Auguste had told Nancy that he had tried to get word to Redbird; now she silently d.a.m.ned the soldiers for not bothering to pa.s.s the messages on.
No doubt they thought it not worth the trouble.
When Nancy told Redbird that she had left White Bear four days ago, unconscious with a bullet wound in his chest, she saw the gleam of tears on Redbird"s cheeks.
"The pale eyes doctor says he can do no more," Nancy finished. "You are the only one who can help him now. You know the Sauk way of healing. You told me you wanted to be a shaman."
No, Redbird said quietly, she _was_ a shaman. The declaration startled Nancy.
"You told me the men wouldn"t let you be one."
In their private language, Redbird said that for a long time she had not understood what it meant to be a shaman. She had thought that a shaman must be made by another shaman. But now she knew that if people came to a person for help, that person was a shaman. And people were coming to her.
"I have come to you," Nancy said. "You can help White Bear."
Redbird gave a helpless grunt that said she could not. The soldiers would not let her leave.
Nancy reached into her handbag and drew out a folded paper. "I have spoken with General Winfield Scott. This says that you may come with me."
Redbird sat in the damp straw looking down at her hands folded in her lap. Nancy waited anxiously for her to speak.
After a moment, her voice full of pain and uncertainty, Redbird asked, did White Bear _want_ to see her?
The question shocked Nancy. It had not occurred to Nancy that Redbird might ever doubt Auguste"s love for her.
Recovering from her surprise, Nancy said, "Before his uncle shot him, White Bear told me he was going to come here to find you and Eagle Feather. You are first in his heart, Redbird."
_And, my G.o.d, how I wish it could be me!_
Redbird looked sadly at Nancy. She was not first in White Bear"s heart, she said. That land that had been stolen from him was.
Shocked, Nancy started to blurt out a denial. But she realized she could not. Auguste had gone to Victor before he went anywhere else.
_But he is dying!_
"Do you want to save his life?" Nancy asked.
Oh, yes, Redbird did, if Earthmaker would help her. In the shadows of the tent Nancy could see the glint of tears on Redbird"s cheek.
"Then you will come with me?"
Redbird lowered her pain-twisted face. Must she go back to the place where they killed her baby?
At the memory, Nancy broke into sobs and threw her arms around Redbird, as she had done that terrible day.
"I will always remember Floating Lily," Nancy said. "I fought to save her. I thought she was my baby too."
They held each other in silence for a while, and then the thought came to Nancy that even a small delay might make the difference between Auguste"s living and dying. Nancy felt a chill that ran deeper than the cold, damp air in the tent.
"Redbird, he will die if you do not come. You have to come."
Redbird sighed. It was true; she would go with Yellow Hair.
Nancy"s heavy heart felt a little lighter. If there was any hope at all for Auguste, it lay with Redbird.
One thing they must take with them, Redbird told her. When they were marching to this place, a soldier had taken White Bear"s deerhorn-handled knife from Redbird. It was the same soldier who had come with Yellow Hair today, the one with the red face and the yellow mustache. It would be well if Yellow Hair could get it from him so they could bring it back to White Bear. It would give him strength.
"I brought money with me," Nancy said. "I will buy it back from him if I have to."
_I"ll get it back from him if I have to kill him._
Redbird"s eyes blurred as she stared at White Bear"s face, as pale as the moon. She wanted to scream, to throw herself weeping on his form.
Her longing to see him open his eyes, to hear his voice, was so strong it hurt her. She remembered the night of his vision quest, when she was sure he would freeze to death. She thought of the summers they had been apart, the nights they had lain together. She thought of poor, dead Floating Lily and of blue-eyed Eagle Feather, left in Wolf Paw"s keeping.
_O come back to me, White Bear!_
She had never tried to heal anyone this close to death. When she and Yellow Hair arrived, the grandfather said that White Bear had sometimes opened his eyes and spoken. But each day he had been awake a shorter time.
Redbird saw that White Bear was already wandering in the other world. A thread no stronger than a strand of spider"s silk linked his spirit with his body.
She let the love she felt for White Bear flow through her, giving her strength. She felt the eyes of Yellow Hair, the grandfather and the old servant upon her, but she ignored them. She squatted down on the floor beside White Bear"s bed and unrolled the blanket in which she carried her medicines and supplies and the possessions White Bear had left with her at the Bad Axe.
Her eye fell on the bundle of talking papers White Bear had cherished so, that he said was called something like "The Lost Land of Happiness."
There was power in that bundle of words. Gently she laid it on his left side, near the wound. On his right she placed the knife that Yellow Hair had been able to retrieve for her.
Arranging the three medicine bags on the floor, she took pieces of elm bark from the largest one and gave them to Yellow Hair.
"Make a tea for him from this. It will give him strength when he awakens."
She forced herself to turn her back on White Bear and go out of the house. With her she carried the blanket and the medicine bag adorned with the beadwork owl. She crossed the little clearing around the house and entered the woods. Here, where no one could see her, she opened the medicine bag and took out five tiny gray sc.r.a.ps of the magic mushroom.
She put them into her mouth and chewed and swallowed slowly.
Then she got down on her hands and knees and spread her blanket. Oak, maple and elm leaves, brown, red and yellow, lay thick on the ground.
She scooped leaves into the blanket. When she had gathered a big pile, she bundled them up and went back into the house.
Carefully she spread the leaves on the bed over White Bear"s body. She heard the grandfather say something to Yellow Hair.
Yellow Hair spoke quietly to her, saying that the grandfather feared that the leaves were not clean and would make White Bear sicker.
How could the leaves not be clean, Redbird wondered, when they came from the woods, outside any dwelling?
But she answered, "Must do what I know. If seem wrong to him, must do anyway, or can do nothing."
She heard Yellow Hair talking quietly to the grandfather while she settled herself on the floor beside the east side of the bed. She could not understand the words, but she heard acceptance in the old man"s sigh.
Grief and fear that White Bear would die trembled inside her. Breathing deeply, she let the strength of those feelings enter into her spirit, urging her on to begin the journey she must make.
She must go into the other world and find her guide. She began the medicine woman"s chant Sun Woman had taught her: