"She would want "em herself, prob"ly, Uncle Jed," she added.
"Don"t you think so?"
Jed appeared to consider.
"Well," he drawled, "she might, I presume likely, be as selfish and unreasonable as all that. But then again she might . . . hum . . .
what was it the cat walked on in that story you and I was readin"
together a spell ago? That--er--Sure Enough story--you know. By Kipling, "twas."
"Oh, I know! It wasn"t a Sure Enough story; it was a "Just So"
story. And the name of it was "The Cat Who Walked by His Wild Lone.""
Jed looked deeply disappointed. "Sho!" he sighed. "I thought "twas on his wild lone he walked. I was thinkin" that maybe he"d gone walkin" on that for a spell and had lent you his feet. . . .
Hum. . . . Dear, dear!
""Oh, trust and obey, For there"s no other way To be de-de-de-di-dum-- But to trust and obey.""
Here he relapsed into another daydream. After waiting for a moment, Babbie ventured to arouse him.
"Uncle Jed," she asked, "what were you doing with those things in your hand--when I came in, you know? That cloth and that piece of paper. You looked so funny, rubbing them together, that I couldn"t help laughing."
Jed regarded her solemnly. "It"s emery paper," he said; "like fine sandpaper, you know. And the cloth"s got ile in it. I"m cleanin"
the rust off this screwdriver. I hadn"t used it for more"n a fortni"t and it got pretty rusty this damp weather."
The child looked at him wonderingly.
"But, Uncle Jed," she said, "there isn"t any screwdriver. Anyhow I don"t see any. You were just rubbing the sandpaper and the cloth together and singing. That"s why it looked so funny."
Jed inspected first one hand and then the other.
"Hum!" he drawled. "Hu-um! . . . Well, I declare! . . . Now you mention it, there don"t seem to be any screwdriver, does there? . . .
Here "tis on the bench. . . . And I was rubbin" the sandpaper with ile, or ilin" the sandpaper with the rag, whichever you like. . . . Hum, ye-es, I should think it might have looked funny. . . . Babbie, if you see me walkin" around without any head some mornin" don"t be scared. You"ll know that that part of me ain"t got out of bed yet, that"s all."
Barbara leaned her chin on both small fists and gazed at him.
"Uncle Jed," she said, "you"ve been thinking about something, haven"t you?"
"Eh? . . . Why, yes, I--I guess likely maybe I have. How did you know?"
"Oh, "cause I did. Petunia and I know you ever and ever so well now and we"re used to--to the way you do. Mamma says things like forgetting the screwdriver are your ex-eccen-tricks. Is this what you"ve been thinking about a nice eccen-trick or the other kind?"
Jed slowly shook his head. "I--I don"t know," he groaned. "I dasn"t believe-- There, there! That"s enough of my tricks. How"s Petunia"s hair curlin" this mornin"?"
After the child left him he tried to prepare his dinner, but it was as unsatisfactory a meal as breakfast had been. He couldn"t eat, he couldn"t work. He could only think, and thinking meant alternate periods of delirious hope and black depression. He sat down before the little table in his living-room and, opening the drawer, saw Ruth Armstrong"s pictured face looking up at him.
"Jed! Oh, Jed!"
It was Maud Hunniwell"s voice. She had entered the shop and the living-room without his hearing her and now she was standing behind him with her hand upon his shoulder. He started, turned and looked up into her face. And one glance caused him to forget himself and even the pictured face in the drawer for the time and to think only of her.
"Maud!" he exclaimed. "Maud!"
Her hair, usually so carefully arranged, was disordered; her hat was not adjusted at its usual exact angle; and as for the silver fox, it hung limply backside front. Her eyes were red and she held a handkerchief in one hand and a letter in the other.
"Oh, Jed!" she cried.
Jed put out his hands. "There, there, Maud!" he said. "There, there, little girl."
They had been confidants since her babyhood, these two. She came to him now, and putting her head upon his shoulder, burst into a storm of weeping. Jed stroked her hair.
"There, there, Maud," he said gently. "Don"t, girlie, don"t. It"s goin" to be all right, I know it. . . . And so you came to me, did you? I"m awful glad you did, I am so."
"He asked me to come," she sobbed. "He wrote it--in--in the letter."
Jed led her over to a chair. "Sit down, girlie," he said, "and tell me all about it. You got the letter, then?"
She nodded. "Yes," she said, chokingly; "it--it just came. Oh, I am so glad Father did not come home to dinner to-day. He would have--have seen me and--and--oh, why did he do it, Jed? Why?"
Jed shook his head. "He had to do it, Maud," he answered. "He wanted to do the right thing and the honorable thing. And you would rather have had him do that, wouldn"t you?"
"Oh--oh, I don"t know. But why didn"t he come to me and tell me?
Why did he go away and--and write me he had gone to enlist? Why didn"t he come to me first? Oh. . . . Oh, Jed, how COULD he treat me so?"
She was sobbing again. Jed took her hand and patted it with his own big one.
"Didn"t he tell you in the letter why?" he asked.
"Yes--yes, but--"
"Then let me tell you what he told me, Maud. He and I talked for up"ards of three solid hours last night and I cal"late I understood him pretty well when he finished. Now let me tell you what he said to me."
He told her the substance of his long interview with Phillips. He told also of Charles" coming to Orham, of why and how he took the position in the bank, of his other talks with him--Winslow.
"And so," said Jed, in conclusion, "you see, Maud, what a dreadful load the poor young feller"s been carryin" ever since he came and especially since he--well, since he found out how much he was carin" for you. Just stop for a minute and think what a load "twas. His conscience was troublin" him all the time for keepin"
the bank job, for sailin" under false colors in your eyes and your dad"s. He was workin" and pinchin" to pay the two thousand to the man in Middleford. He had hangin" over him every minute the practical certainty that some day--some day sure--a person was comin" along who knew his story and then the fat would all be in the fire. And when it went into that fire he wouldn"t be the only one to be burnt; there would be his sister and Babbie--and you; most of all, you."
She nodded. "Yes, yes, I know," she cried. "But why--oh, why didn"t he come to me and tell me? Why did he go without a word?
He must have known I would forgive him, no matter what he had done.
It wouldn"t have made any difference, his having been in--in prison. And now--now he may be--oh, Jed, he may be killed!"
She was sobbing again. Jed patted her hand. "We won"t talk about his bein" killed," he said stoutly. "I know he won"t be; I feel it in my bones. But, Maud, can"t you see why he didn"t come and tell you before he went to enlist? Suppose he had. If you care for him so much--as much as I judge you do--"
She interrupted. "Care for him!" she repeated. "Oh, Jed!"
"Yes, yes, dearie, I know. Well, then, carin" for him like that, you"d have told him just what you told me then; that about his havin" done what he did and havin" been where he"s been not makin"
any difference. And you"d have begged and coaxed him to stay right along in the bank, maybe? Eh?"
"Yes," defiantly. Of course I would. Why not?"