s her greatest beauty, and she"s continually saying things about its being all her own, and having more than she knows what to do with.
But luckily his back was turned when I caught the curls, and stuffed them hastily into her hand before she was on her feet, n.o.body seeing except d.i.c.k. I suppose a nephew doesn"t count! But do you know, dear, if they"d been my curls, I believe she"d have loved Sir Lionel to see them.
I don"t like her a bit, but all the more I couldn"t be mean. I reserve all my cattyness toward her for my letters to you, when I let myself go, and stretch my little nails in my velvet paw.
I was sorry for Young Nick! He was miserably sheepish, and vowed that he really had examined the brakes. Sir Lionel just looked at him, and raised his eyebrows; that was all, because he wouldn"t scold the poor little wretch before us.
It was as much as the three men could do to get Apollo down on his four tires again, for, though he seemed as lightly balanced as an eccentric dancer trying to touch one eyelid to the floor, he was partly embedded in the bank by the roadside. Then we all sat gracefully about, while Sir Lionel and the chauffeur worked--Young Nick under the car, looking sometimes like a contortionist tying himself into lover"s knots, sometimes like a miniature Michelangelo lying on his back to paint a fresco. I hope, though, that Michael never had half the trouble finding his paints and brushes that Nick had to get at his tommies and jemmies, and dozens of strange little instruments. He lay with his mouth bristling with giant pins, and had the air of a conscientious dentist filling a difficult tooth.
It was a long time before the brakes were properly tightened up and the four cylinders breathing freely again; but it would have been ungracious to be bored in such a glorious wild place, in such glorious weather.
There was a kind of Walt Whitman feeling in the air that made me want to sing; and finally I could resist no longer. I burst out with those verses of his which you set to music for me. At least, I sang a few bars; and you ought to have seen Sir Lionel wheel round and look at me when he heard my voice. I never said anything to him about knowing how to sing, so he was surprised.
"Why, you have quite a pretty voice, Ellaline!" said Mrs. Norton.
""Quite a pretty voice!" I should say she had!" remarked Sir Lionel. He didn"t say any more. But I never had a compliment I liked better; and I didn"t mind a bit when Mrs. Senter remarked that anyone would fancy I was a professional.
I was almost sorry to go on at last, though Emily was worrying lest we should get no lunch. But we saw beautiful things as we spun toward Lulworth, rushing so swiftly along an empty road that the hedges roared past us like dark cataracts. It was thrilling, and showed what Apollo could do when he chose. If there had been a soul on the road, of course we wouldn"t have done such deeds; though I must say, from what I"ve seen, if you creep along so as not to kick up a dust and annoy people, they aren"t at all grateful, but only scorn instead of hating you, and think you can"t go faster, or you would. Still, you have the consciousness of innocence. One thing we saw was a delightful Tudor house, called Creech Grange; and the ancestor of the man who owns it built Bond Street. I"m sure I don"t know why, but I"m glad he did. We took the valley way on purpose to see the Grange, instead of going over Ring Hill and other windy heights, but it was worth the sacrifice.
Lulworth Castle, which we pa.s.sed, is rather like Graylees, Sir Lionel said; so now I wish more than ever that I could see Graylees, for Lulworth is fine and feudal. But I shall have burst like a bubble before the time comes for Graylees.
There! I have brought you with us to Lulworth Cove, at last--the adorable little place where, at this moment, as I told you at the beginning of my letter, I"m sitting on the beach among red and green fishing boats.
You wouldn"t dream of Lulworth"s existence until it suddenly breaks on you, and you see the blue bay lying asleep in the arms of giant rocks, which appear to have had a violent convulsion without disturbing the baby sheet of water. I suppose they were angry with the world for finding out their secret; for it has found out, and loves to come to Lulworth Cove. However, the place contrives to _look_ as unknown as ever, as if only some lazy gulls and a few fishermen mending lobster-pots had ever heard a hint of it. There"s a narrow street; a few pretty old cottages; a comfortable hotel where we had crabs, divine though devilled, and _omelette au rhum_ floating in flames of the blue I should like my eyes to be when angry; there"s a post-office, and--nothing else that I can think of, except circling hills, a golden sweep of beach, and sea of ethereal azure creaming against contorted rocks. That"s all; but it"s a little Paradise, and----
_Night, of the same day._
Just there I was interrupted. d.i.c.k Burden came, and I had to listen to him, unless I wanted a scene. I couldn"t appeal to any nice brown fisherman to please feed him to the lobsters, so I sat still and let him talk. He said that he was awfully in love with me. A charming fashion he"s taken to show it, hasn"t he? As I remarked to him.
He replied in the old, old way, about all being fair, etc., etc. I asked him which it was, love or war, and he said it was both. He knew I wasn"t in love (I should think not, indeed!), but he wanted me to promise to be engaged to him from now on.
"I won"t," said I--short and sudden, like that.
"You"ll jolly well have to," said he. Then he proceeded to warn me that if I didn"t, my friend Miss Ellaline Lethbridge must look out for herself, because I would no longer be in a position to guard her interests.
I mentioned that he was a perfect beast, and he said it might be true, but I was a deceiver, and it was not good taste for the pot to call the kettle black.
"I"d rather go into the kind of convent where one"s not allowed to speak a word all one"s life, except "_Memento mori_," than marry you," said I, politely.
But it seemed that he wasn"t thinking so much about being married, as just being engaged. As to marrying, we were both very young, and he would wait for me till we could afford to marry, which mightn"t be for some time yet, he explained. What he was keen on beginning at once, was being engaged.
"Why?" I asked, savagely.
"Because I don"t want anyone else to think he has a chance. That"s the plain truth," said d.i.c.k, in the most brazen way.
That staggered me; for he was glaring straight into my eyes in such a meaning way I couldn"t help understanding _who_ was in his mind. So utterly _ridiculous_! As if the person he meant would ever think of me!
And d.i.c.k used to say himself that Sir Lionel Pendragon took no interest in girls, or any women except Mrs. Senter. I"d have liked to remind him of this, only I wouldn"t let him see that I read his thoughts.
"I believe you must be mad," said I.
"I shouldn"t wonder," said he. "Anyhow, I"m mad enough to go straight to Sir Lionel with the whole story the minute he comes back from his walk with his sister and my aunt, unless you do what I want."
"That won"t be very nice for Mrs. Senter," I temporized, "if she"s enjoying this trip she was so anxious to take; for if Sir Lionel knows about Ellaline the tour will probably break up, and he"ll rush over to France."
"On the contrary, it will be nice for her," d.i.c.k returned, "because many a heart is caught in the rebound."
I said that this argument was too intricate for me, but it wasn"t really. I knew quite well what he meant, though of course he is absolutely mistaken, as far as Sir Lionel"s feelings toward me are concerned. But I had to think quickly, and I thought maybe he was right about his aunt. She would be a woman who would make _any_ use of an emergency. And once she had compromised poor Sir Lionel, it would be too late, for I have an idea he"d be exaggeratedly honourable.
You may smile at my saying she"d compromise him. But you know what I mean. I"m not sure _I_ do--but anyhow, I couldn"t bear to have her do it, especially if it could be prevented by me. I sat still a minute, reflecting, and then asked d.i.c.k what he meant by "being engaged."
He replied that he meant the usual thing; and I replied to this that nothing could tempt me. He saw I wouldn"t go back from my word, so he promised, if I _would_ be engaged, that he"d not try even to hold my hand until I should be willing. All he would ask was, that he might tell his aunt we had a "kind of a, sort of an understanding," which might develop into an engagement, and let _her_ tell Sir Lionel. Nothing more than that; and why should I mind, when in any case there could never have been a question of my marrying Sir L.?
I said I did mind horribly, but not on that account, and I should never marry anyone. I was almost ready to cry, I felt so wretched. I don"t think I was ever as miserable in my life, dear; though, when I come to argue it out with myself, I"ve pretended so much to please Ellaline, it oughtn"t to matter, pretending a little more.
Just then all three of the others came along, and seeing us on the beach, joined us. d.i.c.k put on a familiar air with me, as if he had rights, and I saw Sir Lionel glance from me to him, and draw his eyebrows together.
I came indoors then, to my room, and didn"t go out again till dinner time. I was half afraid Mrs. Senter might already have got in her deadly work, but if she had, Sir Lionel didn"t say anything to me. Only it was a horrid dinner, in spite of nice, seaside things to eat. n.o.body spoke much, and I felt so choked I could hardly swallow.
Oh, I am homesick for you, dear. I hurried upstairs, as soon as dinner was over, saying I had letters to write. To-morrow, early, we start for Sidmouth, in Devonshire, going by way of Weymouth and Dorchester. As I write, looking from my window, across which I haven"t drawn the curtains, I can see Sir Lionel and Mrs. Senter strolling out of the hotel, toward the beach. There"s a lovely blue dusk, which the sunset struck into a million glorious sparks, and then let fade again into a dull glow, like ashes of roses. They look a romantic couple walking together. I wonder if they are talking about each other, to each other, or--about _d.i.c.k and me_? I feel as if I should have to scream--"Sir Lionel, don"t believe it. It isn"t true!" But of course, I can"t. I think I shall go to bed, and then I won"t be tempted to look out of the window.
Always your own loving