"I want to speak to you, sir." The words actually seemed to come from his mouth winged with flames, such a volcano was Michael now.
"I"m busy. Go outside and wait," roared the Headmaster.
Michael paused to regard the scene--the two boys sobbing with painful regular intake of breath, oblivious of him; the witnesses, a sheepish crew; the school-porter waiting for his prey; old Mr. Caryll coughing nervously and apparently on the verge of tears himself; the odious Paul Pry of a Secretary nibbling his pen; and in the background other masters waiting with favourable or d.a.m.ning testimony.
The drama of gloating authority shook Michael to the very foundation of his being, and he came rapidly into the middle of the room, came right up to the Headmaster, until he felt engulfed in the black silk gown, and at last said slowly and with simple conviction:
"I think you"re all making a mistake."
When he had spoken Michael could have kicked himself for not shouting furiously the torrid denunciations which had come surging up for utterance. Then he immediately began to talk again, to his own great surprize, calmly and very reasonably.
"I know these kids--these two boys, I mean--quite well. It"s impossible for any of this to be true. I"ve seen them a lot this term--practically every day. Really, sir, you"ll make a terrible mistake if you expel them. They"re awfully decent little chaps. They are really, sir. Of course they"re too frightened now to say anything for themselves. It"s not fair for everybody to be set at them like this."
Michael looked despairingly at the masters a.s.sembled.
"And these other boys who"ve been brought in to tell what they know.
Why, they"re frightened too. They"d say anything. Why don"t you, why don"t you----"
Michael looked round in despair, stammered, broke down, and then to his own eternal chagrin burst into tears. He moved hastily over to the window, striving to pull himself together, seeing through an overpowering blur the great green field in the garish sunlight. Yet his tears, shameful to him, may have turned the scale, for one by one the masters came forward with eager testimony of good; and with every word of praise the tears rushed faster and faster to Michael"s eyes. Then he heard old Caryll"s rasping cough and broken benignant sentences, which with all their memories lulled his emotion to quietude again.
"Hope you"ll bring it in non probatum, Headmaster"--cough--cough--"good boys both "--cough--cough--"sure it"s a mistake--Fane"s a good boy too--idle young rascal--but a good heart"--cough--cough--"had him under me for a year--know him well----"
Dr. Brownjohn, with a most voluminous wave, dismissed the matter.
Everyone, even the Paul Pry of a Secretary, went out of the room, and as the door closed Michael heard Mr. Caryll addressing the victims.
"Now then, don"t cry any more, you young b.o.o.bies."
Michael"s thoughts followed them upstairs to the jolly cla.s.s-room, and he almost smiled at the imagination of Mr. Caryll"s entrance and the mult.i.tudinous jokes that would demonstrate his relief at his pupils"
rescue. Michael recovered from his dream to find the Headmaster speaking to him in his most rumbling ba.s.s.
"I don"t know why I allowed you to interfere in this disgraceful affair, boy. Um?"
"No, sir," Michael agreed.
"But since you are here, I will take the opportunity of warning you that the company you keep is very vile."
Michael looked apprehensive.
"If you think nothing is known of your habits out of school, you are much mistaken. I will not have any boy at my school frequenting the house of that deboshed nincomp.o.o.p Wilmot."
Dr. Brownjohn"s voice was now so deep that it vibrated in the pit of Michael"s stomach like the diapason of the school organ.
"Give up that detestable a.s.sociation of mental impostors and be a boy again. You have disappointed me during the whole of your career; but you"re a winning boy. Um? Go back to your work."
Michael left the august room with resolves swaying in his brain, wondering what he could do to repay the Old Man. It was too late to take a very high place in the summer examinations. Yet somehow, so pa.s.sionate was his grat.i.tude, he managed to come out third.
Michael never told his mother about his adventure, but in the reaction against Wilmot and all that partook of decadence, and in his pleasure at having done something, however clumsily, he felt a great wish to include his mother in his emotion of universal love.
"Where are we going these holidays?" he asked.
"I thought perhaps you"d like to stay at your monastery again," said Mrs. Fane. "I was thinking of going abroad."
Michael"s face fell, and his mother was solicitously penitent.
"My dearest boy, I never dreamed you would want to be with me. You"ve always gone out on Sundays."
"I know, I"m sorry, I won"t again," Michael a.s.sured her.
"And I"ve made my arrangements now. I wish I"d known. But why shouldn"t you go and see Stella? It seems a pity that you and she should grow up so much apart."
"Well, I will, if you like," said Michael.
"Dearest boy, what has happened to you? You are so agreeable," exclaimed Mrs. Fane.
In the end it was arranged that Michael should accompany Mr. Viner on his holiday in France, and afterwards stay with Stella with a family at Compiegne for the rest of the time. Michael went to see his mother off at Charing Cross before he joined Mr. Viner.
"Darling Michael," she murmured as the train began to move slowly forward. "You"re looking so well and happy--just like you were two years ago. Just like----"
The rest of the comparison was lost in the noise of the speeding train.
Chapter X: _Stella_
Michael spent a charming fortnight with Father Viner in Amiens, Chartres and Rouen. The early Ma.s.ses to which they went along the cool, empty streets of the morning, and the shadowy, candle-lit Benedictions from which they came home through the deepening dusk gave to Michael at least a profound hope, if not the astonishing faith of his first religious experience. Sitting with the priest at the open window of their inn, while down below the footsteps of the wayfarers were pattering like leaves, Michael recaptured some of that emotion of universal love which with sacramental force had filled his heart during the wonder of transition from boyhood to adolescence. He did not wish to know more about these people than could be told by the sound of their progress so light, so casual, so essentially becoming to the sapphirine small world in which they hurried to and fro. The pa.s.sion of hope overwhelmed Michael"s imagination with a beauty that was perfectly expressed by the unseen busy populations of a city"s waning twilight. Love, birth, death, greed, ambition, all humanity"s stress of thought and effort, were merged in a murmurous contentment of footfalls and faint-heard voices.
Michael supposed that somehow to G.o.d the universe must sound much as this tall street of Rouen sounded now to him at his inn window, and he realized for the first time how G.o.d must love the world. Later, the twilight and voices and footfalls would fade together into night, and through long star-scattered silences Michael would brood with a rapture that became more than hope, if less than faith with restless, fiery heart. Then clocks would strike sonorously; the golden window-panes would waver and expire; Mr. Viner would tap his pipe upon the sill; and Michael and he would follow their own great shadows up into bedrooms noisy in the night-wind and prophetic of sleep"s immense freedom, until with the slanting beams of dawn Michael would wake and at Ma.s.s time seek to enchain with prayers indomitable dreams.
The gravity of Michael"s demeanour suited the grey town in which he sojourned, and though Mr. Viner used to teaze him about his saintly exterior, the priest seemed to enjoy his company.
"But don"t look so solemn when you meet your sister, or she"ll think you"re sighing for a niche in Chartres Cathedral, which for a young lady emanc.i.p.ated from Germany would be a most distressing thought."
"I"m enjoying myself," said Michael earnestly.
"My dear old chap, I"m not questioning that for a moment, and personally I find your att.i.tude consorts very admirably with the mood in which these northern towns of France always throw me," said Mr. Viner.
The fortnight came to an end, and to commemorate this chastening interlude of a confidence and a calm whose impermanence Michael half dreaded, half desired, he bought a pair of old candlesticks for the Notting Dale Mission. Michael derived a tremendous consolation from this purchase, for he felt that, even if in the future he should be powerless to revive this healing time, its austere hours would be immortalized, mirrored somehow in the candlesticks" bases as durably as if engraved upon a Grecian urn. There was in this impulse nothing more sentimental than in his erection last year of the small cairn to celebrate a fleeting moment of faith on the Berkshire downs.
Stella was already settled in the bosom of the French family when Michael reached Compiegne, and as he drove towards the Pension he began for the first time to wonder what his sister would be like after these two years. He was inclined to suppose that she would be a problem, and he already felt qualms about the behaviour of her projected suddenly like this from Germany into an atmosphere of romance. For Michael, France always stood out as typically romantic to his fancy. Spain and Italy were not within his realization as yet, and Germany he conceived of as a series of towns filled with the noise of piano-scales and hoa.r.s.e gutturals. He hoped that Stella was not even now plunged into a girlish love-affair with one of the idle young Frenchmen who haunted so amorously the sunshine of this gay land. He even began to rehea.r.s.e, as his carriage jolted along the cobbled embankment of the Oise, a particularly scathing scene in which he coldly denounced the importunate lover, while Stella stood abashed by fraternal indignation. Then he reflected that after all Stella was only fifteen and, as he remembered her, too much wrapped up in a zest for public appreciation to be very susceptible of private admiration. Moreover, he knew that most of her time was occupied by piano-practice. An emotion of pride in his accomplished sister displaced the pessimism of his first thoughts. He took pleasure in the imagination of her swaying the whole Pension by her miraculous execution, and he began to build up the picture of his entrance upon the last crashing chords of a sonata, when after the applause had ceased he would modestly step forward as the brother of this paragon.
The carriage was now bowling comfortably along a wide tree-shaded avenue bordered on either side by stretches of greenery which were dappled with children and nursemaids and sedate little girls with bobbing pigtails.
Michael wondered if Stella was making a discreet promenade with the ladies of the family, half hoped she was, that he might reach the Pension before her and gracefully welcome her, as she, somewhat fl.u.s.tered by being late for his arrival, hurried up the front-door steps. Then, just as he was wondering whether there would or would not be front-door steps to the Pension, the cab drew up by a house with a green verandah and front-garden geranium-dyed to right and left of a vivid gravel path. Michael perceived, with a certain disapproval, that the verandah sheltered various ladies in wicker chairs. He disliked the notion of carrying up his bag in the range of their cool criticism, nor did he relish the conversation that would have to be embarked upon with the neat maid already hurrying to meet him. But most contrary to his preconceived idea of arrival was the affectionate ambush laid for him by Stella just when he was trying to remember whether "chambre" were masculine or feminine. Yet, even as he felt Stella"s dewy lips on his, and her slim fingers round his neck, he reproached himself for his silly shyness, although he could only say:
"Hullo, look out for my collar."
Stella laughed ripplingly.