An awkward third isn"t wanted.
"There"s plenty more Neckitts where he comes from," pursues Sally, as the "other two"--for that is how Fenwick thinks of them--get themselves and their instruments out of the house. "So don"t be nonsensical, Dr. Conrad.... Stop a moment. I _must_ speak to Tishy."
And Sally gives chase, and overtakes the other two just by the fire-alarm, where Fenwick came to a standstill. Do you remember? It certainly has been a record effort to "get away first." You know this experience yourself at parties? Sally speaks to Tishy in the glorious summer night, and the three talk together earnestly under innumerable constellations, and one gas-lamp that elbows the starry heavens out of the way--a self-a.s.serting, cheeky gas-lamp.
The doctor organizes tactics rapidly. He can hear that Sally"s step goes up the street, and then the voices at a distance. If he can say good-bye and rush away just as Sally does the same, why then they will meet outside, don"t you see?
Rosalind and her husband seem to have wireless telegrams pa.s.sing. For when Sally vanishes there is a ring as of instruction received in the tone of Fenwick"s voice as he addresses the doctor:
"Couldn"t you manage to get your mother to come too, Vereker? She must be terribly in want of a change."
"So I tell her; but she"s so difficult to move."
"Have a sedan-chair thing----"
"I don"t mean that--not physically difficult. I mean she"s got so anch.o.r.ed no one can persuade her to move. She hasn"t been away for ages."
"Sally must go and persuade her." It is Rosalind who says this. "I"m sure Sally will manage it."
"She will if any one can," says the doctor. "Of course, I could soon get a loc.u.m if there was a chance of mother." And then the conversation supports itself on the possible impossibility of finding a lodging at St. Sennans-on-Sea, and consoles itself with its intense improbability till the doctor finds it necessary to depart with the prompt.i.tude of a fire-engine suddenly rung up.
He had calculated his time to a nicety, for he met Sally just as "the other two" got safe round the corner.
"Oh no," said Fenwick, replying to a query; "he doesn"t mean to carry it all the way. He"ll pick up a cab at the corner." The query was about the violoncello, and Fenwick was coming back to the room where his wife was closing the piano in antic.i.p.ation of Ann. He had discreetly launched the instrument and its owner under the stars, and left the street door standing wide open--a shallow pretence that he believed Sally already in touch with it.
"They _are_ a funny couple," Rosalind said. "Just fancy! They"ve known each other two years, and there they are! But I do like him. It"s all his mother, you know ... what is?... why, goose--of course I mean he would speak at once if it wasn"t for that obese mother of his."
"But she"s so fond of Sally." In reply to this his wife kisses his cheeks, forehead, and chin consecutively, and he says it was right that time, only the other way round. This refers to a system founded on the crossing incident at Rheims.
"Of course she is, darling; or pretends she is. But he can neither divorce his mamma nor ask the kitten to marry her. You see?"
"I see--in fact, I"ve thought so myself. In confidence, you know.
But is no compromise possible?" Rosalind shakes a slow, regretful, negative head, and her lips form a silent "No!"
"Not with her. The woman has her own share of selfishness, and her son"s, too. _He_ has none."
"But Sally."
"I see what you mean. Sally goes to the wall one way if she doesn"t the other. So he works out selfish, poor dear fellow! in the end. But, Gerry darling, let me tell you this: you have no idea how impossible that young man thinks it that a girl should love _him_. If he thought it possible the kitten really cared about, or could care about him, he"d go clean off his head. Indeed, I am right."
"Perhaps you are. There she is."
Sally ran straight upstairs, leaving Ann to close the door. She at once discharged her mind of its burden, _more suo_.
"Prosy thinks so, too!"
"Thinks what?"
"Thinks they"ll go and get married one fine morning, whether or no!"
But she seemed to be the only one much excited about this. Something was preoccupying the other two minds, and our Sally had not the remotest notion what.
Nevertheless, it came about that before the next Monday--the day of Sally"s departure with her mother to St. Sennans-on-Sea--that young person paid a farewell visit to the obese mother of her medical adviser, and found her knitting.
"That, my dear, is what I am constantly saying to Conrad," was her reply to a suggestion of Sally"s that she wanted change and rest.
"Only this very morning, when he came into my room to see that I had fresh-made toast--because you know, my dear, how tiresome servants are about toast--they make it overnight, and warm it up in the morning.
Cook is no exception, and I have complained till I"m tired. I should be sorry to change, she"s been here so long, but I did hear the other day of such a nice respectable person...."
Sally interrupted, catching at a slight pause: "But when Dr. Conrad came into your room, what did he say?"
"My dear, I was going to tell you." She paused, with closed eyes and folded hands of aggressive patience, for all trace of human interruption to die down; then resumed: "I said to Conrad: "I think you might have thought of that before." And then he was sorry. I will do him that justice. My dear boy has his faults, as I know too well, but he is always ready to admit he is wrong."
"We can get you lodgings, you know," said Sally, from sheer intuition, for she had not a particle of information, so far, about what pa.s.sed over the toast. The old lady seemed to think the conversation had been sufficiently well filled out, for she merely said, "Facing the sea,"
and went on knitting.
Sally and her mother knew St. Sennan well--had been at his watering-place twice before--so she was able, as it were, to forecast lodgings on the spot. "I dare say Mrs. Iggulden"s is vacant," she said. "I wish you could have hers, she"s such a nice old body. Her husband was a pilot, and she has one son a coastguard and another in the navy. And one daughter has no legs, but can do sh.e.l.l-work; and the other"s married a tax-collector."
But Goody Vereker was not going to be beguiled into making herself agreeable. She took up the att.i.tude that Sally was young, and easily deceived. She threw a wet blanket over her narrative of the Iggulden family, and ignored any murmurs that came from beneath it. "Sea-faring folk are all alike," so she said. "When I was your age, my dear, I simply worshipped them. My father and all his brothers were devoted to the sea, and my Uncle David published an account of his visit to the Brazils. But you will learn by experience. At any rate, I trust there are no vermin. That is always my terror in these lodging-houses, and ill-aired beds."
Was it fair, Sally thought to herself, to expose that dear old Mrs.
Iggulden, who lived in a wooden dwelling covered with tar, between two houses built of black shiny bricks, but consisting chiefly of bay-windows with elderly visitors in them looking through telescopes at the shipping, and telling the credulous it was brigs or schooners--was it fair to expose Mrs. Iggulden to this gilt-spectacled lob-worm? Sally didn"t know that Mrs. Iggulden could show a proper spirit, because in her own case the conditions had never been favourable. They had practised no incantations.
"Very well, then, Mrs. Vereker. As soon as ever mamma and I have shaken down, we"ll see about Iggulden"s; and if they can"t take you somebody else will."
"I am in your hands," said the Goody, smiling faintly and submissively. She leaned back with her eyes closed, and was afraid she had done too much. She used to have periodical convictions to that effect.
Sally had an appointment with Laet.i.tia Wilson at the swimming bath, so the Goody, in an access of altruism, perceived that she mustn"t keep her. She herself would try to rest a little.
All people, as we suppose, lead two lives, more or less--their outer life, that of the world and action, and an inner life they have all to themselves. But how different is the proportion of the two lives in different subjects! And how much less painful the latter life is when we feel we could tell it all if we chose. Only we don"t choose, because it"s no concern of yours or any one else"s.
This was Sally"s frame of mind. She would not have felt the ghost of a reserve of an inmost thought (from her mother, for instance) in the face of questions asked, though she kept her own counsel about many points whose elucidation was not called for. It may easily be that Rosalind asked no questions about some things, because she had no wish that her daughter should formulate their answers too decisively. Her relation with Conrad Vereker, for example. Was it love, or what? If there was to be marrying, and families, and that sort of thing, and possible interference with swimming-matches and athletics, and so on, would she as soon choose this man for her accomplice as any other she knew? Suppose she was to hear to-morrow that Dr. Vereker was engaged to Sylvia Peplow, would she be glad or sorry?
Rosalind certainly did ask no such questions. If she had, the answers to the first two would have been, we surmise, very clear and decisive.
What nonsense! Fancy Prosy being in love with anybody, or anybody being in love with Prosy! And as for marrying, the great beauty of it all was that there was to be no marrying. Did he understand that? Oh dear, yes! Prosy understood quite well. But we wonder, is the image our mind forms of Sally"s answer to the third question correct or incorrect? It presents her to us as answering rather petulantly: "Why _shouldn"t_ Dr. Conrad marry Miss Peplow, if he likes, and _she_ likes? I dare say _she"d_ be ready enough, though!" and then pretending to look out of the window. And shortly afterwards: "I suppose Prosy has a right to his private affairs, as much as I have to mine." But with lips that tighten over her speech, without a smile.
Note that this is all pure hypothesis.
But she had nothing to conceal that she knew of, had Sally. What a difference there was between her inner world and her mother"s, who could not breathe a syllable of that world"s history to any living soul!
Rosalind acknowledged to herself now how great the relief had been when, during the few hours that pa.s.sed between her communication to her old friend on his deathbed and the last state of insensibility from which he never rallied, there had actually been on this earth one other than herself who knew all her story and its strange outcome. For those few hours she had not been alone, and the memory of it helped her to bear her present loneliness. She could hear again, when she woke in the stillness of the night, the voice of the old man, a whisper struggling through his half-choked respiration, that said again and again: "Oh, Rosey darling! can it be true? Thank G.o.d! thank G.o.d!" And the fact that what she had then feared had never come to pa.s.s--the fact that, contrary to her expectations, he had been strangely able to look the wonder in the face, and never flinch from it, seeing nothing in it but a priceless boon--this fact seemed to give her now the fort.i.tude to bear without help the burden of her knowledge--the knowledge of who he was, this man that was beside her in the stillness, this man whose steady breathing she could hear, whose heart-beats she could count. And her heart dwelt on the old soldier"s last words, strangely, almost incredibly, resonant, a hard-won victory in his dying fight for speech, "Evil has turned to good. G.o.d be praised!" It had almost seemed as if the parting soul, on the verge of the strangest chance man has to face, lost all measure of the strangeness of any earthly thing, and was sensible of nothing but the wonderment of the great cause of all.
But one thing that she knew (and could not explain) was that this secret knowledge, burdensome in itself, relieved the oppression of one still more burdensome, and helped her to drive it from her thoughts.
We speak of the collision of the record in her mind of what her daughter was, and whence, with the fact that Sally was winding herself more and more, daughterwise, round the heart of the man whose bond with her mother she, small and unconscious, had had so large a share in rending asunder twenty years ago. It was to her, in its victory over crude physical fact, even while it oppressed her, a bewildering triumph of spirit over matter, of soul over sense, this firm consolidating growth of an affection such as Nature means, but often fails to reach, between child and parent. And as it grew and grew, her child"s actual paternity shrank and dwindled, until it might easily have been held a matter for laughter, but for the black cloud of Devildom that hung about it, and stamped her as the infant of a Nativity in the Venusberg, whose growing after-life had gone far to shroud the horror of its lurid caverns with a veil of oblivion.
We say all these things quite seriously of our Sally, in spite of her incorrigible slanginess and vulgarity. We can now go on to St.