He watched me closely to see how I would take that news. I felt for one horrible moment like some sort of deranged cow, fed and pampered so I could donate blood on a regular basis, then thought, really thought about what Christian was feeling. I knew from experience how intimate-how erotic-it was for him to feed off me. Did I want him doing that with anyone else?
I most certainly did not.
Still, there were questions to be answered. "Why did you think Joy was your Beloved? Why did you think I wasn"t? Why did you change your mind?"
He ran a long-fingered hand through his hair and leaned back on the couch, taking me with him. "Joy once said that she thought it was possible for there to be two women with, as she put it, their wires crossed: one who was born a Beloved, but who was never meant to fulfill that role, and another who was not born to it, but who would grow into it. I did not think it was possible at the time, but now"-His eyes lightened to a beautiful warm reddish brown with gold flecks that made his eyes seem to shimmer with light-"now I believe she was right. You were not born to be my Beloved, but you are she. If you choose to stay with me now, to help me overcome my darker self, there will be only one more step before we are truly Joined."
Ick. I knew what that meant. A blood exchange. I pushed down the pesky little thought that when we made love, I had a deep, forbidden, primitive urge to taste his blood even as he was drinking mine, and instead focused on the here and now.
"All right, letting the Beloved question go for a minute, how can you expect me to believe that you and I have enough strength, even working together, to face the triumvirate again? They almost did me in, Christian, and that was with you pouring your power into me. I felt how weak you grew doing that; you were giving me everything you had."
He kissed my palm again. I fought back the shiver of pleasure that his breath on my sensitive skin triggered. "Once we are Joined, we will be as one. You will complete me, and in return you will be made immortal."
"Even immortal, I can still be hurt. You said yourself it was possible to kill a Dark One, and your friend is proof that you can be held prisoner against your will."
"Sebastian was not trapped by Eduardo and Guarda. There was another"s hand in it, one who was able to blind Sebastian because he had no Beloved. A Dark One who is redeemed would never make that mistake."
"Don"t tell me: When you"re redeemed you become even more perfect than you are now?"
A smile flirted with his lips. I wanted to flirt with the smile. "Nothing so arrogant, Allegra. It is simply that a Moravian who has Joined would not do anything that would endanger his Beloved. She is everything and all to him. He lives for her happiness. He would take no chances with his own life simply because he must live to protect her."
I gave in to my desire and let my lips flirt with his smile. "Now why do I find that statement a bit questionable?"
He tugged me closer, until I was sitting on his lap.
That is because you have never had a Dark One of your own. I promise I will make the experience one that you will never forget... or regret.
The door opened again. I stayed where I was.
"Now she"s sitting on his lap. No, wait, they"re kissing again. And he"s got his hand on her b.o.o.b. Will you stop yelling at me? Geez, Joy, I"d appreciate it if you"d make up your mind! Either you want me to see what they"re doing, or you don"t-"
The door closed again, rather firmly this time.
I smiled into Christian"s mouth. "You know, you"re not giving me any choice. What you"re doing is called emotional blackmail."
His smile sobered instantly into something that filled me with sorrow to see.
Guilt. He felt guilty about telling me the truth.
"If there were another way, Allegra-"
"You"ve let me see into that thick head of yours," I said, running my fingers through the cool length of his hair. "I know what you"re telling me is true, just as you know I could not let you destroy yourself. So I guess it means we"re going to have to work out some sort of a relationship."
I fisted my hands in his hair and tugged until he tipped his chin up. I nibbled on his neck, gently biting the tender flesh around his Adam"s apple. There are going to be some rules, Mr. Arrogance. Lots and lots of rules.
"Rules can be good," he said, lowering his head until his lips teased mine. "I particularly like the one that says I must make love to you until you beg me to stop."
"I have a very high tolerance for lovemaking," I warned just before he claimed my mouth.
A short while later the door opened behind us.
"Guys, I think you might want to put some clothes back on. Joy"s gone to pee-for the five hundredth time today-but she"s coming in to check on you next. So... um... guys? That is you two under those blankets, right? That looks like your clothes on the floor. Oh, boy, Allie, you really need to get yourself some new underwear. Yours looks like the kind my grandmother wears. I didn"t know they still made-"
Christian closed the door on her without ceasing doing what he was doing. I moaned into his mouth and gave myself up to the sharp stab of pure pleasure as our bodies and minds once again merged into one.
There had to be a way to save him from the fate my dream predicted. There just had to be.
Chapter Thirteen.
"All right, what do you think of this?"
"I don"t like it." Christian"s silky voice was a bit sulky.
"You sound like Jem. How about this? I just bet a great strong man like you would appreciate this."
"No."
"You didn"t even try it!"
"I don"t have to try it to know I won"t like it."
"You are such a baby. All right, how about this? I love this; I"m sure you will, too."
He looked suspiciously at me. "What is it?"
I waved the spoon under his nose. "Mole chicken."
He made a face. "I don"t believe I could eat the flesh of an animal."
"Just try it. For me."
He grimaced and took a tiny little morsel of mole-covered chicken from the spoon. The look on his face as he chewed it was priceless.
"I take it that"s a no."
"I do not want any more animal flesh."
"Okay, fine, strictly vegetarian diet, no problem. I"m not a big cow eater myself. Now, let"s see..." I looked over the dining room table, which was covered in more than a dozen different take-out cartons. "You were go on the Greek pasta salad."
"I liked the wine."
"But the hummus didn"t strike a strong chord with you." I pushed the red-pepper-and-olive hummus over to my side of the table. I wasn"t nearly as picky as Christian was. Then again, I hadn"t just been given the ability to eat after nine hundred years, either. I suppose that gave him the right to have such definite preferences.
"The wine was very good."
"And the Cantonese beef and the mole chicken are out. Same with the ribs."
"I enjoyed the wine."
"But you haven"t tried the vegetarian fried rice yet. Here, try some rice."
"I believe I could have more wine without suffering any ill effects," he told me as I poked the spoon at his lips in an attempt to slip a few morsels of rice between them.
I sighed and set the spoon down. "You said you would be able to ingest only tiny bits of food and beverage at first, Christian. You did not say that being with me would open up the door to your becoming a wino."
He frowned. "Wino?"
"One who drinks copious quant.i.ties of wine."
He looked at the pet.i.te sherry gla.s.s that I had found to, serve him little thimble-size swallows of various wines so he could see what he liked and disliked.
"I suspect that it would take more than the teaspoon or two of wine you"ve given me to qualify for the word copious."
"No one likes a drunk vampire. Now try this rice and I might let you have a sip of a Gewurztraminer."
He selected an individual grain of rice and nibbled on it. "Pa.s.sable."
I poured him another swallow of wine.
"Okay, so that leaves the spaghetti, which you won"t like because it has dead cow in it, and sage roasted potatoes, which I can personally attest to as being nummy, and the-"
"Why are you avoiding the inevitable?" he asked, the sherry gla.s.s dangling from his elegant fingers.
"I told you, I don"t need anyone to help me take a bath."
"You are bruised; I can feel your pain when you move. Why will you not let me soothe your aches in the warmth and comfort of a bath?"
"Because your sort of soothing involves bare flesh, and I know you around bare flesh; you"re going to want to make love, and I just don"t think that"s a good idea now. It"s a good thing Joy interrupted us when she did. Until I get a few things straight in my mind, you"re not going to touch me, and that means no bath."
He smiled.
"I"m serious, Christian."
His smile deepened.
"Don"t you think what you"re thinking!" I shook a fork at him.
"If you ask me to, corazon, I will tear "is "eart out and dance on it." A disembodied voice floated down the length of the table.
I made a face at the air as it gathered into the translucent image of a randy Elizabethan courtier. "I thought you guys were watching a movie?"
"The others would not let me watch it."
"Really?" I frowned. Esme had discovered that if she focused her attention, she could push b.u.t.tons on the remote. The freedom to channel-surf had quickly made her and Jem giddy TV addicts. "Why?"
He waved his hand. "They objected to it."
"What was the t.i.tle?"
He pursed his lips and gave me the wounded-puppy dog look. "I cannot remember. I believe it was a movie about explorers. Someone"s visit to a place called Dallas."
"Someone"s visit to Dallas?"
"Debbie Does Dallas, was, I think, the t.i.tle. It looked to be most amusing, but Esme said it was not appropriate for her cat. Bah!"
I snorted out the sip of wine I was taking, and coughed and sputtered for a good minute until I got all of it out of my lungs. Christian helpfully patted me on the back until I could breathe again. Antonio took exception to that. He puffed up his chest and stalked over to Christian.
"Oh, no, not again," I moaned, having seen enough male posturing earlier when we had arrived home to last me a lifetime. "Look, it was bad enough that you two had to go mano a mano a couple of hours ago, filling the entire house with enough testosterone to choke a horse, but if you don"t mind, Antonio, Christian and I are trying to have dinner. Go back and watch whatever movie the others are watching."
" "A!" Antonio waved his hand at the food and scoffed. Loudly. With one hand on a hip and a sneer on his face. ""E is as dead as I am; "e cannot eat. And yet you, mi amor, mi corazon, you prefer this monstrosity to me? No." He shook his head, his curls trembling violently. "It cannot be. I will not accept it. I will challenge "im to a duel of honor for your fair "and!"
"Christian is not dead; he"s just not... well, quite human. He"s a slight variation on human, that"s all."
"I don"t care, I still challenge "im. "E "as stolen my true love. "E will die for that crime."
With a ghostly whisper of steel, Antonio pulled the rapier from the scabbard that suddenly appeared at his waist.
"Oh, for heaven"s sake, I don"t believe this..."
Antonio waved his rapier about in manner that, had it had been real, would have decapitated Christian, me, and three of the candles in the center of the dining table. "Do you accept my challenge, you "ideous dead one, or are you too cowardly to face me like a man?"
Christian smiled at Antonio as he rose to his feet. I groaned and made a mental note to find a way to Release Antonio before Christian really lost his temper with him. Not to mention my temper.
"Where is Antonio... Oh, here you all are. What"s going on?" Esme asked as she materialized in the dining room. "Oooh, you"re fighting a duel? Over Allegra? How thrilling! Jem! Alis! You must see this; Antonio and Christian are fighting over Allegra."
"No," I started to say, but it was no use. Before the word left my lips, Jem and Alis popped into the dining room. Mr. Woogums jumped onto the table and limped over to smell the barbeque ribs. "Now, listen here, everyone, there is not going to be any... Jem, what in heaven"s name have you done to yourself?"
"You insist on badgering my Beloved even when she has asked you to leave," Christian said, ignoring the audience that had lined up against the far wall. Alis spotted a series of Dresden antique statuettes on a shelf and moved in front of them to scream in Welsh. "You are here only on Allegra"s sufferance, ghost, so I would suggest that you do as she tells you and not persist on this foolish course."
"Have you lost your mind? You can"t go around dressed like that," I told Jem. "You look like a punk rocker. How many eighteenth-century waiters do you know who have a purple mohawk and a ring in their nose? I just bet you the answer is none!"
"You are the dead coward most extraordinary," Antonio taunted Christian, pausing long enough to blow me a showy kiss and materialize a red rose right in the middle of my kung pao chicken.
"Is that a tattoo? Who gave you permission to give yourself a tattoo? Of a naked woman, Jem? You"re only fifteen! If this is the sort of thing you"re going to do if I let you watch TV, you"re going to find yourself watching the kiddie channel for a very long time, I can tell you that!"
Christian sighed and raised one hand to Antonio. "Need I show you again how much power this dead man wields?"
Antonio"s image flickered as if it were a candle flame in a draft; then (and if his expression was anything to go by, much to his surprise) he dissolved into nothing.
I blinked at the Antonio-less air. "How did you do that?"