"Every use, if it can make you any happier. Jim, you"ve not been yourself for weeks past. Come, tell me all about it, and let me see if I can advise you. Has it, for instance, anything to do with Whispering Pete?"
I looked at her in surprise.
"What do you know about Whispering Pete?" I asked.
"A good deal more than you think, or I like," she answered, "and when I find him making my old playfellow miserable, I am even more his enemy than before."
"I didn"t say that it had anything to do with Whispering Pete," I retorted, beginning to flare up, according to custom, at the idea of anything being said or hinted against those with whom I was intimate.
"No, Jim, you didn"t say so, but I"m certain he is at the bottom of it, whatever it is! Come, won"t you tell me, old friend?"
She looked into my face so pleadingly that I could not refuse her; besides, it had always been my custom to confide in Sheilah ever since I was a little wee chap but little bigger than herself, and somehow it seemed to come natural now. What"s more, if the truth were known, I think it was just that very idea that had brought me down to see her.
"It"s this way, Sheilah," I stammered, hardly knowing how to begin.
"Like the fool I am, I"ve been playing cards up at Whispering Pete"s for the last month or so, and, well, the long and the short of it is, I"ve lost more money than I can pay."
She didn"t reproach me, being far too clever for that. She simply put her little hand in mine, and looked rather sorrowfully into my face.
"Well, Jim?" she said.
"Well, to make a long story short, I owe Whispering Pete a hundred pounds. He wrote asking me for the money. I couldn"t pay, so I went over and told him straight out that I couldn"t."
"That was brave of you!"
"He received me very nicely and generously, and told me not to bother myself any more about it. Then I found there was something I could do for him in return."
"And what was that?"
"Why, to ride his horse for the Cup at the township races next month."
"Oh, Jim--you won"t surely do that, will you?"
"Well, you see I"ve promised, and it"s that that"s worrying me."
"Jim, what is the amount you want to pay him off?"
"A hundred pounds, Sheilah."
"Well, I have more than that saved. Jim, do let me lend it to you, and then you can pay him in full, and you needn"t ride in the race. You know, Jim, that n.o.body among our friends in the township ever goes to them, and you must see for yourself what would be said if you rode."
"And what business would it be of anybody"s pray, if I did? I go my way, they can go theirs."
"But I don"t want people to think badly of you, Jim."
"If they"re fools enough to do so because I ride a good horse in a fair race they"ll think anything; and, as far as I"m concerned, they"re welcome to their opinions."
"And you won"t let me lend you the money, Jim?"
"No, Sheilah, dear, it"s impossible. I couldn"t think of such a thing.
But I thank you all the same from the bottom of my heart. It"s like your goodness to make me such an offer."
"And you"ve made up your mind to ride for this man."
"See for yourself how I am situated. How can I get out of it? He has done me a kindness, and in return he asks me to do him one. If I can"t do anything else I can ride, and he is pinning his chance of winning on me. Am I therefore to disappoint him because the old goody-goodies in the township disapprove of horse-racing?"
"Jim, that isn"t the right way to look at it."
"Isn"t it? Well, it"s the way I"ve got to look at it anyhow, and, as far as I can see, there"s no other. Only, I"ll give you one bit of advice, don"t let any of the people hereabouts come preaching to me, or they"ll find I"m not in the humour for it."
Sheilah was quiet for a little while. Then she said very sorrowfully,--
"This man"s coming into the township will prove to have been the beginning of trouble for all of us. Jim, mark my words; your decision will some day recoil upon those you love best."
This was not at all what I expected from Sheilah, so like a fool I lost my temper.
"What nonsense you talk," I cried. "At any rate, if it does it will do us good. We want a bit of waking up, or I"m mistaken."
"Oh, Jim, Jim," she said, "if only I could persuade you to give this notion up."
"It"s not to be thought of, Sheilah," I answered, "so say no more about it. One thing I know, however, and that is, if all the rest turn against me, you will not."
"I shall never turn against you, Jim. And you know that."
"Well, then, that"s all right. I don"t care a sc.r.a.p about the rest."
"But does it never strike you, Jim, that in thus following your own inclinations you are being very cruel to those who love you best in the world."
"Those who love me best in the world," I repeated mockingly. "Pray how many may there be of them?"
"More than you seem to think," she answered reproachfully. "If only you were not so headstrong and proud, you would soon discover that you have in reality lots of friends--even among those whom you affect to despise.
Some day you may find this out. G.o.d grant it may not then be too late."
How true her words were destined to prove you will see for yourself.
Surely enough the time _was_ to come, the bitterest time of all my life, when I should see for myself in what estimation I was held by the people of the township. Strange are the ways of Providence, for then it was I discovered that my best friends were not those who had been my companions in prosperity, and whom I had every right to think would stand by me through evil and good report--but the very people whom I had been accustomed to call _old fossils_ and by a hundred other and similar terms of reproach. However, I was not going to give in that Sheilah was right.
"Too late or not too late," I answered, "I must go my own way, Sheilah.
If it turns out that I"m wrong, I shall have to suffer for my folly. If I"m beaten, you may be sure I sha"n"t cry out. I"ll take my punishment like a man, never fear. I"ll not ask anyone to share my punishment."
She gave a little sigh.
"No, you"re not asking us to share your punishment," she replied.
"Nevertheless we must do so. Can you not think and see for yourself what it must mean to those who are your friends and have your welfare most at heart, to see you so blindly thrusting your head into the trap that is so cunningly set for you by the arch enemy of all mankind?"
"How do you know it _is_ a trap?" I cried. "Why will you always make such mountains out of molehills, Sheilah? If, as you say, Pete is my enemy, which, mind you, I do not for a single moment admit, he cannot do me very much harm. I may lose a little money to him at cards, but I shall soon be able to pay him back. I may ride his horse for him at the township races and offend some of the strait-laced goody-goody folk by so doing--but their censure will break no bones, and in a few weeks they will have forgotten it and be much the same to me as ever. It is not as if I were going to continue race riding all my life, because I do it this once. I may never ride another. Indeed, I"ll even go so far as to give you my promise to that effect if you wish it."
"You will make me very happy if you will."
"Then I"ll do so," I answered. "From this moment I promise you that, without your permission, I will never ride another horse in a race.
There! Are you satisfied now?"