He turned back. It was to be anywhere; he knew not where. Jemmy, the gardener, who had been awake all night in amazement and distress at his master"s absence, saw him now approach the house, went up to his side, tried to speak to him, and, failing to get a word in reply, walked in silence by his side.
He returned along the sh.o.r.e. And now the white thing which he had seen before was within fifty yards of the beach, and was sailing due to land.
What could it be? In a minute it drifted to Balladhoo"s feet, and then he saw that it was a human body which had been bound in canvas for burial at sea, and had come ash.o.r.e in this strange way. He gave it but one glance. He did not look to see whose body it was. He concluded at once that it must be the body of Christian. Had he not heard that the men had put out to sea? They had taken the body of his murdered son with them, and tried to bury it there and hide their crime forever. It was all so terribly plain to Balladhoo"s bewildered mind. Then he cried aloud in a tempest of agony that nothing could restrain. His religion seemed to desert him. At least it gave no comfort. His face became suddenly and awfully discolored and stern, and, standing by the dread thing on the sand, the tottering old man lifted his clenched fist to the sky in silent imprecation of Heaven.
Jemmy Quark left him, and, rushing to the town, cried out that something horrible had washed ash.o.r.e. One of those who heard him had seen Mona and Balladhoo part on the quay. This man went in pursuit of the young woman, who had been seen to take the path over Contrary.
And now Christian and Mona, with a group of others, hastened to the bay. There--seeing nothing but the dread thing lying on the sh.o.r.e--was Mylrea Balladhoo. He was crying aloud that if Heaven had spared his boy h.e.l.l might have taken all else he had.
"Oh, my son, my son, would to G.o.d I had died for you! Oh, my son, my son!"
Then the stricken father went down on his knees, and stretched out a feeble, trembling hand to draw aside the canvas that hid the face.
As he did so Mona and Christian came up. Christian stood opposite his father on the other side of the corpse; the old man on his knees, the son on his feet, the dead man between them.
The others stood around. None spoke. Then Mona, motioning Christian to silence, stepped up to Balladhoo and knelt beside him. It was better that he should realize the truth by degrees and not too suddenly. He would see the face, and know that it was not the face of his son. Mona, on her part, knew it would be Danny"s face. And the boy was dead. The beating of her heart fell low.
There was a moment of unutterable suspense. Then, with rapid, audible breath, the old man stretched out a half-palsied hand and drew off the loose canvas.
They saw the face of Kisseck.
Balladhoo got up with great wide eyes. There before him, face to face with him, was Christian himself.
CHAPTER XVIII
SHE"S ALL THE WORLD TO ME
When the crew of the "Ben-my-Chree" had recovered from their first consternation on seeing the body of Kisseck rise to the surface and shoot away like a spectre boat, they hoisted sail and stood once more out to sea. The gentle breeze filled the canvas, and for half an hour the jib lay over the side, while the fishing-boat scudded along like a startled bird.
The sun rose over the land, a thin gauze obscuring it. The red light flashed and died away as if the wind were the sunshine. The haggard faces of the men caught at moments a lurid glow from it. In the west a ma.s.s of bluish cloud rested a little while on the horizon, and then pa.s.sed into a nimbus of gray rain-cloud that floated above it. Such was the dawn and sunrise of a fateful day.
They were sailing north; they had no haven in their view. But Peel was behind them. Think what home is to the fisherman who goes down into the great deep. Then know that to them home could be all this no longer. The silvery voices of girls, the innocent prattle of little children, the welcome of wife, the glowing hearth--these were theirs no more. Then belly out, brave sail, and back off with a noise like thunder; let the blocks creak, and the ropes strain. Anywhere, anywhere, away from the withering reproach of the crime of one and the guilt of all.
But they were standing only two miles off Jurby Point when once more the wind fell to a dead calm. The men looked into each other"s faces. Here was the work of fate. There was to be no flying away; G.o.d meant them to die on these waters. The sail flapped idly; they furled it, and the boat drifted south.
Then one after one sat down on the deck, helpless and hopeless. Hours went by. The day wore on. A pa.s.sing breath sometimes stirred the waters, and again all around was dumb, dead, pulseless peace. Hearing only the faint flap of the rippling tide, they drifted, drifted, drifted.
Then they thought of home once more, and now with other feelings. Death was before them--slow, sure, relentless death. There was to be no jugglery. Let it be death at home rather than death on this desert sea.
Anything, anything but this blind end--this dumb end; this dying bit by bit on still waters. To see the darkness come again and the sun rise afresh, and once more the sun sink and the darkness deepen, and still to lie there with nothing around but the changeless sea, and nothing above but the empty sky, and only the eye of G.o.d upon them, while the winds and the waters lay in His avenging hand. Let it rather be death--swift death, just death--there where their crime was attempted, and one black deed was done.
Thus despair took hold of them and drove all fear away. Each hard man, with despair seated on his rugged face, longed, like a sick child, to lay his head in the lap of home.
"What"s it saying?" muttered the old man Quilleash, ""A green hill when far away; bare, bare when it is near.""
It was some vague sense of their hopelessness that was floating through the old man"s mind as he recalled the pathetic Manx proverb. The others looked down at the deck with a stony stare.
Danny still lay forward. When the speck that had glided along the waters could be seen no more, he had turned and gazed in silence toward the eastern light and the distant sh.o.r.es of morning. If madness be the symbol on earth of the tortures of the d.a.m.ned, Danny had then a few hours" blessed respite. He saw calmly what he had done and why he had done it. "Surely, G.o.d is just," he thought: "surely He will not condemn me; surely, surely not." Then, amid surging inward tears, which his eyes refused to shed, the simple lad tried to recall the good words that he had heard in the course of his poor, neglected, battered life. One after one they came back to him, most of them from some far-away and hazy dream-world, strangely bright with the vision of a face that looked fondly upon him, and even kissed him tenderly. "Gentle Jesus!" and "Now I lay me down to sleep"--he could remember them both pretty well, and their simple words went up with the supplicatory ardor of his great grown heart to the sky on which his longing eyes were bent.
The thought of Mona intertwined itself with the yearning hope of pardon and peace. It sustained him now to think of her. She became part of his scheme of penitence. His love for her was to redeem him in the Father"s eye. He was to take it to the foot of G.o.d"s white throne, and when his guilt came up for judgment he was to lay it meekly there and look up into the good Father"s face. G.o.d had sent him his great love, and it was not for his harm that he had sent it.
Then a film overspread his sight, and when he awoke he knew that he had slept. He had seen Mona in a dream. There was a happy thought in her face. She loved and was beloved. Everything about her spoke of peace.
All her troubles were gone forever. No, not that either. In her eyes was the reflection of his own face, and sometimes it made them sad. At the memory of this the dried-up well of Danny"s own eyes moistened at last to tears.
The cold, thick winter day was far worn toward sunset. Not a breath of wind was stirring. Gilded by the sun"s rays, the waters to the west made a floor of bleared red. The fishing-boat had drifted nearly ten miles to the south. If she should drift two miles more she must float into the southeasterly current that flows under Contrary Head. The crew lay half-frozen on the deck. No one cared to go below. All was still around them, and silence was in their midst. At last a man lifted his head, and asked if any one could say what had become of Christian. No one knew.
Old Quilleash thought he must have come by some mischief, and perhaps be captured or even dead. It was only the general hopelessness of their hearts that gave a ready consent to this view of the possibilities. Then they talked of Christian as if he were no longer a living man.
"He didn"t want to be in it, didn"t the young masther," said one.
"Did you see how he was for cris-crossin" and putting up obstacles at every turn?" said another.
"That was nothin" to the way he was glad when we saw the lad"s fire over the Lockjaw, and had to make a slant for it and leave the thing not done."
"Aw, well, well," said Quilleash, "it was poor Bill that"s gone, G.o.d help him, that led the young masther into the shoal water. What"s it sayin"--"Black as is the raven, he"ll get a partner;" but Bill, poor chap, he must be for makin" a raven out of a dove."
"G.o.d won"t be hard on the masther. No, no, G.o.d"ll never be hard on a good heart because it keeps company with a bad head."
"It"ll be Bill, poor chap, that"ll have to stand for it when the big days comes," said Davy Cain.
"No, not that anyway. Still, for sure, it"s every herring must hang by his own gill. Aw, yes, man," said Tommy Tear.
"Poor Masther Christian," said Quilleash, "I remember him since he was a baby in his mother"s arms--and a fine lady, too. And when he grew up it was, "How are you, Billy Quilleash?" And when he came straight from Oxford College, and all the larning at him, and the fine English tongue, and all to that, it was, "And how are you to-day, Billy?" "I"m middlin"
to-day, Masther Christian." Aw, yes, yes, a tender heart at him anyhow, and no pride at all, at all."
The old man"s memories were not thrilling to narrate, but they brought the tears to his eyes, and he brushed them away with his sleeve.
They were now drifting past Peel, two miles from the coast. It was Christmas Eve. Old Quilleash thought of this, and they talked of Christmas Eves gone by, and of what happy days there had been. This was too tender a chord, and they were soon silent once more. Then, while the waters lay cold and clear and still, and the sun was sinking in the west, there came floating to them from the land through the breathless air the sound of church-bells. It was the last drop in their cup. The rude men could bear up no longer. More than one dropped his head on to his knees and sobbed aloud. Then Quilleash, in a husky voice, and coa.r.s.ely, as if ashamed of the impulse, said, "Some one pray, will you?"
"Ay," said another. "Ay," said a third. But no one prayed.
"You, Billy," said one. The old man had never known a prayer.
"You, Davy." Davy shook his head. None could pray.
All lay quiet as death around them. Only the faint sound of the bells was borne to them as a mellow whisper.
Then Danny rose silently to his feet. No one had thought of asking him.
With that longing look in his big eyes, he turned to the land and began to sing. He was thinking of Mona. All his soul was going out to her. She was his anchor, his hope, his prayer. The lad"s voice, laden with tears, floated away over the great waters. This was what he sang:
"Her brow is like the snaw-drift, Her neck is like the swan, Her face it is the fairest That e"er the sun shone on; That e"er the sun shone on.
"And she"s a" the world to me; And for bonnie Annie Laurie I"d lay me doon and dee."