Have you your car here?"
"All is ready, and waiting for you at the gate."
As they drove briskly along, Lendrick gave the vicar a detailed account of his visit to Dublin. Pa.s.sing over the first days, of which the reader already has heard something, we take up the story from the day on which Lendrick learned that his father would see him.
"My mind was so full of myself, doctor," said he, "of all the consequences which had followed from my father"s anger with me, that I had no thought of anything else till I entered the room where he was.
Then, however, as I saw him propped up with pillows in a deep chair, his face pale, his eyes colorless, and his head swathed up in a bandage after leeching, my heart sickened, alike with sorrow and shame at my great selfishness.
"I had been warned by Beattie on no account to let any show of feeling or emotion escape me, to be as cool and collected as possible, and in fact, he said, to behave as though I had seen him the day before.
""Leave the room, Poynder," said he to his man, "and suffer no one to knock at the door--mind, not even to knock--till I ring my bell." He waited till the man withdrew, and then in a very gentle voice said, "How are you, Tom? I can"t give you my right hand,--the rebellious member has ceased to know me!" I thought I should choke as the words met me; I don"t remember what I said, but I took my chair and sat down beside him.
""I thought you might have been too much agitated, Tom, but otherwise I should have wished to have had your advice along with Beattie. I believe, on the whole, however, he has treated me well."
"I a.s.sured him that none could have done more skilfully.
"The skill of the doctor with an old patient is the skill of an architect with an old wall. He must not breach it, or it will tumble to pieces.
""Beattie is very able, sir," said I.
""No man is able," replied he, quickly, "when the question is to repair the wastes of time and years. Draw that curtain, and let me look at you. No; stand yonder, where the light is stronger. What! is it my eyes deceive me,--is your hair white?"
""It has been so eight years, sir."
""And I had not a gray hair till my seventy-second year,--not one. I told Beattie, t" other day, that the race of the strong was dying out.
Good heavens, how old you look! Would any one believe in seeing us that you could be my son?"
""I feel perhaps even more than I look it, sir."
""I could swear you did. You are the very stamp of those fellows who plead guilty--"Guilty, my Lord; we throw ourselves on the mercy of the court." I don"t know how the great judgment-seat regards these pleas,--with _me_ they meet only scorn. Give me the man who says, "Try me, test me." Drop that curtain, and draw the screen across the fire.
Speak lower, too, my dear," said he, in a weak soft voice; "you suffer yourself to grow excited, and you excite me."
""I will be more cautious, sir," said I.
""What are these drops he is giving me? They have an acrid sweet taste."
""Aconite, sir; a weak solution."
""They say that our laws never forgot feudalism, but I declare I believe medicine has never been able to ignore alchemy: drop me out twenty, I see that your hand does not shake. Strange thought, is it not, to feel that a little phial like that could make a new Baron of the Exchequer?
You have heard, I suppose, of the attempts--the indecent attempts--to induce me to resign. You have heard what they say of my age. They quote the registry of my baptism, as though it were the date of a conviction.
I have yet to learn that the years a man has devoted to his country"s service are counts in the indictment against his character. Age has been less merciful to me than to my fellows,--it has neither made me deaf to rancor nor blind to ingrat.i.tude. I told the Lord-Lieutenant so yesterday."
""You saw him then, sir?" asked I.
""Yes, he was gracious enough to call here; he sent his secretary to ask if I would receive a visit from him. I thought that a little more tact might have been expected from a man in his station,--it is the common gift of those in high places. I perceive," added he, after a pause, "you don"t see what I mean. It is this: royalties, or mock royalties, for they are the same in this, condescend to these visits as deathbed attentions. They come to us with their courtesies as the priest comes with his holy cruet, only when they have the a.s.surance that we are beyond recovery. His Excellency ought to have felt that the man to whom he proposed this attention was not one to misunderstand its significance."
""Did he remain long, sir?"
""Two hours and forty minutes. I measured it by my watch."
""Was the fatigue not too much for you?"
""Of course it was; I fainted before he got to his carriage. He twice rose to go away, but on each occasion I had something to say that induced him to sit down again. It was the whole case of Ireland we reviewed,--that is, I did. I deployed the six millions before him, and he took the salute. Yes, sir, education, religious animosities, land-tenure, drainage, emigration, secret societies, the rebel priest and the intolerant parson, even nationality and mendicant insolence, all marched past, and he took the salute! "And now, my Lord," said I, "it is the man who tells you these things, who has the courage to tell and the ability to display them, and it is this man for whose retirement your Ex-lency is so eager, that you have actually deigned to make him a visit, that he may carry away into the next world, perhaps, a pleasing memory of this; it is this man, I say, whom you propose to replace--and by what, my Lord, and by whom? Will a mere lawyer, will any amount of _nisi prius_ craft or precedent, give you the qualities you need on that bench, or that you need, sadly need, at this council-board? Go back, my Lord, and tell your colleagues of the Cabinet that Providence is more merciful than a Premier, and that the same overruling hand that has sustained me through this trial will uphold me, I trust, for years to serve my country, and save it for some time longer from your blundering legislation."
""He stood up, sir, like a prisoner when under sentence; he stood up, sir, and as he bowed, I waved my adieu to him as though saying, You have heard me, and you are not to carry away from this place a hope, the faintest, that any change will come over the determination I have this day declared.
""He went away, and I fainted. The exertion was too long sustained, too much for me. I believe, after all," added he, with a smile, "his Excellency bore it very little better. He told the Archbishop the same evening that he"d not go through another such morning for "the garter."
Men in his station hear so little of truth that it revolts them like coa.r.s.e diet. They "d rather abstain altogether till forced by actual hunger to touch it. When they come to me, however, it is the only fare they will find before them."
"There was a long pause after this," continued Lendrick. "I saw that the theme had greatly excited him, and I forbore to say a word, lest he should be led to resume it. "Too old for the bench!" burst he out suddenly; "my Lord, there are men who are never too old, as there are those who are never too young. The oak is but a sapling when the pine is in decay. Is there that glut of intellect just now in England, are we so surfeited with ability that, to make room for the coming men, we, who have made our mark on the age, must retire into obscurity?" He tried to rise from his seat; his face was flushed, and his eyes flashing; he evidently forgot where he was, and with whom, for he sank back with a faint sigh, and said, "Let us talk of it no more. Let us think of something else. Indeed, it was to talk of something else I desired to see you." He went on, then, to say that he wished something could be done for me. His own means were, he said, sadly crippled; he spoke bitterly, resentfully, I thought. "It is too long a story to enter on, and were it briefer, too disagreeable a one," added he. "I ought to be a rich man, and I am poor; I should be powerful, and I have no influence.
All has gone ill with me." After a silence, he continued, "They have a place to offer you: the inspectorship, I think they call it, of hospitals at the Cape; it is worth, altogether, nigh a thousand a year, a thing not to be refused."
""The offer could only be made in compliment to you, sir; and if my acceptance were to compromise your position--"
""Compromise _me!_" broke he in. "I "ll take care it shall not. No man need instruct me in the art of self-defence, sir. Accept at once."
""I will do whatever you desire, sir," was my answer.
""Go out there yourself, alone,--at first, I mean. Let your boy continue his college career; the girl shall come to me."
""I have never been separated from my children, sir," said I, almost trembling with anxiety.
""Such separations are bearable," added he, "when it is duty dictates them, not disobedience."
"He fixed his eyes sternly on me, and I trembled as I thought that the long score of years was at last come to the reckoning. He did not dwell on the theme, however, but in a tone of much gentler meaning, went on: "It will be an act of mercy to let me see a loving face, to hear a tender voice. Your boy would be too rough for me."
""You would like him, sir. He is thoroughly truthful and honest."
""So he may, and yet be self-willed, be noisy, be over-redolent of that youth which age resents like outrage. Give me the girl, Tom; let her come here, and bestow some of those loving graces on the last hours of my life her looks show she should be rich in. For your sake she will be kind to me. Who knows what charm there may be in gentleness, even to a tiger-nature like mine? Ask her, at least, if she will make the sacrifice."
"I knew not what to answer. If I could not endure the thought of parting from Lucy, yet it seemed equally impossible to refuse his entreaty,--old, friendless, and deserted as he was. I felt, besides, that my only hope of a real reconciliation with him lay through this road; deny him this, and it was clear he would never see me more. He said, too, it should only be for a season. I was to see how the place, the climate, suited for a residence. In a word, every possible argument to reconcile me to the project rushed to my mind, and I at last said, "Lucy shall decide, sir. I will set out for home at once, and you shall have her own answer."
""Uninfluenced, sir," cried he,--"mind that. If influence were to be used, I could perhaps tell her what might decide her at once; but I would not that pity should plead for me, till she should have seen if I be worth compa.s.sion! There is but one argument I will permit in my favor,--tell her that her picture has been my pleasantest companion these three long days. There it lies, always before me. Go now, and let me hear from you as soon as may be." I arose, but somehow my agitation, do what I would, mastered me. It was so long since we had met! All the sorrows the long estrangement had cost me came to my mind, together with little touches of his kindness in long-past years, and I could not speak. "Poor Tom! poor Tom!" said he, drawing me towards him; and he kissed me."
As Lendrick said this, emotion overcame him, and he covered his face with his hands, and sobbed bitterly. More than a mile of road was traversed before a word pa.s.sed between them. "There they are, doctor!
There "s Tom, there"s Lucy! They are coming to meet me," cried he.
"Good-bye, doctor; you "ll forgive me, I know,--goodbye;" and he sprang off the car as he spoke, while the vicar, respecting the sacredness of the joy, wheeled his horse round, and drove back towards the town.
CHAPTER XI. CAVE CONSULTS SIR BROOK
A few minutes after the Adjutant had informed Colonel Cave that Lieutenant Traflford had reported himself, Sir Brook entered the Colonel"s quarters, eager to know what was the reason of the sudden recall of Traflford, and whether the regiment had been unexpectedly ordered for foreign service.
"No, no," said Cave, in some confusion. "We have had our turn of India and the Cape; they can"t send us away again for some time. It was purely personal; it was, I may say, a private reason. You know," added he, with a slight smile, "I am acting as a sort of guardian to Trafford just now.
His family sent him over to me, as to a reformatory."
"From everything I have seen of him, your office will be an easy one."