My cheeks flared up at the implication. "No, please, it"s not that I didn"t have room in my bag for any dresses; I just don"t own any."
"It"s true, I"ve seen what"s in her wardrobe. Nothing but blue jeans and those dreadful shapeless athletic trousers. I"ve tried to tell her the importance of a proper lady"s wardrobe, but she became very snappish with me. Why, the state of her undergarments alone would drive off any man of taste." Esme suddenly realized who was sitting next to her and smiled a barracuda smile at Christian.
His eyes did an amazing little twinkling thing that pooled heat deep inside me.
I slumped my shoulders in defeat. When my bras and undies became the topic of polite conversation, I knew it was time to go book myself a room in the Old Summoner"s Home.
"Gotcha," Roxy said. "I understand completely. The only reason I wear dresses is because Richard-that"s my husband; he"s a doll-likes me in them. But if I had my druthers, I"d be just like you, slouching around in comfy old clothes and not caring how bad anyone thinks I look."
"I just can"t take you anywhere, can I?" Joy asked as she threw a m.u.f.fin at Roxy. "Apologize, you idiot!"
"For what?"
"Nothing. It doesn"t matter. If you don"t mind, I think I"ll be taking Esme and Mr. Woogums home now." I looked at Christian and gave him a toothy smile. "I have a pair of black wool pants, if that will soothe your delicate sensibilities. They"re the dressiest thing I brought."
He rose when I did. "I will be happy to escort you to your hotel, and thence to a restaurant for a little dinner before we got to the theater."
"Oooh, dinner and a show! How come you never take us to dinner and a show?"
He smiled at Roxy. "I would spend the entire evening fending off the hordes of your admirers."
She fanned herself and grinned back at him. "You gotta love all that suave debonairness!"
I decided not to comment on that. "I"m quite capable of returning to my hotel by myself."
"I have no doubt that you are. I will feel more comfortable, however, if I were to see you safely there before we leave for the evening."
"We would be delighted to have your company," Esme told him as she stood and adjusted the tie on her bathrobe. "A gentleman"s protection can never be undesirable."
I snorted. "Regardless, I will survive without his attendance."
"I insist on accompanying you."
"You can stuff your insistence where the sun doesn"t shine," I said sweetly.
Esme gasped. "Allie! A lady never refers to a gentleman"s rectal area, no matter how provoked she might be!"
Christian turned to Joy with his hands spread wide. "You see what I must put up with?"
"Oh, my, he shouldn"t have said that." Esme shook her head. Joy and Roxy both nodded their agreement.
"Put up with?" I stalked over to where he stood and glared up at him. "Put up with? No one is asking you to put up with me, Count Chocula. In fact, I"m willing to bet you I could live out the rest of my life quite happily without ever seeing you again, so you can take your put up with and stick it alongside your insistence!"
"Dear, as I mentioned, a lady-"
Christian took a step closer to me, his eyes lit from within with something that felt a lot to my guarded mind like unadulterated fury. His breath fanned over my face as his voice wrapped me in unbreakably strong silken bonds. "I have tolerated your abuse only because I realize how insecure you are regarding your appearance, not to mention frightened of what I represent, but I will entertain your rudeness no more. You have done considerable damage to my plans without offering an apology, you have pushed yourself into my life without my express desire that you do so, and you have met every kindness on my part with uncouth retorts and juvenile remarks. Enough! It is at an end. You might not be my Beloved, but there is a bond between us, even if you will not admit to it. Because it is the way of Dark Ones to protect their women, I will escort you to your hotel, and about that there will be no further discussion."
Have I mentioned that I detest bossy, controlling men? Really, it was his verbal attack on me that prompted me to do what I did. I"m not proud of it, but I am a survivor. I lived once in the control of a man, terrified to do anything even remotely against his wishes lest the repercussions (almost always involving physical pain) fell upon me, and I had made a solemn vow as I stood over Timothy"s lifeless body that I would never again give anyone that sort of power over me.
I thanked Joy for the tea.
"I"m sure we"ll be seeing more of you," she answered with a quick glance at Christian. He raised an eyebrow at her. I ground my teeth at the obvious wordless byplay that was going on between the two of them, then stopped when I realized what I was doing.
I plucked a bobble from my sweater.
"Say good-bye, Esme," I said as I made the keeper warding signs over the bobble. I turned my back on everyone to silently speak the words (I hate being watched when I practice my art), then turned back when the bobble glowed with Esme"s light. Gathering up my coat, I ignored Christian when he did the same. Roxy chattered beside me as we walked to the front door. With my right hand hidden in front of me, I sketched a series of confining symbols on the door. I walked through the door, holding my breath and praying that the simple spell would work on a vampire as it did on others.
Christian stopped at the door, the oddest expression on his face. He frowned and tried to push through the barrier my spell had woven.
"Christian? What"s the matter?"
His eyes narrowed on me as I smiled. "What have you done?"
"Me? Juvenile, rude, insecure, frightened little me? Whatever can you mean?"
His voice dropped to the s.e.xiest growl I"d ever heard. It sent little shivers of delight traipsing up and down my spine. "You have done something to the door, Summoner. Something to keep me from pa.s.sing through it."
I flashed a few more teeth in my smile as I leaned in close to him. "Never, ever think you can tell me what to do. I have a mind and a will of my own, and never again will I allow anyone to take that away from me."
I turned with a cheery wave to a worried-looking Joy, and made my way out of the building to the drizzle-damped streets. A few minutes later I sat back with a sigh in a taxi I"d been lucky to find disgorging its occupants, wondering how long it would take Christian to realize that my limited spell-casting power-Summoners usually know only those spells that are related to their own personal protection, or have to do with the binding of spirits-applied only to the front door of Joy"s flat, and not any of the other means of exit. I suspected it wouldn"t take him long to figure it out.
"I hate it when I"m right." I sighed as I closed the hotel room door. Christian stood before my wardrobe, poking through the clothes contained therein.
"Esme was also right. The state of your underthings is deplorable. Why do you not wear silk and satin, as other women do?"
I set Esme"s bobble down on the small desk that graced a corner, and peeled off my coat. "Look, I realize we both said some things better left unsaid. For my part, I apologize for telling you to shove your insistence..." I waved my hand toward his midsection. "You know. That was rude of me, and I"m sorry for it, but you have to understand that I just do not like dominating, arrogant men."
He walked to me, wrapping his hand around my neck and tipping my chin up with his thumb. I fought the urge to strike back, and just stood there, pa.s.sive, letting him examine my face.
"You did not tell me that you had been treated ill in your past. Who was the person who took your mind and will away from you?"
I thought about lying to him, but decided those all-seeing eyes of his (now a lovely reddish-gold mahogany) would know I wasn"t telling him the truth. "My husband."
His jaw hardened.
"My ex-husband," I qualified. "Or rather, my late almost ex-husband. I had left him and filed for divorce by the time he died, and no, if you were going to ask, I didn"t kill him, although I wanted to. He was shot by the police trying to set fire to my house. While I was asleep inside."
Christian"s eyes were slowly darkening, deepening in shade until it seemed as if his pupils were absorbing all the color in his eyes. "This man, this husband abused you?"
"Abused, controlled, tortured, killed my brother-all that and more, yes."
Onyx eyes bored into mine. "You said your brother was killed in the accident that injured your leg."
"You"re hurting my neck."
The tight sting of his fingers was gone, replaced by warmth and heat and something erotic that skittered along the surface of my skin as his lips kissed away the ache in my neck.
"My brother-" I stopped as he kissed a particularly sensitive spot near my ear. "My brother was killed in a car accident. Timothy..." Another pause as teeth gently nipping my earlobe made me shudder in delight. To keep myself from responding to him, I concentrated my thoughts on that horrible night, filling my mind with the memories of it. The blackness spilled out of me, making my voice thick with unspoken pain.
"Timothy was driving. He was drunk-he was always drunk-but he thought it would be funny to see if he could drive through some woods that ringed one side of our yard to reach the house. Leslie died when he wrapped the car around a tree." Christian had stopped nibbling on me and was now looking at me with dark, shuttered eyes. For a moment I felt a pang of regret that my ploy had worked, a pang that was firmly pushed aside. "My leg was injured in the crash, broken in four places, I later found out. But we had no insurance, and Timothy was driving drunk without a license, so he dragged me to the house and left Leslie dead in the car. He buried him later, after he sobered up enough to realize what he"d done."
"You did not report him?" Christian asked, something in his face that made me want to throw myself into his arms and let him protect me from the world. I pushed that feeling down, too. I hadn"t learned to stand on my own two feet just to hand my independence over to the first man who showed me a bit of sympathy.
"I couldn"t. Timothy splinted my leg and kept me mindless for a long time on drugs, painkillers mostly, a small mercy. By the time I started hiding the pills he gave me, and realized that he was lying about Leslie having gone away, it was too late. I had no proof, and I was crippled, unable to walk for six months. I don"t know if you"ve ever found yourself at the mercy of someone who doesn"t know the meaning of that word, but years of experience had pounded into me the fact that I had no hope of escaping him."
His fingers returned, this time to touch my cheek and brush away the tears I hadn"t realized were there. "But you did escape this monster."
I nodded, closing my eyes for a moment at the warmth his touch brought me. "He tried to kill me a year later. I ran away from him, and kept running. I ended up in a women"s shelter. One of the women who volunteered there was a witch, and she saw the power in me that I"d long since learned to hide. She helped me understand what Timothy had done to me, and how to break the cycle. She taught me that I did not ever have to give control over myself to another human being. She taught me how to be strong, how to fight back rather than to be a victim. She made me realize that men are not happy unless they are in a dominant position of control, and that the way they deal with someone who challenges their authority is to overpower and bully them." I raised my chin and let my determination fill my eyes. "I will never let another man do that to me."
To my surprise, he nodded. "I am glad you have survived your ordeal, and have been tempered by your tragic experiences. A woman should not be helpless, should not be a victim." His fingers tucked a loose strand of my hair behind my ear. "I never thought you were anything but strong, Allegra. I would not want you to be anyone but yourself. Your past has shown you only one side of power, however-abuse. It does not follow that all men are made in such a fashion."
I stepped back. "I notice you don"t deny the fact that men aren"t happy unless they are dominant and controlling."
He shrugged that elegant shrug of his. "It is a part of what makes a man a man. Males are naturally dominant, females are-"
"Subservient? Subjugated? Pa.s.sive little doormats whom men trample over?"
He smiled, his white teeth flashing. "I was going to say nurturers. A woman may become dominant, but only in order to care for those she loves. It is not a natural state."
I snorted (again-it was becoming a bad habit around Christian). "Do me and every other twenty-first-century woman a favor and get over yourself. Women can be just as dominant as men, only we do it without trampling over everyone."
His smile turned into a frown. "Women only use dominance to prove to themselves they are equal to men in all things."
I squinted my eyes at him. "Oh, you do not want to go there. In fact, this whole conversation is pointless. You"re one of the caveman throwbacks who thinks he has the right to push everyone around for their own good. You"re not in the least bit reasonable or open to a sensible debate, so I"m just going to stop talking to you." I strode over to the wardrobe and grabbed a handful of clothing. "Esme, you can come out now. Feel free to entertain Nosferatu here with tales of how a lady acts. I"m going to take a shower. Alone," I added with emphasis.
"The conversation is far from over, Allegra," Christian said mildly.
"Allie, I must lodge a complaint about the manner in which you insist on transporting Mr. Woogums and myself." Esme shook out her bathrobe while the cat sat at her feet licking his shoulder. "I really must insist that you carry us somewhere other than your coat pocket. I felt positively smothered in there. Good evening again, Christian; it is always a pleasure to see a man with such gentlemanly manners."
I rolled my eyes and stomped off to the bathroom, working off a smidgen of my frustration-and I"m sad to admit, a goodly chunk of it was s.e.xual in nature-by slamming the door behind me.
Esme came in to the bathroom a few minutes later, but I ignored her and concentrated on washing my hair. Twenty minutes later I emerged from the steamy bathroom. "I meant to ask you earlier, but you were being pompous-how did you get through my spell?"
Christian had his martyr face on-a face I admit I secretly enjoyed-but he answered my question civilly enough. "I went out another door."
I smiled, pleased that my spell had held up against him. I felt compelled to be honest, however. "The spell probably wouldn"t have lasted too long. I"m not very good at spell casting. Summoners don"t need to use them often, and it"s too easy to screw them up, so I try to get by without them. Still, it"s nice to know I can hold a fully grown Dark One if I need to."
Christian"s face took on a new level of martyrdom.
"Okay, I"m ready to go to dinner. Esme, you stay here and behave if a maid comes into the room."
"Dear, you wouldn"t think about taking us-"
"I think you"ve had enough jaunting about for a day," I said gently but firmly. I turned to Christian. "Where are you taking me to dinner?"
Both his eyebrows rose at that. "Me? You expect me to act in a domineering, arrogant male manner and presume to pay for the dinner of an independent woman who detests being treated in such a patronizing way?"
I pulled my coat on. "Seeing as you probably have oodles of money lying around gathering dust, and as I am here on my own dime, quickly running through all my savings, I will this once allow you to pay for my dinner." I paused as I opened the door and looked back at him. "If you ask me nicely, that is."
"Do you know," he replied with a thoughtful look on his face as he followed me out the door, "we almost had a civil conversation going. There might be hope for you yet."
I smacked him on the arm and, after hesitating a moment, took the hand he offered me, twining my fingers through his and smiling secretly to myself. Hope? Not for me, but maybe for... Hmmm. What an interesting thought.
Chapter Seven.
Our unspoken truce lasted through dinner, during which I watched with fascination while Christian did not eat his food.
"How do you do that?" I asked when I looked up to find yet another bit of his prawns gone.
He smiled. "The hand is quicker than the eye."
"Oh. You"ve never been able to eat?"
"Food? No."
I thought about that for a minute while I ate some lemon-roasted chicken. "How exactly did you end up"-I looked around us-"as you are? Were you born that way or did someone turn you?"
His long fingers toyed with the rim of his winegla.s.s. "There are two types of Dark Ones: those who were born to it, and those who were created. I am in the former group."
"Really? So your parents were vamps, too?"
He nodded. "All males born of an unredeemed Dark One are the same as their father."
Something didn"t sit right. "Wait a minute, you said that when you guys find your Beloveds, they save you and redeem your soul, right? So how can an unredeemed Dark One have children?"
"The same way any other man does," he said with more than a hint of a grin. "There are many of my kind who never find their Beloveds, but that does not mean they do not take solace where they can in relationships with mortal women."
"Oh." Which, of course, made me want to ask, "So do you do that too? Take solace, I mean?"
His eyelids dropped until he was giving me a look so steamy it could have cooked carrots. "Are you inquiring for general knowledge, or is there a purpose to your question?"
I made an attempt to stifle the parts of my body that were responding (with much enthusiasm) to the effect of that smooth, beautiful voice, not to mention his bedroom eyes. It wasn"t easy, but finally I could look back up to him and speak without grabbing his head and kissing the d.i.c.kens out of him. "Let"s just say it"s general curiosity."
His eyes darkened to a deep walnut. "Why do you do that?"
I blinked and tried to summon my innocent face. "Do what?"
"Struggle against the attraction you feel for me. I feel the same and yet I do not struggle; it would be pointless. It is not something one can control-it either is, or it isn"t. Yet you deny the pa.s.sion that beats so strongly within you, I can sense its presence even when I am not near you. Are you so threatened by me that you cannot stand the thought of physical intimacy?"
"I"m not threatened by you," I said in a low whisper, not wanting our conversation to reach the ears of others. "And I"m not pa.s.sionate."