"Oh, read!" exclaimed Michael. "There"s nothing to read. I hate Henty.
Always the same!"
"Well, I don"t know anything about Henty, but there"s Scott and d.i.c.kens and----"
"I"ve read all them, mother," Michael interrupted petulantly.
"Well, why don"t you ask Mrs. Rewins if you can borrow a book from her, or I"ll ask her, as you don"t like going downstairs."
Mrs. Rewins brought up an armful of books which Michael examined dismally one by one. However, after several gilded volumes of sermons and sentimental Sunday-school prizes, he came across a tattered Newgate Calendar and Roderick Random, both of which satisfied somewhat his new craving for excitement. When he had finished these books, Mrs. Rewins invited him to explore the cupboard in her warm kitchen, and here Michael found Peregrine Pickle, Tom Jones, a volume of Bentley"s Miscellany containing the serial of Jack Sheppard by Harrison Ainsworth, and What Every Woman of Forty-five ought to Know. The last work upset him very much because he found it unintelligible in parts, and where it was intelligible extremely alarming. An instinct of shamefulness made him conceal this book in a drawer, but he became very anxious to find out exactly how old his mother was. She, however, was more elusive on this point than he had ever known her, and each elaborate trap failed, even the innocent production of the table for ascertaining anybody"s age in a blue sixpenny Encyclopaedia: still, the Encyclopaedia was not without its entertainment, and the table of diseases at the end was very instructive. Among the books which Michael had mined down in Mrs.
Rewins" kitchen was The Ingoldsby Legends ill.u.s.trated by Cruikshank.
These he found very enthralling, for though he was already acquainted with The Jackdaw of Rheims, he now discovered many other poems still more amusing, in many of which he came across with pleasure quotations that he remembered to have heard used with much effect by Mr. Neech in the Sh.e.l.l. The macabre and ghostly lays did not affect him so much as the legends of the saints. These he read earnestly as he read Don Quixote, discerning less of laughter than of Gothic adventure in their fantastic pages, while his brain was fired by the heraldic pomps and ecclesiastical glories.
About this time he happened to pay a visit to Christchurch Priory and by the vaulted airs of that sanctuary he was greatly thrilled. The gargoyles and bra.s.ses and effigies of dead knights called to him mysteriously, but the inappropriate juxtaposition of an early Victorian tomb shocked him with a sense of sacrilege. He could not bear to contemplate the nautical trousers of the boy commemorated. Yet, simultaneously with his outraged decorum, he was attracted to this tomb, as if he detected in that ingenuous boy posited among sad cherubs some kinship with himself.
In bed that night Michael read The Ingoldsby Legends in a fever of enjoyment, while the shadows waved about the ceiling and walls of the seaside room in the vexed candlelight. As yet the details of the poems did not gain their full effect, because many of the words and references were not understood. He felt that knowledge was necessary before he could properly enjoy the colour of these tales. Michael had always been inclined to crystallize in one strong figure of imagination his vague impressions. Two years ago he had identified Mr. Neech with old prints, with Tom Brown"s Schooldays and with shelves of calf-bound books. Now in retrospect he, without being able to explain his reason to himself, identified Mr. Neech with that statue of the trousered boy in Christchurch Priory, and not merely Mr. Neech but even The Ingoldsby Legends as well. He felt that they were both all wrong in the sanctified glooms of the Middle Ages, and yet he rejoiced to behold them there, as if somehow they were a pledge of historic continuity. Without the existence of the trousered boy Michael would scarcely have believed in the reality of those stone ladies and carved knights. The candlelight fluttered and jigged in the seaside room, while Mr. Neech, The Ingoldsby Legends and the oratories of Christchurch became more and more hopelessly confused. Michael"s excited brain was formulating visions of immense cathedrals beneath whose arches pattered continually the populations of old prints: the tower of St. Mary"s College, Oxford, rose, slim and lovely, against the storm-wrack of a Dore sky: Don Quixote tilted with knights-at-arms risen from the dead. Michael himself was swept along in cavalcades towards the clouds with Ivanhoe, Richard Cur de Lion, Roderick Random and half a dozen woodcut murderers from the Newgate Calendar. Then, just as the candlelight was gasping and shimmering blue in the bowl of the candlestick, he fell asleep.
In the sunshine of the next day Michael almost wondered whether like someone in The Ingoldsby Legends he had ridden with witches on a broomstick. All the cool security of boyhood had left him; he was in a turmoil of desire for an astounding experience. He almost asked himself what he wanted so dearly; and, as he pondered, out of the past in a vision came the picture of himself staring at the boy who walked beside the incense with a silver boat. What did the Lay of St. Alois say?
_This with his chasuble, this with his rosary,_ _This with his incense-pot holding his nose awry._
Michael felt a craving to go somewhere and smell that powerful odour again. He remembered how the boy had put out his tongue and he envied him such familiarity with pomps and glories.
"Are there any High Churches in Bournemouth?" he asked Mrs. Rewins.
"Very high. Incense and all that, you know."
Mrs. Rewins informed him there was one church so high that some said it was practically "Roming Catholic."
"Where is it?" asked Michael, choking with excitement. Yet he had never before wanted to go to church. In the days of Nurse he had hated it. In the days of Miss Carthew he had only found it endurable if his friends were present. He had loathed the rustle of many women dressed in their best clothes. He had hated the throaty voices of smooth-faced clergymen.
He had despised the sleek choir-boys smelling of yellow soap. Religion had been compounded of Collects, Greek Testament, Offertory Bags, varnish, qualms for the safety of one"s top-hat, the pleasure of an extra large ha.s.sock, ambition to be grown up and bend over instead of kneeling down, the podgy feel of a Prayer Book, and a profound disapproval that only Eton and Winchester among public schools were mentioned in its diaphanous fumbling pages. Now religion should be an adventure. The feeling that he was embarking upon the unknown made Michael particularly reticent, and he was afraid to tell his mother that on Sunday morning he proposed to attend the service at St.
Bartholomew"s, lest she might suggest coming also. He did not want to be irritated by Stella"s affectations and conceit, nor did he wish to notice various women turning round to study his mother"s hat. In the end Michael did not go on Sunday to the church of his intention, because at the last moment he could not brace himself to mumble an excuse.
Late on the afternoon of the following day Michael walked through the gustiness of a swift-closing summer toward St. Bartholomew"s, where it stood facing a stretch of sandy heather and twisted pine trees on the outskirts of Bournemouth. The sky was stained infrequently with the red of a lifeless sunset and, as Michael watched the desolation of summer"s retreat, he listened sadly to the sibilant heather lisping against the flutes of the pines, while from time to time the wind drummed against the b.u.t.tresses and boomed against the bulk of the church. Michael drew near the west door whose hinges and nails stood out unnaturally distinct in the last light of the sun. Abruptly on the blowy eve the church-bell began to ring, and from various roads Michael saw people approaching, their heads bent against the gale. At length he made up his mind to follow one of the groups through the churchyard and presently, while the gate rattled behind him in the wind, he reached the warm glooms within.
As he took his seat and perceived the altar loaded with flowers, dazzling with lighted candles, he wondered why this should be so on a Monday night in August. The air was pungent with the smell of wax and the stale perfume of incense on stone. The congregation was scattered about in small groups and units, and the vaulted silence was continually broken by coughs and sighs and hollow footsteps. From the tower the bell rang in slow monotone, while the wind whistled and moaned and flapped and boomed as if, thought Michael, all the devils in h.e.l.l were trying to break into the holy building. The windows were now scarcely luminous with the wan shadow of daylight and would indeed have been opaque as coal had the inside of the church been better lighted. But the few wavering gas-jets in the nave made all seem dark save where the chancel, empty and candle-lit, shone and sparkled in a radiancy. Something in Michael"s att.i.tude must have made a young man sitting behind lean over and ask if he wanted a Prayer Book. Michael turned quickly to see a lean and eager face.
"Yes, please. I left mine at home," he answered.
"Well, come and sit by me," said the young man.
Michael changed his place and the young man talked in a low whisper, while the bell rang its monotone upon the gusts which swept howling round the church.
"Solemn Evensong isn"t until seven o"clock. It"s our patronal festival, St. Bartholomew"s Day--you know. We had a good Ma.s.s this morning. Every year we get more people. Do you live in Bournemouth?"
"No," whispered Michael. "I"m just here for the holidays."
"What a pity," said the stranger. "We do so want servers--you know--decent-looking servers. Our boys are so clumsy. It"s not altogether their fault--the ca.s.socks--you know--they"re only in two sizes. They trip up. I"m the Ceremonarius, and I can tell you I have my work cut out. Of course I ought to have been helping to-night. But I wasn"t sure I could get away from the Bank in time. I hope Wilson--that"s our second thurifer--won"t go wrong in the Magnificat. He usually does."
The bell stopped: there was a momentary hush for the battling wind to moan louder than ever: then the organ began to play and from the sacristy came the sound of a chanted Amen. Choristers appeared followed by two or three of the clergy, and when these had taken their places a second procession appeared, with boys in scarlet and lace and a tinkling censer and a priest in a robe of blood-red velvet patterned with dull gold.
"That"s the new cope," whispered the stranger. "Fine work, isn"t it?"
"Awfully decent," Michael whispered back.
"All I hope is the acolytes will remember to put out the candles immediately after the Third Collect. It"s so important," said the stranger.
"I expect they will," whispered Michael encouragingly.
Then the Office began, and Michael, waiting for a spiritual experience, communed that night with the saints of G.o.d, as during the Magnificat his soul rose to divine glories on the fumes of the aspiring incense. There was a quality in the voices of the boys which expressed for him more beautifully than the full Sunday choir could have done, the pathos of human praise and the purity of his own surrender to Almighty G.o.d. The splendours of the Magnificat died away to a silence and one of the clergy stepped from his place to read the Second Lesson. As he came down the chancel steps Michael"s new friend whispered:
"The censing of the altar was all right. It"s really a good thing sometimes to be a spectator--you know--one sees more."
Michael nodded a vague a.s.sent. Already the voice of the lector was vibrating through the church.
_In the end of the sabbath, as it began to dawn towards the first day of the week, came Mary Magdalene and the other Mary to see the sepulchre._
Michael thought to himself how he had come to St. Bartholomew"s when Sunday was over. That was strange.
_His countenance was like lightning and his raiment white as snow: and for fear of him the keepers did shake, and became as dead men._
"I wish that boy Wiggins wouldn"t fidget with his zuchetto," Michael"s friend observed.
_And behold, he goeth before you into Galilee; there shall ye see him: lo, I have told you._
Michael felt an impulse to sob, as he mentally offered the best of himself to the worship of Christ, for the words of the lesson were striking on his soul like bells.
_And when they saw him, they worshipped him: but some doubted._
"Now you see the other boy has started fidgeting with _his_," complained the young man.
_And, lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world._ _Amen._
As the lector"s retreating footsteps died away into the choir the words were burned on Michael"s heart, and for the first time he sang the Nunc Dimittis with a sense of the privilege of personally addressing Almighty G.o.d. When the Creed was chanted Michael uttered his belief pa.s.sionately, and while the Third Collect was being read between the exalted candles of the acolytes he wondered why never before had the words struck him with all their power against the fears and fevers of the night.
_Lighten our darkness, we beseech thee, O Lord; and by thy great mercy defend us from all perils and dangers of this night, for the love of thy only Son, our Saviour, Jesus Christ._ _Amen._
The acolytes lowered their candles to extinguish them: then they darkened the altar while the hymn was being sung, and Michael"s friend gave a sigh of relief.
"Perfectly all right," he whispered.
Michael himself was sorry to see the gradual extinction of the altar-lights; he had concentrated upon that radiance his new desire of adoration and a momentary chill fell upon him, as if the fiends without were gaining strength and fury. All dread and doubt was allayed when, after the murmured Grace of Our Lord, the congregation and the choir and the officiant knelt in a silent prayer. The wind still shrieked and thundered: the gas-jets waved uneasily above the huddled forms of the worshippers: but over all that incense-clouded gloom lay a spirit of tranquillity. Michael said the Our Father to himself and allowed his whole being to expand in a warmth of surrender. The purification of sincere prayer, voiced more by his att.i.tude of mind than by any spoken word, made him infinitely at peace with life.
When the choir and clergy had filed out and the sacristan like an old rook came limping down the aisle to usher the congregation forth into the dark wind of Bartlemy-tide, Michael"s friend said:
"Wait just a minute. I want to speak to Father Moneypenny for a moment, and then we can walk back together."
Michael nodded, and presently his friend came back from the sacristy with Father Moneypenny in ca.s.sock and biretta, looking like the photographs of clergymen that Michael remembered in Nurse"s alb.u.m long ago.
"So you enjoyed the Evensong?" enquired the priest. "Capital! You must come to Ma.s.s next Sunday. There will be a procession. By the way, Prout, perhaps your young friend would help us. We shall want extra torch-boys."