"Yeah," the plump one said, "and most of the profs look like Pee-Wee Herman."
More laughter, and Lisa moved on. The day she returned home from Cambridge, she went to a trendy Georgetown salon, Curl Up and Dye, and had her hair cut into a shorter, layered "Princess Di." She did it partly to look more professional, like a network television anchor, and partly to appeal to Sam Bam Truitt"s tastes.
If he"s attracted to me, it will be easier.
But she was also attracted to him and wondered if that would make what she had to do even more difficult.
Now Lisa finished dressing, putting on the white silk blouse, then a taupe-colored skirt, a below-the-knee number with four darts that clung to her waist and flattered her shape. She tucked the blouse under the narrow waistband of the skirt, then stepped into closed Ferragamo pumps with three inch-heels, maybe just a touch higher than necessary.
She lifted her chin and draped a double strand of South Sea pearls around her neck-a gift from Max-latching the chain carefully, then put on the matching earrings, a tasteful single pearl on a solid gold post. She slipped into the blazer and placed a silk pocket square in the breast pocket, smoothing it with her hand. She put two extra copies of her curriculum vitae in a soft-sided burgundy briefcase, imagining it stuffed with certiorari pet.i.tions, legal pads, and weighty briefs.
"I"m going to get this job," she sang out, putting a tune to it. She was heading for the door when the phone rang.
"I need a baby-sitter," said the male voice.
"Greg!"
"Just called to wish you luck. Today"s the day, right?"
"In twenty minutes."
"Go get "em. You"re the best."
"Thanks, kid."
In her mind"s eye, she still saw little Greg Kingston in the Giants cap pounding his first baseman"s mitt, asking her for a game of catch because Dad was away, stationed in Germany or Florida or somewhere that sounded a million miles from Bodega Bay. She pictured the white clapboard house up the hill, gray smoke swirling from the chimney, Greg"s grandmother in the kitchen baking fruit pies.
She remembered running out of her own house one night, her drunken father diving for her legs as she flew off the porch, his calloused fisherman"s hands clawing at her. She stumbled and sc.r.a.ped a knee, then scampered up the hill where Greg"s grandmother took her in and dribbled iodine on the wound. For a time, at least, she"d found a haven from fear, a place where she could close her eyes without fear of what she would see upon awakening.
At twelve years old, she was Greg"s baby-sitter but soon became part of the family. Greg"s mother had long since taken off, and Tony was still on active duty, so the skinny eight-year-old boy with the hair falling in his eyes became the little brother she never had. Although he was now a handsome, lanky twenty-three-old with a mischievous grin, he would always be the kid wanting to play catch.
When she was in law school and had broken off with Max, Lisa returned home to visit Greg and found Tony there. He was nineteen years her senior, though still slightly younger than Max. She caught Tony"s look when they said h.e.l.lo.
No, I"m not the baby-sitter anymore.
She could still remember the feeling when their eyes locked. It was intense and immediate. Spontaneous combustion, the moment charged with electricity, and best of all, it was mutual. She recalled that first night, a full moon over the Pacific, wine and cheese on the bay in an old Boston Whaler. Sitting at anchor, the wind rippling across the water, they became lovers, their desire for each other unquenchable. Even now, with eyes closed, she could hear the anchor line stretching tight as a violin string and see the flashing channel buoy, keeping time with her heart.
The physical soon became more, and while the l.u.s.t quotient never wavered, they grew together until they belonged to each other in a deep, encompa.s.sing way that she had never known. What was it about Tony that was so different? His honesty and decency, his capacity for giving more than he took. He loved to have her around, to listen to her, to share his dreams, his hopes, his fears. Their rapport was natural, their bond unbreakable.
My G.o.d, I didn"t know such a man existed!
Life, which once had been so bleak and gray, became a kaleidoscope of luscious colors. She had a family.
A man to love, a kid brother, Jesus, even a grandmom baking cherry pies. If only it could have gone on forever.
Now, Tony was gone, but the boy was still a part of her life, and she adored him. Just hearing Greg"s voice, so much like his father"s, sent waves of anguish through her.
"Where are you, Greg?" she said into the phone.
"Miami."
d.a.m.n. When"s he going to give it up?
"I thought you were going back to school this semester."
"I got a job driving a forklift."
"Where?"
"Atlantica. I"m in the engine shop."
No! You"re going to foul up everything.
"Greg. When are you going to drop this? It"s been nearly three years. A bomb brought down the plane. Your dad"s dead, and there"s nothing you can do to change it."
There was a silence on the phone, and she recoiled at the sound of her own words. But it was true, wasn"t it? What difference did it make what caused the crash? Dead was dead.
"I"ve been drinking beer with some of the guys in maintenance," he said, after a moment, "keeping my mouth shut but listening, picking up dirt. The incompetence around here is pretty amazing."
"Legally, it"s irrelevant," Lisa said. "It doesn"t matter if all the mechanics were drunks with two left thumbs-"
"It"s not just them," he interrupted. "You ought to hear how they talk about Max Wanaker. Dad thought he was a real t.u.r.d, too."
She never told Greg that his father might have had other reasons for despising Max. "Greg, I don"t think it"s healthy for you to still be obsessed about the crash."
"We deal with our loss differently. You can close your eyes to it, but he was my father."
"I loved him!" Lisa shot back, "and all this does is twist a knife into the wound."
"I"ve got to find out what really happened."
She listened while Greg ran through a list of what he"d been investigating the past three years. They"d been through it all before.
Her mind wandered. She didn"t want to acknowledge it, but the kid was right. Ever since the accident, she had repressed it, trying not to think about her loss. She forced herself to forget his face, his smile, the way she felt in his strong arms. G.o.d, how she missed him! Her lover, her hero, her pilot.
What she had just said to Greg was the G.o.d"s honest truth.
Tony Kingston was the only man I ever loved.
CHAPTER 4.
Scoreless in October SAM TRUITT CAME OUT OF HIS CHAMBERS to greet her. He was wearing a blue oxford cloth b.u.t.toned-down shirt with a green tie that he wasn"t sure matched. The tie had little orange patterns shaped like the state of Florida, a gift from the governor to the first Floridian ever to sit on the Supreme Court. Truitt had left his suit coat in his chambers, purposely setting an informal tone, trying to put the young woman at ease. He"d shaken enough sweaty palms the last few weeks to know just how much pressure his young charges were feeling.
Truitt made a mental note to put his suit coat back on when he went out to lunch. A memo from the chief that very morning announced with considerable distress that certain justices had been seen in the corridors in their shirtsleeves. Truitt toyed with the idea of putting on a powdered wig and flowing robe for his promised meeting with His Holiness.
He approached the young woman, who sat demurely in a chair in his outer office. "I"m Sam Truitt." He smiled and extended his hand, getting his first look at her. Startled by her beauty, he nonetheless maintained a judicial demeanor.
She rose from the chair and gave him a polite, how-are-you smile. "I"m Lisa Fremont" said the stunning woman in the navy double-breasted blazer. Her handshake was firm, dry, and warm. She had a fair complexion, eyes nearly as blue as her blazer, golden red hair, and what appeared to be a great figure underneath the conservative outfit.
No way will I hire her. No f.u.c.king way. Too good looking. Way beyond attractive. Connie would kill me.
"I see you"ve met Eloise," he said, gesturing toward his secretary, a plump woman in her sixties who was perched in front of a word processor, eyegla.s.ses dangling on a rhinestone chain looped around her neck. "Elly was with me in private practice, at legal services, at Harvard, and now here. She keeps track of my appointments, corrects my misspellings, and warns me when I have gravy on my tie."
"At Harvard, you didn"t wear a tie," Eloise said, without looking up from her keyboard, her voice disapproving. "Blue jeans and chambray shirts, you looked like a cowboy in a Marlboro ad."
"Elly remembers when I couldn"t find the courthouse door."
"His first trial was a pro bono criminal case," Elly said, momentarily stopping her typing. "His presumably innocent client stuck a firecracker into the ear of a friend."
"A couple of drunks in a bar," Truitt explained.
"Boys will be boys," Lisa said, easily working her way into the story.
"Exactly," Eloise agreed. "So here"s young Sc.r.a.p-that was his nickname before he got so high and mighty-dancing around the courtroom like Fred Astaire, cross-examining the victim." She dropped her voice a couple of octaves and sang out, "Isn"t it true, Mr. Fiore, that you suffered no permanent injuries?"
"And the witness looks at me," Truitt broke in, "and says-"
"I beg your pardon," Lisa interrupted, c.o.c.king her head and putting a hand to her ear.
Truitt looked at her in astonishment.
"That"s right!" he said, impressed.
The story was meant to loosen up the applicant as well as test for a sense of humor. This was the first time anyone had the courage or intuition to beat him to the punch line. It did not occur to Sam Truitt that Lisa already knew his often-told tale from reading an obscure legal newspaper that had profiled him.
If only you weren"t so distractingly, maddeningly beautiful I could be as chaste as one of the chief"s monks in the monastery, but with my reputation, he"d still think I was s.h.a.gging you.
Nearly all the 532 resumes Truitt had received were from qualified candidates. Top students from the best law schools, they could all write, research, and a.n.a.lyze. For his three clerks-he was ent.i.tled to four but wanted a smaller staff-Truitt sought a team with camaraderie. They"d have to put in long hours, but they should also be able to have a beer together. He admired hard workers, and perhaps because of his own background, appreciated those who did not have a law school education handed to them as a legacy. He also wanted at least one woman, and someone from west of the Mississippi.
So far, he had hired two men. Victor Vazquez came to Florida from Cuba with his parents on the Mariel boatlift, attended Miami High, worked two jobs at Tulane, then earned a free ride at the University of Michigan Law School, where he was editor in chief of the Law Review. Next was Jerry Klein, whose IQ was off the charts and who had dropped out of medical school to enroll at Yale Law because he thought it would be fun. He won the job by telling Truitt that the only difference between the two professions was that lawyers merely rob you while doctors rob you and kill you, too.
"I think W. C. Fields said that," Truitt responded, testing the chubby young man.
"Actually it was Chekhov."
"I know," Truitt told him. "I just wanted to see if you"d correct me. You"re hired."
Either Klein had chutzpah, or he lacked the natural instincts to be wary of correcting his boss. Either way, Truitt liked him. He sensed that Lisa Fremont had the same self-confidence. Only difference, the obese, pimply Klein looked like a sausage stuffed into an ill-fitting suit. This G.o.ddess standing before him looked as if she just stepped off the cover of Cosmopolitan.
Ten years ago, h.e.l.l five years ago, he would have relished the s.e.xual tension, the flirtatiousness that is a constant companion in the workplace. But there was a difference between a university faculty and the Supreme Court. The chief justice, bless his scurrilous heart, was right about that. The tabloids would love to have another scandal as juicy as the President and the intern.
Truitt was determined to be polite but brief with Ms. Lisa Fremont, then dismiss her and continue the search for the female equivalent of Jerry Klein.
"Let"s go into my office and talk," he said. "If you"re up for it, Elly makes a potent cafe Cubano. Any that"s left over, we send to Cape Canaveral for the booster rockets."
"Sissy," Elly called at him.
"I"d love some," Lisa said. "I missed my morning coffee."
It was the first lie she would tell that day, but by no means the last.
Sitting primly with legs crossed in an antique chair more handsome than comfortable, Lisa sized up Sam Truitt"s office. It had that messy, genius-at-work look. Trial transcripts, pleadings binders, the official records of a hundred cases covered the mahogany desk, a brown leather sofa, and portions of the plush blue and gold carpet. Somewhere on that desk or on a wooden cart nearby, Lisa knew, would be the consolidated cases of Laubach et al. v. Atlantica Airlines. There would be copies of the pleadings, the summary judgment dismissing the cases, the one-sentence affirmance in the Eleventh Circuit Court of Appeals, the plaintiffs" pet.i.tion for certiorari, and the Supreme Court"s four-to-four decision-prior to Truitt"s confirmation-to hear the case. Although it would take five of the nine justices to overturn the summary judgment, under the Court"s time-honored Rule of Four, a majority had not been necessary to grant review.
Lisa had already read the file, courtesy of Max"s lawyers. She knew the facts. She knew the law. All she did not know was how to convince anyone-much less the humane and sensitive Sam Truitt-to close the courthouse door to nearly three hundred grieving families. But that would have to come later. First, she had to get the job, and she was beginning to feel the b.u.t.terflies. She tried to chase a recurring thought-that she didn"t really belong here. That all the higher education, and the fine clothes and the superficial gloss that came from flying first cla.s.s and staying in penthouse suites couldn"t hide who she really was. Draping a streetwalker in mink didn"t make her a d.u.c.h.ess.
All this time, I thought I"d come so far, but have I? Why do I feel like the same scared kid who ran away from home?
She feared that Sam Truitt would see right through the facade, that she would be humiliated and never get the job. For a moment, Lisa felt lightheaded and thought she might faint. Then she sipped the demita.s.se of Cuban coffee, waiting for the caffeine to surge into her veins. As she half-listened to the justice explain the law clerk"s duties-all of which she knew-she forced herself to calm down and concentrate.
Max is counting on me, and I can"t fail him.
She studied the chambers, looking for clues to Sam Truitt, the man. Floor-to-ceiling bookshelves covered one wall. The books contained every decision of every federal court since the founding of the Republic. The latest edition of the United States Code, the federal statutes, were there, too, as were the tens of thousands of regulations of federal agencies. A computer at the desk was linked to databases that could research in seconds what would have taken days or weeks in earlier times. In the corner, half-a-dozen cardboard boxes remained to be unpacked.
A mahogany stand-up reading desk stood against one wall. An American flag with gold fringes was lodged on a pole in the corner. A framed black-and-white photo of a football team, the players and coaches sitting on bleachers, rested on an oak credenza, as did a partially deflated ball. Antique books with cracked golden bindings were displayed behind gla.s.s, and a portrait of Chief Justice John Jay hung over the fireplace mantel.
Truitt went on for a while about the pool memos the clerks prepare to help the Court to determine whether to review lower court cases. With little enthusiasm, he mentioned the importance of writing objective bench memos for him, fairly summarizing each party"s position, and listing similar cases that may have been omitted from the briefs. It was a mechanical speech he seemed to have given before.
OmiG.o.d! He"s bored. I don"t even have his attention. He"s already dumped me in the reject pile.
"Tell me about yourself," Truitt said, leaning back in his leather chair and sneaking a quick look at his wrist.w.a.tch. "Skip all the legal stuff. I"ve already read your transcripts and I"ve spoken to Judge O"Brien, who gives you a glowing recommendation. Tell me about Lisa Fremont, the person."
He"s just being polite before showing me the door.
Lisa fought the urge to speak quickly, to cram a lifetime-and not an entirely honest one-into a minute. She took a deep breath to relax and began at her own pace. "I grew up in Bodega Bay, California.ir He nodded and said, "The Birds."
"Right. They made the Hitchc.o.c.k film there, but that was before I was born. I think of the place more as The Old Man and the Sea. My father was a fisherman."
She paused, just as she had rehea.r.s.ed, then watched as he nodded with approval. Tilling common ground, or rather, fishing the same waters, the son and daughter of humble men facing each other in the palatial Courthouse, one block from the Capitol, with the Library of Congress and the Senate offices on either side.
The Justice, the law clerk, and Joe DiMaggio ... all children of fishermen.
"He was a shrimper mostly," she said. "Crabs, too, depending on the season. For a while, he crewed on someone else"s boat, but usually he just worked alone."
When he worked at all When he wasn"t drunk, sprawled across the convertible sofa with the popped springs, the sofa he hauled onto the front porch to her everlasting shame, the sofa where he lay, unshaven and reeking of sweat and beer and vomit, tossing bottles at pa.s.sers-by, the sofa where on a dark night when no one heard her screams, he ...
"It was a hard life," she said. "Neither of my parents even graduated from high school. In fact, Mom was in tenth grade when she got pregnant with me. I knew I had to get out of there. I left home for San Francisco and went through a series of minimum wage jobs that convinced me of the need for higher education."
"I don"t recall those early jobs on your CV."
Let me orally refresh you.