SISTER A AGNES WATCHED G GRACE B BROOKSTEIN CLEARING away a jigsaw puzzle and offered up a silent prayer to the Lord: away a jigsaw puzzle and offered up a silent prayer to the Lord: Thank You for bringing me this lost soul, Jesus. Thank You for allowing me to be the vessel of Your redeeming grace.
Sister Agnes had only been Sister Agnes for five years. Before that, she was Tracey Grainger, a lonely, unpopular teenage girl from Frenchtown, New Jersey. Tracey Grainger had fallen in love with a local boy named Gordon Hicks. Gordon had told her he loved her and Tracey had believed him. When Gordon got her pregnant, then promptly abandoned her, Tracey went home and swallowed as many pills as she could find. The baby did not survive.
Neither did Tracey Grainger.
The girl who woke up from that overdose in a grimly sterile hospital bed, clutching her stomach and weeping with guilt, was not the same girl whom Gordon Hicks had so peremptorily dumped. She was not the same straight-C student who had disappointed her parents since the day she was born. She was not the same socially awkward, unlovable tenth grader whom no one invited to prom. This girl was an entirely new person. A person loved by G.o.d. A person of value. A person whose sins had been forgiven, who would one day become one with Jesus at the right hand of the Father. If anyone believed in the power of redemption, it was Sister Agnes. G.o.d had redeemed her. He had saved her life. Now, in His infinite love and mercy, He had redeemed Grace Brookstein, too. And He had allowed her, her, Sister Agnes, to play a small part in the miracle. Sister Agnes, to play a small part in the miracle.
Only this morning, Grace told her, "I feel so fulfilled here, Sister. Working with these children. With you. It"s like I"ve been given a second chance at life."
What a warm glow of satisfaction those words had given her! Sister Agnes hoped she was not guilty of the mortal sin of pride. She must remember that it was G.o.d who had transformed Grace, not her. And yet Sister Agnes couldn"t help but feel that her friendship had had contributed to some of the changes in Grace. contributed to some of the changes in Grace.
Grace had changed Sister Agnes, too. A nun"s life could be lonely. Most of the other Sisters of Mercy were old enough to be Sister Agnes"s mother, if not her grandmother. Over the last few months she had come to cherish the easy friendship she seemed to have developed with Grace Brookstein. The shared glances. The smiles. The trust.
Grace put the puzzle pieces back into their box then stacked it neatly on the shelf. Sister Agnes smiled warmly.
"Thank you, Grace. I can finish up here. I know you want to get to the library."
"That"s all right," said Grace cheerfully. "I"m happy to help. Oh, by the way, that modeling clay that we ordered last week? We need to return it."
"Do we? Why?"
"I opened seven or eight of the crates this morning, and the stuff inside had completely dried out. I tried soaking it in water but it just ended up all slimy. It"ll have to go back."
What a pain, thought Sister Agnes. It had taken her the better part of a day to stack those crates in the children"s center storeroom with Sister Theresa. Now she"d have to lug the stupid things back out again. thought Sister Agnes. It had taken her the better part of a day to stack those crates in the children"s center storeroom with Sister Theresa. Now she"d have to lug the stupid things back out again.
"I e-mailed the delivery company," said Grace. "They"re coming to pick them up on Tuesday at four o"clock."
"Tuesday?" Sister Agnes looked pained. "Oh, Grace, it was kind of you to arrange it. But I can"t supervise a pickup on Tuesday, I"m afraid. A delegation from the department of corrections will be here for a tour. Sister Theresa and I have our quarterly budget meeting with them afterward. We"ll be out all afternoon."
"Oh." Grace looked disappointed. Then she suddenly brightened. "Perhaps I could do it?"
Sister Agnes frowned. "I don"t know about that, Grace."
Inmates in A Wing were not supposed to help with pickups or deliveries. The warden considered it a potential security risk. But Grace had come so far in her rehabilitation. Sister Agnes would hate to give her the impression that she wasn"t trusted.
Grace said, "The children have already waited weeks. It seems a shame to delay things even further."
"Those crates are heavy, Grace," Sister Agnes said awkwardly. "It"s a two-person job."
"Cora can help me."
"Cora Budds?" This idea was going from bad to worse.
"She has kitchen duty on Tuesdays but she"s usually finished by three."
Grace looked so hopeful, so eager to please. Sister Agnes wavered. What harm can it do? Just this once. What harm can it do? Just this once.
"Well, I suppose...if you"re sure you and Cora can handle it..."
Grace smiled. "Loading a delivery truck? Yes, Sister. I think we can manage that."
Her heart was pounding so loudly she was surprised Sister Agnes couldn"t hear it. She was a sweet, kind woman and Grace felt bad deceiving her. But it couldn"t be helped.
It was starting.
GRACE B BROOKSTEIN"S PLANNED ESCAPE ATTEMPT RAPIDLY became the worst-kept secret at Bedford Hills. The idea was simple: The delivery truck would arrive at the children"s center. Grace and Cora Budds would begin loading up the crates of clay. While Cora distracted the driver, Grace would go back into the storeroom, empty one of the crates and hide herself inside it. Cora would complete the loading on her own, making sure that the lid of Grace"s crate was not fully sealed, to allow her some air, and that it was hidden well back among the others. became the worst-kept secret at Bedford Hills. The idea was simple: The delivery truck would arrive at the children"s center. Grace and Cora Budds would begin loading up the crates of clay. While Cora distracted the driver, Grace would go back into the storeroom, empty one of the crates and hide herself inside it. Cora would complete the loading on her own, making sure that the lid of Grace"s crate was not fully sealed, to allow her some air, and that it was hidden well back among the others.
It was the next part of the plan that was the wild card. Everything rested on the security check. Trucks came in and out of Bedford Hills every day, delivering everything from toilet paper to detergent to food. The prison was equipped with state-of-the-art security systems. As well as manual searches, the guards used sniffer dogs and even infrared scanners to spot-check vehicles, in addition to the CCTV cameras that were everywhere at Bedford. Typically, the more thorough searches took place on the way in in to the prison. There was less emphasis on what might be going out. But to the prison. There was less emphasis on what might be going out. But all all searches were at the guards" discretion. If they didn"t like the look of a driver, or a vehicle, or if they just felt like it for whatever reason, they could hold people up for hours, X-raying every square inch of their car or person. Grace hoped that on a cold January night, the guards" appet.i.te for hauling out crate after crate of children"s modeling clay would be low. But she wouldn"t know until they got to the checkpoint. searches were at the guards" discretion. If they didn"t like the look of a driver, or a vehicle, or if they just felt like it for whatever reason, they could hold people up for hours, X-raying every square inch of their car or person. Grace hoped that on a cold January night, the guards" appet.i.te for hauling out crate after crate of children"s modeling clay would be low. But she wouldn"t know until they got to the checkpoint.
Once the truck was waved through, if it was waved through, and they drove clear of Bedford, Grace would climb out of the crate and make her way to the rear doors. As soon as the driver stopped at a junction, she would open the door of the truck and jump to freedom.
Easy.
"IT"S NOT GOING TO WORK."
Karen leaned across the table and helped herself to Grace"s watery mashed potatoes. They were at lunch, a few days before the breakout was supposed to take place.
"Thanks for the vote of confidence."
"Have you thought about what you"re gonna do if you do do make it out of here?" make it out of here?"
Grace had thought of little else. When she fantasized about her escape, she pictured herself as the hunter, unmasking Lenny"s killer, wreaking her revenge. But the reality was that she she would also be hunted down. If she were going to survive, she"d need food, shelter, money and a disguise. She had no idea how she was going to obtain any of them. would also be hunted down. If she were going to survive, she"d need food, shelter, money and a disguise. She had no idea how she was going to obtain any of them.
"What about friends on the outside. Is there anybody you can trust? Anyone who"ll cover for you?"
Grace shook her head. "No. No one."
There was one person she trusted. Davey Buccola. Davey was working on new information, checking out the alibis for everyone who"d stayed with Grace and Lenny on Nantucket the day Lenny died. If Grace turned to anyone on the outside, it would be him. But she wasn"t about to tell Karen that.
"In that case, we need to fix you up with a survival pack from here."
"A survival pack?"
"Sure. You"ll need a new ident.i.ty. A few new ident.i.ties, so you can keep moving. Driver"s licenses, credit cards, some cash. You won"t get very far as Grace Brookstein."
"Where am I going to get a driver"s license from, Karen? Or a credit card. It"s impossible."
"Said the woman who figures she"s going to escape from Bedford Hills! Don"t sweat the small stuff, Grace. Leave that to me."
Karen had warned Grace that she would need to let "a few of the girls" in on the escape plan in order to get what they needed in such a short s.p.a.ce of time. To Grace"s horror, "a few of the girls" turned out to be almost every inmate at Bedford. Forging a credit card and a driver"s license was no mean feat. Karen was forced to corral help from all over the prison. Inmates in the warden"s office, the library and the computer room typed, Photoshopped and laminated for days, all of them risking their own paroles and futures for a chance to help Grace and be part of the Great Escape. The only people who didn"t didn"t know about the plan were the guards and Lisa Halliday. know about the plan were the guards and Lisa Halliday.
It was debatable whether Lisa would have snitched on Grace-powerful inmates could attack their rivals with impunity but selling out another prisoner was still considered taboo. Still Karen wasn"t prepared to risk it.
Grace was grateful for everyone"s help, but she was nervous.
"Too many people know."
"They"re not " people,"" Karen told her. "They"re your friends. You can trust them."
Trust. It was a word from another life, another planet. It was a word from another life, another planet.
TUESDAY MORNING DAWNED GRAY AND COLD. Grace had barely slept. All night long, the voices haunted her: Grace had barely slept. All night long, the voices haunted her: Lenny: Whatever happens, Grace, I love you. Whatever happens, Grace, I love you.
John Merrivale: Don"t worry, Grace. Just do what Frank Hammond tells you and you"ll be fine. Don"t worry, Grace. Just do what Frank Hammond tells you and you"ll be fine.
Karen: When they catch you, they"ll shoot you When they catch you, they"ll shoot you, no questions asked. no questions asked.
Grace didn"t touch her oatmeal at breakfast.
"You need your strength," Cora Budds told her. "Eat somethin"."
"I can"t. I"ll throw up."
The big black woman narrowed her eyes. "I ain"t asking you, Grace. I"m tellin" you. You better get it together, girl. I"m putting my hide on the line for you today. We all are. Now eat."
She"s right. I can do this. I have to do it.
Grace ate.
"ARE YOU SURE YOU"RE ALL RIGHT, Grace? Perhaps you should go and lie down." Grace? Perhaps you should go and lie down."
It was noon at the children"s center. The delegation of senior prison officials was due to arrive at twelve thirty. The morning had been spent tidying up desks and toys, putting up fresh artwork and generally ensuring that the facility looked its very best. If the delegation was impressed, they might raise the budget. Or at least not slash it. Grace had worked diligently as usual, but Sister Agnes was worried about her. Her complexion had been green when she arrived for work this morning. Now it had faded to a sickly off-white. A moment ago, reaching up to a high shelf to rearrange some books, she"d become dizzy and almost fainted.
"I"m fine, Sister."
"I don"t think you are fine. The infirmary ought to take a look at you."
"No!" Grace felt her throat go dry with panic. You can"t send me to the infirmary. Not today. What if they keep me all afternoon? You can"t send me to the infirmary. Not today. What if they keep me all afternoon? She remembered what Cora said to her at breakfast. She had to pull herself together. "I"m a little dehydrated, that"s all. Perhaps I could have a gla.s.s of water?" She remembered what Cora said to her at breakfast. She had to pull herself together. "I"m a little dehydrated, that"s all. Perhaps I could have a gla.s.s of water?"
Sister Agnes went to fetch the water. While she was gone Grace pinched her cheeks and took some deep, calming breaths. By the time the nun returned, she looked slightly better.
From the far corner of the room, Lisa Halliday watched the scene with suspicion. "What"s up with Lady Brookstein?" she asked one of the mothers, a young black woman who hadn"t been at Bedford long. "She"s been acting weird as s.h.i.t all morning, even by her standards."
"Wouldn"t you be if you was gonna bust out of here?" said the girl. One look at Lisa"s face told her she"d screwed up big-time. But by then it was too late.
"What"d you say?"
"Nothing. I was just...I don"t know what I"m talking about. It"s just some crazy rumors."
Lisa Halliday put her face within an inch of the girl"s. "Tell me."
"Please. I...I shouldn"ta said nuthin". Cora"ll kill me."
"Tell me everything or I"ll make sure the warden never lets you see your kid again."
"Please, Lisa."
"You think I can"t do it?"
The girl thought about her son, Tyrone. He was three years old, as cute and chubby as a puppy. He"d be here in a half hour, snuggling up to her, drawing pictures for her to keep in her cell.
She started to talk.
HANNAH D DENZEL KNITTED HER BEETLE BROWS into one long, angry caterpillar as she led the VIPs down the hall to the children"s center. into one long, angry caterpillar as she led the VIPs down the hall to the children"s center.
"This way, ladies and gentlemen."
Denny did not like showing "delegations" around Bedford Hills. Today"s self-important posse of politicians and police officers was as bad as all the others: the do-gooder prison visitors, the priests, the social workers, the therapists, the nuns, the whole G.o.dd.a.m.n army of meddlesome outsiders who infested her territory twice a year with their clipboards and recommendations. None of them seemed to realize that these women were vermin. That they were at Bedford Hills to be punished, not saved. It made Denny sick.
The group "oohed" and "aahed" over the children"s center, scattering among the pristine workstations and play areas. Warden McIntosh stood watching them like a proud father. Then his face changed. Grace Brookstein was hovering by one of the bookcases looking pale and ill. d.a.m.n it. d.a.m.n it. He"d completely forgotten about Grace. The last thing he needed was to have his most notorious prisoner distracting the group"s attention from the jewel in Bedford"s crown. He"d completely forgotten about Grace. The last thing he needed was to have his most notorious prisoner distracting the group"s attention from the jewel in Bedford"s crown.
He whispered in Hannah Denzel"s ear. "Get her out of here. Quietly. She"s a distraction."
The prison guard"s cruel eyes lit up. "Yes, sir." This was more like it. Walking over to Grace, she grabbed her roughly by the arm. "Let"s go, Brookstein. Back to your cell."
"My cell? But I-I can"t," Grace stammered. "I"m working."
"Not anymore you"re not. Move it."
Grace opened her mouth to protest but no sound came out. Panic rose up in her throat like vomit.
"Is something the matter?" Sister Agnes glided over. "Can I help?"
"No," snapped Denny, pushing Grace toward the door. She resented the Sisters of Mercy"s presence at Bedford Hills. Sister Agnes should back the f.u.c.k off to her rosary and leave the inmates to the professionals. "Warden wants this one on lockdown. And he doesn"t doesn"t want a scene." want a scene."
Grace looked pleadingly at Sister Agnes. Help me! Help me!
The nun smiled kindly at her friend. "Don"t look so woebegone, Grace. You could do with a little rest. Enjoy your afternoon off. We"ll still be here tomorrow."