Now, however, the young man had not only to trade his pelts but to trap them, and for this business of trapping which was distasteful to him, he had not a t.i.the of Hugh"s skill. His bundle of pelts brought him a sorry supply of necessities. He was ashamed, himself, and having dumped the burden from his shoulders to the kitchen floor would hurry into the other room, not to see Bella"s expression when she opened her bundles.
To-night Pete was tired; the load had not been heavy, but the snow was beginning to soften under the mild glowing of an April sun, and his skis had tugged at his feet and gathered a clogging ma.s.s. His body ached, and there was a sullen and despairing weight upon his spirit. A mob of rebels danced in his heart. He watched Hugh"s face, saw the flaring adoration of his eyes, thought that Sylvie must feel the scorch of them on her cheek, so close. In his own eyes there showed a brooding fire.
Bella broke into the room.
"Look here," she said, "you"d better get to trapping again, Hugh Garth.
Pete"s pelts don"t bring a quarter of what we need--especially these days."
Sylvie quivered as though a wound had been touched. "Oh, you mean me,"
she said, "I know you mean me. I"m making trouble. I"m eating too much.
I"ll go. Pete, has anybody been asking about me at the post-office, trying to find me? They _must_ be hunting for me." She had stood up and was clasping and unclasping her hands. Hugh and Pete protested in one breath: "Nonsense, Sylvie!"
And Pete went on with: "There hasn"t been anyone asking about you, but--so much the better for us. You"re safe here, and comfortable, aren"t you? And--Hugh, _you_ tell her what it means to us to have her here."
It was more of a speech than he had made since Sylvie"s arrival, and it was not just the speech, in tone or manner, of a fourteen-year-old boy.
There was a new somber note in his voice, too--some of the youthful quality had gone out of it. Sylvie took a step toward him, to thank him, perhaps, perhaps to satisfy, by laying her hand upon him, a sudden bewilderment; but in her blindness she stumbled on the edge of the hearth, and to save her from falling, Pete caught her in his arms.
For an instant he held her close, held her fiercely, closer and more fiercely than he knew, and Sylvie felt the strength of him and heard the pounding of his heart. Then Hugh plucked her away with a smothered oath.
He put her into a chair, crushed her hand in one of his, and turned upon Bella.
"Go back into the kitchen," he ordered brutally; "trapping"s not your business. You mind your cooking."
"Be careful, Hugh!" Bella"s whisper whistled like a falling lash, "I"ll not stand that tone from you. Be careful!"
"Oh," pleaded Sylvie, "why do you all quarrel so? Off here by yourselves with n.o.body else to care, I"d think you would just love each other. I love you all--yes, I do, even you, Bella, though I know you hate _me_.
Bella, _why_ do you hate me? Why does it make you so angry to have me here? Does it make your work so much harder? I"ll soon be better; I"m learning to feel my way about. I"ll be able to help you. I should think you"d be glad to have a girl in the house--another woman. I"m sorry to be a nuisance, really I am. I"d go if I could."
The lonely, deep silence, always waiting to fall upon them, shut down with suddenness at the end of her sweet, tearful quaver of appeal. For minutes no one spoke. Then Pete followed Bella out of the room. She had not answered Sylvie"s beseeching questions, but had only stood with lowered head, her face working, her hands twisting her dress. She had run out just as her face cramped as though for tears.
When the other two had gone, Hugh captured both of Sylvie"s hands in his. "You don"t mean that, do you?" he asked brokenly. "You don"t mean you"d go away if you could, Sylvie!"
At Hugh"s voice she started and the color rushed into her cheeks. "If I make you quarrel, if I"m a nuisance, if Pete and Bella hate me so!"
"But I"--he said--"I love you." He drew her head--she was sitting in her chair again--against his side. "No, don"t smile at me like that; I don"t mean the sort of love you think. I love you terribly. Can"t you feel how I love you? Listen, close against my heart. Don"t be frightened. There, now you know how I love you!"
He rained kisses on her head resting droopingly against him.
"How can a man like you love _me_?" she asked with wistful uncertainty.
"A man like me?" Hugh groaned. "Ah, but I do--I do! You must stay with me always. Sylvie, somehow we will be married--you--and I!"
"Now it frightens me," she whispered, "being blind. It does frighten me now. I want so terribly to see your face, your eyes. Oh, you mustn"t marry a blind girl, a waif. You"ve been so n.o.ble, you"ve suffered so terribly. You ought to have some wonderful woman who would understand your greatness, would see all that you are."
"Now," he sighed, "now I _am_ great--because you think I am; that"s water to me--after a lifetime of thirst."
"Hugh, _am_ I good enough for you?" She was sobbing and laughing at the same time.
It was too much for him. He drew himself gently away. He whispered: "I can"t bear being loved--being happy. I"ll go out by myself for a bit alone. Sylvie, Sylvie! Every instant I--I worship _you_!" He threw himself down before her and pressed his face against her knees. She caressed the thick, grizzled hair. He stood up and then stumbled away from her, more blind than she, out of the house into the gathering night.
CHAPTER VI
In the big, rudely carved chair Sylvie leaned back her head and pressed her hands to her unseeing eyes. She was not sorry that Hugh had left her, for she was oppressed and unnerved by her own emotions. Until he had kissed her hair, she had not known that she loved him--or rather loved an invisible presence that had enveloped her in an atmosphere of sympathy, of protection, that had painted itself, so to speak, in heroic colors and proportions against her darkness, that had revealed both strength and tenderness in touch and movement, and warm, deep voice.
For until now Sylvie"s life had been entirely lacking in protection and tenderness; she had never known sympathy--her natural romanticism had been starved. The lacks in her life Hugh had supplied the more lavishly because he was aided, in her blindness, by the unrestricted powers of her fancy. But now in all the fervor of this, Sylvie felt, also for the first time, the full bitterness of her blindness. If she could see him--if only once! If she could see him!
And there came to Sylvie unreasonably, disconnectedly, a keen memory of Pete"s embrace when he had caught her up from falling on the hearth.
A boy of fourteen? Strange that he should be so strong, that his heart should beat so loud, that his arms should draw themselves so closely, so powerfully about her. What were they really like, these people who moved unseen around her and who exerted such great power over her sudden helplessness?
She got up and began to walk to and fro restlessly, gropingly across the room. She wished now that Hugh would come back. He had been with her so constantly that she had grown utterly dependent upon him. The dense red fog that lay so thick about her, frightened her when Hugh was not there to keep her mind busy with his talk to paint pictures for her, to command her with his magnetic presence. She stood still and strained her eyes. She _must_ see again. If she tried hard, the red fog would surely lift. Happiness, and her new love, they would be strong enough to dispel the mist. There--already it was a shade lighter! She almost thought that she could make out the brightness of the fire. She went toward it and sat down on the bear-skin, holding out her tremulous, excited hands. And with a sudden impulse toward confidence she called: "Pete, O Pete! Come here a moment, please."
He came, and she beckoned to him with a gesture and an upward, vaguely directed smile, to sit beside her. She was aware of the rigid reserve of his body holding itself at a distance.
"Pete," she said wistfully, "what can I do to make you love me?"
He uttered a queer, sharp sound, but said nothing.
"Are you jealous?"
"No, Sylvie," he muttered.
"Oh, how I wish I could see you, Pete! I know then I"d understand you better. Pete, try to be a little more--more human. Tell me about yourself. Haven"t you a bit of fondness for me? You see, I want--Pete--some day perhaps I"ll be your sister--"
"Then he has asked you to marry him?"
He was usually so quiet that she was startled at this new tone.
"Don"t," she said. "Hush! We have only just found out. He went away because he couldn"t bear his own happiness. Pete--" She felt for him and her hand touched his cheek. "Oh, Pete, your face is wet. You"re crying."
"No, I"m not," he denied evenly. "It was melting from the roof when I came in."
She sighed. "You are so strange, Pete. Will you let me kiss you now--since you are going to be my big little brother?"
"I can"t," he whispered. "I can"t."
She laughed and crooked her arm about his neck, forcing his face down to hers. His lips were hard and cool.
The face that Sylvie imagined a boy"s face, shy and blushing, half frightened, half cross, perhaps a trifle pleased, was so white and patient a face in its misery that her blind tenderness seemed almost like an intentional cruelty. It was an intensity of feeling almost palpable, but Sylvie"s mouth remained unburnt, though it removed itself with a pathetic little twist of disappointment.
"You don"t need to say anything," she said, "You"ve shown me how you feel. You can"t like me. You are sorry I came. And I want so dreadfully for some one just now to talk to--to help me, to understand. It"s all dark and wonderful and frightening. I wish I had a brother--"
She bent her face to her knees and began to cry simply and pa.s.sionately.
At that Pete found it easy to forget himself. He put his arm very carefully about her, laying one of his hands on her bent head and stroking her hair.
"You have a brother," he said. "Right here."
The dark small silken head shook. "No. You don"t like me."