"I applied for a job. I mean, I have a job."
"Good. Well, I"ll let Mr. Petersen know that things are acceptable here. And don"t worry about seeing me to the door. I"ll show myself out. Take care of yourself."
As I walked to my bedroom, I heard the front door close. I pulled Jenny Sue"s letter from my pocket and tore it open.
Dear Maggie Mae, I hope life is going good. Mr. Petersen told me he found a real good home for you. Paul and I miss you and hope that you get the help that you need. You"re a real sweetheart.
The reason I"m writing this letter is because some guy has been by the house looking for you, but he won"t say why he wants you. He came the very day you were taken from my custody, and he has been coming almost every day since, even though I told him that you don"t live here no more. He"s been hanging around the house and neighborhood a lot, too, usually in a real fancy car. He gives me the heebie-jeebies. I am worried that he"ll follow you to your new house. That"s why I mailed this to your counselor. So please be real careful.
-Jenny Sue I read the letter five times. Who"d be looking for me? And in a nice car? Some pervert who saw me naked and wanted to see more? I got a pen and piece of paper from my backpack and wrote a quick note.
Jenny Sue, Stop worrying. I"m good. I live with a sweet older woman in the southern part of the state. I got a job at a restaurant called the Navajo Mexican. Totally weird name, I know, but the food rocks.
Thanks for warning me about Mr. Creepy. I"ll keep an eye out, but don"t worry. I can take care of myself.
-MM I stuck the letter in an envelope and wrote her address on it, but hesitated. Just to be safe, I left the return address blank.
I got a stamp from Mrs. Carpenter"s desk and walked the letter out to the mailbox.
7.
On Monday morning, when the bus pulled into the school parking lot, the energy level in the air doubled. The soph.o.m.ore and freshmen girls started jabbering and pressing their noses against the windows facing the school.
The words "totally hot," "prom," and "staring right at this bus" carried over the low rumble of the engine.
I stayed in my seat as the freshmen and soph.o.m.ores filed out. When the bus was empty, I stood and choked my way through the fog of diesel exhaust that had filled the bus. As I stepped into the cold morning air, I knew what had gotten the girls so excited. Bridger O"Connell stood leaning against the school, staring at the bus. He looked picture-perfect wearing expensive jeans and a tan leather jacket, with the wind tousling his black hair. But there was something more about him. He seemed different than other guys-always still, always aware of everything around him.
He waved. I looked over my shoulder to see who he was waving at, but the only thing behind me was the bus.
"I"m waving at you, Maggie," he called, striding toward me. Though it was nearing the end of April, the morning still held a hint of winter. Then Bridger smiled and the air seemed to warm ten degrees. He fell into step beside me.
"How do you know Ollie?" I asked as we walked.
"Ollie Williams? He"s Mike and Danni Williams"s uncle. You know-Danni who runs hurdles, with legs like a moose. Ollie comes to our track meets every now and then," he explained.
A wave of panic made it hard to breathe. What if Ollie mentioned my past to Danni, his niece? Danni, who already hated me without knowing my past? Or her brother, Mike?
A hand clasped mine and pulled me to a gentle stop. Panic was replaced with warmth.
"Maggie? Are you okay?" Bridger asked.
"I"m fine," I said, my voice disbelieving. I looked at our clasped hands, marveling how something so simple could send a wave of warmth through my body. "So, why were you waiting for me?" I eased my hand from his.
"You think I was waiting for you?"
I smiled. "Weren"t you? It was pretty obvious, Bridger." He returned my smile and took my hand again, pulling me past the stairs leading to the front entrance to the school.
"It"s time to race," he said.
"Right now?" I looked down at his feet. He wore running shoes.
"Yeah. Prom"s in five days. I figure if you win, you"ll need time to shop for a dress."
Something clicked in my head. Five days ... Monday, Tuesday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday, Sat.u.r.day. Sat.u.r.day night. I thought of the moon, a waxing gibbous, and my heart started pounding. The full moon was five days away. My birthday was on the eve of the full moon.
I stopped walking and yanked my hand from Bridger"s.
"Maggie?"
"What?" I snapped. Speechless, I stared at him. I couldn"t go to prom. It was absolutely, ridiculously impossible. Sat.u.r.day night was a bad night for me. Really, really bad. I wiped my damp palms on my jeans and shook my head. "I can"t go to prom."
Bridger lifted an eyebrow and studied me. "You haven"t won yet."
We walked to the rear of the school in silence. The track was empty. Bridger and I took our backpacks off and set them on the bleachers and then moved to the fifty-yard dash start line.
We lined up side by side, each of us in a pre-sprint lunge, and stared at each other. His face was so close I could see his pupil surrounded by the coal-dark iris.
"You ready?" he asked, studying my eyes just like I was studying his.
I nodded and looked forward.
"Just so you know, I"ve been practicing. On your mark, get set ... go!" he yelled. I dug my toes into the track and felt my muscles respond. Wind rushed through my loose hair, my pulse sped up, and my feet hardly touched the ground. I knew he couldn"t beat me.
Until I caught a flash of movement out of the corner of my eye and almost tripped. Bridger was keeping up with me. I focused straight ahead and pushed myself. So did Bridger. The finish line sped into view and we both crossed it and continued on, sprinting around the bend in the track before our legs were able to slow.
I gasped the dry morning air and looked at Bridger.
"You beat me." He panted.
I shook my head. "It was a tie."
"Nope, you were one pace ahead. You won. And I"m okay with that. You"re the first girl I don"t mind losing to," he said with a gleam of satisfaction in his eye. "I"m man enough to admit when someone"s better than me at something, which rarely happens. So it looks like we"re going to prom."
"No, thanks. You don"t have to feel obligated to take me," I said, thinking of the full moon. No way I could go!
"Maggie?" I looked at him. "I want to take you. I knew all along you"d win."
"Whatever! You are so full of c.r.a.p!"
"Okay, maybe I thought I stood a chance at beating you. But even if I won, I was still going to ask you. And you already agreed to go. So what time should I pick you up?"
My mind came alive with options. Maybe I could go to the dance and be back before ten. Maybe I was wrong about the moon. Maybe I was freaking insane and nothing bad was going to happen on Sat.u.r.day night.
But maybe not.
With the word "no" on the tip of my tongue I looked up into Bridger"s eyes. He put his fingers against my cheek. The newly risen sun gleamed off his dark hair and silhouetted him in light.
"Please?" he whispered. I melted beneath that touch.
"Fine. If you promise to get me home by ten." Insane or not, I was crazy to go along with this. But when he touched me like that, I couldn"t think straight. I stepped away from him and dug my hands deep into my jeans pockets. The tardy bell rang and I turned toward the bleachers.
"There"s one more thing," Bridger said, walking beside me. "I was wondering if we could be friends. You know, say hi to each other in the hall, you could actually smile at me during track, sit by me at lunch ..." His eyes got a wicked gleam. "Unless you"re still worried about your reputation."
I frowned and slung my backpack over my shoulder. "Whatever," I said. But inside I was smiling. "Except I sit with Yana at lunch. So you"re on your own there."
"What"s up with you and Bridger O"Connell?" Yana asked.
We sat side by side, our backs against the brick wall by the girls" bathroom. She took a bite of pizza.
"We"re friends, I guess." I washed down my PBJ with a swig of milk.
"Friends? I overheard some girls talking in the bathroom. They said he"s taking you to prom?"
I glanced at the prom flyer on the wall. "Yeah. He"s taking me to prom." Saying the words seemed surreal. Even though I was only going with him because I won a race, a smile jumped to my face. I looked at Yana and it fell off. "What? Is he a juvenile delinquent or something?"
"Juvenile delinquent? Aside from streaking last year"s graduation ceremony totally nude, not that I know of. But he"s a jerk. He"s got some rich girlfriend from France that he"s practically engaged to. Well, there"s a problem. France is on another continent. So when Bridger"s hormones rage, he finds someone local to use as a temporary replacement. And then he tosses her aside."
I sagged against the wall. Bricks dug into my shoulder blades through my T-shirt. "Are you serious?"
Yana nodded. "Danni was his last victim. And just a heads-up, but he was originally going to take her to prom. So watch out. That girl"s got claws."
"What happened with him and Danni?"
"She"s had a crush on him since junior high, even joined the track team to get him to notice her. And he finally did notice her when she beat him at hurdles," Yana said. I cringed-this was starting to sound all too familiar. "They dated for a little bit," she continued, "and when he dumped her, she stopped eating and didn"t come to school for a week. When I told Naalyehe about it, he said Bridger"s parents want him to marry someone in their social cla.s.s. Therefore, he only gets serious with girls in his social cla.s.s."
"What social cla.s.s is that?"
"The uber-rich, world-traveling, university-graduate social cla.s.s."
"Wow."
"Sorry to have to tell you, but that"s what friends are for."
"Yeah. Friends. Thanks for letting me know." I looked at my T-shirt, purchased from a thrift store in Albuquerque, and felt as if I"d been punched in the stomach. If Bridger"s social cla.s.s had an opposite, I would be it.
Yet a little part of me hoped Yana was wrong. Okay, a big part of me hoped. Mrs. Carpenter"s dogs liked him, after all.
Even though I had been warned, my heart beat like a galloping horse every time Bridger said hi to me in the hall. When he smiled at me, or talked to me during track, I couldn"t stop grinning. The few times we walked the same direction to cla.s.s, he took my hand and interlaced his fingers with mine, and my blood raced through my veins.
I started counting the hours until prom.
On Thursday, when I got to third period, Senior English, I noticed the female half of the cla.s.s was staring at me, as if noticing the new girl for the first time-again. Their eyes and whispers clung to me. When I sat down at my desk, a loud snickering filled the cla.s.sroom. Danni, who sat directly behind me, was in full hysterics.
I turned around to see what everyone was laughing at, and they laughed harder. The girls did anyway. The guys were studying the walls or ceiling.
Cla.s.s pa.s.sed normally, with me struggling to hold my eyes open. We were discussing The Scarlet Letter by Nathaniel Hawthorne, a novel about a woman who had to wear a red A on her dress so that everyone knew she"d had s.e.x out of wedlock. It was one of my least favorite books and, to make matters worse, I"d read and dissected it junior year. The urge to let my eyelids sag shut was almost overwhelming. The rest of the cla.s.s seemed just as bored, antsy for cla.s.s to end. Yet when the dismissal bell rang, no one made the usual mad dash for the lunchroom. They all stared at me.
My palms became clammy and my stomach started to churn, the same feeling I got when I knew the girls at my old school were planning on jumping me in the hall. My eyes met Danni"s. She grinned from ear to ear. Did Ollie tell her about me?
I stood to leave.
The cla.s.s burst into raucous laughter. I reached between my shoulder blades, expecting to find a paper with Kick me taped there, but felt nothing. The cla.s.s laughed harder. I clenched my teeth and left.
Laughter followed me down the hall. Every person I pa.s.sed exploded with it when they looked at me. They pointed at my back and whispered, told other people to look, and they laughed, too.
Panic clawed at me. I started to run toward the girls" bathroom. It felt a mile away. By the time I reached it, tears were filling my eyes and I was gasping for air.
When I looked in the mirror, though, nothing was wrong. It was just plain old red-faced me staring back. I don"t know what I had expected-a clown nose, maybe? Footsteps echoed in the empty stalls and Yana walked into the bathroom.
Her eyes met mine, and then wandered down my neck, over my red sweater, and to my jeans. She cringed.
"You riding the crimson wave?" she asked delicately.
I didn"t know what she meant. Crimson wave?
"You"ve bled through your pants," she croaked, as if the words hurt her throat.
I turned around and looked at my b.u.t.t in the mirror. Crimson smeared the seat of my jeans. I touched the stain and brought my fingers to my nose. Nail polish. I had sat in bright, blood-red nail polish.
My hands balled into fists and my blood started to boil. I saw the pink-and-gray-tiled bathroom through a fog of red. As I ran from the bathroom to the crowded lunchroom, I told myself what I was about to do was worth the consequences I would face.
Danni was watching for me, perched atop a table surrounded by her friends. Bridger was there, too, talking to Danni and smiling. My heart sank. He was in on it. I didn"t know who to hit first-him or Danni.
But then Bridger saw me and frowned. He met me halfway across the lunchroom and grabbed my fist. I kept walking, pulling him with me.
"What"s wrong?" he asked, trying to uncurl my fingers. I glared at him and stopped.
"Tell me we"re friends," I growled, clenching my fists tighter. "Tell me you wouldn"t do anything to hurt me."
He studied me. "We"re friends. I wouldn"t do anything to hurt you."
"Good." I yanked my hand from his and strode over to Danni. She was gloating, laughing as I approached. When she opened her mouth to say something, I shoved my balled fist into it as hard as I could, knocking her backward off the table. She lay frozen on the grimy lunchroom floor, staring up at me. But when I started for her again, she scrambled to her feet and hid behind a couple of big senior guys. I pushed and shoved them out of my way and grabbed the back of Danni"s shirt as she tried to run away.
She whirled around to face me and the fight was on.
She didn"t know how to fight-just sort of hugged me, pulled my hair, and buried her face in my shoulder-making it impossible for me to punch it again. I started punching her in the ribs and pulling her cropped brown hair. She tried to kick my shins and bite me, but in the middle of a fight, you don"t feel little things like that.
When she was suddenly yanked away, I swung hard and fast and my fist clipped her just below the eye. Arms came around me. I could smell Bridger and knew he was the one restraining me, but I wasn"t done beating the c.r.a.p out of Danni Williams. I struggled against his iron embrace, but couldn"t break free.
Then I saw Danni wrapped in a backward hug by the school nurse. Danni wasn"t struggling to get free, like me. She was struggling to put Ms. Opp in front of her. Danni was terrified. Of me. I froze.